Chapter 4

"Well even if I did say it, It'd be a lie"

As if it Were Fate

A Fan-Fiction By: Lolibear

Sorry that it took a few more days then expected:( My computer was full on attacked by every virus/Trojan/worm you can imagine. And it took me a while to fix my computer :( But I fixed it, all problems solved. I ended up having a total of 301 virus/Trojans/worms. That's what I get for downloading music I guess huh? XD

Bad news: All that was done of this chapter was completely lost and the lemon that I wrote T.T But no worries, I'll type it all again~ (Although I don't think it will be as great, sadly :( )

Thanks to the reviewers. I think I love you guys/gals 3

Now shutddup Ani and let's get goin'!

"the number you dialed cannot be reached right now. Please leave a message after the beep. "

Utau sighed and closed her phone. It was well past four in the morning and she still couldn't get a hold of Ikuto.

"I don't like how this makes me feel…. I'm very uneasy. Where is he?" Utau covered herself up with the blankets on the bed and stared at her phone. 'What am I kidding… he won't call back… I can't sleep either… I'll just dream of him.' A draft came into the room. it was cold and the blonde snuggled deeper under the blankets.

'If only he was here… I'd be a little bit warmer.'

The breeze blew the curtains in the room. Shivers over took her body. She squirmed to try to find some sort of warmth on the bed. Her leg found a warm spot; she moved her body against it to gather as much heat as she could.

"Ikuto, you're warm." Amu muttered in her half asleep state. Ikuto was fully awake and wrapped her arms around her.

"You know you move around a lot in your sleep?" he sounded somewhat entertained by that fact. Amu tried to respond but the sound that came out were mumbles.

'She's too cute' He thought to himself. An annoying ringing and vibrating came from Ikuto's phone that was on Amu's headboard. He picked it up and looked at the caller ID.

'Utau again.'

"Answer it Ikuto… say you're at a friends house." Amu said and rolled over pushing her back up against her teachers chest. Ikuto nodded and opened his phone.

"Hello?" He asked and tried to sound like he just woke up.

"Finally Ikuto, where are you? It's really late…"

"I know, I went out with Hideki after work, to go drinking. It was late so I just stayed at his house." Ikuto lied.

"Well, I'm lonely. Come home please? I really miss you and you have work tomorrow. You need clean clothes for that"

"It's fine, I'll be home after work tomorrow."

"Please?" She did that voice. The one voice that Ikuto could never say 'no' too.

Ikuto sighed. "I'll be there soon." He said and hung up his phone.

"You leaving? " the now fully awake Amu asked.

"She'll start questioning me and cause trouble for me if I'm not home soon." Ikuto said. He gently rolled over his student and climbed out of the bed. He walked over to his discarded clothing and finished getting dress. Amu looked him over. He looked tired and somewhat… sexy with his hair messed up the way it was.

"I'll see you at school later okay?" He said and looked at the girl that was snuggled under the covers. She nodded and he gave her a kiss on the forehead.

"Want me to walk you out?" Amu asked.

"No, you should go back to sleep. You need your rest for school tomorrow." He gave her that same smile and walked out of her room and down the stairs. After a few moments Amu heard her front door close.

'There he was with that look again. That gentle loving look… I don't know how to describe it. But I guess it makes me feel safe. Like he really cares for me.'

"You don't smell like you were out drinking. Plus you don't look to bad… Where were you?" Utau asked as her unfaithful boyfriend walked into his apartment. He let out a sigh and took his shoes off.

"I was with Hideki, I'm telling you. He did more drinking then I did. Plus, I have work in a few hours. I wouldn't drink too much. Maybe I should go take a shower?" His voice sounded tired, like he was done making excuses for where he was.

'I have to get rid of her some how…' He thought and started to unbutton his shirt. When he reached the last button he took it off and tossed it on the couch. He sat down on the couch next to the discarded shirt, picked up the remote, and flipped through the channels until he found something slightly amusing.

Utau joined him on the couch. She scooted real close to the man and put her head on his shoulder.

"Hey Ikuto?"

"What?" He truly didn't care what she had to say, but if he didn't answer she would just keep pestering him until he did.

"When can we get married? Will it be soon?" This is the part that made Ikuto so hesitant. He inhaled deeply.

"I don't know." Was his answer, which would never satisfy her, but it was all he could say at the moment.

