CHAPTER 4
"Nathan I'm really sorry." I said looking up at him.
"Don't Kaylee. So what. I admitted my entire heart out to you and all you say is I don't know what to say. That obviously means something." He said.
"I told you I was sorry. How many times do I have to say it. I get that you love me, but if we date it could ruin everything. I'm not about to lose the friendship we have."
"Ok."
We had decided to spend the day shopping and visiting hisotrical places. I had been thinking about telling him I loved him all day, but i wasn't since I didn't want to risk the relationship.
That night when we got back to the hotel he told me he was going to leave.
"Why are you leaving me here alone in Spain?" I yelled.
"I told you why!" He yelled,"Because I love you!"
"OK! I got that! That isn't a reason to leave me in a forgein freakin country!" I yelled back at him.
"I'm sorry Kaylee I have to. I can't stand to be around you knowing that you don't feel the same way I do." He said.
"Fine!" I yelled.
I walked over and pulled his ticket out of the drawer and threw it.
"GO!" I yelled.
I followed him as he walked out the door and slammed it and then I slid down the back.
"Why did I have to do that?" I cried.
He was really leaving me here alone in Spain. All because I didn't want to wreck our friendship.
I was in Spain for a month before my actual mom admitted to being my mom.
"Why did you lie to me in the first place?" I asked as she sat a can of pop in front of me.
"I thought you wanted money." She replied.
"Well. That's not the reason why I'm here. I graduated high school and I found out I was adopted and I her and my dad had gotten me two plane tickets to come find you. I did bring my best friend but he left me. I needed to meet you."
"Are you going to go to college?" She asked me.
"I'm putting it off for another year. I had to find you before I did anything else. Why did you put me up for adoption."
"I had an open adoption with the family you are with now because I was only 16 and I couldn't handle you. You were so adorable when you were born and it was hard to let you go, but I had to. I hate to say this to you now, but I think we should just go our seprate ways."
"Why? I just met you." I said.
"Because if we have contact now then your going to miss your other family. I think you need to go back to America."
"I can't leave you."
"Please. This is already hard enough knowing that I missed the first 18 years of your life. Please just go."
"Ok."
I got back to the hotel and started packing and my plane left at 8:00 that night.
LAX...
It was raining when I got back to Los Angeles. It was also 8:00 in the morning and I knew no one in my house would be up, but I also knew Nathan would be out for his morning run. I called a cab and I put my things in the trunk of my car then went to find Nathan.
He wasn't running. Instead he was sitting on the swings at the park. I walked over to him and sat down on the swing next to him.
"Haven't you done enough damage?" He asked.
"I'm not leaving until I tell you what's on my mind."I said looking at him.
"Then I will." He said standing up.
"You left me alone in Spain. Of course I'm going to be upset at first. But I'm not here to tell you that I hate you for doing that. I could never hate you. I'm here to tell you that I love you, too." I blurted out through the thunder.
"What?" He asked turning around looking at me.
"Yup. It's true. I love you. I've been hiding it from you for 8 years,too. I didn't tell you that night you told me because I didn't want stuff to be ruined but they already were when my mom told me that she didn't want me in my life. So I figured someone that would want me in their life was standing right infront of me and I didn't know it. I need you in my life."
"Kaylee, I can't."
"NATHAN!" I heard a girls voice call out.
I turned around and saw Ashley Mills running toward him.
"I'm with Ashley now, Kaylee. She didn't hide her feelings."
At that instant I truly felt my heart crash.
"I got it." I said as a tear fell down my cheeks.
I ran off and went back home.
"Hey sweettie how was your trip?" My mom asked as I ran in my door and up my steps.
Months went by and I was going to school online through UCLA and I was currently working on my final semester before I didn't have to log on everyday.
"Good morning Kaylee." Anne said as I walked down the steps in my white tank top an sweats.
"Morning." I replied sitting down at the table with the family for breakfast.
"Who wants to say grace?" My mom asked.
"I will." I volunteered.
"Go ahead."
"Dear god we thank you for this lovely meal sitting on this table right now and for joining our family together once again. Bless those who don't get to sit down with their family for every meal. Amen." I said.
"Amen." Everyone said.
"So Kaylee, how is school going?" My dad asked.
"It's going really good. I'm passing all my classes with straight A's." I smiled.
"That is great Kaylee, when do you think you will be graduating?"
"I hope in the next two years or so. If I go log on all summer then I could get 2 years complete per day."
"Are you going to log on this summer?"
"Probably. I mean I have nothing better to do."
"Well you will. We are all going on a cruise this summer to Jamaica." My mom said.
"Am I going to be able to log on everyday?" I asked.
"Of course sweetheart. You can do whatever you want. Your going to be 19 in September."
"I know." I said laughing.
"So what are your plans for today?" My dad asked me.
"Probably going to the mall with Stace. Either that or going to the waterpark.."
"Ok. Well me and Anne are going to the market after we are done eating if you wanna go."
"Ok. I think I will."
"Ok."
While we were at the store we were stalking up on snacks and everything for the ride to Florida for the cruise.
"Are we going in seperate cars?" I asked.
"No we are taking the S.U.V since it's just our family and they only have a family of three. It'd be a waste of gas." She replied.
"Yeah. True true."
That trip came faster than I could even say Jamaica. I haven't talked to Nathan in 5 months and I didn't want to start now.
"Mom, why do we have to go on vacation with the Cameron's?" I asked her as I climbed in the front seat to go get Anne from her friends house.
"Well sweetie, we've been close with them since we moved here and we never did anything like this before." She replied.
"But I can't stand to be near Nathan mom. I love him. But he's with Ashley. He's going to be going all gogo gaga over her and I don't want to listen to it."
"I know it's going to be hard at first sweetie but you will get through it. Just don't ignore him and maybe the friends thing will work out."
"A girl can only hope."
"Oh sweetie."
When it was time for us to leave I grabbed my Ipod and my Droid out of room and made sure I had everything and walked out to the car and climbed in the back back.
"Kaylee, Nathan is going to sit in the back with you." My dad told me.
"Ok Daddy." I said.
I scooted over to the left side and Nathan climbed in next to me.
"Hi Kaylee." He said.
"Hi Nathan." I replied.
"You still mad at me?"
"I don't know. I tell you I love you and you completley turn me down. Maybe we should just stay friends."
"Maybe your right."
I put my headphones in and turned my Ipod up all the way.
We were in stopped in Arizona to eat dinner and stopped In Lousiana and slept then drove the rest of the way.
"Ok. So since the ship doesn't leave until tomorrow so we are going to rest for a little bit and then go out for dinner." My mom told me.
"Ok Well I'm not tired so I'm probably just going to go down to the beach or something." I replied.
Our hotel was right on the beach and I loved the beach. I put on my white bikini that tied behind my neck and had beads for straps and my pink Ed Hardy dress with my silver cowboy boots that had my name on them in diamonds and went to the beach.
It was pretty empty, just a few people there since everyone else was probably at Disney World. I was walking along the water picking up sea shells and I felt a tap on my shoulder.
I turned around and came face to face with someone I hadn't seen in awhile.