Chapter 4

The next day after the couple had argued the effects of the chemotherapy had really hit Cat. They hit her hard. She had gone to CatCo this morning but halfway throughout her day, she started to feel extreme nausea and fatigue. She vomited three times in the employee bathroom until she felt okay enough to let Kara fly her home so that none of her employees would wonder why she was so sick. Luckily, she had Sarah at her house with her, but it will still hard for her to let anyone see her sick. Carter's father had agreed to watch him for the last couple of days. He's not the best father but in that moment, Cat had never appreciated him more. Her ex, Jamison, understood that she didn't want Carter to see him mom so weak and ill. They both knew that they couldn't avoid that forever, but she could try and shield Carter away from it as long as she possibly could. Carter had only ever seen his mom with nothing more than a mild cold. That was the most that she would ever let him see. The only reason why is because Carter was a natural worrier, much like himself. He worried about her, almost the same amount that she worried about him. She never faulted him for that, though. Simply because she knew he got it from her. Today was the day that Carter was coming home after spending three days with his dad. The blonde knew that the last couple of days had been okay for her son. As she made sure that during the hours that she was feelings the best throughout the day, she would call her son. Of course she hated that she was still feeling sick, but she was happy to see her baby boy.

"You ready for Carter to come home, Cat?" Sarah asks as she walks into Cat and Kara's bedroom and crawls up on the bed that her sister was in and lays down next to her. Kara was at work while the other two women had the house to themselves.

"Yes. Even though I still feel sick, I'm happy to see him. Hearing his voice doesn't do justice when it actually comes to hugging him." Cat says as she scoots closer to her sister, wraps and arm around her waist and lays her head on Sarah's chest. To this day, Cat always loved to snuggle with her sister. She always would, no matter how old they got. The two women shared a room whenever they would stay with their father and even though they had separate beds, they would always end up in one bed until they decided to just push them together. The sister's didn't get to spend much time together so they relished in every moment they had together, including sleep. Cat knew that people would never believe that she was the kind of person to snuggle with anyone at all. They were always grateful that they had a relationship with each other as their mothers didn't want them to know each other. Sarah wasn't just her sister, but she was her best friend, too.

"I can't wait to see my nephew. I'm still sorry about missing his birthday."

"I told you it was fine. In all of his 13 years, you have only missed two birthdays. Way less than his father and my mother have. And I know your flight got cancelled due to the weather. Carter was okay with it." Cat says reassuring her sister who still felt bad over something that she had no control over.

Before Sarah could respond, they heard the door open and slam shut and heard footsteps running towards the bedroom that they occupied.

"Mom, I'm home!" Carter shouted as he ran through the house. Before Cat could answer, he jogged into the bedroom and skid to a stop as he lays eyes on his mother and aunt in bed. He gave both of the women the biggest smile before running towards the bed. Cat untangled herself from her sister just in time for Carter to jump onto the bed and into his mother's arms. Carter wasn't always this affectionate but when he was, Cat loved it. The force of her son knocked the wind out of her a bit but she didn't care in the least.

"I missed you, Mom. Are you feeling okay?" Carter asks into her chest. He looks up and takes in the appearance of her mother. She wasn't wearing any makeup at all, her medium length hair was in a loose ponytail, and she was wearing a long sweater and yoga pants. To Carter, she didn't look sick at all. This is the Cat that he knew. He didn't really know the Cat Grant with the impeccable fashion sense. He knew the Cat Grant that wears loose clothes when they have mother and son time. Unfortunately for Cat, Carter had done research on the side effects of chemotherapy and she knew that there was a 95% chance that he knew exactly how she was feeling. Cat would of course try and give him a vague answer but if he asked exactly how she was feeling, she wouldn't lie to him. But hopefully, he wouldn't do that. Thirteen or not, she didn't want her son to know that she's feeling worse than she's ever have in her life.

"I'm feeling a lot better not that you're home, my sweet boy." Cat says truthfully. She really hated being away from her son more than she needed to be.

"Really Mom?" Carter asks with a skeptical look on his face.

"Yes, really."

