Summary: Riku is now a junior at Destiny High School along with some of his friends. Every day is a normal day, but Riku sometimes wonder what it would be like to have someone by his side. However, things change when Roxas's twin brother, Sora arrives new to town at their school and Riku's motives start to twist and love starts to form in more ways then one. Filled with love triangles, drama, violence, and an angry stepfather and a crazy Sephiroth, the crew face challenges that they never thought would change their lives forever.
Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts.
Warning: This is a yaoi, if you don't like, don't read. I tried revising this chapter as much as possible and if you see any spelling or grammar mistakes, I'm sorry. I have no Beta so don't shoot me.
Because Of You
Thoughts
Chapter 4:
Sora P.O.V.
"SORA!"
I almost jumped out of my seat as I turned my head to my right to stare right at my brother, Roxas. He raised a questioned eyebrow with a look of confusion saying: 'you better tell me what you were thinking about that made you not listen to a damn word I said'.
Giving Roxas a nervous smile of apology, I scratched the back of my head. "Sorry, bro. I was daydreaming. They don't seem to leave me alone at boring classes like these."
Roxas and I were in the same Pre-Calculus class together along with Jason, Kairi's boyfriend. I was able to know who everyone was when Roxas filled me in last night on what's been going on the past years. Though I couldn't get Riku off of my mind.
"I understand the daydreaming Sora. I'm just wandering what you're dreaming about. Unless its a someone and not a something-"
"Roxas, Please be quite before I give detention once again." Mr. Lewis spoke loudly; gaining the attention of both the class and the two of us but Roxas just chuckled.
"My bad Mr. Lewis!" Roxas replied like he was off grounds before the teacher continued explaining some sort of equation.
I looked over at the window since I was sitting near it and noticed that our classroom was right near the football field so I had a pretty good view. The boys from what seemed like to be coming from gym, jogged onto the field and started playing soccer while Leon watched them cautiously.
Last I talked to Leon was before I left to move away to Destiny Islands. He's both scary and cool at the same time. Shows no emotion yet you know you when you hit a nerve. No wonder Cloud's so fond of him. I'm glad he's with Leon. They belong together.
As I watched, I spotted red hair and silver hair. Leaning a little closer to the window, my eyes widened cause I knew who the silver-haired person was.
Riku... In a memorizing spell, I watched as one of the other guys on Riku's team started running down the field with the ball before kicking it over to Riku. He caught the ball with the side of his foot when Axel started coming at him with an evil grin, ready to steal the ball when Riku gave him his own grin and easily rushed passed him with the ball. About 5 seconds later, Riku kicked the ball into the field goal and I watched as people on his team cheered.
He's really, really good! What caught my interest even more was Riku taking his white tank top off to reveal a strong, pale chest and broad shoulders but he wasn't buff. My mouth went slightly ajar at the pure beauty that I've been watching for maybe two minutes from my classroom window.
By now, I'm sure you've figured out that I am attracted to guys right? I'm more on the bisexual reference but I don't tell everyone about it. I discovered this when I was 14 years old actually. Don't know why, but I don't really go berserk when I see big boobs or anything. Besides, guys have a lot more energy than a woman does.
I blinked at myself in surprise at what I just thought.
I cannot believe I just said that.
Glancing back at Mr. Lewis to make sure he didn't notice my actions along with Roxas, I turned back to the window and saw Leon and the boys gather around. Axel and Riku were standing in the very back, completely ignoring what Leon had to say before they faced forward.
That's when something crazy happened.
Axel looked up near my window before locking eyes with me. A grin spread on his face as he waved at me, and I waved quickly in return before Axel nudged Riku's arm to get his attention and nodded towards me. My eyes widened in realization when Riku turned his head and looked up right at me.
RIGHT AT ME!
Literally blushing like mad, I tried to look away but for some reason, I didn't want to. Those fierce, determined, aqua colored eyes of his made me want to just run out of the classroom and hug him and never let go.
Even though it will never happen. I'll never get that chance with him.
However, Riku gave me a warm smile and a short wave. Not wanting to be rude, I shyly waved back with a small smile of my own; not realizing that I was still blushing like a tomato.
The moment was short-lived when Leon brought Riku's attention as the brunette started turning around to head back; the class following close behind. Axel spoke to Riku, smiling and laughed before slinging an arm around his shoulders. I noticed the last look Riku gave me before they started walking back into the school.
