FireStarter

by queenLiz4

Much to Loki's dismay, he must share his wife with Thor a man that he both hates and loves. But as their relationships progress, the dynamics of Thor and Loki's relationship takes a major shift and Sif sees herself being pushed out. And while all of this is happening, Thor is trying to figure out who burned down his house which was the catalyst for the threesome to start. AU/Modern

4. Chapter 4

Summary:

Thor and Loki's relationship takes a huge step forward while Sif is away for a while.

Notes:

I'm updating warnings as I go along so please take a moment to look if you are someone with triggers.

No beta but reread

This chapter goes into detail about child abuse.

Thanks for the comments!

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

Loki liked rain storms. Thor didn't know why but every time it rained, Loki would go running outside like a little kid. The louder the storm the better. He was calmer, happier, and more mischievous. Thor had asked Sif once why and she claimed she didn't know. He believed her. Everything she did know about Loki's unfortunate past she told willingly. There was no reason for her to keep this back from him.

Thor knew the contract he had with Loki was up tomorrow and Loki made no mention of it. He worried Loki wouldn't want to renew it. After the Swedish cursing issue a few days prior, Thor had been concerned he'd pushed too far. But once Loki cooled down, he actually apologized.

"I just got so excited that I was getting away with it, I didn't really think about what would happen if you found out." He'd said.

Sometimes Thor thought that Loki would be a criminal had he not gotten into college and pursued a life on the side of good. He would be a good one too. He was very smart and good at figuring out what criminals would, could do or did do.

But despite their discussion about Loki's naughty behavior, nothing had been mentioned about extending the contract. Not that Thor wanted this particular contract extended. No, he wanted an all new contract. He wanted to be able to at least, touch Loki. Maybe not penetrate him but some kisses would be nice. Something more than the pecks Loki gave out while running out the door in the morning.

Thor pushed open the front door was surprised to see he was the first one home. Usually Loki was but it seemed he must have gotten a case before he was able to leave.

He started dinner and sent a text to his two subs to search out their whereabouts. Loki text back first with a quick "Still at work" followed by "you're not the boss of me."

Thor smiled at the message rolling his blue eyes in his head. Loki was a mess.

Sif walked through the door like a whirlwind talking before he even had time to register her presence. "I have to go to California tonight." She went running upstairs to the bedroom and started pulling out her suitcase to pack it. "We are so close to busting this ring it's ridiculous. But we think the king pin is in LA."

"Will they let you take the collar?" Thor asked watched her moving at the speed of lightening as he leaned against the door frame with his arms crossed over his broad chest.

"I don't even care. This ass was trafficking children. As long as he's off the streets I'm fine."

It was a feeling Thor could relate to. Some of the things they saw was rough. It didn't matter which prison those scumbags were in, as long as they were imprisoned. "Did you tell Loki?"

"I shot him a text. You know he's under investigation though right?" She said it so flippantly Thor wasn't sure he'd heard her right.

Thor frowned. "What? No, why?"

"He shot someone in the head." Still with that flippant tone.

"What?" Forensic scientists didn't carry guns. How did he even get a hold of a gun?

"He was on scene and the perp actually went back to try to destroy evidence. I don't know the specifics." She said but she didn't sound terribly concerned.

Thor's frown deepened. Loki just messaged him and said nothing about it. He hadn't even hinted at something being wrong. He was really going to have to work on his communication skills.

Shooting a gun was traumatic even to seasoned officers. For someone sent to just collect some evidence, it must have been all the more traumatizing.

"Where is he?" There was a process when you fire a weapon. They questioned you for a long time, making you repeat the story over and over again to try to get accurate information. Then they sent you to the hospital to be sure that there was no physical manifestation of taking a life.

She shrugged. "I don't know. Look I have to go." She pecked his cheek and ran out.

Thor stood there for a moment trying to process the information that was just unloaded on him before he went back to the kitchen to grab his phone. Before he could dial Loki's number, he heard his key in the door and watched as he pushed his way in the house.

He looked tired and slightly disheveled but otherwise ok.

He smiled when he saw Thor. "Hey. Thanks for starting dinner for me."

Thor blinked trying to figure out why Loki's first words weren't 'I shot someone today'. "Why didn't you tell me you shot someone today?"

Loki frowned as if trying to figure out how Thor knew about that and it seemed to dawn on him. "Because I knew you'd make a big deal about it."

"It is a big deal." Thor confirmed. "Are you alright?"

"Yeah." He answered taking off his coat and hanging it on the coat rack. "Luckily he was a bad shot." The joke went flat. Not even he smiled at it.

The smell of Thor's rice over cooking on the stove brought his attention back to what he was doing before he received the disturbing news about Loki's day. "Come into the kitchen." Thor heard Loki's footsteps falling behind him with soft thuds. He pulled out the chair from the table and pointed at sit. "Sit down. Tell me what happened."

Loki slid in the chair, eyes looking distant and heavy. "I was at the scene collecting evidence. This guy came in, I guess he was sent there to destroy wipe off finger prints or something. I didn't even hear him come in really. I just happened to move when he fired and he missed me. We wrestled for a moment and the next thing I knew, the gun was in my hand and I just shot."

Thor tried not to look as bothered as he actually was. He gave up on cooking and turned off the stove. There was a part of him deeply upset by Loki's delay in telling him what happened. Another part of him was trying to register that Loki could have been shot today. And finally, he was sympathized with the traumatic experience of firing a gun. There was no feeling like taking a life compounded with the knowledge that you could have very well been killed. He was bothered by how unaffected Loki seemed by this.

He didn't know which of those feelings to express first.

He took a moment to collect himself before he asked again. "Are you alright?"

"I've some ringing in my ears. But…"

"I don't mean physically." Thor clarified. "You took a life while trying not to lose yours."

Loki shrugged. "Supposedly I'm in shock."

Supposedly? Did Loki not believe he was in shock? "How'd you get home?"

"A patrol car drove me." He informed Thor still looking distant and unaffected.

A patrol car? Loki was no runaway or some unloved man. Why didn't the hospital call someone when they realized he had shock? They left him in the hands of a patrol car? When a patrol car was supposed to be at the scene with him. "Where was the patrol car that was supposed to be watching you at the scene?"

"Wasn't there when the guy came in." Loki shrugged. "Wasn't there when EMS got there."

Thor was starting to silently rage. There was no way Loki should have been left alone at a scene. There was no way Sif should have come in acting like Loki hadn't just had one of the most traumatic days in his adult life. Where was anyone's sense of urgency?

"And why didn't you tell me earlier?" Thor questioned trying to understand why he was the only one concerned.

Loki shrugged again. "I don't know Thor. My first thought was to call Sif and that's what I did."

Sif. Of course. The one person that he should have called and she should have cared. But she barely seemed interested in this at all. Why would Loki think Thor would care anymore than his own wife? "You should have called me."

"Why?" Loki suddenly looked annoyed with him. "Who are you?"

"Your dominant." Thor answered without thought. Had he thought about it, he would have known that was not what he should have said.

Loki's face darkened. "I called my wife, that is who needed to know."

"And did she give a flying fuck?" Thor regretted the words as soon as he said them when a look of hurt passed over Loki's features.

