The Light In Your Eyes

by Maddylovesyou

A light that is so precious. A light that brings hope and can change any situation from dire to okay. A light that one would kill for. Killua would certainly kill for him.

4. Chapter 4

Warm...secure. Killua wakes up with something warm and soft pressed against his back and something wrapped around his shoulders. When the ex-assassin first woke up he almost started to freak out, thinking that there was rope around him and he had gotten trapped somehow. That fear was quickly destroyed when he felt the soft body behind him shift, and the cute snore. As soon as it became clear to him that it was Gon who has his arms around him, Killua relaxed into the boy's arms, melting into him. The ex-assassin sighs happily. Honestly, he's never felt this rested. Being in Gon's arms put him right to sleep.

Really Killua was expecting it to be harder on him to sleep because of his training and the fact it's his secret love holding him but Gon's warm body and breath against his neck put him right to sleep. Because Killua trusts Gon. He trusts him more than anyone. Even though he was raised to believe that he shouldn't trust anyone, that a friend could become an enemy at any moment, Killua trusts Gon with everything that he is. He knows Gon would never hurt him. He knows Gon would never betray him. That's why he can sleep soundly next to his best friend whenever he allows himself to sleep. Because of the trust that has been built throughout the years.

It may be foolish but if Gon ever did become his enemy he wouldn't want to live anyway. Either Killua betrayed Gon or he had done something horrible to cause Gon to be his enemy. He wouldn't want to live in a world where Gon hated him.

Killua's heart flutters when Gon tightens his grip on him, the boy cutely mumbling something in his sleep. The ex-assassin feels warm. I wish I could wake up like this everyday. Killua turns around with some effort so he can look at his friend's face. Gon's eyebrows are furrowed, a slight frown on his lips. He pulls Killua closer, nuzzling into the pillow as the smile comes back to him. You're adorable. Why do you have to be so cute? Killua licks his lips, fighting the urge to kiss his friend good morning. Instead he settles with poking him on the forehead lightly. "Hey it's time to get up Gon. It's nine in the morning. We'll be leaving in an hour."

"Hmm?" Gon's eyebrows furrow, his face scrunching up before those eyes slowly open, those amber orbs out of focused. "Ah good morning Killua!" Gon's face lights up when he notices Killua, He gives him the brightest of smiles. "How did you sleep?"

"Pretty good I guess." Killua averts his gaze, fighting back his blush from that smile. He looks so happy to see me...It makes the ex-assassin feel all warm inside. "...You Gon?"

"I slept great! All night I felt warm and now I know why! It's because I was hugging Killua." Gon smiles.

"Don't say things like that with that face." Killua grumbles, struggling his way out of his friend's grip, feeling too warm by Gon's bright eyes and that smile. Your words burn me Gon. I just want to kiss you. If Gon keeps being like this, what he did last night won't sustain him for that long. Not when he's sweet. When Gon's sweet to him...it makes it hard to keep the longing from showing in his eyes or this feeling of love he has for his friend.

"Whats wrong with my face? And why not?" Gon blinks.

"Just because." Killua huffs, feeling a bit flustered by Gon once again making a cute, confused face.

"Hehe you're weird Killua!"

"You're the weird one! Just hugging me out of no where." Killua points a finger at Gon. "And saying those things."

Gon sticks his tongue out before chuckling. Killua can't help it and starts chuckling with him. Really it's always fun with you...no matter what we're doing.

"So do you like your hairstyle?" Gon suddenly sits up, Killua sitting up with him. He looks at Killua's hair with those eyes shinning with excitement.

"My hairstyle?" Killua blinks before he remembers. That's right Gon did my hair last night...right before I lost control and-

"Ah Killua!" Gon's voice resonates in his head.

Killua covers his face with his bangs, feeling flustered and a bit ashamed of last night. He couldn't hold it in anymore. Killua pushes the thoughts of last night out of his head, not letting the good or bad feelings linger right now as he refocuses on Gon and his question. My hair...I didn't look at it. Killua reaches back and feels on his hair, feeling the pony tail in it. He jumps out of bed and walks into the bathroom, looking at himself in the mirror.

Killua blinks at himself. It looks like he has short hair again. Gon put all his hair back in the pony tail except for his bangs. They frame his face. Killua turns to the side to look at the low pony tail that is holding the rest of his hair. Killua gives himself a look over again before smiling. " I like it Gon. And it gets most of the hair out of my face."

"Yay! I found something you like!" Gon beams, coming into the bathroom. "I like it on you too. I think it looks good."

Killua feels his chest flutter. He tries to hide the small smile of happiness that's formed on his lips from Gon's attention and his compliments. He feels like purring. Today seems to be his day. Waking up in Gon's arms, getting to see that adorable face so close to his, Gon fussing over his hair and complimenting him. They're going to get to sneak around at the circus and possibly see the legendary white fox in person. He gets to spend the whole day with Gon and then come back to lay in bed with his best friend. The only thing that could make today better is-

"Hey Killua do you want to take a quick bath with me? We could use the hot tub!" Gon beams, breaking Killua out of his thoughts. The ex-assassin sputters, whipping his head over to look at his friend, not believing that Gon had actually said what he was thinking about. Gon is smiling at him with those innocent amber orbs. "Well?"

Oh man he really said it...Killua feels his fingers twitch. Taking a bath with Gon would be amazing. He'd get to see Gon naked and soak in the water with him alone. He'd get to see Gon's face flush with heat. Killua wants to take a bath with Gon. He really wants to. But that's why he can't. I'm afraid if I got in alone with you I won't be able to stop myself from getting excited. Just the thought makes me warm. Killua doesn't want to have to explain to Gon why he got hard taking a bath with him. It would ruin everything.

"Idiot I told you it's strange for two grown men to get in a bath together alone. Weren't you listening to me yesterday?" Killua puts his hands on his hips, giving his friend an irritated look.

"I was but I didn't like it." Gon's eye brows furrow. "We use to take baths together when we were younger and it was a lot of fun. I don't like that now we are older it's weird. Leorio said it was because when you get older you can't do things you did as kids. Why is that? Why do little kids get to have all the fun?" Gon folds his arms, those amber eyes have a fire to them. "So I don't care if it's weird now that we're older. I want to take a bath with you."

"G-Gon." Killua feels his stomach do a flip at his honesty and conviction. He knows better than anyone once Gon's mind is set, it's set. There's no stopping him. Really the ex-assassin understands where Gon is coming from. He remembers being 12 and taking baths with Gon. They would play with bubbles and roughhouse. They would wash each others back and talk about the day and what they were going to do tomorrow. The baths they had were a lot of fun. And maybe If Killua hadn't changed, they could still take baths together with no problems. But now, Killua loves and lusts after his best friend. It's not like how it was when he was 12. Gon just doesn't understand. He doesn't have to deal with these feelings.

Honestly, boldly saying he wants to take a bath with me, and looking like he's in charge, what is he trying to do to me?! "It doesn't matter what you want. It might seem unfair but this is what growing up is all about. You heard Leorio, the only adults that take baths together are couples and we're not a couple Gon." Killua's voice comes out a bit colder than expected. Speaking that truth made his heart sink a bit. We're not a couple, nor will we ever be.

"But why does it have to be like that? Why can only couples take baths together? I like you Killua and I want to take a bath with you. It's fun and I miss it." Gon frowns slightly, locking eyes with the ex-assassin. "Do you not want to take a bath with me? Are you worried about being weird for it?-"

"You're just not getting it through that head of yours." Killua snaps, looking away from his friend. " As adults only people who like each other romantically take baths. I don't like you like that." The lie tingles his lips, making him feel sick to his stomach. Even though it's his own voice, he sounds cruel to his own ears. He tenses up, waiting for Gon to say something about how he still wants to take a bath with him or he'll start yelling at him and they'll get in a fight-

"...Okay Killua." Gon's voice is quiet. "Because I'm stupid I guess I just don't get it. When we were kids, we didn't have to have a certain like for each other to take a bath together. Why did things have to change? But like you said, I guess it's growing up and I'm slow to catch on. If it makes you mad, I won't ask you again." Gon turns around and walks out of the bathroom ,closing the door behind him.