"Okay…" In that moment, the thirteen year old remembers that there is also someone else in the bed with them. His head snaps to the right and lays eyes on the long haired brunette. Carter untangles himself from his mother's embrace and maneuvers his way to the other side of the bed and gives Sarah almost as big of a hug as he gave his Cat. "Aunt Sarah!"

"Hey, buddy. Oh, I've missed you so much." Sarah says. She didn't have any children of her own, which Cat always wondered why, so seeing her nephew was always special to her.

"I've missed you, too."

Cat smiles as she looks over at two of the most important people in her life lock each other in a hug. She's always loved that Carter truly loved and interacted with her sister. They had a bond from the very beginning. Sarah had stayed with her during the first couple of months after Carter had been born and he would ways calm down whenever she would hold him. The blonde always thought that had something to do with how much they loved each other.

"I think I should give the two of you some time to catch up." Sarah says when Carter let's go from the hug. "Carter, how about the two of us watch a movie together whenever you're done in here, if you feel up to it?"

"That sounds cool." The young boy says with a grin.

Sarah climbs out of the bed after leaning over and giving Cat a quick kiss on the forehead. "I'll be in the guest room is anyone needs me. Come and get me whenever you're ready Carter." Sarah says as she walks out of the room.

"Where's Kara, Mom?"

"She's at work. She'll be home soon."

"Did you go to work today?"

Cat winces at the question, knowing what was hopefully not coming. "Yes, I did."

"So, why are you home before Kara is?" Carter inquires.

"I came home early."

"Why?"

There it is. The question came that Cat hoped she wouldn't have to answer but knows she can't lie to her son. "I got sick at work and had to come home."

"Oh. Are you feeling okay now?" Carter asks his mother with a worried look on his face.

"A little. How was it at your father's?" Cat asks trying to distract her son from how she was feeling. Plus, she was worried that her son would be mad at her for basically pawning him off for the past few days.

"It was okay, I guess. The normal."

Cat knew that meant that his visit hadn't been the best, but it also wasn't the worst.

"Dad said that he'll call and check up on you later." Carter says as he situates himself under the comforter on the bed.

Cat gave her son a small smile after hearing that. She knew that Jamison wasn't a bad man. She never would have allowed herself to get involved with him if he was and he damn sure wouldn't be allowed anywhere near her son. But like everyone else in the world, he had his faults. He basically abandoned Carter when he was growing up. Ever since Jamison's father and passes away a few years prior, he vowed to make things right with his only child. And Cat was truly grateful for that, even though she hated sharing Carter with the man that made her son feel so bad about himself for years. Thankfully, they were all in a better place now. It was still very awkward between the two males, as Cat has witnessed it, but they were both making an effort to get to know each other.

"He's worried about you. We talked about you for a bit."

Cat knew that no matter what happened between her and Jamison in the past and the future, parts of them would always love each other just because they simply had a child together.

"How are you doing with all of this?" Cat asks softly while looking at her son.

"Mom, you shouldn't be worried about me." The young boy says with a "duh" tone.

"You know that you are always my first priority before anything and anyone else, including me." Cat says as she looks directly into her son's blue eyes.

"I know…I'm just worried. I know you must have really not wanted me to see you sick when you told me I was staying with dad for a few days. You don't let me out of your sight for that long unless you're out of town."

Cat chuckles at the small but truthful joke. "You know me well. And you're right."

Carter didn't respond after that. Cat stretched out her arm and smoothed out the curls on his head, happy that her touch wasn't unwelcome.

"What's going on in that head of yours?" The older woman asks hoping that her son would open up.

"I'm afraid of losing you. I know that Dad's trying, Aunt Sarah is great and I love Kara but you're the only mom I have. You've never wanted me to change who I was. That's why I always included you in whatever I was interested in because you were always so happy to just do things with me. I loved that. Spending time with you is still one of the best things in the world to me. I love you, Mom." He says trying not to cry.

Cat sits straight and moves and look at her son. "I am going to fight this. I promise you that. I am going to fight this as hard as I possibly can, sweetheart. I will not leave you if I have a choice in the matter. I love you more." She says as she pulls her son in for a tight hug. The two of them chat for a little while longer before Cat begins to feel herself getting nauseous again.