"She has her own job." Loki defended. "She had to go to California."

"Bullshit! Has she ever fired her gun?" He knew she'd had. Vice detectives often did dealing with seedy people.

"Of course." Loki spat out at him.

Thor threw his hands up. "Then she knows how traumatic it is."

"You know I'm getting real tired of people talking about her as if she'd the worse female that has ever walked the Earth. I feel compelled to remind you fuck her regularly."

"I feel compelled to remind you that you do too. Therefore she should care that one of the cocks she fucks was almost shot." Thor spat back at him.

Loki seemed to have nothing to say about that for a moment. "Why are you yelling at me? I've done nothing wrong." The heat was out of Loki's words but his face was still dark.

"I'm not yelling you at." Even as he said it, voice raised, he knew he was yelling. But it wasn't actually at Loki.

"Really? Raised voice, hand gestures and angry words are proof that you are." Loki insisted.

"Loki," Thor took a breath trying to get himself together.

"You know Thor, I know Sif doesn't love me. I know if you and she stopped sleeping together she'd leave me. I don't need you tell me that." Despite the very sad words, Loki still looked angry.

Thor never wanted to come across that way. Rubbing Sif's infidelity in Loki's face was not what he was aiming at. "That's not what I was saying Loki."

Loki cocked his head to the side. "Then what are you saying?"

"That a series of people have failed you today. There is no way you should have been at a crime scene alone. There is no reason that the hospital didn't have you call someone to pick you up. There is no reason why Sif didn't at least call me to get to you."

"Alright, I get it. My life sucks. What would calling you have done about any of that?" And there it was. Loki's resolution that he was alone and his feelings that nothing would ever break that loneliness.

"Then I would have been there. Someone would have been there that cared!" Thor tried to explain making it as plain as he could.

That seemed to deflate Loki some. "Oh. Why didn't you just say that?"

Thor sighed. "Because I'm upset that you were alone. I'm upset that you almost died today."

"So then you are mad." Loki said cautiously.

"Yes," Thor admitted. "But not at you."

"Well then stop yelling at me. Go call Sif and yell at her." Thor wondered if Loki really wanted him to do that.

"Oh I plan to."

Loki frowned. "Really?"

"Yes, really." Thor confirmed.

Loki looked contemplative for a moment. "I'm going to call Darcy."

That sounded like music to Thor's ears. That was fine. If Loki didn't want to talk to him, at least he'd be able to talk to someone. "I'm going to take a shower."

Thor went to leave the kitchen but as he passed Loki he was caught with an overwhelming sensation to just touch the other man. He wanted to confirm that Loki really was ok, alive and though not perfectly fine, fine enough to be home.

Without thinking he pulled Loki out the seat and embraced him.

Loki stiffened for a moment and for a moment, Thor thought Loki was going to remind him about the no touching rule in their contract. But then slowly, Loki returned the embrace, his face buried in Thor's neck. "I almost died today." He said.

Thor held him tighter. He knew that was in there somewhere. There was no way Loki could be so unaffected. It was just that Loki has had to be strong for so long, he didn't know how to allow someone to comfort him. "I know."

Loki shifted, laying his head on Thor's broad shoulder. "And she wouldn't have cared if I did."

Thor frowned not sure at first what to say. He didn't want to lie and say Sif would be devastated, but he couldn't act like he hadn't heard the statement. "I would have." He didn't say it to show himself better than Sif. He said it because Loki needed to know someone did.

After a couple of heart beats, he heard Loki say, "I'm glad you're here."

Thor kissed his temple. "Go call Darcy. I'm going to take a shower and we're going to order some food."

"Ok." Loki squirmed out of Thor's grasp. "I'm off the rest of the week. They want me to see someone tomorrow afternoon."

"That's good." Thor wondered if Loki was trying to ask him to go to the appointment tomorrow with him. He wondered about it the entire time he was in the shower. When he dried off, called his captain and decided to take the time off. Maybe Loki wouldn't ask him to go. Maybe Loki wouldn't tell him that he needed help with this. But then maybe he would and Thor wanted to make sure he was available if needed.

Thor woke up early the next morning and turned off Loki's alarm. The poor man had tossed and turned all night before finally finding rest around dawn.

They had ate Chinese and watched late night television. Loki wouldn't exactly let Thor hold him but he took Thor's company and Thor was happy for that. He didn't want to push his luck any further, but everything in him wanted to feel Loki all night in his arms, just to remind himself that Loki was still with him.

He slid out the bed, careful not to wake him, and started a pot of coffee. Sif hadn't called yet so he dialed her number to see if she made in to California alright.

She sounded chipper when she picked up. "Thor! What are you doing up so early?"

"Didn't sleep much." Was his short answer.

"Why? Miss me with you?" He could hear the smile in her voice.

It made him roll his eyes. "Loki couldn't sleep."

"Why?"

Was she serious? "Why? He was almost shot yesterday."

"Oh, right." She'd really forgotten. Was he that unimportant in her life? If so she should have put him out of his misery and divorced him. "Is he up?"

"No." Was his straight forward answer. "Can you come home?"

She stayed quiet for a moment. "Why?"

"Loki could use your support." It was a simple answer and though it pained him to admit it, Loki would let her in faster than him.

"Is that what he said?"

"Not in those words. But I think he'd like it if you were here."

She huffed. "It's not like I'm on vacation Thor."

"I know that Sif. And so does he, which is why you coming home would mean a lot to him." Thor explained it as if she were a petulant child wanting know why she couldn't go a co-ed party.

She stayed quiet for a moment before changing the subject. "The weather is great here. We should come here on vacation over the summer."

Thor took a breath to argue but decided it probably wouldn't change anything. It was within their contract that he could have ordered her to come home but Loki wouldn't appreciate her coming home not because she cared but because she was forced. "A New York girl like you would hate California."

She giggled. "I got to go. I'll call later."

He nodded as if she could see him and hung up.

He made and finished a cup of coffee before getting up and walking back upstairs. He could hear Loki's voice the closer he got. He sounded upset, somewhat emotional. By the time he reached the bedroom, Loki had hung up with whomever he was talking to and threw his phone on the bed. When he heard Thor enter he whipped around, face red and his eyes watery. "Why did you tell Sif I wanted her to come home?"

What a bitch. Did she really call Loki and yell at him for needing her? "Because it's my job to get you what you need and what you want." He answered simply.

Loki turned around, breathing hard and looking sick. "Our contract ends today." He said.

Thor nodded. "We don't need to talk about that right now."

"Yesterday you were yelling about being my dominate and now you don't want to even talk about continuing to do so."

This wasn't about the contract, Thor knew. This was about Sif not caring about him needing her. He wanted someone to care. He wanted to know that someone would take responsibility for him.

Would love him.

"Loki, I don't need to a contract to tell me to care about you or to take care of you. It comes naturally to me. And you certainly don't need a contract with someone to get them to care."

"Really?" Loki sounded as if he really didn't believe that. "Because I have a contract with someone who is supposed to love me. And for the life of me I can't figure out why she doesn't."

Thor's heart actually hurt for a moment. He went to go to him but Loki must have sensed it because he jumped out the bed. "I'm going to take a shower."