Riku, why are you making me feel this way? I just met you, and yet here I am; daydreaming about you. Besides, your too perfect, to handsome to want someone like me. I'd be happy enough to be your friend.
"Sora, are you coming? The bell rang like 5 minutes ago?" I snapped out of my thoughts and looked over at Roxas, who was standing up and had his book bag slung over his shoulder.
"Oh, yea!" I replied before I quickly put my books in my black book bag, stood up and followed Roxas to our fourth period.
Hopefully, I won't think about Riku too much. Then again, it's hard not too when you see a very hot guy shirtless and playing soccer.
BECAUSE OF YOU
Riku P.O.V
Sora...
All I could think about was Sora the whole day. At first, I thought my mind was free from thinking of the beautiful, spiked haired brunette until I scored a point for the game in gym and looked up to see Sora staring right at me.
I was shocked but amused at the same time. When I eyes met, I couldn't help but melt into them blue eyes. I wanted to go to him and kiss him for all he's worth. Unfortunately, Leon just had to ruin it for us and we had to go back in before fourth period class started.
Now I'm in Anatomy and I don't have any of my friends in here. I sighed and rested my head on my desk to the side. Watching students coming in was starting to bore me when I noticed my main attraction enter the room. My eyes widened in pure shock as I sat all the way up and looked over to see no other than Sora walking into my class!
He looked so innocent up there! Curious, nervous ocean blue eyes scanning the room to find an empty seat for himself. That's when I looked beside me and grinned.
Well will you look at that? Am empty seat. Next to me!
I managed to catch his gaze and pointed him to the seat next to mine. Secretly, I was so nervous because I was afraid I might scare the beautiful angel that was now sitting next to me. Controlling my nervousness, I looked over at him and smiled.
"What's up?" I asked Sora calmly. What's up? WHAT'S UP! That's all you have to say! God you're such a fucking moron Riku!
"I-I'm good. How about you?" Sora replied softly with a slight blush on his cheeks.
I had to contain myself from wanting to hug him cause Sora looked so adorable and irresistible right now. All shy and everything.
He's too cute for his own good!
I chuckled a little and shrugged. "I'm all right I guess. Not in the right attire though. Still have my gym clothes on." I glanced down at myself with a silly smile and Sora laughed a little.
It was true about my attire though. All I was wearing was my white tank top (that I took off before the game), blue shorts and my hair was still in its low ponytail. The teacher for the class walked in as everyone else rushed to their assigned seats.
Actually, our teacher was Aerith, Cloud's childhood friend. They were together at some point I heard but I guess they broke up after Cloud said he was bi. Aerith's the only nice teacher in this damn school other than Leon and Cloud.
"Good evening class. How's everyone's day so far?" Aerith asked all of us and most of the class said,' fine', 'okays' and other crap like that but I only leaned against my seat, but my hands behind me head, closed my eyes and smiled for some reason.
Oh my day went really well. Day dreaming about a brunette angel that so happens to be sitting next to me. My days going extremely well.
That's when someone came into the room along with a knock on the door. Aerith turned to face the person and smiled sweetly at him with delight in her emerald eyes.
"Kira, I see you're late once again."
"Sorry Ms. Aerith. I had to finish up a test." Kira replied softly before sitting in the back of the room in the middle row.
Sora and I watched Kira for a split second before looking back at our brown-haired teacher. We sat in the middle of the left side of the room; making it non-suspicious to anyone but then again, did anyone care? Because I sure as hell didn't!
"All right class. Today we're going to do some reading on the different types of tissueand their relationship to one another. I hope you like reading." Aerith announced and the class filled the room with groans
I watched as Aerith, looked across the room and her eyes landed on Sora, who was getting his pencil out. Glancing from him to Aerith, I glared at her.
I swear; if Aerith's going to do what I think she's going to do, I will personally kill-
"Sora," Aerith said to Sora, who looked up at her with attention.
"Why don't you move next to Kira? He can tell you what we're doing and you can catch up faster." She told Sora and pointed to Kira, who was busying writing something.
My mouth went slight ajar in shock at the fact that Ms. Aerith, kind sweet Aerith, was going to take my Sora away from me. I've been thinking about the boy the entire day and when I finally get the chance to talk to him, she just HAD to move him!
Wait a minute. Sora's not mine...Well, not yet at least. Hell, I'm not sure if he's truly gay. But knowing he blushed when I talked to him and when I caught him watching us play soccer outside during gym, I think I have a pretty good chance. Still, Sora should sit next to me not with another fuckin guy!
