Dears Toki,

I thinks I ams gettings more sicker. I wents to the doctor likes I said, but he says I ams fines.

I can'ts even thinks straight anymores. My thoughts am goings a krillions billions miles per hour.

I admits it. I ams startings to miss you a little.

Last nights whens I finally fells asleep, I hads a nightmare. I don't remembers it completely, buts it was somethings like what happened whens Magnus tooks you away. I hads to watch you gets stabbed agains. And agains. And agains. I wokesed up and puked.

Anysway, deddy stays with me ins my bed, now. He looksed lonely overs there ons my dresser. He misses yous too, you knows.

Charles trieds comings into my rooms to talks with me, but I yelleds at him to leave. I saids I wanted to be lefts alone. I don'ts know why I dids that. I don'ts wants to be alone. But thens again, he amn'ts the one I wants to see.

I trieds leaving my rooms the others day. I just wandereds. I endeds up in the livings room where everyones was watching TVs. Whens I cames in, they just stareds at me likes I was some hideous creatures. I was mads at first, but thens when I gots back to my rooms I lookeds in the mirror. My hairs hads not been brushed, I hads not shaved, my eyes was all reds and puffed up. I evens had a littles bit of vomits dried to my face. I really hads been a hideous creatures. I decideds that I'll just stays in here until yous gets back.

I trieds playing my guitars again to clears my mind, but it's like my brains forgets how to. My hands ams too shakeys to play the notes, anysway. I guess I needs you here sos I have motivations to practice. With only ones guitarist, we don'ts gots to worry abouts the rhythm tryings to take overs the leads, now dos we?

The ladies ams stopped comings over completelys. Evens whens I didn'ts invites them over, they still showeds up at my rooms, askings for sex. I sents the last fews away because I wasn'ts in the mood. I guess they tolds them's friends, because now they don't evens shows up at all.

I calleds one of the klokateers and asked if they knew where you weres yet. They saids that they thinks they have you's location and will be sendings rescue teams soons. This mades me feel a littles bit better. You'lls be homes soon, my friend.

I needs you back here to yells at me to stops doings this. To makes me take a shower. To makes me practice my's guitar. To makes me be mes again.

It's goods to know's you'll be homes soon.

Loves,

Skwisgaar

AN: I am genuinely sorry that I am incapable of writing long chapters. I need to work on that.

Anyway, I'm sick of dragging this on and I am 100% out of ideas, so the next chapter will be the last one. That's right, get excited.