Thor stopped midstride. He'd respect Loki's need for space.

Loki turned around. "What are you even doing here? Aren't you supposed to be at work?"

"I took the week off." Thor informed him.

"Why?" Loki questioned.

The answer was easy. "To take care of you Loki."

Loki looked at him for a long moment. It looked as if he was reading him trying to search him for a lie. "Good. You can chauffer me around today."

Thor smiled as Loki went to shower. He was glad he took off. Loki did want him to the appointment with him.

000

Loki sat the kitchen table looking at the contract he and Thor signed two weeks ago. It seemed like so long ago. It seemed like months had passed, not just fourteen days.

Loki felt exhausted. The doctor he had an appointment with referred him to see a therapist as he was physically fine. Loki had seen therapists before. He knew what to say to prove to them that he was fine. But it would take another week to get in and his job refused to let him come back until he had both physical and psychological clearance.

An idle Loki was a dangerous one. It had been years since he'd taken a blade to his skin but suddenly it was something he wanted to do. Normally he would call Sif but he knew that would just upset her further and that would only upset him further.

Instead, while Thor napped, Loki called Darcy again who decided to take an hour off lunch and spend it with him.

Loki was grateful for the company. It took his mind off the fact that he almost died yesterday.

Darcy was like the older sister that felt like her little brother was incapable of taking care of himself. She wouldn't even let him open his own water bottle. He had to keep reminding her that nothing was physically wrong with him other than the slight ringing that remained in his ears. She wasn't hearing any of it and it made him feel good for a reason he couldn't quite put his finger on.

But eventually, Darcy had to go back to work and Loki had found himself sitting at the table wondering if he wanted to renew this contract or start a new one completely. The first one was really just to test the waters, have some fun. But he didn't want to have fun anymore.

He wanted something real.

He just didn't know what real was.

"Hey."

Thor's voice startled him. "Did you have a nice nap?"

"Yeah. What have you been up to?" Thor asked as he took a seat across from Loki.

"Darcy came over for lunch. She has mother hen tendencies." Loki smiled.

Thor smiled and Loki wondered why he had never realized what a nice smile he had. Thor was an attractive man with is chin length blonde hair and blonde stubble on his face. "It's a match for Steve then."

The response caused Loki to stop staring into Thor's face reveling in its attractiveness as he tried to think of an appropriate response. Luckily, Loki didn't know Steve all that well so he left that alone.

"What are you doing?" Thor gestured towards the contract.

"Just looking at our expired contract." Loki answered knowing Thor already knew that. But he didn't know what else to say. 'I'm trying to figure out if I have the balls to take what I want' didn't seem like a good answer.

"Do you want to renew it? Are you really feeling up for that discussion?"

"Yeah, I do." Loki wanted to do anything to keep his mind off of what happened and the fact that his wife wasn't there to help make it better.

"Loki… I… I would rather have no contract and we start a relationship than to have a contract and I can't touch you." Thor said suddenly. "If you don't want a relationship, but want to explore this life style, I can put you in touch with Doms that will take you on and teach you without sex. If you want a relationship with no kink factor, I will do my best to keep that from you. I can take subs and not sleep with them Loki. This life style isn't about sex and all I want is your happiness. And taking a sub doesn't have to happen for a long time. You can even be there so be sure I wouldn't betray you."

Thor's speech was both sweet and cruel. It was giving Loki every option available while showing him all the ways Sif betrayed him if what Thor said about the scene was accurate. "Thor, I don't know how much I can give you sexually. I don't think I could sexually perform with you, despite the bathroom incident."

"Loki, the only time I mentioned sex in what I just told you is how I wouldn't do it with anyone outside our relationship. I know things happened to you and I'm not trying to rush you. When I say touch, I mean hold you. Caress your face. Not fuck you into the mattress."

Loki swallowed. "But what if I want to see how far I can go?"

For the first time since the start of the conversation, Thor didn't seem to have a fast answer. He took a moment to think about. "That's when your safe words would come into play. You say them, we slow down or stop. No guilt."

Loki nodded. "And the punishments for the misbehavior we both know I'll seek out to do?"

Thor smiled at that but then put on his serious face. "Before we even venture into that, we'd have to start talking about your childhood."

Loki had figured that. Though he didn't know a lot about this scene, he knew some things and he knew this scene could bring up a lot of the same feelings he felt while being abused. "What would you need to know?"

"What he did to you. In detail. What he used, when he did it. I need to know if you've ever been in therapy, how healed you are from that." In other words, he needed a play by play of worst years of his life.

Loki nodded. "Then let's talk." Loki's voice carried a bravado that he didn't actually feel.

Loki could see happiness in Thor's eyes, though he had the tact not to allow it to touch his lips. He knew Thor wasn't happy to hear about the violent details of that time in Loki's life but Loki's willingness to share that with him. "When did the abuse start?"

"For as long as I can remember." There was no time in Loki's memory that his father hadn't been beating him.

"When did it stop?"

"I ran away when I was fourteen." Loki was sure Laufey, his father, would have killed him had he not left home.

Thor nodded. "And the sexual abuse?"

That was always the hardest to talk to about. It was what he was the most ashamed about. Even though Laufey wasn't his biological father, there was a stigma attached to the act that reflected badly on him. "I don't remember when it started and it was the reason I left." It was after a Laufey had passed him around to two of friends and they took turns inserting what ever they found around the house into his anus. Plungers, a broom stick, a soda bottle. It didn't matter to them.

"How did he beat you?" Loki wondered if Thor somehow sensed his struggle in talking about it and decided to turn the conversation back to something he could handle.

"His hands when it was just slaps. For beatings, the belt." For some reason, his hands were always worse.

It seemed like Thor was struggling to listen to him as much as Loki was struggling to talk about it. It was oddly comforting. "And the rapes?"

"He… um… when he first started, it was only when he was drunk. But then, it was almost nightly." It was always after telling Loki it was his fault his mother died and so would take her place to please him. "When I was, I think ten, he started inviting people." And it was always worse when there were more two of them. They were bolder and it seemed less inhibited.

Thor took a deep breath, it seemed to steady himself. "Did you orgasm when they raped you?"

Why would he ask him that? Loki tried to think of something to say to soften what he would imagine would make him sound disgusting. It wasn't like he wanted it. It wasn't like he even enjoyed it. He thought about lying about it for a little while but opted against it. Instead he felt his eyes water and he nodded guiltily.

Thor moved to the chair next to him and turned Loki's chair to face him. "Listen to me Loki." When Loki didn't face him, he cupped his check and pulled up gently. "Orgasms during rape are not uncommon and is not a reflection on the victim." He caught a tear spilling from one of Loki's eyes and started rubbing his face. "It is in no way your fault. You were a child."

Loki nodded but said nothing. It wasn't the first time he heard that but like all the other times, it didn't help him feel any better.

Thor nodded as if he knew his words wouldn't change Loki's mind. "What happened when you ran away?"

"Um, ACS picked me up. I went into foster care." Foster care wasn't that much better than Laufey, but at least the rapes stopped. "That's when I met Sif and we got married. She went to the same high school as I did." Loki really didn't want to talk about her though.

"And therapy." Thor continued on.