Glancing next to me, Sora was taking his stuff before giving me a look that 'I'm so sorry and I hope I'll talk to you after class look' along with a shy smile.I smiled back at him sadly as I watched him get up and move to the back of the room so he was sitting beside Kira, who turned to Sora and greeted him.
When everyone wasn't looking, I glared at Aerith and I finally got eye contact with her. She also knew I was gay and when I caught her attention, I lifted my hands out like 'what the hell?' After doing this, Aerith smiled nervously at me and mouthed 'sorry but I have too'.
For the rest of class period, I sat by myself with no-one next to me and did sneaky glances towards the back. Why? Because I wanted to make sure Kira didn't do anything to my cute Sora.
Oh yea, you guys don't know Kira do you? Duh, how silly of me. Well, I can't say that Kira's an asshole or anything causes he hasn't done anything to me or said anything that would make me want to beat the hell out of him.
Got to admit though, the guy is handsome. Hell, I'm even jealous but come one, who else has silver colored hair like mine? Any who, Kira's one of those tall, dark and handsome guys with the short, slightly spiked black hair along with bright hazel eyes and nicely tan skin.
HOWEVER, just because I agree that Kira's attractive, does not mean that I don't like Sora anymore!
Get one thing straight (even though I certainly am not): Sora is my number one interest right now.
Sora, from my observation and the little, short conversations we have, is the most innocent, cutest, and sweetest boy I have ever met by far. Just like Roxas(who I personally say is evil because he seems to always get back at me).
One difference is that Roxas belongs to Axel and Sora belongs to no one. Which is why I need to have Sora for myself before anyone else gets him. Protective? I know. But I want to be the one that makes him blush like that. I want to be the one that holds him when he's sad or kiss him whenever he feels lost or sad in the world.
Before I do that, I have to get to know him better. Know his strengths, his weaknesses. His past, feelings, what he likes and dislikes. If I can earn his trust, then I earn his respect and if I can gain his friendship, then I know for a fact that if I find out that he's not gay, then at least he won't abandon me...Sora, I wonder if you will start to have the same feelings for me as I'm starting to feel for you?
BECAUSE OF YOU
Leon P.O.V.
Ever since Sora came to this school, Riku's been acting very strangely.
Why I say that you ask? Well just because Riku is my friend, does not mean he's always on his 'good behavior side'. Usually, Riku always skips gym class or he just comes to class and does nothing at all. But over the past week, Riku's been coming to class and actually playing the activities I give the class.
Now that caught me off guard.
Right now, it's lunchtime and I decided to sit outside under the tree where Cloud was meeting me. Most of the teachers were in the teacher's lounge but where's the fun in that? I rather be with my love than eating in a room full of people that think they know everything when they obviously don't.
Anyway, I walked over to the tree and saw my blonde haired love waiting for me while eating a sandwich. What also surprised me was that Axel was there as well. When I got closer to the pair, I gave Axel a glare.
"Easy there lover boy! I'm not hitting on Spike here if that's what you're thinking. Besides, I got my Roxy so I highly doubt I'd want Cloud anyways." Axel told me quickly before I was able to say something. I nodded in response before sitting next to Cloud on his left side and took out a MONSTER drink from my bag.
"What do you want anyway, Axel? Not that I don't want you here." I asked Axel before taking a sip of my energy drink and noticed Axel grinning at me.
"Before I say this, I assume you both saw our little Sora, right?" He asked the both of us and Cloud nodded with a smile on his face, which made his blue eyes, sparkle with delight.
"Yes! Sora's grown up into a fine man! One thing that's changed though is that Sora's still shy. Not completely, but around other guys-"
"Like Riku?" Axel finished his sentence with sparkling green eyes and a grin on my face.
I raised an eyebrow of interest and Cloud gaped at Axel. Riku? What does he have to do with Sora? Unless Axel's saying that he likes Sora. If so, I want to hear this from Axel himself or Riku for the matter.
"Why do you say Riku?" Cloud asks him with confusing blue eyes that made him look so innocent and defenseless. These were also one of the reasons why I love Cloud.
"In gym earlier, me and Riku were playing soccer. His team won and when we were about to leave, I noticed Riku looking up at one of the classrooms windows and guess who was watching our sexy Ri-chan?" Axel told his teasing and a happy gleam in his eyes.
"Sora?"
"BINGO!" Axel replied with a big grin on his face.