Killua stares after him, not expecting that reaction at all. His stomach twists, and his throat feels dry. Though Gon didn't start yelling at him, Killua feels like he's been punched in the stomach. He was expecting Gon to keep trying or to get irritated but what just happened there was Gon got angry. He saw that small flame in those amber eyes. He was looking at Killua as if had just eaten his food and spit it up on his face.
Killua wouldn't mind making Gon irritated with him, or frustrated, he does that all the time. He doesn't like making his friend angry at him. When Killua thinks of his words and how meanly he said them he bites his lip. I was only pissed off because of how pathetic I am! Head over heels in love with a guy who isn't even gay! I was pissed because Gon doesn't understand how hard he makes it on me or my feelings. I shouldn't have taken it out on him...Gon's intentions were innocent. He just wanted to have fun together. Once again, Killua's feelings have ruined another thing.

"Hey Gon!" Killua opens up the bathroom door, the guilt weighting on him. He stops, his heart slowing when he looks around the room and sees that Gon isn't here. He left without me? Killua frowns. He has the urge to run out of the room and find his best friend but he suppresses it. Best to give him some space. We'll be fine later. If I have to I'll apologize. If Gon understood why I can't take a bath with him he wouldn't want to take a bath with me anyway.

I'm trying to protect you from myself Gon. You just don't understand how hard it is to keep these feelings to myself. I want you so bad. Now that I'm 17 almost 18 it's almost unbearable. This isn't some little crush. I can't stop it. If I could destroy it, I would. God knows I've tried. But every single day is the same. I always love you.

Killua gets dress slowly despite how anxious he feels. He bites at his lip, thinking of things he should say to Gon while still keeping it so they aren't going to be taking a bath together. Really, he should be happy. Gon is going to quit asking him to bathe with him. But all the ex-assassin feels is disappointment. The way I snapped at him wasn't right. Saying how I didn't like him like that...such a lie it hurt. I hate having to lie to you but it's all I know. I'm not honest like you Gon. I'm not a being of the light like you are.

Killua takes a deep breath, calming himself down. He puts his hands in his pockets and walks out of the room, slowly and calmly walking down the hallway like he doesn't have a care in the world. All his thoughts are pushed off to the side. No one can tell he's been having a battle with himself or the anxiety he's feeling with seeing Gon.

He'll act like Gon's actions haven't affected him. He'll lie like he always does.

---

There's a loud knock at the door. Kurapika looks back from the window he was looking out of. He had just gotten dressed and wanted to have a quiet moment looking out of the window and enjoying the view. Leorio is taking a shower, the only sound in the room being the water running. That was in till the knocking started.

"Who's there?" Kurapika walks to the door, already having a feeling on who it might be. He frowns at how the knocking seems a bit frantic. He opens the door and there he is. Gon looks up at him, a deep frown on his face, those amber eyes seem darker.

"Kurapika I need to talk to you." Gon grabs Kurapika's arm before pulling him out of the room. The blonde stumbles a bit, not expecting the boy to just pull him like that but he lets himself be lead down the hallway. Kurapika studies the teenager, his grip on his arm is tight but he's not hurting him. He's marching down the hall with speed and his shoulders are back.

"Did something happen Gon?" Kurapika feels a bit of worry.

"Hold on please." Gon stops walking. He takes a deep breath. He holds it in before letting it out. He turns towards the blonde, those amber eyes seem back to normal, a determination in them. "Kurapika can you teach me how to me more of an adult?"
"Huh?" the blonde blinks.

"I need training!" Gon gets in a stance. "I need to understand more things about being older so I don't look so stupid in front of Killua." His shoulders slump a bit.

"What's this now?" Kurapika walks Gon over to the side so they can talk without being in people's way. "What's this about?"

"Well...I know yesterday you guys were talking about how only people who like each other take baths when you're an adult but I really want to take a bath with Killua again!" Gon frowns. "I don't like how things have to change just because we're older...so I asked Killua if he wanted to take a bath with me anyway. Killua got mad at me because I don't understand I guess. Why is it that you have to like someone romantically to take a bath with them when you're an adult?" Gon rubs his arm. "Killua seemed to get madder the more I tried to explain to him how I want to take a bath together like when we were kids." Gon looks at Kurapika. "I want you to help me understand things so I don't look stupid in front of Killua and then he won't get mad."

"It's not that you're stupid Gon. You're just innocent. Killua shouldn't have gotten mad at you but you have to understand that now that you two are older Gon it is a bit strange to take a bath together. Even though you're really close, I know, now that you've grown it's strange. It's against social norms I guess." Kurapika puts a hand on Gon's shoulder. "I know you see it as two friends sharing a bath together but most others would see it as you two are a couple or that you're gay. Killua probably just felt uncomfortable. He's more in-tuned with social norms than you are. He was probably thinking if he got in the bath with you, and anyone were to find out, that they would think he's gay."

"What's so bad about that? Gay is when you like another man right?" Gon tilts his head, those eyes locked on him, absorbing everything that he says.

"Yes. There's nothing wrong with it but most think there is something bad about it. In society, people look down on people who are gay. Some places are more accepting and others are not. But most of the time, straight men don't want to be looked at as gay, and even some gay men don't want to seem gay."

"But that isn't right Kurapika! Why look down on someone for romantically liking someone else? Why does it matter if it's with another guy?" Gon's amber orbs have a fire, and he grips his fist. "That makes me angry. No one should look down on you for who you like Kurapika. I don't care if it' social norms or whatever. I don't feel there's anything wrong with being gay or for two grown men to share in a bath together."

"Gon." Kurapika smiles at the protectiveness of his friend. Gon doesn't judge him. When Kurapika told him his secret of being gay on the boat, Gon's expression didn't change. He doesn't treat him differently. He treats him as he did before. It warms his heart really. "It's alright. The world works like that but what matters is how you feel about it."

"I don't mind it but...I guess Killua does. He doesn't want to be gay. Maybe that's why he said he didn't like me like that." Gon frowns. There's a flash of hurt in his eyes before it's gone. " I was making Killua uncomfortable when I didn't understand. That's why I want you to help me Kurapika. Because of you I get why Killua doesn't want to take a bath with me anymore. It still kind of bothers me. I don't think he should care what others think, I don't. but I don't want to push Killua to do anything he doesn't want to."

"Any questions you have i'll answer Gon. I don't mind. Growing up is hard, you haven't had many to teach you these things." Kurapika smiles gently. "Don't worry Gon. Just because Killua doesn't want to take a bath with you, it doesn't mean he dislikes you. He's still your best friend. It's just growing up."

"I don't like growing up." Gon pouts, crossing his arms. "Why couldn't it have stayed the way it was before? Why do things have to change when you turn into an adult?"

"There's more responsibilities. People put many rules on certain age groups to try to keep them in line. It's up to you whether you follow them or not."

"So Kurapika does that mean you've taken a bath with a guy?" Gon suddenly blinks.

"N-No! Don't ask me something like that." Kurapika flushes, whispering.

"Oh I'm sorry I was just wondering since you take bathes with people you like." Gon thinks for a moment. "I guess you wouldn't know how it's different to take a bath with someone you like romantically and a friend."

"...The difference is that things happen when you take a bath with someone you like romantically. Usually. Being in a tub with the one you like, naked...you can see where that can lead can't you? You see, most people think that when two adults take a bath together, that they are having sex."

"Really?! People do it in the tub!" Gon's eyes get wide with wonder.

"Gon!" Kurapika puts a hand over his mouth, his face getting red. "I'm starting to regret this. Maybe you're to-"

"Don't say i'm too young Kurapika." Gon suddenly gets serious. "Killua's growing up fast. If he's not too young to know all about this then I'm not. I don't want to get left behind."

...when you talk like that, it seems as though you think Killua will leave you. "...Yes, People have sex in the tub."

"Don't people mainly do it on a bed?" Gon tilts his head before he frowns. "That's how it's like in the movies."

