I know that the last part of chapter 2 seemed rushed but it was probably 45 minutes before six reached the training room.

SIX POV.

I can't help myself. I start screaming. "NO!" I scream. he turns to look at me. "NO! YOU CAN'T BE HERE! THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING!" i loser my voice to a whisper and I look at the ground my hands made into fists. I'm talking to myself now. "no. no. why does this shit always happen to me? i need to leave. i have to leave. just disappear. nobody would notice, nobody would care." as i say this i grab my stuff and walk out of the training room slamming the door behind me. after the door is shut i run. i run up the stairs and into the simulation room. fear. fear calms me. my fears calm me. because in here i can conquer them. i walk to the cabinet and grab one of the serums, i inject myself an sit down. within seconds it goes into effect and i'm standing in the middle of a giant field. suddenly i am attacked by crows, millions of them. i don't fight back and i don't try to calm down, i just lie there and scream and cry through the pain. eventually i wake up on my own and i try to stand. i almost fall but i catch myself. my hands are shaky. i climb up to the platform and think. i was in that sim for 25 minutes. that's the longest yet. I've been trying to go for longer but i keep waking up. i kick around a rock for about five minutes before something swoops passed my head. i duck and scream. a crow. it keeps swooping at me and i keep screaming and batting it away as i run around the platform. i don't see where i'm going and my foot hits something. the ledge. i hear someone yell as i tumble over the ledge. i grab it with one hand and sing my other one up. i pull myself so that I can hook my elbows around the ledge. next thing I know I'm getting pulled over it by someone. I stand up and four hugs me. I don't hug back, I don't move or talk or breathe. I just stand there until he lets go. "listen." I say calmly. " I understand. if your mad. I understand if you don't love me anymore. you have no reason to love me. nobody does. not even my family. I should have done something more." he stares at me angrily, for a second i'm slightly afraid but then his eyes soften. "don't ever say that. of course I love you. zeke and Uriah love you too. why would you think no one loves you?" I scoff at this. " you honestly think I believe that zeke loves me? he's had to live with the fact that he thinks it's his fault and i'm the reason that guilt is there. do you honestly think he still loves me after that?" he's staring at me astonished. "yes I do. and why do you think no one else does?" I smirk at him and chuckle. "my parents and brother think i'm a whore for losing my virginity at fourteen. they don't care how it happened, they just care that it did. zeke's parents made them move after they found out because they didn't want their boys to be friends with such a slut." I am literally laughing now. " and then my parents moved out because they couldn't stand the sight of me and my brother put the only distance he could between me and him. so now he lives in the basement and I live on the fifth floor. so does that answer your question? that's why. I don't THINK no one loves me. I KNOW it." as soon as i'm done talking I realize what I just said is true. I never admitted it before. now that I have it hurts. a lot. I feel a tear fall down my face and four does the unexpected. he kisses me. after a couple seconds he pulls back and I see he has tears on his cheeks. I reach up and wipe them away. "i love you so much six. so does zeke and uri. okay?" I smile slightly and take his hand as I nod. we walk down to the pit and take the elevator up into the main building. he kisses me and we go our separate ways. when I get home I fall asleep right away as soon as my head hits the pillow.

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I wake up to imagine dragons radioactive playing and I pick up my alarm clock and chuck it at the wall. I don't know why. I just did it. I stare at the broken eices and laugh at my idiocy. I get up and put on black sweats, tan uggs, a black crop top and I pull my hair into a messy bun. I put on foundation, eyeliner and mascara and go down to the main kitchen area. I am talking to marcel when caleb passes me. I hope that he doesn't do anything but sadly that isn't the case. as he passes me he shoulder checks me and I end up falling into the counter hitting a knife on the way down. I fall on my back and the knife lands in my leg. I stifle a scream and caleb stares wide eyed at me. I don't say anything, I just reach down and scream into my teeth as I pull it out. after I do I stand up and wipe my blood off onto the kitchen cloth and throw it over my shoulder. caleb is still staring at me, he's still in his pajama's so I pull the hem of his tank top up and I tear it with the knife all the way up the front of it. I tie it around my wound and he stares at me angrily now. "WHAT THE HELL BITCH?" I smirk and walk away with out a limp. it doesn't even hurt that much. I take the elevator back up to my room and change my pants into black stretchy shorts. I grab my roller derby helmet, (it's black with gold letters that say SIX. and gold cross bones behind it on the back.) and I grab my black and gold long board and walk to my arena. I start going down and around and doing tricks and flips and shit. I stop for a minute and text everyone telling them to come over after I finish I go back to what I was doing. I blast music and try some new flips. about what I think is an hour or so I stop and take my earbuds out. everyone is sitting on the edge of the arena clapping for me. I roll over to them and land on the edge of the rink and hop out. I smile and take off my helmet. "come on" I say as I walk out the door and to my room. I drop my stuff off and walk to the stairs. I hop on the banister and slide all the way down. everyone follows and I hear a chorus of screams and giggles. I grab about 8 bags of chips and 12 bags of pop corn and load a mini fridge completely stocked with liquor onto a cart and wheel it to the beach house outside, I look back to see if their following me and I start running, I run to the elevator and press the close button as fast as I can but four stops the doors before they close. I laugh as everyone piles In and we go up to the second floor where a giant living room/ pub awaits us. I wheel the cart in and sit down. everyone sits down around the room and were all laughing. all the sudden everyone stops and I am genuinely confused. "what's wrong?" I ask as I turn around to see what their staring at. caleb. and he looks pissed. I tense and hunch over a little, afraid of what's going to happen. "six. come over here please." I stand and walk over to him. he grabs my wrist and pulls me to the corner of the room but doesn't lower his voice. in fact I think he raises it. "what the hell? did I say you could have friends over? or have friends in general?" I cringe. "no caleb." I say back quietly. "and what the hell was that little stunt you pulled earlier? huh?" he's scaring me and it kills me that I let it show. "i'm, i'm sorry caleb." he frowns. "yeah? that's bull shit. and who the hell is that?" he asks pointing to four. he had his arm around me when caleb came into the room. I look at four and he stands up. he has his fists clench and I gulp tears whelling up in my eyes. I shake my head as if to say stay there. "that's, that's f-four." I stutter out. caleb jerks my arm and grips it tighter as he yells at me. "ARE YOU SLEEPING WITH HIM SIX? HUH? YOU'VE BEEN SLEEPING AROUND SINCE YOU WERE 14. I BET YOUR BANGING ALL THE GUYS OVER THERE." I feel the tears falling down my face. shit. "no. no caleb i'm not." I say softly. I look over to the gang and four looks like he's about to murder someone and so do the other guys as they are all standing next to four with their hands in fists. I shake my head again. "WHY DO YOU THINK IT'S OKAY TO BE SUCH A WHORE? HUH? YOUR A SLUTTY WORTHLESS BITVH YOU KNOW THAT?" he shoves me to the ground and walks away. I just lie there and cry until four and zeke come and pick me up. I run into the bathroom and lock myself inside. the only thing I can think is 'shit. now I have to explain everything.'