"I'd like to start a family soon, you know. Plus you're getting up there in the years, Ikuto. Wouldn't be fun to have a little kid running around here?"

'Not in the least bit.' He thought. "What do you mean getting up there in the years? I'm only twenty-five."

"Perfect age to have a child don't you think?" Ikuto closed his eyes and tried to stop himself from saying anything worse than rude. He handed the remote to his 'girlfriend' and stood up.

"I think I'm going to take a shower, then sleep some more before a have to go to work."

"Want me to join you?" Utau asked sweetly but she got her answer with the bathroom door closing loudly and the little click of the handle being locked.

'That ass.' Utau turned the TV off and walked back into Ikuto's room. 'I think I'll just lay down until he gets back. But I still can't get it out of my head. Who is this Amu girl?'

"Want me to join you?" Ikuto quickened his pace and closed the bathroom door behind him, followed by locking it.

'I need a cigarette.' He though and felt around his pockets to find the desired package, but it was gone. 'Shit, I musta forgotten them at Amu's house.' He undid his belt and slipped his pants and boxers to the floor. He kicked his clothes to the wall and walk to the shower then he turned it on.

'She still wants to get married, huh? It would be a lot easier if she never brought it up.' Ikuto stepped into the shower and the steamy-warm water hit his skin, giving him goose-bumps, and causing him to shiver.

'I truly use to love her… I think, but lately it's just been odd. I don't want to do this with her anymore. Since I met Amu,...' He looked out his window in the bathroom then decided to open it to let the early mornings breeze come it. It's always the best thing to be taking a shower early in the morning with cold air in the room.

'Eh, I hardy know her, so I don't feel like I'm in love with her or anything. I just like her. I'd like to spend more time with her.' He opened his shampoo bottle and squeezed some into his hand and work the soap into his hair.

'I'm still pretty mad about what her mom did. If I ever meet her…' Ikuto rinsed the shampoo out of his hair and fallowed suit with his conditioner. 'That's right… I won't meet her mom at all will I?' He frowned 'I'm her teacher, if anyone ever found out that we've even seeing each other off of campus the consequences would be terrible.'

He washed his body and turned the shower off. Ikuto reached for a blue towel that was on the near by towel-rack and wrapped it around his waist.

'time to go face her again. It'll be over soon Ikuto. Just go.'

Amu sat in her seat. The classroom had groups of friends scattered about, but no one she really knew, so she kept to herself. Amu fiddled with her phone in her pocket and decided to just take it out. When she looked at the screen her somewhat excited feeling turned into disappointment.

'No message from Ikuto yet… I wish he didn't have to leave last night' Amu frowned to herself, 'But it's understandable, currently I am one of his two girlfriends. That is until he finally breaks things off with the other one.'

Amu set her phone down on the desk and looked up at the clock. There was still another 15 minutes until class started. She sighed and went to rest her head on her desk, but jerked up from the sudden stinging of the cut.

'Fuck! When is it gonna stop hurting?'

"Amu-chan?" A happy male voice called to her. The little king sat down in front of her desk with a worried look on his face. "You okay?"

"Oh, yea…" She laughed nervously. "Just thinking is all."

Tadase gave her a smile, "Don't worry your cut will go away in no time." He pulled out a comic from his bag and looked back to the bubblegum haired girl.

"Hey Amu-chan, can you come over to my house today? I need help getting the house together and unpacking still. It could use a woman's touch." Amu blushed. She wanted to help, but at the same time she would feel awkward because of the situation with Ikuto.

"Umm…" Amu looked at her phone again. "If I don't have plans today I'll gladly help you." She smiled at him.

"Thanks I could really use the help" He turned back around and started to read his comic. Amu's cell phone buzzed on her desk creating a loud sound. Tadase turned back to see what it was a noticed the little phone in her hands.

"Got a text message?" He asked. Amu nodded. 'It's from Ikuto.' Amu hastily opened the phone and clicked to view the message.

"Hey Amu, I'm going to break things off with Utau today, so I won't be able to be with you after school. But tomorrow is Saturday let's do something then."

Amu smiled at the message.

"Okay, I hope everything goes okay and I'll talk to you later today. Let me know when you are done, okay?" Amu added a heart icon and sent the text to her teacher.

"I'll be able to hang out today, Tadase." The blondes face lit up.

"Okay, It'll be fun you can stay for dinner if you want. I'm going to be cooking since my grandma will be working late."

"Okay. Sounds like a plan." Amu smiled at the boy.