"Well it happens there a lot but people can do it anywhere they want." Kurapika takes a deep breath.

"That kind of sounds fun." Gon smiles, those eyes bright with innocent curiosity. " What about in a tree? Or on a mountain? Or in the ocean?"

"It can be done in all those places- don't say it sounds like fun! You're too young for sex. Don't become like Leorio!" Kurapika can't help but to scold Gon, becoming a mother once again.

"Oh don't worry Kurapika. I won't have sex with just anyone. I'll only make love like Mito-san told me about. I'll only do that with someone I really like." Gon smiles. "My special someone."

So innocent. Really, some times it's hard looking into those eyes. "That's good Gon. Keep it that way." Kurapika smiles at his friend.

"Do you have a special someone Kurapika? Or someone you like?" Gon moves closer. "If so, can you explain to me how it feels?"

"...I do like someone." Kurapika averts his gaze, feeling self conscious. "I like him a lot. To explain how it feels well..." Kurapika thinks for a moment. " ...You know Gon you've been asking me a lot of questions. I want to ask you one."

"Go ahead." Gon smiles.

"What's with this interest in liking people? I know you said you wanted to understand it because Killua brought it up but is there another reason?"

Gon is quiet for a moment, staring at the wall. "Well...I guess it's because I'm trying to understand the difference still. Between liking a friend and liking someone romantically."

"I thought you understood yesterday when I taught you?"

"I did but there's something that's still been bothering me-"

"Hey there you two are!" Gon is cut off by Leorio's loud voice. It booms in the hallway. Kurapika looks down the hall to see Leorio grinning at them wearing a white v neck and black pants. They fit too nicely to his body. Kurapika quickly looks away from him to see that Killua is walking next to Leorio. His hands in his pockets and his face blank. He doesn't look angry but he may be concealing it. Kurapika glances over at Gon, seeing that he's locking eyes with Killua, that look of determination coming back. "Killua came looking for Gon when I got out of the shower and then I realized you were gone too Kurapika. I knew we probably find you two together."

Kurapika catches the slight twitch of Killua's face but other than that he doesn't react. Gon runs up to Killua. He stops in front of him. The two boys stare at each other for a moment. Killua opens his mouth like he's about to say something, that blank face starting to fall only for Gon to grin.

"Sorry for just running out Killua. I understand better now." Gon smiles. " You ready for the circus? I can't wait to see the show and the fox." Gon gives Killua a wink. The ex-assassin stares at Gon, his lips slightly parted before he nods, seeming to snap out of it. He chuckles at the look Gon is giving him, he looks so excited.

"Yeah me too. It's been awhile since I've had cotton candy."

"Oh is it good?"

"Is it good?!" Killua starts to shake Gon. "you poor soul you've never had cotton candy?"

"Um...no?" Gon gives a nervous smile when Killua starts to pull on his cheek.

"Why haven't you said anything? We need to hurry up and get this boy some cotton candy. He's going to love it. I know it." Killua looks over at Leorio but really he's grinning at Gon, Those blue eyes that were dull coming down the hall have gotten brighter and lighter.

It seems that whatever happened between the two has been forgotten. Just like that. They're back to being playful and smiling at each other. Kurapika wishes he could be like that. He just holds on to things to much.

"I was worried there for a minute." Leorio whispers, coming up next to Kurapika. "When Killua came to my room looking for Gon I could tell something was up even though Killua was acting normal. But as soon as Gon started talking to him, that feeling disappeared."

"I think they had a fight." Kurapika whispers back. "But it seems like it's been resolved."

"Yeah that's good. It's heartbreaking seeing those two fight. Even when they fight it's nothing. They go right back to the way they were. Do you know what the fight was about?"

"No."

"Damn I wonder what it was?' Leorio mumbles before shaking his head. "Oh well. Like you said, if Gon wanted to tell us, he would-" Leorio is quiet before he grins. "I wonder if they were fighting over a girl. Maybe Killua knows Gon like someone-"

"Stop making stuff up in your head. I doubt even if Gon does like someone and Killua knows it that it would cause a fight in them." Kurapika folds his arms. "They aren't you Leorio."

"I know you're just as curious as I am." Leorio's eye twitches. "I really think Gon at least likes someone! I mean did you hear his answer yesterday? He said he didn't know how to answer if he likes someone. It must be because he likes someone but doesn't understand it! I have to get to the bottom of it and make it work for my friend. I have his back-" Leorio is whispering. Kurapika is about to tell him to get out of Gon's business only for their conversation to be broken.

"Stop whispering to yourselves and lets get going. We're excited for the circus." Killua grunts.

"Yeah! Lets hurry Killua!"Gon grabs his friend's arm and starts pulling him along, chuckling.

"Hey! Don't just pull me suddenly! We still have to wait for the cab!"

"I just need to run with you Killua!"

"Fine!" Kurapika hears the irritation in Killua's voice but it sounds false. The blonde can hear the secret smile in the tone. Killua's happy that him and Gon are back to normal. Call it a hunch.

Kurapika follows behind them with Leorio. They chat about this and that, smiles come to his lips. How do I explain this feeling? Gon had asked me that question...

Leorio smiles over at him and he feels his heart skip.

I thinks that's another question that doesn't have an answer.

---

Gon stares out of the window in the cab, watching as the many buildings and people go by. He's not really looking at anything in particular. His mind is else where, working on over drive trying to piece a puzzle together. Some things are just too hard to understand. I wish I was smarter. Killua's always been brighter than me. With making strategies and knowing enemy's strengths. He also knows a lot about being an adult too. I can just tell. I wonder if he thinks I'm holding him back? Gon grips his fist, his eye brows furrowing.

"...Hey Gon." The raven haired male in question blinks being broken out of his thoughts by his friend's silky voice. Gon looks over at Killua, the ex-assassin is looking at him intently, those blue eyes studying him. It's only him and Killua right now. There wasn't enough room so Leorio and Kurapika had to take another cap. "What did you mean back there when you said that you understand now?"

"...Just that. I understand why you don't want to take a bath with me. I was making you uncomfortable because being that we're older, people will think we're gay if we take bathes together." Gon crosses his arms. "You didn't want to take a bath with me because you don't want people thinking you're gay right? Because you don't like me romantically it made you uncomfortable."

"Is that what Kurapika told you?" Killua's voice sounds strange. Not angry but something close to it.

"Is it not true?" Gon turns to Killua quickly, feeling his heart raise. Killua quickly looks away, those bangs hiding his face.

"No...He's right. At our age it would be gay to take a bath together. Do you get it now Gon? It's not like when we were 12. It's different now."

"...Killua do you think being gay is wrong?" Gon glances over at his friend. There was a tensing of his shoulders but he doesn't look at Gon.

"I don't know. What about you Gon? Do you think it's wrong?" Killua's voice has some bite to it this time. Gon doesn't take it to heart. He looks really tense.

"Not at all." Gon kicks his legs. Killua whips his head over, looking at Gon with surprise.

"W-What?" Killua blinks, that tenseness has left but those eyes are trained on Gon, studying his face.

"I don't think it's wrong. I think it's wrong of others to say it's wrong. And I don't like anyone who looks down on people for being gay. There's nothing wrong with it at all." Gon puffs out his cheeks, thinking of Kurapika. One of his best friends is gay. He likes other men romantically. No one should look down on Kurapika for it. "What's the difference really in liking a man or a woman? It's the same feeling isn't it?"

"...yeah." Killua's eyes have a certain light to them, Gon can't explain it. "There's nothing wrong with it at all. I completely agree with you Gon-"

"Then why do you care that people will think you're gay if you take a bath with me?" Gon tilts his head.

"It's not that i'm afraid people will think I'm gay Gon I..." Killua trails off. His face gets pink as he looks away and out the window. "I just...can't take a bath with you anymore Gon."

"Will you tell me the true reason?"

"I can't Gon. Trust me I can't."