Axel looked at us again with his hands behind his head. "After I saw this, I saw Riku smile at him and wave. I don't know if I'm certain, but I swear that Riku's smile was more. How do you put it? Relaxed. Like, it held love in that smile. Something like that and our little Sora blushed and waved back. It was so interesting that I decided to break the eye contact and take Riku inside the school." He concluded before sitting next to me, snatching my drink and taking a sip.
"So, you think Riku likes Sora in that way?"
"Of course! Come on, I've known Riku ever since we were kids. Even though Riku and Sora haven't met when they were little, I'm sure they can make some new memories." Axel spoke with clear confidence in his voice and glee in his green eyes.
"Which involves hanging out right?" Cloud asked Axel in a somewhat pleading voice.
"No." Axel answered as me and Cloud looked at him with question.
"Ones that involves a big bed, whipped cream, chocolate and a whip." Axel added and busted out laughing because my face went in pure shock and Cloud blushed hotly.
"We didn't need to know that, Axel." I told him before snatching my drink from Axel's grasp and Cloud snuggled against me.
"Exactly. We don't need to know stuff like that." Cloud said to him and was still blushing slightly.
"Oh come on!" Axel sits up and looks at Cloud and me. "You guys would probably do the same thing! Whip cream and all. Unless your with the full bondage thing-"
"AXEL!"
"Sike, sike. I'm kidding. Calm down. Anyway, I got to go. I see my beautiful Roxie from afar. Talk to you guys later and don't tell Riku I told you all this." Axel told us before standing up, dusting himself off and rushing inside the cafeteria.
From outside, we could see Axel greeting Roxas with a nice and hug with Roxas blushing. Roxas gave Axel a quick peck on the lips before leading Axel to an empty table. I leaned against the tree and felt my energy draining from me.
"You okay?" I glanced down at Cloud, who's looking up at me with deep, worried blue eyes. Leaning down and gave him a quick kiss on his pink lips, I smiled at him gently which only he could see.
"I'm okay Cloud. Just tired that's all. It's one thing to work at a construction site, but working a school is even more work." I replied to my blonde lover with warm gray eyes and watched Cloud smiling at me.
"True. But you working at the construction site has made you more. Stronger." Cloud added but his voice had a hint of lust in it and I looked down too see Cloud rubbing my exposed, tan arm.
I smirked at this and leaned down to whisper in his ear. "That work helped me make you even more pleasurable last night huh, Spike." I whispered huskily in Cloud's ear before teasingly biting his earlobe with my teeth and heard Cloud gasp in shock.
Clouds blush deepened while I continued my assault on his ear. "Leon. Not here." He said through silent moans when we both heard giggles from afar.
We stopped what we were doing and looked over to see fan girls watching up. And one of them so happened to be Kairi with a big fat grin on her face.
"Don't worry guys! We were just passing by! You better go ahead and finish your make out session before the bell rings in 5 minutes. Come on girls." Kairi told the group and they all started walking away but not before looking at us with blushes and squeals of joy.
Great. Now we're witnessed. Hope they don't rat on us.
"Leon, I think we should stop. The bell is going to ring in five minutes and I don't think we'll be done in five minutes." Cloud spoke to me before lifting himself on his feet so he could stand up and was now hovering over me. I blinked at this and reached a hand out to touch my lover.
"We can call a substitute. Tell the kids that we're sick and go right home." I quickly said to the blonde with hopeful gray eyes but all Cloud did was laugh.
RING!
The school bell rung throughout the school; indicating that everyone needs to get to class and the lunch was over. After I stood up and grabbed my trash, I was pulled down and was greeted with soft lips upon my own.
Even though I closed my eyes and leaned into the kiss, it ended once it started. Cloud pulled away from me and gave me a quick kiss on my nose with a beautiful smile on his face.
"See you later later, Squall." Cloud said to me before walking away from me and into the school while leaving me where I was in shock.
Did he just call me Squall? Better talk to him about that.
BECAUSE OF YOU
Irin P.O.V.
Listening to a teacher lecture isn't the best thing in the world. I was sitting in the middle row but near the window so I could look out. That's exactly what I did too. Not paying much attention to the teacher but was thinking more and more by the day.
I glanced down at my necklace. What hang from the chain was Japanese symbol that means 'Love'. It had small, blue sapphires all over it. I never let it out of my sight. Everyday of my life, I've worn this necklace.
Someone, very precious to me gave me this necklace.
Joel...I wonder if you still have your necklace too. I wonder if you're thinking of me as much as I think of you.