"Foster care forced me to go. I can't say if it helped me much." Memories started flooding his thoughts. He was so scared living on the streets and even more afraid in foster care. It seemed like his entire childhood could just be summed up in one word. Fear. "Can we stop?"

Immediately Thor nodded. "Of course. You did well." He was softly rubbing Loki's knee. "Stay here, I want to go get something."

Loki took a moment to get himself together while Thor went to where ever it was he disappeared to. He had to stop crying in front of this man.

Thor returned carrying a small stack of papers and some highlighters. "Printed on these papers are lists of sexual acts, punishment and rewards. Some are very basic and some are very outlandish. Take this green marker and highlight everything you like and want to do. Not something you want to try, but something you have done or know you will like."

That part was easy. Loki know what he liked with Sif and assumed those things would transfer to Thor easy enough.

After that Loki was instructed to use the yellow highlighter for the things he didn't like.

That took a little but more thought. Truth was Loki wasn't really comfortable with intimacy as a whole but there were somethings he disliked just based on principle. Like orgasm denial. Who'd like that? His brain denied him orgasms all the time and it was frustrating.

After that, came the red highlighter to mark out things he'd never want and while Loki that he'd easily be able to run through that list it was what he struggled with the most.

There were things he knew he would never want to do. Some of the extreme tortures involving bodily fluids really wasn't something Loki wanted to experience. But then there were things that he knew Thor liked that he didn't think he could do.

Like beatings.

He knew Thor loved them. He had every kind of whipping implement someone could have and Sif would tell come home and show him the marks he'd left. If he said no to that, Thor would be deprived of something he loved to do. Why would he want to sign up with someone he couldn't' find pleasure in? Wasn't that how Sif strayed so far?

So he back tracked and colored it green.

Finally, he was given an orange highlighter for everything that he had never heard of. Surprisingly, there was a few things he had never heard of before. Things like urethral sounding. Wasn't that a medical procedure? How was that pleasurable?

When he was all done, Thor looked it over thoroughly before give Loki a sad smile. "We both know some of these you won't be able to do Loki."

Loki frowned. "How do you know?" Immediately his defenses went up. It was such a strong pull to please someone that he'd do it to the detriment of himself.

"Because I can't imagine that you'd allow me to take a belt to your back after what you just told me about your father."

Thor's candid tone prompted Loki to be just as honest. "You like beatings."

"That's not what this is about. Submission and dominance comes in many forms Loki. I get just as much pleasure watching you struggle to watch your words to avoid the spritz as I do when I beat someone."

Loki doubted that. But he would argue. Instead he just quiet.

Thor closed the packet. "Let's get something to eat and we'll try again tomorrow."

Loki nodded though he couldn't shake the feeling like he failed a bit. As if he disappointed Thor despite trying his best to please him. Usually Loki could read people and tell what it was they wanted. It was a skill that he was forced to develop. Pleasing foster parents so that they wouldn't send you back to the orphanage where you were ignored and forgotten was a skill that kept him sheltered and fed.

Thor, for his part, didn't act disappointed. He was little touchier than he'd been the past two weeks. Not overly so and not in a sexual manner, just minor brushes of his finger tips on Loki's back or keeping an arm around his shoulders while they watched television.

That night they slept in the same bed. Thor had given Loki a kiss on his forehead but had not tried to even snuggle close to him. Instead, he threw a long arm over his hips and left it there. When Loki was confident Thor would do more than that, he drifted off to sleep.

000

Thor woke up to an empty bed. Loki had been stiff under his arm last night but made no move to turn away from his hold. He had no nightmares and though he did sleep through the entire night, he got more sleep than the night before.

Yesterday had been rough. Loki was having a rough week and it was hard on any Dom to watch their sub suffer. If Loki was deeper in the scene, there were things he could have done to help him through it. But there wasn't much he could do with a man that laid stiff as a board for an hour just because Thor had laid an arm on him.

He would have to find another way to help his sub. It's why Loki needed a Dom. And if yesterday taught him anything about Loki, it was that he needed some direction. He was so willing to hurt himself to please someone else that he could see how abusers found him easily. And while Loki probably thought he was the way he was because he was a people pleasure, that wasn't the entire truth. Thor knew a driving force behind that was Loki's intense need to end his loneliness. People under estimated just how much of a killer that was.

Thor walked downstairs in search of Loki and found him sitting in the living room with the highlighters as well as the list from yesterday. Loki looked up when he saw Thor come closer and smiled when Thor took a seat next to him.

Thor smiled in return thinking how nice it was to see a genuine smile on Loki's face. "Did you sleep well?"

"No." At least he didn't lie. Loki handed Thor the papers back. "I fixed them."

Thor took them back and looked through them. It was better but he knew it still wasn't the honest truth. Loki highlighted the belt part in red but lift the rest of the beating implements in green. Thor really didn't think Loki would want to be beaten at all but he didn't want to criticize Loki. He had tried and had been as honest as he could have been and that deserved a reward.

Thor smiled. "Much better."

"Now what?" Loki asked seeming to feel a lot more comfortable.

"Well, the green stuff is up to me when and if I give them you. The yellow stuff are soft limits. Some of it will be used for punishments. Red things are hard limits, we'll never do it. Orange things we'll explore together. I'll type up a contract…"

"Wait, wait, wait a minute." Thor looked up from the papers trying to figure out what he could have already to make Loki want to slow down. "What's the point of telling you what I don't like if you're going to do it anyway?"

Thor let out a breathy laugh, standing up and pulling Loki up with him. "Come on, I'll show you."

Loki followed behind him looking at him suspiciously but curiously. They went into the bedroom where Thor opened the walk in closet that used to be Sif's before he moved in. "I want you to go in, grab the rack of belts and the chastity device."

Loki hesitated but eventually did what Thor asked of him. He retrieved both items, the chastity device still in a package.

"Good. Now open the bottom draw on my side of the dresser and put the belts in it." When Loki did what he asked, Thor pulled a key from off the top of the dresser that was attacked to a simple sliver chain. "Lock it." When Loki did that he took the key from his hands and put the chain over Loki's head and settled it on his neck. "This is a hard limit. I will never use these belts Loki and you will keep the key so that no matter what you do, you know I'll never be able to even retrieve them."

It was more than that though. The key was a symbol of trust that Loki could hold on to. When in doubt, he had a physical reminder that despite what it felt like, he had control over what Thor did just as much as Thor had control over Loki.

"And what's with the chastity belt?" Loki questioned.

"It's on your dislike list." Thor explained. "You dislike it because you don't like denial. That can change and if it doesn't it a deterrent. Put it in the second draw. That draw will be where I keep all your punishment implements."

Loki smiled. "That's a good deterrent."

"And the spray bottle stays." Thor confirmed, amusement in his eyes.

Loki rolled his eyes though he was amused as well. "So does the condition about my conditioner."

"I'll agree to that if you stop pouring half in the sink as soon as you get it." Thor countered quickly.

A sly smile crept on Loki's face. Thor figured Loki didn't know he knew what he was doing. Though Loki had long hair and washed it often, there was no way he was going through whole bottles in three days. "I'm going to type up the contract after breakfast." Thor informed him. "But give me a good morning kiss first."