"Okay." Gon sighs in relief, getting Killua to peek over at him. " That's fine. I'm just glad that it's not what Kurapika said. I didn't like thinking that you would let something like that stop you from taking a bath with me. But if you don't want to do it then that's fine."

"It's not that I don't want to Gon..." Killua seems hesitant.

"Then can we take a bath together again sometime?" Gon looks at Killua hopefully only to calm down a bit. "If not it's okay. Just let me know. I said I would stop asking if it made you angry."

"It doesn't make me angry. I miss taking a bath with you too Gon." Killua keeps looking out of the window. "...We'll take a bath together again but not today-"

"Yay! That makes me so happy!" Gon wraps his arms around Killua, hugging him tightly from behind, grinning. " I can't wait to take a bath with you!"

"G-Gon don't say that so loud." Killua flushes, struggling against his friend. "You're going to make me regret my decision."

"Aw don't say that!" Gon lets go of Killua, those amber eyes so bright. "It will be a lot of fun. Who cares what society says adults can and can't do. We should do what we want Killua. This is what you want right? You're not doing it just to make me happy are you?" Gon frowns, getting close to Killua's face so he can stare into those blue eyes that are so wide. They flash with something Gon hasn't seen before. Killua lays his head against Gon's, successfully blocking his view on his eyes.

"No...I'm not doing it just to make you happy."

"Why the sudden change then?"

"I decided that you're right." Killua keeps his face hidden. "being an adult doesn't mean we have to get rid of all the fun stuff." Killua looks up, those blue eyes hold mischief. "we can be adults, but we'll bend the rules a little~"

"Yay!"Gon chuckles, leaning back into his seat. " I'm glad we can do it again..." Gon stops smiling, looking over at Killua seriously. "but if you ever feel uncomfortable just let me know and we'll stop. Like I said, I don't want you to have to do anything you don't want to. "Gon smiles. "I want you to be happy Killua."

Killua stares at Gon a moment, those lips slightly parted, those blue eyes lose their mischief only to get bright. When Killua looks at him like that, Gon can't help to think he looks beautiful. His stomach does that weird feeling again and his heart rate starts to go up. Gon doesn't understand the look that just flashed in Killua's eyes but it made him feel so strange. He doesn't know what it means or what this sickness means.

"idiot." Killua mumbles under his breath, looking out the window again. Gon frowns. I want Killua to look at me not out the window. When ever Gon feels this sickness he wants to touch Killua more and have Killua looking at him.

Gon flushes and looks out the window himself. He feels embarrassed for some reason. When he's feeling like this his instinct is to touch Killua but Gon wonders if he should listen to his instinct. Killua just got done from being mad at him for being weird. It's nice enough that Killua has come back around on the bath...

But really...Gon wants to touch Killua's hand again. Maybe I should talk to Leorio about this sickness...maybe he knows what it is now that he's a doctor.

"Hey Gon I can see the circus from here." Killua points out his window, getting Gon to lean over him to look. His amber eyes light up at seeing the huge multicolored tent coming up.

"Wow it's huge!" Gon starts to kick his feet, feeling too excited. "Is that an elephant I see?!"

"Yup." Killua chuckles. "Before we go looking at anything we need to get you some cotton candy."

"But I wanna look closer at the elephant- I think people are riding it!" Gon presses his face against the glass, his eyes widening when it looks like a family is ridding it, sitting on a red carpet that's on the elephant's back. "I wanna get on it! Killua we should get on it!" Gon starts pulling on Killua's sleeve.

"Fine we'll get on the elephant first before the show starts but then we're going to stock up on cotton candy for the show." Killua watches Gon for a moment, before glancing away. "I'll scope out the place between then. I think you should stay with Leorio and Kurapika."

"Aw why I want to come." Gon frowns.

"You'll come with me when it's time to sneak in. I'll just be looking at what we got. It will be hard because all the performers will be around the back getting ready. The more of us there are the better chance of being seen. I"m not sure how much cover I'll have either. If we get caught before the show we probably won't be able to see it."

"I guess that makes sense." Gon pouts a bit but he gets Killua's point. The ex-assassin is still the best at sneaking around. Gon's gotten pretty good too learning from Killua and his training but as his friend said if there's not much cover to work with then he'll be spotted by someone. "I'm counting on you Killua!" Gon beams. "Find out as much as you can about this circus."

"I got you." Killua smirks as the cab comes to a stop. Gon stares up at his friend and Killua stares back at him. Gon had always thought Killua's eyes were something. Some times his eyes look a light blue color while other times his eyes look purplish. Right now his eyes look purple, the sun hitting him just right to produce that color. Gon likes both of his eye colors.

"...Is something on my face?" Killua blinks and he wipes his face, looking at his hand before looking at Gon. When their eyes meet again his lips twitch but he doesn't look away. "Why are you staring at me like that?"

"sorry I was looking at your eyes." Gon smiles at his friend. The ex-assassin feels warm to the touch. "I've always thought they were pretty and unique! Sometimes your eyes are blue while other times they're purple. Like right now they're purple." Gon moves the piece of bang that's about to get in Killua's face, his fingers brushing against his cheek. Killua feels soft...It's something Gon hasn't noticed before. His skin is smooth. Killua's face is red. He's probably embarrassed by what Gon just said but he didn't want him to hide his face. That sickness has come back at looking at Killua's flushed face and how his eye lids lower.

"Your eyes are prettier than mine Gon." Killua's eyes lock onto his before they shift away. "I never really noticed that about my eyes."

"Mind aren't prettier. They're not cool like yours. Killua's amazing, everything about you is cool." Gon chuckles when Killua's face gets redder. His body seems warmer too. Those purple eyes shift this way and that, they look softer though, a different look coming to them.

"Are you two going to just sit there or are you going to get out?" The cap driver grunts. "I have other clients you know."

"We're getting out" Killua gives the driver a look before he opens up the door and gets out. Gon close behind him. The raven haired male can't help to feel a bit disappointed from the distance between them now but he quickly forgets about that as his eyes get wide taking in all the people and colors and sounds and smells. There's so many tents for shoppers, people he's never seen before walk around with their families, couples hold hands and laugh. This place is brimming with life and excitement.

"Wow there's so many people! And it smells strange." Gon sniffs the air only to wrinkle his nose.

"Well it's the circus. I bet it does smell strange. "Killua chuckles at his friend's face, those purple eyes taking in their surroundings as well. "it looks like the line to ride the elephant starts over there." Killua points off towards the side where the elephant is walking around in a circle with smiling people on it's back. Gon can't tell who's in the line and who's not because some people seem to be just gathered around to watch while others are slowly moving up in the line.

"Man this place is packed!" Gon turns around to see Leorio and Kurapika walk towards them. It looks like they just got out of the cab. Leorio grins at the two. "It's been forever since I've been to a circus."

" It looks like most of the island is here to see the show." Kurapika stops next to Gon. He looks at the raven haired male before looking at Killua. "So..." Kurapika smiles. "What do you guys want to do first? We have a little time before the show starts."

"Gon wants to ride the elephant." Killua points back towards the line.

"Eh the line looks really long." Leorio wrinkles his nose. "Gon why don't we do something else?"

"Like what?" Gon tilts his head.

"I'll go with you Gon." Killua gives Leorio a look.

"Or you four could spare this old lady your time." The four friends turn to see an older woman sitting at a table by herself. There's nothing on the table and seems no one has paid her any mind. "I will make it worth your wild."

"How?" Leorio blinks. Gon moves closer till he's right in front of the older woman smiling.

"Are you a part of the circus too?" Gon asks in excitement.

"Why yes I am young man. I'm a palm reader. I can tell many things just by examining your palm. I can tell you how many kids you're going to have, if you're going to get married, what's going to happen in the next month or the next 12 years. I can find out everything about a person by just looking at their palms." The old woman locks eyes with Gon and smiles gently. "I can tell you're a nice young boy. Would you like me to tell your fortune? I'll do it for free."

"Yeah sure!" Gon's eyes sparkle and he holds out his hand. Killua is standing by his side now and Leorio and Kurapika are on his left. "Could you tell me if I'll get a hint on a man named Ging soon?"