"Why don't you go and get your Aunt Sarah so you guys can watch your movie? I'm going to stay up here and rest for a little while."

"Okay. Call us if you need anything, Mom." Carter says hopping out of the bed and walking towards the door.

"Will do, honey."

As soon as Cat sees and hears the door click shut, she immediately jumps out of her bed and sprints towards her bathroom as she drops to her knees and vomits for the sixth time that day. Words can't express how much she hates chemo. She begins shivering as she's drenched with sweat but can't do anything about it. She's too weak to get off of the bathroom floor. She can only manage to pull herself up enough to vomit again in the toilet. The woman has no idea how long she is in her bathroom before she hears the door to her bedroom open, silently praying that it isn't Carter.

"Cat, where are you?" Kara calls out.

The blonde lets out a relieved sigh. "In here." She says weakly.

"Oh, Cat." Kara says sadly as she sees Cat on the bathroom floor leaning against the wall. She drops down to her knees in front of her girlfriend and wraps her arms around her. Cat drops her head onto Kara's strong shoulder, happy to have her home. The younger woman stands up, bringing Cat up with her. She moves to carry Cat into the bedroom before Cat stops her.

"I need mouthwash." Cat quickly swishes the liquid around in her mouth and spits it out in the sink before Kara resumes carrying the petite woman into the bedroom.

"Are you okay, love?" Kara asks with the most worried look on her face that Cat has ever seen. She knows that Cat must be feeling horrible after being sick all day.

"I feel a little better. I've been up and down all day." The blonde says after feeling her stomach calming down.

"Is there anything I can do?"

"Just stay here with me, please." Cat asks as she snuggles up to Kara who puts an arm around her shoulders.

"There's nothing I would rather do more."

"I talked to Carter today about how he's been feeling about everything." Cat says quietly.

"What did he say?" Kara asks with her concerned tone.

"Just that he's worried. We're going to have to work on making sure he's okay throughout this whole thing. He's really scared."

"Anyone would be…" Kara says softly and Cat immediately knows that the two of them need to talk, also.

"I'm going to ask you the same thing I asked Carter. How are you doing with all of this?"

"I'm scared, too. I don't want to lose you either, Cat. It's amazing isn't it? How scared I am about this but I'll fight an alien three times bigger than me without a second thought. And how the hell are you keeping it together so well?"

"I'm not. I'm just good at hiding my emotions. I need to make sure everyone else around me is alright before anything. It's perfectly okay to be scared but don't worry yourself too much. I'm going to fight this. I am. The doctor said my age isn't so concerning because I've taken good care of my body over the years. We don't have to worry about that. We're just going to have to think positive." Cat says hoping that her words make her girlfriend feel better.

"You're right. If you need to talk, you know I'm here for you."

"I do know that. I love you." The older woman says as she places her hand on Kara's cheek and pulling her in for a long kiss. The two women just simply enjoy the contact for a little while before Cat pulls away.

"Is there anything else you want to discuss while we're on this topic?"

Kara takes a deep breath before starting. "Why did you try and give me an out on the relationship the day we would out what stage you were in? That hurt, Cat." She says as tears fill her eyes.

"I'm sorry about that. I truly am. I never meant to hurt you. But just like I said, I don't ever want it to get to a point where you think 'Maybe I should have left' you know? Come on, Kara. I know we don't talk about it much but we are both very aware of the age difference. You're closer to my son's age than my own…"

"You know I don't care about you age." Kara interrupts.

"And that scares me." Cat continues. "Because I don't have just myself to think about, I also have a child. I needed to know that if you were going to leave, you would do it before everything got worse and before I got too sick."

"I'm not going anywhere." Kara says looking Cat straight into her eyes with her Supergirl voice.

"I know. And I'm going to make sure that I don't go anywhere." Cat says.

Kara instantly understands the meaning of that statement and pulls the love of her life in for another hug and kiss, hoping that they would all be okay in the end.

A/N: Not the best chapter but it's the longest chapter so far. Next chapter will definitely have more Cat and Kara, including Cat losing her hair. Please review and let me know what you think.