Joel was my first love. Short, black hair that I was run my fingers through cause it was soft as silk. Big, innocent purple eyes that would stare at me nervously but filled with love. He was perfect. Even though he always said he wasn't, I thought he was. Joel was an angel from God.
And now's he's out in the world somewhere. Alone.
And maybe with someone much better than me. Joel deserves so much better. Someone who will stick with him no matter what. Someone who will always love him no matter what Joel says or does. I hope he found the right person-
"Irin-senpai." I heard a whispered voice from behind me. As I glanced over my shoulder, I noticed it was a classmate of mine and it seems she was holding a note. Once I took the note, I quietly opened and read the note.
You look sad, dude. Don't get mad. Get GLAD! -Sachano
Damn.
I totally forgot that Sachano was in my English class and I glanced across my seat to see Sachano smile at me. I shook my head slowly before taking up my pencil and writing back:
If you're trying to be my friend, don't think it will be easy. My day's already horrible so watch yourself. -Irin
Quickly, I folded it back up and threw it at Sachano, who caught it with ease and read the note. His eyes were in shock for a slight moment before looking over at me with a grin and writing back. Next thing I knew, the note was there. So here's a conversation:
(a/n: sachano is bold and irin is bold italic for this short note thing)
Irin! So threatening. I haven't done anything to you and yet you hurt me with such painful words.
Well maybe if you stop talking to me, it would be greatly appreciated.
I've been watching you over the past hour, Irin. Something's on your mind and I want to help.
You can never help me. What's in my thoughts is NONE of your concern. Besides, why do you care? And speaking of which, why did you bite my ear that day? HUH!
...
Sachano...
Fine. Do you really want to know?
Yes. I want to know Sachano. Can tell me why you're doing this.
Because I-
RING!
Once again, the bell ran an hour later; signaling our next and final class. Sachano stopped writing mid-sentence cause I watched him and I put my book bag over my right shoulder. I started heading for the door but stopped and looked over at Sachano.
"Tell me when you actually have the courage to tell me face-to-face, Sachano. Then maybe I won't judge you like I do." I tell Sachano while meeting his gaze before walking out of the classroom.
While walking to my next class, I started thinking back about my relationship with Joel. Though it was a secret, we always seemed to tell each other how we feel through friendship and trust.
Joel...I wish you were here with me. I wish I could hold you like I use to. But I guess that you're just a beautiful memory now...It's just so hard to forget you-
"Irin." I stopped and turned around to see Kira heading towards me with a piece of paper in hand. He looked dead serious and it was slightly turning me on and making me scared at the same time.
"Hello, Kira-san. Did you need something?" I greeted Kira with a warm smile but Kira gave me a piece of paper with a list that said name, personality, likes, dislikes, location and phone. At first, I blinked at this and then slightly blushed.
"Kira, what is this for?" I asked Kira, who leaned against the lockers and arms crossed while closing his eyes.
"I need you to spy for me." Kira's deep, sexy voice said to me and I looked at him in confusion.
"On what exactly?"
"Sora Utada." He replied straight out and I gasped in shock that Kira actually wanted to know more about a guy.
Kira and me have been friends since we were kids. Only Kira knows about my relationship with Joel and has been my friend since elementary. Plus, we're both gay so it makes it even more comfortable with me.
"Sora? You mean the new student? I haven't seen him yet. Heard he's a real cutie. Unless you've spoken to him." I leaned closer to Kira as Kira opened his eyes to reveal gray orbs and looked up at me.
"Only little words. He's in my Anatomy Class. Though I know little about him. Think you can do the job?" He asked me with no hesitation like he knew what my answer was.
All I did was give him a smirk and determination filled my ruby eyes. "Can I do it? Kira, I go right now and fill half of this page by the end of school today. This is me you're talking about." I reply to him with a smile and thumbs up but Kira glances up at me with something in his eyes.
"You're still thinking about Joel aren't you?" Kira asked me suddenly and my smile turned into a sad frown.
Kira saw this and lifted himself off from the locker with book bag over his shoulder and hands in his pants pockets. Then, he walked over to me until we were both facing the opposite way; shoulder touching shoulder.
"You have to move on. If you can't do that, you have no business on being here whatsoever let alone know how to love another." Kira stated with an emotionless expression before walking down the hall; leaving me in shock and pain.
Kira's right...He's always right...How am I suppose to move on when I can't even stop thinking about Joel?
I started walking to my destination and I didn't notice a crystal tear run down my pale cheek.
TBC
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