"Sure. I can tell you anything that you want." The woman grabs Gon's hand. She closes her eyes, feeling over the lines of his palm. "I need for you to take a deep breath dear and breath out. Breath slowly."

Gon can feel his friend's eyes on him but most of all he can feel this woman's aura flowing through him. It feels really warm in his palm. There's a long moment of silence as she feels over his hand, his hand is now a bright blue color. Killua whistles, those purple eyes now looking blue in the light.

"This is cool." Leorio grips his fist excitedly. "I might get mine done next!-"

"Shh she's trying to concentrate." Kurapika shhs him, watching this woman work intently.

Suddenly the woman gasps, letting go of Gon's hand quickly. The raven haired boy tilts his head when he sees that her hands are shaking. "Are you okay?"

The woman doesn't respond for a moment. She catches her breath, glancing down at her hands. "It's been a while since I've touched one of you." She looks back up at the four bewildered faces. "I'm sorry but I can't read your palm."

"Huh? Why not?"

"Because you have a very rare palm. Your fate hasn't been written out for you. You have an unwritten palm." The woman locks eyes with Gon. "I could only see a little bit into the future and then there was nothing. The rest of your future hasn't been written out for you."

"What are you talking about?" Leorio takes a step closer, peering at Gon's palm.

"In most people, their lives are written out in their palms. Their fate has already been written and sealed. But this boy's fate isn't. At least up to a certain point. In his palm it was written that you two would meet and become best friends." The woman points at Killua. "It was also fated that Gon would find out about his dad and become a hunter. It was fated that he would meet you two and become good friends with you. It was written that he was to train with Wing and fated for him to go to greed island. Everything up to this point has been written out in your palm, but soon the writing stops. So I'm sorry but I can't see if you're going to get a hint on your father Gon. It's too far ahead for me to see."

"When does it stop?" Killua stares at Gon's palm, there's a frown tugging at his lips.

"A week from now." Everyone looks at her in surprise. "Don't worry. It's not because Gon is going to die or anything. If he were to die I would be able to see that. In normal palms I can tell the person when and how they are going to die if they wish but with Gon I just can't see past this week. It's very interesting. I haven't touched an unwritten palm in 50 years." The woman looks at Gon seriously. "You have the power to choose your own fate. It hasn't been written for you so in a week from now, you write your own story."

"I think we all write are own story." Leorio grunts.

"So you think." The old woman chuckles before she locks eyes with Gon. "So tell me young man, how do you want your story to go?"

"That's easy. I want to find Ging and become one of the best hunters. I want to see the world and for the rest of my story I want to stay with Killua." Gon puts an arm around his best friend's shoulder. "I want us to always be together!"

Killua's bangs cover his face but if Gon could see he would have noticed the smile on the ex-assassin's face and how those purple eyes have lighten up in his emotions. He would see the faint blush on his cheeks.

"I believe all that can happen. If you work at it, you can make anything happen." The woman smiles. "Just remember your goals and don't lose sight of what's important to you Gon." The woman closes her eyes. "So...I must give you a warning seeing your answer I can already tell what's going to happen though I can not see it."

"A warning?" Gon looks over at the woman. Killua looks up that smile gone from his face as he stares at the old woman. Kurapika and Leorio exchange a glance before looking back at this woman.

"Soon you'll be given a choice. When it happens you won't even realize that there is a choice. What you choose will have consequences. Choose wisely."

"What's the choice going to be?" Killua raises his eye brow, stuffing his hands in his pockets.

"I can't say. All I know is there will be a choice that he'll have to make soon."

"Alright do me now!" Leorio holds his hand out.

"Okay that'll be 30,000 jenny."

"Hey that's kind of pricey lady! Especially since you weren't able to tell us anything about Gon. I don't even know if your credible or not."

"If you don't think i'm credible then you shouldn't' get your fortune done by me. Simple as that."

"While you guys are messing around with her i'm going to go to the bathroom. Okay Gon?" Killua puts his hands behind his head, giving Gon a wink. The raven haired male quickly catches on and gives him a thumbs up.

"Okay! We'll wait for you here." Gon waves him goodbye, Killua's gaze lingers for a bit before he turns around and walks off casually. Killau's going to scope out the circus. Gon can feel himself shaking. He's so excited to do something like this. It's been a while. He trust that Killua will be fine. He doesn't sense anything wrong with this circus and his instinct hasn't told him anything.

"I take it that you two have made up?" Kurapika smiles when Gon looks over at him.

"Yeah! It turns out you were wrong Kurapika. Killua didn't want to take a bath with me because he didn't want people thinking he's gay. He said it was because of something else. While we were in the cab he said he would take a bath with me again! Just not today."

"Really?" Kurapika blinks.

"Yeah! He said that we'll be adults but we'll bend the rules a bit. Don't worry I told Killua that he didn't have to do anything that he didn't want to. But he said it's not that he doesn't want to. He just can't tell me the reason why he couldn't take a bath with me today. I wonder what it was but I won't push it."

Kurapika stares at him a moment, the blonde seems to be thinking. "...Gon have you noticed anything strange about Killua lately?"

"Strange? Like how?"

"Well...I've noticed he blushes around you a lot."

"Yeah that's because I make him embarrassed all the time when I tell him how I feel!"

" and when did you two stop taking bathes together?"

"I think a couple of years ago. When we were around 14."

"Did he say why?"

"Hmm...he said because he felt weird when we got into the tub together. I think he got too hot because the tub was too small for the both of us or something."

"...And you two haven't stopped sleeping together?"

"Nope! We sleep together every night or at least close to each other."

" I see..." Kurapika has a thoughtful expression on his face, realization lighting up those gray eyes.

"grr lets go Kurapika, Gon. This woman just told me I'm not going to get married to the girl of my dreams and that i'm not going to have kids! Can't believe I wasted 30,000 on that!" Leorio fumes, coming over to his friends, his eye twitching.

"We have to wait here for Killua."

"Maybe we could look at this shop while we wait for him." Kurapika points to the open tent behind them that seems to have trinkets and such. Gon follows Kurapika's finger only for his eyes to widen when he sees the many things that are displayed. Those amber orbs fall on one thing though.

"Oh wow!" Gon rushes over to the display case, his eyes take in the piece of jewelry closer. It's a purple stone hanging on a small piece of metal. The purple is light and it sparkles. It looks like Killua's eyes.

"I didn't know you like earrings Gon." Kurapika stands next to him looking down at what the younger male is looking at.

"They go on your ears?"

"Yes you-" Kurapika starts to explain, about to pull back his hair when Leorio grabs Kurapika's arm and pulls him away. "W-What? What are you doing?"

Gon blinks, watching his two friends go deeper in the tent away from him. Kurapika struggling while Leorio whispers something to him excitedly. Gon looks down at the ear rings, tilting his head. These are really pretty...and they would go great with Killua's eyes. Kurapika said they go on the ears. Do they hang off of them somehow?

"Are you looking to buy something?" the man behind the counter asks.

"...Yes could I get these earrings please?"

"A nice choice lad you have an eye for jewelery. Do you know what kind of stone this is?" The man opens up the glass case to take out the earrings. They sparkle more up close, the purple dazzling him. Gon shakes his head, his heart beating a little faster at the thought of Killua wearing these. " they say the stone has a charm. Who ever you give it to you're destined to stay together forever. One of those little cute stories you know. Your girl will love them."

"Actually they're for a guy." Gon smiles brightly, not getting the strange look he's getting from the man. "my best friend! I really want to get these now. How much are they?"

"Um...40 million jenny."

"Whoa that's a lot!" Gon shouts.

"Hey you can't put a price on these babies. They're called the love gem for a reason! Who ever wears them gets good luck and is said they are protected by the love of the person who gave it to them." The guy grunts.

"Wow that's awesome!" Gon beams. He frowns when he thinks of how much it is but when he thinks of what this man said, that weird feeling comes to his stomach. He thinks of Killua wearing the earrings and thanking him. He thinks of Killua always having a piece of him on him through the earrings. The fact that they're the same color as his friend's eyes makes his heart beat faster. Gon smiles sheepishly, sticking out his tongue. I just won't tell Killua how much I spent on them. "I"ll take them."