The classroom door slid open and a tired looking Tsukiyomi-sensei walked in the room.

"Okay class the bell will ring shortly, in you seats and get ready for attendance." He made eye contact with Amu in the back of the classroom causing her to blush.

'Don't worry Amu.'

Amu tapped her desk impatiently. She looked at the empty desk next to her.

'Where's Kora? She would have told me if she wasn't gonna be here.' The bell rang and snapped Amu out of her wondering thoughts. The blonde in front of her stood up with his bag.

He smiled and said, "You ready to go?" Amu nodded. The walked to the front of the classroom and Tsukiyomi-sensei looked at them. Amu made eye contact and smiled at her teacher.

"See you Monday, Tsukiyomi-sensei." The older man smirked and nodded his head.

"Bye, sensei" Tadase said and opened the door for Amu. Ikuto watched the pair leave the room. He could feel a hint of jealousy but ignored it.

"What do you think about this?" The curvy girl held up a top that was black with white ruffles. The blonde shrugged.

"I wanna look nicer for Ikuto." Utau smiled and looked through the racks of clothing. "After all he said it was really important, that he needed to talk to me tonight."

Kora put the shirt back and walked to another rack of clothes. "Whaddya? think he wants to talk about?"

Utau turned to look at her younger friend, "I've been bothering him a lot. I've been telling him that I want to settle down and get married soon. So I think that might be it, Hopefully. It would be really nice that way, huh?"

"That would be nice" Kora said and returned to her duty of finding nice clothes. This morning Utau called her while she was on the way to school and asked her to ditch to go shopping. But it was getting to Kora.

'She is dating the same person I know Amu wants to be with. I want to root for Amu… but this person. I feel bad for her. She is in complete denial. I do wonder what he wants though. Either he will stop seeing Amu and go with Utau or the complete opposite.' Kora faded back in from her thoughts to catch the last of Utau's sentence, "You'll support me no matter what, right Kora?" Kora had to think of who to choose, Amu or Utau.

"Sure… I'll support you… Utau. "

Amu looked at the room, it was rather dirty since it hadn't been taken care of in a few months and there were suitcases about it. Tadase walked to his dresser and opened one of the drawers*.

"We can start putting some clothes in here. It doesn't matter what they are as long as they are folded." Amu nodded and opened one of the suitcases and began working on the assigned task. It was silent for a while. Amu was fine with the silence, but it bothered Tadase. He wanted to talk about something. He could help but bring up the one topic on his mind.

"So, who is this guy that Watanabe-san keeps talking about?" He decided to ask directly.

"Eh? Him? She's making things up. I've only hung out with him a few times and we message each other every so often. That's it." Amu lied.

Relief washed over him. But he was still curious about the guy. "How old is he?" This startled Amu somewhat. 'how old is he? Ummm…. 11 years… No I can't say that…" She thought.

"He was 2 or 3 years older then me. Not that much older. But he is a really nice guy."

"Well that's good." Tadase didn't know how to act from that statement. True, he did have different motive for having her come over. But, how would she respond?

"I wonder how Kora is doing? I haven't heard from her all day…" Amu pulled out her phone and opened it. She sent a quick message to Kora and set he phone down on Tadase's bed. She went back to the suitcase and pulled out some pants. She checked to see if they were folded.

"What's his name?"

Amu got up and carried the stack of the blondes pants to the drawer and neatly placed them in. "His name doesn't really matter at all. I'm not that close with him so I didn't take the time to remember it." 'All lies. Wonderful.' Amu thought and walked back over to the now empty suitcase. "Where would you like me to put this suitcase? It's empty."

Tadase had a pleased face on, mainly for the fact he thought that she hardly knew this person. "Can you put it in the living room please? I'll take them all up to the attic later tonight." Amu shook her head and said "okay." She left the room to find the living room.

Tadase sat working when her heard buzzing of a phone. He looked to his bed to see a little pink flip phone. 'Amu's?' He debated on what to do next. The phone buzzed again for the reminder of the message. Tadase sat down on the bed and opened the phone. It was from Kora. Tadase ignored the message and went the her message inbox. There was the one from Kora but as he scrolled down he found the same name repeated, Ikuto, Ikuto, Ikuto.

He went to a random message to see what it said.

'Amu, Meet me a few blocks away from school at the café. I'll be waiting in my car and we'll go somewhere to eat.'