There was only a moment of hesitation in Loki before he stepped closer, closing the gap between them, and pressed his lips to Thor's.

Loki had an unusually cold body but that didn't stop Thor from enjoying the closeness of the other man. He took a chance and gently ran his fingers across Loki's pale cheek. Loki didn't back away and didn't tense, so Thor grew bolder and cupped Loki's head to bring him in for another more forceful kiss.

Loki parted his lips and let Thor's tongue explore his mouth before he started searching Thor's mouth with his own tongue. Loki stepped in and for a moment Thor though he would try to take over, as he would when he and Sif made out, but suddenly Loki stiffened and pushed himself away.

Thor wondered if there was ever a time where Loki's mind turned off and let himself enjoy something. "That was good." Thor said, leaning his forehead against Loki's. "You taste so sweet. I can't get enough of you."

Loki seemed a bit uncomfortable with Thor's words but Thor knew it was because no one ever really spoke to him like that. He knew Loki would get used to it though. He'd make sure of it.

"Now," Thor delivered another peck on his check. "Go cook breakfast."

Loki frowned. "You know I don't see why subs have to cook breakfast."

"It's a sign of servitude." Thor explained releasing the other man from his hold.

"It's a sign that dominants are lazy." Loki corrected.

"You are well on your way to your first punishment," Thor teased. "And I can't even drafted the contract yet."

Loki opened his mouth, probably to say something disrespectful, but then he looked to dresser and seemed to remember the chastity device. He turned on his heels and headed to the kitchen.

Thor smiled though he was still very much on shaky ground. He had taken subs new to the scene before and he'd dominated subs who had unfortunate pasts before but somehow, with Loki, he felt like he was never sure what he should do next.

Breakfast was a small affair. Loki had made pancakes with some fruit and coffee. Afterwards, he and Thor sat down together at the computer and typed out their contract together. Thor had decided to take that time to show Loki some things on the computer that he'd highlighted orange that morning.

Seeing simple devices though wasn't enough for Loki. Ever the curious cat, he wanted to see them in action. That prompted Thor to start looking through some made for adults only videos. It was odd watching pornography with someone else and was experience he never had before. What made it even more off was that he was watching the videos with someone who wasn't looking at the video for sexual purposes.

And he was critical which only made it funnier. He was looking at the videos as if they were nature documentaries while Thor was sitting next to him with a raging hard on.

How could he watch this stuff and not be affected by it?

At one point he actually said, "Oh I like this song." While the poor sub in the video was being edged repetitively and begging for it to stop.

It caused Thor to laugh so hard his ribs hurt.

Loki spared him a confused look. "What's so funny?"

"You like this song huh?" Thor though his cock was going to burst and Loki was sitting there, not even a little turned on at the sexual acts in front of him.

Loki's confusion deepened. "Yeah. Why is that funny?" Loki looked as if he seriously couldn't figure out what was so funny. It wasn't until he noticed Thor's erection that he said, "Oh!"

That caused Thor to laugh harder.

"OH!" He repeated blushing three shades of red when he realized that Thor was turned on by the situation. "Am I supposed to do something about that?"

Thor noticed Loki was starting to become aroused himself. His pupils were starting to dilate and he noticed Loki had become semi hard under his pajama bottoms.

"Oh yes, you are." Thor stood up, pulling Loki up with him by his slim wrist. Thor's heart was beating so fast he thought he was going to have a heart attack. He could feel Loki's pulse through his slender wrist and his heart was racing as well.

"I don't want to go all the way." Loki whispered. "Is that ok?"

Thor smiled. There was still so many things he could show him. "More than. I'm going to give you three colors. Green means everything is good and you want to continue. Yellow means you want to slow down and red means stop. When you have a bit more experience we'll come up with proper safewords."

Thor claimed Loki's lips then, not kissing with his usual force but hard enough to remind Loki that he was in control. He gently pushed Loki onto the couch and settled between his legs.

Though Loki was actively kissing him back, his body still felt tense beneath him. He wasn't surprised. Loki was tense even he had sex with Sif.

Thor pressed his hips down eliciting the softest moan Thor had ever heard. "That's it kitten. Tell me how good you feel."

He bit down on Loki's slender neck hard enough to bruise him. Loki arched and groaned louder.

"Where are we?" Thor asked.

Loki huffed. "What?"

"What color?" Thor reminded.

"Oh green. Very green." Loki confirmed making Thor even more excited.

Thor smiled and bit down on his neck again. Still Loki was tense but he was starting to pump his hips up and down seeking harder friction. "You want more Kitten? Let's see how loud I can make you purr."

He slipped one large hand into Loki's pants and found his slender cock, now fully hard. Though Loki wasn't as thick as Thor, he was just as long. "How do you like it Loki? You want a nice tight slow hand or a loose, fast grip?"

"Tight." Loki breathed. "Tighter please."

Thor was pleased with Loki's communication. "Like this Kitten?"

"Tighter." Loki breathed.

Thor clenched him and it provoked the sweetest whimper from Loki's lips.

But still he was tense underneath him.

"Where are we baby?" Thor asked.

"Green. Don't stop."

There was a disconnect somewhere in Loki. While he obviously enjoyed Thor's attentions, there was a part of him that just couldn't seem let go.

A small tremor was starting to overtake Loki proving that he wanted to come. But frustrated whimpers followed each tremor as it seemed his body wouldn't listen to brain.

Or maybe more accurately, his brain wouldn't listen to his body.

Eventually an unhappy, "Yellow." was muttered.

Thor let Loki slip from his grip. "No, red." He kissed the tip of Loki's nose. "Good Kitten for safe wording."

Loki smiled slightly before a frown appeared on his beautiful face. "Doms can safe word?"

"Sure." Thor confirmed settling on the couch beside Loki.

"Well why?"

"A few reasons. In our case, I'll safe word if I think you are pushing yourself into something too fast. Yellow would have slowed us down but you safe worded because you couldn't orgasm. Continuing to stimulate me would prolong your own discomfort. While it turns me on immensely that you'd put my pleasure above your own, you not coming isn't a choice you made.

Loki stayed silent for a moment before saying, "One of us should get to completion."

Thor took a moment to think of an answer that would explain his position on this. "Sex isn't about orgasm. It's about closeness. It's for intimacy. I'd say we were plenty intimate don't you." That wasn't it though. Not entirely. He wasn't able to get Loki's mind off trying to achieve his own orgasm. Sometimes the pressures and anxiety of wondering if he was going to actually achieve orgasm could make it more difficult to obtain.

Now he had something else to think about. Instead of being focused on his own completion, he'd be focused on Thor's. Maybe the next time they became intimate, he'd be so absorbed in that, he could allow his own body to respond the way it was supposed to.

It took Loki a few moment to relax with Thor so close to him but eventually fell asleep.

Thor waited until he was certain Loki wouldn't be easily roused before sliding him out his arms and walking to the kitchen, snatching his cell phone off the living room table. He long pressed Natasha's speed dial and waited for her to pick up.

"Hey Thor! What's up?"

Thor contemplated that for a moment. "I'm not sure."