"Good choice! I'm sure your...friend will love them." The man wrinkles his nose again but when Gon hands him his card and takes the millions, his lips turn in a smile.

Gon's whole face lights up as he watches the man pack the earrings into a small black box before giving it to him. When Kurapika and Leorio come back, Gon hides the ear rings in his pocket and the receipt. He knows they'll scold him for spending so much on a pair of earrings but...he really wanted to get them for Killua.

Gon can't wait for his best friend to come back.

---

"Damn." Killua curses once he's out of Gon's sight, he weaves his way between people, glancing around as if he's an interested shopper. He feels that his face is a little warm. The ex-assassin feels different emotions going through him. Mainly irritation. Gon truly is his weakness. He always ends up giving in to him in some way.

This morning Killua had put his foot down. He told Gon that they're not going to take baths anymore because that's how it's suppose to be. Killua knew he would get mad but Gon just leaving him alone made him nervous. When Killua had found Gon with Kurapika, he felt anxious. He didn't like that Gon immediately went to him. Killua should have just left it be when Gon let the fight go, saying he 'understood'.

But he couldn't let it go. Killua didn't like how Gon reacted. He didn't like that Gon suddenly just "understood" after talking to Kurapika. He didn't like thinking Gon would never ask to take a bath with him again. Killua once again let his feelings get in the way. He had to question Gon. Once he found out what Kurapika had told him, he couldn't help being pissed. That blonde bastard told Gon it was because Killua didn't want to seem gay. Of course it fit with Killua's story and if Killua had stuck with it maybe he could have avoided the risk of taking a bath with Gon...

But of course Gon had to go and ask him if he thought being gay was wrong. Everything in Killua had frozen up. His chest started to hurt and he had to look out the window. He knew his face had gotten pale. He responded smartly that he didn't know and asked Gon if he thought it was wrong, already accusing him but really Killua was scared. He was scared to hear Gon's response. If his best friend had said he thought it was wrong or gross or strange...It would have crushed any false hope he has.

Killua's not sure if he could have hidden it from his best friend and he might have broken down. Killua has been afraid for awhile, thinking about what Gon would think of a man loving another man. He's been so worried since he turned 14 about it. That's why Killua hasn't taught Gon about being Gay. That's why he hasn't even let Gon know that it's a thing. Until now. So when Gon asked what his option on being gay was, Killua felt his blood run cold. This was it. The fear he's been having coming true.

Killua can't explain the relief and surprise that followed when instead of Gon saying that being gay is wrong or disgusting, he said that being gay isn't wrong and that loving a man and a woman is the same. He said he didn't like people who look down on people for being gay. Killua wanted to yell and scream in joy. The false hope that he had grew in that moment and his cold blood turned back warm. He was so happy in that moment...

But then Gon had to turn it on him, acting as if Killua thought It was wrong because he didn't want people thinking he's gay. Killua didn't want Gon to think he thought it was wrong. Hell he is gay. So he decided to tell him the truth. That the gay thing was a lie. He just told Gon he couldn't tell him the real reason. Though in that moment he just wanted to come out and say it. He wanted to grab a hold of Gon and say "I'm gay Gon and I love you, do you think that's wrong?" he was close but he held it in. He couldn't let himself get carried away.

Killua's just glad Gon accepted this answer...and then of course he made the mistake of saying he would take a bath with Gon again, just not today. Really saying just not today was his way of stalling the enviable. Why the hell did I agree to take a bath with him again?! And then Gon had to be all cute, saying that he just wanted me to be happy...Damn how could I turn him down? Or say I don't want to? Because I do want to. What makes me happy...is Gon.

Killua's face has gotten hotter, the circus tent is coming up. He keeps looking around, stopping every once in awhile as if he's interested in a shop. He needs to act normal or he'll seem suspicious.

Sometimes I feel like Gon's teasing me, just trying to push me over the edge...calling my eyes pretty and unique... Killua feels his heart skip a beat. He's been looking at them and he noticed that they change colors. When he said that, Killua felt really happy. The attention and the feeling in his chest almost made him purr. He wanted to pounce on Gon. He wanted to tell him how beautiful every part of his body was.

Killua pushed off his feelings again. But of course Gon wasn't done with him. At the fortune lady he had to go and say that he wanted to stay with him for the rest of his story and grab a hold of him, looking up at him with that cute face. Killua licks his lips, his purple eyes getting half lidded and his heart beat thuds in his chest. Gon makes him too happy. He feels as if he doesn't deserve it. He doesn't deserve to be in that light but oh how he wants it. He wants to be with Gon for the rest of his story too. He never wants to be away from him. Maybe it would be better for Gon if he were to leave him but Killua is selfish. As long as Gon doesn't send him away, Killua won't leave. He'll follow him anywhere and help Gon with any goal that he comes up with. Killua has got it bad.

And Gon's innocence and honesty makes it all the harder on him. When ever Gon stares at him, especially today when he was staring into his eyes, telling him how they are pretty, those eyes were burning him. He felt so warm and he had to fight his strong urge of just leaning in and kissing the boy senseless. Those eyes burn him too much. Killua needs to get a hold of himself and focus on spying on the circus for now.

Hopefully Gon won't tease me too much more. Killua grumbles as he shoves his hands into his pockets. But really a part of him wants Gon to tease him. He wants Gon's attention. Maybe he's a masochist. He loves the false hope he gets, wondering if maybe just maybe, Gon could be his. Even though he knows Gon is out of reach.

Killua takes a deep breath, his heart rate slowing down, his face gets pale and those purple eyes get hard. He uses zetsu, hiding his aura as he moves quickly. In a blink of an eye he's behind the tent. Killua glances, seeing there's no one around. His eyes fall on the opening in the back. So they do have a back door. Killua smirks, moving smoothly over so he's next to the entrance, not making a sound at all. He slowly leans in, glancing into the opening. It looks like this opening leads to some kind of storage room. There's a bunch of boxes stacked up. He doesn't see anyone.

Killua quietly slips in, getting behind a stack of boxes. He keeps low as he jumps from box to box, making sure he has cover. There's no one in this room and it looks like this is where they keep their animal food and extra equipment. None of the performers are in here. Killua's eyes narrow when he hears foots steps coming closer from an opening to the left. He stops moving, hiding behind a stack of three boxes, looking through the small hole that's between the wall of boxes. He keeps his breathing shallow, his eyes narrow waiting for any signal that he needs to get out.

"It's going to be a full house today." Two men walk in, the one talking is tall with black hair. There's black paint under his eye and daggers hanging from his waist.

"Yup, more money for us and they're going to get a good show tonight. I heard we can use audience volunteers for this show." The other man has a whip hanging on his waist, this brown eyes hard.

"Really? I wonder what he's thinking." The black haired man chuckles walking over to a box Killua is hiding behind. Killua gets lower, a bead of sweat starting to from on his face. "This show is going to be fun then. I'll have to make sure I pick a good volunteer for me."

"I feel sorry for them." The man with the whip shakes his head.

"Them? What about your volunteers! What you going to do? Have them face your loins?" The dark haired man chuckles again. It's loud and annoying.

"No I think I'll give Clover a try today."

"...You're serious?" the dark haired man stops laughing. The air seems to have changed. "Clover? You mean the white fox? What if she tries to run away?"

"Why would she do that? I've put a lot of work in her. She will be my legacy."

"Have you talked to the boss about it?"

"Of course, he says it's fine. He's the one who told me I should use a volunteer to show her power. I know what you're thinking and I know. I'm sure they're hunters who are here just to see if we truly have the legendary white fox. If they try to attack we'll deal with them accordingly. Don't be so worried."

"I'm not worried about us. I just feel sorry for those bastards that try to take the fox. They're in a world of hurt." The raven haired male sighs before he grabs the box from off the top and turns around, walking back towards the opening he came out of.

