Hey everyone. So this chapter was pretty hard to write. I was literally staring at this blank page for like five minute with the only word on the page was hi. So yeah I'm not really sure how good this chapter is so please review it and let me know. Btw I thought you might like to know that this story is killing me. Every time I put a new chapter up I freak out about every three minutes until I hear something from one of my reviews. A reader named madi is always the first to review so a big shout out to her. Btw madi has informed me that she is writing her own fanfic about Paul. I checked it out and it was awesome! You should check it out. You can find at quotev and its called This boy is going to drive me CrAZY ( paul Lahtoe fanfic) You can also find it through google which is what I did.

I would like to thank all my readers and reviews a big thanks. It means a lot to me that you've stuck with me this far. So... Thanks!

All things Twilight came from the mind of Stephanie Meyer and my mind contains my own thoughts all that are pretty weird so... yeah.

Chapter 4: Well It's Official. I've Lost My Mind

I have never been more freaked out in my life. I felt like I had just exploded. There really were no other words to explain what just happened. One minute I'm Sam Uley. Well okay I was a much more furious version but the point is I was me. Next thing I know is I'm exploding out of my own skin. Almost like I was changing into something else. Now I just felt... different. Like I was in someone else's body. And apparently in this body there is a constant heat running up and down my spine. Hesitantly I looked down at more feet to make sure I was okay. Well at least I looked down to where my feet were suppose to be. However when I looked down I saw two gigantic black paws.

Panicking I ran over to my truck to check my reflection in the mirror. But when I looked I didn't see my face. I saw the face of a gigantic black wolf. Well it was official. I've lost my mind. Or maybe, a small voice in my mind suggested. you really did turn into a wolf. I think I like the first possibility better. Most likely because the first possibility was actually possible. I mean, come on there was no way I'm actually a wolf.

Well either way I knew one thing. I couldn't let anyone see me. If I was insane and this was all in my head, I would end up in a mental hospital. If This was real ( which I highly doubt ) and I was a wolf, I would probably get shot at and killed.

So I ran. I went into the woods and took off as fast as I could and let me tell you, that was fast. I was probably going a out 120 mph. It kind of freaked me out but it was helping me get away faster so I'll deal with it.

It had been two weeks. I had run all the way to Canada and back to the La Push forest. I wouldn't have come back but I felt better here. More at home. That and I was exhausted. I haven't eaten or slept since I left. I have gotten a few drinks from different streams I've past though because despite the hell I'm going through I don't want to die.

I can't find a way to snap out of this. I want to so bad but I can't. I have a feeling that if I could calm down that it would help but I can't do that either. I was still freaking out.

That when I saw it. The sight made me stop dead in my tracks. I was just pacing by my house a couple of miles back, and I saw a line of police cars. But that's not what made me stop. It was the sight of my mom and Leah's tear streaked faces, pleading desperately with Chef Swan, that made me stop. The two most important people in my life looked so heartbroken. I used my inhumanly hearing, that seemed to be able to pick up everything, to listen in.

"Please you can stop the search. He's my son. I love him and he's still might be alive." I heard my mom plead.

"I'm so sorry Ms. Uley but it's been two weeks. There's nothing more we can do." Chef Swam replied.

"No please. He's not dead. He can't be I love him!" Leah cried, new tears dripping down her face.

That broke my heart. Their pain was my fault. I broke their hearts. In that moment I wanted nothing more to go over there and console Leah. To be able to take her pain away.

As soon as I thought this I felt the heat slowly leave my body and I felt myself change again. When I looked down I saw my feet. I would never take the sight of actually feet for granted again.

With wobbly steps I started to make my way slowly over to the line of police cars. I soon came into their line of sight.

"Sam?" Leah whispered.

"Leah." I managed to say back with the little energy I had left. With that I blacked out.

A/N- So is it as bad as I believe this is. Please let me know by reviewing. Also I decided that after every chapter I would take a poll for a different question for every chapter. Our first question is: If you could date one guy from Twilight who would it be? Personally I would date Jacob. (duh!) Let me know who you would date by pming me or putting it in the reviews.