"Tadase?" He heard Amu's voice from down the hall Ikuto panicked and closed all the messages and in the process turned off the phone. He quickly put it back down onto the bed and walked over to the dresser. Amu walked in and Smiled at the blonde.

"It's hard to find my way around your house" She walked over to the bed and realized what she left sitting on the bed. She picked up the pink cell and slipped it back into her blazer pocket.

"You hungry at all?" Tadase asked and closed the drawer. "I can make us dinner and then we can clean the living room." Amu shook her head.

"Okay"

Ikuto loosened his tie some and unbuttoned the top button on his white dress shirt. He let out a sigh and sat down on his couch. The TV wasn't helping him relax at all. He ran his hand through his soft midnight hair and pick up the new package of cigarettes he had bought. He pulled one of the sticks out and lit it. He put it to his lips and inhaled the only thing that could ever truly make him relax.

Ikuto looked to the clock on hid cable box and is read 7:30 pm. Utau was supposed to come over for take-out dinner so they could 'talk'. He put is feet up on the coffee table that was in front of his couch. Ikuto took another hit off of his cigarette and looked at the bags of take-out. It wasn't the best food in the world, but it was edible. It's not like he needed fancy food for the night either.

He grew impatient. She was late… again. Ikuto pulled his cell phone from his pocket and flipped it open. No new messages, voicemails, or missed calls, so Ikuto dialed Utau's number and listened to it ring. After a few rings she answered.

"Utau, where are you?" Ikuto asked.

"Sorry Honey, I'm on my way now. I was getting ready. You know nice and pretty for you."

'She sounds happy' He thought. "Well hurry up… The foods getting cold."

"I'll be there soon." Ikuto hung up the phone with out any warning to Utau. He took another hit of his cigarette and rubbed his eyes.

'I just want to get this over with.'

Amu Picked up the remaining dishes from the table and walked them to the sink.

"Thank you, dinner was really good. I didn't think you'd be able to cook at all." Tadase turned the sink on and took the dishes from Amu.

"Yea, my grandma taught me how to cook, since I'll be on my own in about a year."

Amu nodded and looked around the kitchen. It was getting late and they were almost done cleaning. Tadase was busy with the dishes so she had nothing to do.

"What would you like me to do?"

Tadase turned and pointed to a rag and some cleaning supplies on the counter. "Can you clean the living room with this? There is not much to do in there. After that you can leave and I can finish the rest." Amu nodded and pick up the supplies.

'Wow, even though they were gone for so long the living room is spotless. Only a little dusty.' Amu went to dusting the room with the rag, which she finished in a few minutes and looked around. It seemed perfected. Amu walked back into the kitchen and Tadase finished up the dishes.

"Thank you Amu-chan for all of you're help today. It's getting late. Do you want to leave?" Amu shook her head.

"I prolly should, I have some cleaning to do at my house too." Tadase smiled.

"I'll walk you to the door."

At the door Amu put on her shoes and picked up her school bag. "I'll see you later then Tadase."

"Amu… Wait… I have something to say." Amu looked ay him with a curious face.

"I recently turned seventeen and it made me realize something. I'm not a little kid anymore. Knowing that I'm almost an adult and from being away for so long, it all made me realize something. "

Amu nodded.

"Amu, …I …. love you." A blush crossed both of the teens faces. Amu looked to the ground and Tadase continued to look to the wall.

'These were the words that I've been waiting to hear… but not now… not now that I have Ikuto….' Amu thought and she turned to the door.

"Amu, you don't have to answer me now… You can when ever you want to, but, will you please be my girlfriend? …" The room fell silent. Amu turned the knob to the front door and pulled it open.

"Ummm…." She said aloud. "I don't know, let me think about it… and I'll let you know later." With that Amu walked out and closed the door behind her. She left his house and began her walk home. She reached to pull her phone out of her pocket to tell Ikuto what had happened, but decided against it.

'Ikuto is dealing with his own problems right now. It's best to leave him alone.' Amu gripped her school-bag tighter and ran the rest of the way home.

Utau smiled and took a bite of her noodles. Ikuto looked her over from the other side of the couch. She was wearing a knee length black skirt with a white dress shirt.

'Trying to look fancy huh?' Ikuto thought and played with the food on his plate. He set the plate down and decided to do it very bluntly, just to say it.

"Utau let's stop this." He said. Ikuto didn't make eye contact, instead he picked up a half lit cigarette from his ashtray and took his lighter out.