"Don't be. You get to practice on your aim."

"Hey I don't need any practicing! You're the one who needs to work on your act. Your loin almost attacked me the other day."

"oh waa." The man with the whip laughs, the two men disappearing back into the opening.

Killua waits a moment, pressed against the floor. If he had looked down he would have spotted me. There was no way I could have moved. Those two would have seen me do it. Killua could tell they're strong. He's not looking for a fight yet. Looks like they're going to show the fox in the show...they seem to be prepared, almost expecting an attack. Either me or Gon should try to be the volunteer for the fox. I know what that man looks like. We'll make a lot of noise and he may pick one of us.

Killua thinks as he slowly inches towards the opening those two men came from, making sure he makes no sound. He needs to get more of the lay out but it may not be possible. He can sense there's a lot of people where those men came out from. It might be too much of a risk but I might be able to move forward... Killua places himself next to the opening, peaking in cautiously. There's about ten people in the next room. From the many racks of costumes he knows this is the dressing room. There seems to be two doors in this room, one on the right and left-

A person is coming his way. There's too many people to move on. This might be an issue. It wouldn't be a problem if he was back to his old ways. The person coming towards him he could just kill in a second, not alerting the others. He could hide his body behind the boxes and then go into the room, hiding in the costumes. He could use all the commotion to his advantage and get a better lay out of the place.

But he's not an assassin. He won't kill someone for no reason. He can control his blood lust. Of course the thought crossed his mind that he could just kill this person coming but he won't act on it. Gon has changed him. There's also the option of knocking this person out and doing the same thing but the dressing room is small and there's people walking around everywhere. There's too much of a risk he would be spotted. Killua turns on his heel and runs out of the tent. He'll have to tell Gon he wasn't able to go as far as he would have liked but still the ex-assassin got some good information. He also got a look at the circus troope. Those two men were strong, Killua's not sure how strong though. Killua couldn't use gyo to see if they had any aura flowing because if they are nen users there's a possibility they would have sensed the shift. Killua was playing it safe as he always does. Either way if they play their cards right they may not end up having to fight those guys. But of course they may have to.

Killua smirks to himself as he walks back to the front of the tent casually, his hands behind his head. If Gon finds that they've been treating the fox bad, those guys are the ones who are going to be sorry if they try to stop him. Gon's been itching for a fight for a while now. I can tell. a fight with those guys will probably excite him.

Killua thinks of that look Gon gets this look in his eyes when he's excited for a fight or doing something that might just cost him his life. Really I think he's a adrenaline junky. Killua shakes his head but he can't scold him for it when he can be the same way. Gon's just a bit more reckless with it.

---

Kurapika struggles against Leorio as the older male drags him away from Gon, whispering excitedly 'oh my gosh, oh my gosh'

"Get off me!" Kurapika finally gets out of Leorio's hold, giving his friend a look. "What is the meaning of this-"

"I knew it! I so knew it! Gon has a crush, no wait, he may even have a love! His first love! Did you see the earrings he was looking at! And the look on his face! He was thinking of someone! I can just sense it! I can taste it on my love buds!" Leorio's eyes are so bright as he grabs Kurapika and shakes him.

"...Something is wrong with you. Really wrong."

"Shut up! Don't tell me you're not excited too! I feel like a parent! Gon's all grown up! Ah I feel so proud. He's going to get his girl the pair of the finest earrings! Those stones practically mean I love you when given to a lady!" Leorio grins. "Gon is smoothhh."

"He could just be looking at them Leorio. They may have just caught his eye." Kurapika sighs, shaking his head. I don't think it's Gon's who's in love...The blonde thinks of the conversation he just had with Gon about Killua and everything that has happen up till now. I have a theory but I'm not sure. With how Killau's been acting towards me and not Leorio when I talk and interact with Gon, the possessiveness he shows and the flushing and looks he's been giving Gon...It seems to me that saying he was jealous of our friendship is wrong. I think Killua is worried about something else entirely.

But I won't know for sure. I have to test it.

"I don't think so- oh yes he just bought them!" Leorio's eyes widen and he shakes Kurapika more. "He. Just. Bought. Them. This proves it! Gon has a lover or he wants a lover! It's so cute!"

"You're starting to scare me." Kurapika shakes his head but he can't help the smile turning his lips. It is strange that Gon would buy those earrings. They must be a hefty price. Maybe Gon does have someone in mind.

"Come on we got to get the scoop! It's our duty as his friends!" Leorio pulls Kurapika along, pulling him towards Gon who had just stuffed the box into his pocket, trying to hide it from them. "Hey Gon." Leorio stops, smiling suspiciously. "Watcha got there? What did you buy?"

"Oh I bought these earrings." Gon pulls out the box and opens it, showing off those pretty purple gems that sparkle.

"Those are beautiful." Leorio whistles. "Those earrings are really special...so do you have someone special in mind that you're giving them to?"

"Well..." Gon's eyes get bright with excitement, a smile turning his lips.

"Don't tell him Gon. He's being too nosy." Kurapika steps in, not liking how Leorio keeps getting in Gon's business.

"Shut up Kurapika you're ruining it. Shhh!" Leorio growls. "He was about to tell me!"

"If he tells us it won't make it as special, talking about doing something wears the fun out of actually doing it." Kurapika crosses his arms.

"...Well I kind of get that I suppose." Leorio gives in only to smile at Gon. "Well can you at least tell me how you plan on giving them to your special someone?"

"Well I was just going to give it to h-"

"You can't just give it!" Leorio snaps, getting Gon to tense. "Something like these earrings need atmosphere! Haven't you thought this through?"

"Not really." Gon blinks. "I didn't know there had to be a special way."

"Of course! Special things need a special way to be given. You need to set the mood. Take her out for dinner or play some nice music. You need to work her up to it and then she'll be putty in your hands-"

"Or you could just give it like you said Gon. It may be nicer to give them away when you're alone with this person. And when you give it, just tell that person how you feel. That will make it special." Kurapika steps in, smiling gently at his friend.

"Yeah I guess that works too." Leorio grumbles. "Just make it special okay? Don't just give these away."

"Okay." Gon tilts his head. He seems to think for a moment before he frowns. "Hey Leorio that reminds me...I've been wanting to talk with you."

"Hm? Really about what?" Leorio moves closer. The other male observes how Gon glances down to the grown.

"About my stomach." Gon puts a hand on his stomach.

"What about it? Has it been hurting you?" Leorio looks at his friend in concern as he kneels before the younger male, opening up his suitcase.

"Sort of. My stomach has been twisting lately and I get this funny feeling in my chest too."

"Ah when did this start? What brings it on?" Leorio starts looking through his suit case for medicine.

"I don't remember when it started but my stomach started feeling weird when we were talking about making it special. When I think about giving this away, my stomach twists and my chest feels light."

Leorio stops. His eye widen before a soft smile comes to his lips. "That's a normal feeling Gon. Do you feel like this when you're around your special one?"

"Yes actually and it's been bothering me. Whenever we touch I feel it, it's been worrying me...so I'm not sick?" Gon blinks. "it's a normal feeling?"

"In a sense you are sick but it's nothing bad. You're in l-"

"Ack! Killua's coming! I can't let him see this!" Gon shoves the box into his pants before he walks over and leans on the tent, crossing his arms, trying to look causal. Leorio blinks before he grins and runs over to Kurapika who was watching that scene with a smile on his face.

"Oh my gosh he's so in love! He has it bad too!" Leorio chuckles before he tilts his head. "I wonder why he wants to hide the earrings from Killua..." Leorio's eyes widen. "Holy shit! It's a love triangle! I bet Killua and Gon love the same girl! Maybe that's what their fight was about this morning! This is deep."

"Seriously what are you going on about?" Kurapika shakes his head. "Stop making stuff up."

"I'm serious! It makes sense! We should probably have a talk with them. Should have known with them getting older that something like this would happen. Fighting over girls is natural. Especially for their age."