"Did Loki renew the contract?" He had voiced his fears to Natasha, before Loki's near death experience, that Loki wouldn't renew the contract. She had told him to wait it out which was why he waited for the actual expiration date to say something about. Loki had just beat him to it.

"No, we made a whole new one." Thor told her, but the happiness that should have been in his voice wasn't there.

"I'm not surprised." Was Natasha's honest response. "What I am surprised about is why you're on the phone with me sounding like a kicked puppy instead of showing him the ropes."

Best friends were the best. So honest. "I'm torn between listening to his mouth or his body. He needs so much but won't accept very much."

"This isn't your first time dealing with abuse Thor." She reminded him with some frustration in her voice.

"I know, I thought that too. I don't know why I'm hesitating." He admitted.

"It's because he's male." She said with a great deal of certainty in her voice.

"You think so?" Thor wasn't entirely sure that was it but the more he thought about the more sense it made. All the subs he dealt with that had a rough childhood were women.

"I know so." Natasha confirmed. "Everyone thinks rape is so different when it happens to a male. I assure you the feelings it invokes are very similar and in a lot of ways are treated in similar ways in therapy. How would you be dealing with this if it was Sif who was abused and not Loki?"

He'd be working harder to relax her. He would surround her with the things she'd love and things that would make her feel safe. He wouldn't worried so much about contracts and the domination part of the relationship. He would just try to establish something with her.

"Trust me Thor. Don't treat him like a female but treat him like someone you want to love not dominate."

It was so simple he felt like an idiot for not thinking about it himself.

000

Thor was acting weird. From the moment Loki woke up the next morning. He just sounded different. Less like someone who wanted to bang his back out and more like someone who wanted to serenade him while he took a hot bath in rose peddles.

Around noon, Thor had placed two hundred dollars in his pocket and told him to go to some spa with Darcy. Darcy seemed surprised too though because she immediately started questioning Loki after they got their hair done. "Is it because you almost died?"

Loki laughed. He was doing better with that. The ringing in his ears had stopped and though sometimes he woke up thinking he heard a gunshot, he had stopped having nightmares. "I don't think so. I mean, he's never sent Sif to a spa. And she got hit by that car last year."

"Hmmmm." Darcy took a moment to think while they were sipping smoothies and looking fabulous. "Well, maybe he's just trying to prove that he actually likes you and it's not just about sex."

Loki frowned. "Is he romancing me?"

"You should like you just asked me if he called you're a bitch." Darcy slapped his arm. "Being romance isn't a bad thing!

"No, it's just…" That they were both men and as far as he knew, men weren't inherently romantic. "It's one thing for something to be just about sex but…"

"Love is something else? Tell me about it. When Steve first told me about his lifestyle, I thought there was no way I could allow it."

Loki perked up realizing they were no longer talking about him and Thor. Neither he nor Thor had ever talked about love before. "Wait, wait, have you crossed the line into the world of kink?"

She blushed furiously as she made her admission. "He spanked me."

Loki's eyes bugged out his head. It took him over a year to allow Thor to spray him in the face for cursing. How did she just decide to get spanked? "And?"

"I actually liked it." She looked guilty, like a child who got caught eating ice cream in the middle of the night.

Loki giggled at her discomfort. "Dirty girl."

"Shut up. At least my relationship isn't backwards." She teased. "We started off with the romance."

"Yeah but we're both men. Romance isn't the first thing either of us think of." It was amazing how difficult things seemed to be just because they were both men. If this was another woman, he probably wouldn't be struggling as much as he was. But then, women hadn't been nearly as cruel to him as men had. "My idea of a romantic night is sipping wine and doing a one thousand piece puzzle."

Darcy laughed. "I haven't the patience for that. Those pieces are so small."

"Most people don't have the patience." Loki agreed.

"But Loki that isn't a bad thing. I mean Steve likes country music. We argue every car ride but I let him listen to it because it's part of him. If someone cares about you, they might complain but they would want to partake in it just to see you happy."

That's the way it was when he and Sif had just started. She would go to museums with him and classical music concerts. "Can you imagine Thor doing a puzzle? With his big sausage fingers?"

"Oh geez that's hilarious! He'll break the pieces trying to force them together." She giggled.

Loki laughed but he wondered what it would actually be like. Thor wasn't an intellectual man. He'd never seen Thor read a book in the year plus he'd known him. Puzzles weren't really intellectual, but they could be boring. No action happened. It was just the long process of watching a picture progress.

After the smoothies, Loki drove Darcy back home where Steve actually was waiting in front of the house for her. How protective? How sweet?

He remembered the nights when Sif would go to the club and he would wait up to make sure she got in safely. Or the times he took that midnight drive to the Avengers to pick her up when she was too worked over and out of it after scenes to get home alone.

His mind wandered on the way back to his own house wondering if female doms did that. He tried to picture Natasha waiting for Bruce to come home or Pepper. He wondered how much different a female dom would be from a male. When Sif played with female doms, she wouldn't even let him stay in the house.

To his surprise, Thor was waiting outside for him as well. It put butterflies in his stomach and made him feel oddly missed.

"Did you have fun?" Thor asked pulling him into the house

"Yeah." Loki answered slowly feeling a little off balance all of a sudden.

"Your hair looks great." Thor stepped forward once he closed the front door behind them and sniffed him. "Smells good too."

"Yeah." Loki found himself giggling. What the hell?

"Come," Thor said. "I've got a surprise for you."

Loki allowed himself to be pulled upstairs and into his sanctuary room where he used to hide when Thor and Sif played and was shocked to see what his surprise was.

The room was dimly lit with candles on a table Thor had set up. And on the table was a box of assorted muffins which was Loki's favorite snack, a bottle of Taylor Port Loki's favorite wine and a puzzle. 1000 pieces and a picture of thunder storm over a field. On the television was an animated scene of dark clouds and rain. Intermittently, the screen would like up and a roar of thunder could be heard.

Loki couldn't believe it. "What's this?"

"You've had a really hard week Loki. This is just to help you unwind."

Loki sat at the chair Thor pulled out for him feeling strangely like he was on a date in his own home.

He started in on the muffins first before drinking some wine.

"I suggest you nurse it. You're on a two drink minimum." Thor informed him with a bit of a teasing tone.

Loki arched a brow. "Oh really?"

"I want you loose not drunk." Was Thor flirting with him?

"And I care what you want because…" Was Loki flirting back?

Thor smiled sweetly in response. "Because you care about me."

Loki pursed his lips. "Says who?"

Thor's smile widened but he didn't answer.

They started on the puzzle and worked in silence for a little while until Loki asked, "Have the investigators working on your fire finally realized they should ask Ms. Henderson if she saw anything suspicious that day?"

Thor looked up sharply. "How do you know my neighbor?"

Loki took a sip of wine and smiled.

"Loki did you set my house on fire?"

Loki laughed at Thor's shocked tone. "Seriously Thor, I am an investigator. I read the file and she was listed as the one who called 911."

A relieved sigh busted from Thor's lungs but that wasn't the entire truth. Loki didn't think he'd ever tell Thor the truth about that. "Um, I don't know. I'll ask Fury."

Loki nodded and another silence fell on them but it didn't last long Loki started complaining about Thor's methods of putting puzzles together. "You have to do the outer parts first."