"Stop eating?" Utau asked in a curious voice.

"No Utau. I mean-" He was cut off.

"I know what you mean, Ikuto." The room fell silent. Ikuto took a long drag from his cigarette.

"if you have anything of yours here, take it tonight. I want my house key before you leave too." Utau set her plate down onto the table and stood up. She left the living-room to go to the bedroom. Ikuto sighed and took another hit. He set his plate down as well and followed her.

He found her digging through one of his dress drawers, looking for something. All the while pushing the undesired contents of the drawer onto the floor.

"What are you doing Utau?" He asked and she turn around and glared at him.

"Who is she Ikuto? I know there is another girl in your life that's why you are doing this. I Found her number in your dresser the other day. Amu is her name now who is she?"

Ikuto's eyes widened, but he quickly played it off as nothing. "She is a person I know from work." Which wasn't entirely a lie.

"You're lying there has to be something more to it. I will find out Ikuto. I will find out and I will…." She paused and tears appeared in her eyes.

'I can't threaten him… I love him… I really love him…' She wiped away her tears with her forearm. Her cries became audible, which made Ikuto feel bad, but he didn't love her anymore. He didn't want this.

"Ikuto… please don't do this… I.. c-can forgive you for anything…. Just d-don't leave me…" she cried and looked up at him. They made eye contact but Ikuto quickly broke it.

"Utau, I don't want this. We lost the love long ago and we've both just been going on the idea of something that wasn't there." He took another hit from his smoke. "I don't want to have to deal with you saying 'let's get married' or 'let's do this or that together'. You annoy me and I'm done." He hit her in the wrong spot and more tears rushed down her face.

'You just used me then…' She thought and walked to him. Utau brought her hand across Ikuto's face, smacking him as hard as she could.

"You're an ass Ikuto!" She took his house key out of her pocket and threw it at his chest.

"I'll find out who it is and I will make your life a living hell after this! You understand? You better watch out Ikuto!" By this point all her speech was just a mix between yelling and crying.

Ikuto leaned up against his bedroom wall and look down at the girl. He kept quiet so he could let it out of her system. Although his face did hurt a tad-bit. She look at him hard in the eyes.

"I swear Tsukiyomi Ikuto, I won't only make you pay! When I find this Amu person, I will… I'll hurt her! More then you can imagine! So watch you back and hers!" Utau stared him down before leaving the room.

Ikuto could hear her stopping through his house and making her way to the door. It opened fast hitting the wall and she slammed it as hard as she could. The sound then echoed through the house. After, it became numbingly silent.

Ikuto sighed, "Well that went well." He rubbed his cheek to get rid of the pain. Ikuto walked back to the living room and sat down on the couch. He finished his cigarette and put the butt of it in the ash-tray. Ikuto pulled out his phone and sent Amu a text message.

"I broke up with Utau" it simply read. Ikuto leaned down to where he was now laying on the couch. He smiled to himself but at the same time felt a little uneasy.

'It's not like she can actually do anything about it. She was just speaking irrationally and angrily. No need to worry.' He told himself.

Utau walked into the Café and saw Kora sitting at one of the booths. She sat down to join her curvy friend.

"By the look of you it didn't go so well." Kora said and slid a small cup of coffee across to the blonde.

"Of Course it didn't. He broke up with me. He is seeing some girl named Amu." Utau scoffed. "I will find this girl and I will make her life a living hell." Utau angrily said and took a sip of her coffee.

"Aren't you being a little rash Utau?" Kora asked and stirred her hot tea with the provided spoon on the table.

"No! I will make both of them pay! I can't believe this Kora! I can't believe him! This girl must have had some influence on him! He changed and it was her fault!" Utau tried to calm herself down.

"Kora… Help me find this girl and get revenge on her." Utau looked Kora straight in the eyes with her harsh look. Kora sighed.

"I'll try my best." Utau put on a satisfied look.

"I knew I could count on you."

Okay how did you like the chapter? Eh, it's okay I think. Not the best. But I'm trying to hint at some things that will happen later. Let me know what you think please. Please review if you want~

* OH MY GADS O [] O, yes gads. Anyways, I never had to spell drawer before so I had no idea how to spell it XD I had to call my brother on the phone and ask him. Then he told me I was stupid :3 that's terrible

but anyways please look forward to the next chapter and I'll post it soon~ 3 Ani