"Says who?" Thor asked looking insulted but Loki's criticism.

"Every instruction ever made for a puzzle." Loki assured him in a very matter of fact tone.

Thor smiled. "It's a suggestion."

Loki laughed. "Um no. It's how you do puzzles. And you know those two pieces don't go together right?"

"They're both gray." Thor said as if in order to put puzzles together one must only match colors and not shapes as well.

"But that doesn't make it right." Loki was starting to really get worried about Thor's puzzle completing capabilities. "There is a gap between. They're supposed to fit snug."

"It fits." Thor insisted.

Loki shook his head. "No it doesn't Thor."

Thor waved him off. "Listen you do it your way and I do it mine."

Loki allowed it for the remainder of his glass of wine and the start of his next one before he realized Thor had some of the pieces Loki needed fixed in the wrong places. When he reached out to take it, Thor pulled it out of reach. "I need it." Loki said.

"No. Not at all. It belongs where I put it."

"No Thor it doesn't." It clearly didn't. It wasn't even the same shade of gray so Thor's whole color argument didn't even apply. "Give it here."

"No." Thor was standing his ground.

Loki's eyes fixed on Thor determined to get that piece. "Give it to me!"

Thor fixed his eyes on Loki determined to force that piece to fit wherever he wanted to put it. "No."

Loki stood up to grab it from him but Thor stood up and stepped away. "It's mine. You know you've taken S and M too far when you are trying to dominate a puzzle piece by forcing it to fit in the wrong spot."

Thor actually laughed at that. It was a guttural sound but it didn't make Thor hand it over.

"Thor you're being ridiculous. You know that piece belongs on my side."

Thor didn't say anything, just shook his head.

Loki stepped forward and reached for it. Slowly he slid it out Thor's long, thick fingers. He could smell Thor's Old Spice and found it oddly erotic.

Loki searched Thor's face, looking to see the dominance he was so used to seeing but saw none. He realized Thor wasn't going to start things tonight. If Loki wanted it, he'd have to take it.

He pressed his lips to Thor's, who opened his mouth to him. Loki pressed his tongue in, kissing him the way he'd kiss Sif. Thor seemed to appreciate it as he ran his fingers through his hair and pressed him closer. But then Loki felt him loosen his grip and instead moved his hand to a less dominating spot on the small of his back.

He was trying not to dominate him. He was trying to curb his natural instincts in order to make Loki more comfortable.

It made Loki's cock harden so fast he got dizzy.

He deepened the kiss while starting to unbutton Thor's plaid shirt. Thor allowed him to take the lead for a while longer before reaching for Loki's shirt to pull it over his head. "Where are we?" He asked breathlessly.

It took a minute for Loki to realize Thor was giving him the option of safe wording, even now, when Loki was in the more dominant position. "Green Thor. So green."

Thor smiled as he pulled Loki's shirt off and they tumbled into the bed with Loki on top. Loki straddled him, grinding down on the man who groaned. "You feel so good Loki." Thor breathed.

Loki was losing control. He suddenly wanted skin on skin contact and started to struggle to get Thor out of his jeans. When he succeeded in that, Thor helped him out of his own, he resumed in his position grinding down on Thor.

Thor planted his hands on Loki's hips, encouraging him to move faster. Loki felt Thor's hand straying closer to his butt and then felt his hands parting his cheeks. "Where are we?"

Loki knew what he was asking. He was asking if it was alright to touch there. He was asking if he was ready. "Green. Still green."

Loki felt Thor's hand glide over his entrance. Surprisingly, it actually a nice feeling. After a few moments, he found himself wanting more. "Do it Thor."

Thor groaned. "I need lube."

"Tell me where it is." Loki breathed

"Third draw in my room."

Loki got up and went to retrieve the lube. When he opened the third draw in Thor's dresser he also saw a box of condoms. Figuring he would save sometime if they needed them later, he grabbed those too try to ignore the other toys in the dresser.

When he returned around he saw Thor laying on his back, stoking his erection. A sudden case of nerves flooded his gut. Thor was long and even more than he was thick. He suddenly felt like maybe he couldn't do this. He should have left the condoms in the room.

He walked towards him anyway and took his position back straddling Thor placing the lube and the condoms on the bed next to Thor's head.

"Hey." Thor said rubbing his back. "Are you still with me? You seems a little apprehensive now."

How the hell did Thor know? Loki was good at masking his true feelings but it always seemed Thor could see right through him.

"Listen," He continued when Loki didn't response. "We'll go back to what we were doing. When you're ready we'll move on and if you aren't we don't."

Loki swallowed and nodded.

Thor's finger resumed its slow circle around Loki's entrance. After a few moments Loki relaxed again and he remembered by he grabbed the condoms when he saw them. "I'm ready Thor, do it."

It was his middle finger that he slid in, Loki could tell because of the length of it. It was intrusive and for a moment felt odd. He was about to ask him to stop when the tip of Thor's finger hit a spot in him that sent a shock wave of pleasure through him.

He groaned deep as Thor touched it again. "More," Loki said. "Harder."

"I need to add another finger for that." Thor's voice was rough and low.

"Do it, do it." Loki was worried he'd lose his courage if they didn't move things forward soon.

When the other finger joined the first it burned but the pressure on his prostate increased and it caused him to grind down hard to the fingers. After a few moments Loki gasped. "More, more."

Thor swore taking his fingers away. He reached for a condom and handed it to Loki. "Suit me up and grease me."

Loki was shaking slightly as he did so. His cock was aching a way it never had before he. He hoped he'd come tonight. It would take him forever to calm down with the way he ached. He couldn't believe he was doing this. Just a few hours earlier he was surprised at Darcy's bravery in taking a spanking and now he was straddling Thor like he'd been taking cock for years.

"Fuck!" Thor's swearing took Loki out his thoughts. Thor was thrusting up into Loki's hands, his testicles tight and drawn to his body.

Loki released him and moved up. Thor made no motion to stop when he positioned him at his opening and pushed down.

The initial pain made Loki cry put and tense.

Thor sat up some, holding on to Loki's hips. "No kitten. Don't tense. Go slow, let your body adjust."

Loki took Thor's advice. Each inch that Thor slid in, Loki took a moment to calm himself down. It took a several minutes, but Loki managed to push all but an inch in.

The grip on his hips tightened almost to pain when Thor let out a string of explicit words. His eyes were screwed shut and teeth were grinding. Loki smiled, Thor was going to come.

Loki knew Thor hadn't orgasmed in a few days and when they made out on the couch, Thor hadn't completed. He imagined Thor wasn't going to last long. It was nice to know he wasn't the only one off his game. "I guess you should have rubbed one out first."

Thor laughed. "Yeah." He actually looked a bit embarrassed. It made Loki feel even more comfortable.

Loki went to move. But Thor only arched up and stilled Loki's slim hips. "Wait, wait!"

Loki stilled but an involuntary twitch in his rectum caused Thor to shout out. The next twitch wasn't nearly as involuntary but caused the same panicked shout.

Loki grinned wickedly as Thor struggled to control himself. "Stop Loki."

Loki just sped up his twitches until Thor arched and released with a rumbling groan.

When Thor was able to catch his breath, he swatted Loki's butt cheek. "Naughty Kitten."

Loki smiled and unseated himself, laying on his side as he watched Thor stand up and go to the bathroom to clean up.

Loki tried to get a hold of himself. His cock aching horribly but he knew trying to get himself off would only make it worse. He was proud of himself for going through with it though. With that hurdle out of the way, he could worry about other areas of their relationship. He knew he could take it.

He listened to the sounds of the television. With his eyes closed he could imagine it actually was raining outside. It helped him calm his breathing. It relaxed him. It sounded like rain hitting the ground and the roar of the thunder was a sound he would never tire of hearing.

"Are you sore?" Loki hadn't even hear Thor return from the bathroom.

"No." Loki answered turning around to face him. He watched Thor walk back to the bed, erect again. "Oh." He said as Thor rejoined him in the bed and claimed his lips in another kiss.

When the kiss ended, both men were breathless again. Thor pulled Loki back on top of him encouraging Loki to straddle him again. "Put another condom on me and grease me up again." He sounded more in control now but still not demanding.

That coupled with the thunder roaring behind him, Loki didn't even have the chance to tense.

Loki did as instructed and slid Thor back into him with a groan. This time, Thor slid in more easily but the burn was still there. It didn't hurt nearly as much as before, but he still couldn't put the last inch in.

It took him a moment but he soon started a slow up and down motion. Thor left it to him for a little while before gripping his hips and changing the angle. The new angle forced Thor's cock to glide over Loki's prostate causing Loki to whimper.

"Geez Thor!" Loki sped up making that cock glide over his prostate over and over.

Thor smiled, much more relaxed than he was the first time. "Let me on top baby. I promise I won't do anything you won't like."

Loki nodded and let himself be flipped on his back. Thor opened his legs wide and delivered three strong thrusts from head to base having Loki take every inch of his cock. The extra inch didn't hurt as much as Loki thought it would. Although it put his body under a bit more pressure, it didn't deflate his arousal at all.

Thor trust in deep. "Wrap your legs around my back."

Loki responded quickly.

"No higher." Thor urged.

Loki did as encouraged and felt Thor's blunt head slide on his prostate. He arched off the bed gasping at intense pleasure.

Thor kept his thrusts quick, short and deep. The constant rub on Loki's prostate was causing harsh shudders through Loki's lean frame.

"Thor, oh geez Thor, I think I'm going to come." Loki was surprised at how quickly he got to that point but hoped it would grow until it overwhelmed him.

Thor kept his thrusts constant and consistent, but Loki could feel the orgasm slipping out his reach again. He whined pitifully as his thrusts became more erratic.

"Shhh Kitten calm down." Thor shrugged off Loki's thighs, gripped his hips and delivered six perfectly aimed strong thrusts to Loki's prostate, causing Loki to bite into his lip until he drew blood. Then Thor encouraged Loki to wrap his legs back around his back and continued those short thrusts again.

Loki arched his back. "I'm so close." Loki felt panicked. His orgasm was building fast, his spine tingling. "Don't stop Thor please."

Thor moved faster as shivers took over Loki's body. He was gasping for air, while clawing at Thor's back. "Come on Kitten." Thor urged. "You can do it."

Loki felt the first contraction in a place inside of him he'd never felt. It caused his back to arch in an awkward position and his eyes to close. The next contraction hit him the same way. Every muscle in his body tensed.

"Fuck Loki, you're having dry orgasms. Turn over." Thor took control then, pulling out only long enough to flip Loki on all fours. He pushed back in causing Loki to shudder hard as a fresh wave of contractions hit him.

"Thor!" There was no rise now. The orgasms were hitting him without warning sometimes starting before the last one finished.

His cock ached horribly. He reached down to tug on himself, to end this pleasurable torture, but Thor grabbed his wrists and held them with one hand behind Loki's back. "Don't you dare." He ground out.

Loki's body slackened unable to fight anymore as another set of contractions made his vision blur.

"You're coming so hard Loki." Thor said. "Fuck it's so good."

Loki couldn't even form words as his body continued heave and contract. Thor was hitting his prostate with horrible accuracy and the sound of the storm on the television only seemed to heighten his pleasure. Loki could hardly catch his breath. At the end of one contraction, Loki felt a contraction he was familiar with. His first shot of semen shot so far it hit the head bored. The second fell short only a centimeter of the headboard. The pleasure was so intense, he couldn't make a sound.

"That's it Kitten." Thor encouraged. "That's my Kitten let it out."

Seven strong shots left Loki in total, but the dry contractions didn't seem to care one bit that his cock had ejaculated. His cock was still hard and Thor was still thrusting strong in him.

"Thor," Loki begged. "Thor please."

"What is it Kitten? What is it you need? You want it harder?" Thor released Loki's hands, gripped his slender hips and started to give strong, harsh, unrelenting thrusts to Loki's prostate.

Loki arms fell to his sides limply as a shout tore out his throat. His cock twitched and let out four more shots of sperm before deflating completely. To his astonishment, Loki realized Thor was not planning to stop. His body quickly became hyper sensitive. Each thrust to his prostate was causing explosive sensations through his body. The contractions were still stopping and starting without warning and now the hits to his prostate was taking the breath from his lungs.

He couldn't take it anymore. He could barely breathe and Thor was showing no signs of stopping. Swallowing his pride he admitted to himself that he could not take a fucking from Thor. "Yellow." He whimpered.

Thor immediately pulled out and distantly, Loki felt him pulling himself to completion. He would have been happy to help but he still had no control of his limbs. Even without Thor inside him, the contractions were still over taking him. They were lessening in intensity but it was still strong enough that his body seized and moans where torn from him.

He felt Thor's arms wrap around him. "Oh my Kitten you've got the best bottom I've ever had." He was placing kisses on his neck. "Don't fight them, just let them happen." It was hard to do but he tried to relax his body in Thor's hold as the contractions starting ebbing away. Never in his life had he felt anything like that.

Thor continued to rub his back, helping him to settle down. "You really are beautiful Loki. I know it's selfish, but I'm happy you haven't met another man that you were willing to sleep with. Knowing no one else has had the privilege to show you what your body can do makes me so hard. There is so much more to show you Kitten."

"You're not helping me calm down Thor!" Loki complained as the dry orgasms continued to shake his frame.

Thor laughed. "Sorry. I just… I'm so happy to be here with you. To see you wracked with pleasure."

The orgasms were finally subsiding leaving his body throbbing with a dull ache. Loki sighed in relief before he shifted restlessly in Thor's strong arms for a moment before closing his eyes and falling asleep.

He wasn't sure how long he was out before he felt Thor get out of the bed and cleaning things up. When Thor clicked off the television he groaned. "No, leave it on." Thor clicked the storm sounds back on but lowered it some before returning to bed and gathering him back in his arms. "Laufey didn't like thunder storms." Loki said, unable to stop himself from speaking. He hadn't even told Sif why he loved thunderstorms and he really didn't know why he was telling Thor. "He wouldn't come for me during storms." He sighed, exhaustion taking over him. "He won't come for me now." Was the last conscious thing he said before sleep over took him.

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