"I doubt that you're right but either way we should stay out of it. This isn't our business. Whatever it is they'll work it out. If Gon wants to hide those earrings from Killua let him. No girl could come between them for long." Kurapika waves Leorio off, glancing off to the side as he thinks. Gon hasn't changed at all so it's hard to tell with him but Killua has changed. Kurapika's noticed it and Gon has noticed certain things but he doesn't understand them. Or what they could mean. If my theory is right and Killua has feelings for Gon...is it possible Gon already knows? No Gon wouldn't know...yet the fact that Gon doesn't want to show Killua those earrings makes him think that Gon can sense it. Killua would get extremely jealous if Gon gave those to a girl or someone he liked. It could even be dangerous for whoever Gon gives those to. Kurapika doesn't want to believe Killua would do something like that but he's felt the darkness from Killua from just being close with Gon.

There is a possibility that the earrings are for Killua. But if so Kurapika thinks they are just a token of friendship. He says this because Gon hasn't shown any signs that he likes Killua. There hasn't been any change in how he interacts with Killua. Gon wants to take a bath with Killua, showing that he has no awkwardness being naked with him like they're brothers. So that makes the blonde believe that Gon's giving the earrings to someone he likes and his instinct is telling him not to tell Killua. Gon does have very good instincts...

Of course these are all theory's. He doesn't even know if Killua likes Gon. It's just a thought. I'll have to experiment a bit and see what kind of reactions I get out of Killua...

"I guess you're right but still." Leorio grumbles. "You should be more invested in them! I want to be as much as I can be before this vacation is up and we're back to barely talking again."

Kurapika's eyes widen before he smiles gently. "Don't worry. We can be invested but not to the point we're down their throats. They understand." Kurapika glances at his hands. "When this vacation is over...I'll make sure I call you more Leorio.I'll try to keep in contact with Gon and Killua too. It's been far too long."

"...Good." Leorio looks at Kurapika in surprise only to smile at him, those eyes lighting up. "Hey maybe tonight me and you could have soak, and a few drinks."

"I'd like that." Kurapika smiles. Ignoring the feeling in his chest.

---

Killua smiles to himself as he walks back towards where that fortune telling lady was. Hopefully Gon didn't wonder off but it wouldn't surprise him. If he did Killua will just wait for him at the fortune telling place since he knows Gon will come back there to look for him.

Killua weaves his way through the people, all the loud chatter is bothering him a little bit. There's a lot going on at one time and though the ex-assassin is aware of his surroundings he really doesn't care for most that's going on. Those purple eyes are more focused on trying to find his best friend in the crowd.

The ex-assassin can't help the turning of his lips when he finds Gon close to the fortune telling woman, standing next to this shopping tent. Gon is holding his hands together, those amber eyes staring at the ground, a small smile on his lips. Killua knows that look anywhere. Gon's excited. Killua notes that Kurapika and Leorio are talking over to the side about something heatedly but he doesn't give them too much more attention then that.

"Hey Gon!" Killua grins when his friend looks over at him quickly, those amber orbs get brighter. "I'm back. Let's get you that cotton candy now."

"Killua!" Gon cheers his name, getting the other males chest to tighten. He loves the way Gon says his name. The raven haired male jogs towards him, a big lopsided smile on his face. Killua blinks. He's seen that smile before too. Gon's not just excited about what's to come, he's already done something that has him so excited. He had this same smile before when he had told Killua he learned a new technique.

"What's with that face?" Killua smirks, crossing his arms, waiting for his friend to spill what he's so happy about, so proud about.

"mm nothing." Gon's smile gets wider before he smacks his cheeks, giving Killua a normal smile.

"Don't give me that. You're hiding something." Killua raises an eye brow, poking his friend's cheek feeling a playful smile turn the corner of his mouth.

"No i'm not." Gon tries to pull a serious face but when Killua gives him a look, The other male chuckles, cracking instantly. "Okay~ you got me, I'll tell you later."

"You suck at lying Gon." Killua shakes his head, his curiosity peaked on what this might be.

"Killua! Finally! What the hell were you doing?" Leorio yells over at the ex-assassin when he finally looked away from Kurapika to realize the other boy had come back.

"I had to go to be the bathroom." Killua shoves his hands into his pocket, the playful smile leaving him, turning into a smirk.

"I told you to go before we got here, now we're going to have trouble getting seats." Leorio grumbles.

"We'll just show them our hunter licensee I'm sure we can still get a seat in the front." Killua grunts. "Before we worry about that we're going to get some cotton Candy for Gon." Killua starts to walk off, Gon by his side, that excited look still in those amber eyes.

"He's right, seating shouldn't be an issue." Kurapika agrees, following after the two boys with Leorio by his side.

"I guess." Leorio glances over at Gon before glancing at Kurapika. The blonde shakes his head, Leorio grumbles to himself.

"I was able to get through the back." Killua talks loud enough for only Gon to hear, their two other friends fall behind because of people cutting through them. "I was only able to get into the storage room though. There was too many people in the dressing room. I wasn't able to see the fox but I got some pretty useful information." Killua glances over at Gon, seeing that his best friend is looking at him intently. "I'm pretty sure the fox is real."

"Really?" Gon's eyes light up.

"Yeah. I over heard to circus performers talking, one was the fox's trainer I think. They're planning on using the fox in the act today and using a volunteer to show its power. The way they were talking they're expecting someone to attack them after the show to try to get the fox. They seem pretty confidant that they can beat who ever attacks. The two performers felt strong but I can't really judge how strong at this point." Killua locks eyes with Gon. "One of us has to be the volunteer with the fox, that way we can get a closer look. We'll work on our plan as we go."

"Do you think they're treating the fox badly?" Gon frowns.

"I'm not sure. The one guy with the whip had given the fox a name. Clover I think it was." Killua shrugs his shoulders. "You'll be able to tell once you get close to the fox right?"

"Yeah I think so. I'm really excited for this Killua. We're actually going to see the legendary fox!" Gon grips his fists.

"Sorry I couldn't get any deeper into the circus. If so I could have a better plan then I do now. But our plan kind of relies on the fact that the fox is being treated poorly. If not then we have no plan right?"

"You did great Killua! You got more than enough information. If the fox isn't being treat poorly there's no need for a plan anyway but if the fox is, we'll just get in there and save it! With us working together we won't fail."

"yup. We'll just have to wait and see." His lips turn in a smile at Gon's confidence. Just as he thought, Gon's excited about the thought of a fight. He's confident in himself...and he's confident in me. Killua ignores the tightening of his chest as he stops in front of a stand that's selling snacks. His mouth starts to water when his purple eyes land on the cotton candy.

"Geez you guys move fast." Leorio pants as he walks up to the two boys standing behind them. "You guys are so small you're able to just weave through people like it's nothing!"

"We're not small." Killua gives Leorio a look. " You're just slow old man."

"Hey! I'm not old!" Leorio snaps. Killua glances over at Kurapika, his eyes narrowing slightly when he sees the blonde is staring at Gon, a thoughtful expression on his face. Why is he staring at Gon like that? Killua looks at Gon to see what the boy is doing only for his cheeks to ting at what he sees. The raven haired male is looking at all the different colors of cotton candy, his lips slightly parted with a look of wonder in those amber eyes. No doubt Gon's wondering about the cotton candy, how it'll taste and feel. Gon's too cute. Killua snaps out of it, realizing that the blonde was looking at this moment as well. He turns his head to see Kurapika smiling at Gon, his eyes half-lidded. He really doesn't like the way he's looking at Gon.

"Which one do you want Gon?" Killua calmly walks over to his best friend, standing behind him to block the blonde's view.

"There's a lot of different colors." Gon looks around in awe before looking at Killua. "Do they all taste different?"

"Yup. Blue is blueberry, green is green apple, purple is grape and pink is strawberry. I think the yellow is lemonade." Killua smiles gently at his friends' thoughtful expression. The ex-assassin knows how to be patient. Gon's cuteness helps. It's even distracted him from the anger he was feeling towards the blonde just a moment ago.

"Hmm which one are you gong to get?"

"Probably all of them."

"Really?!" Gon looks at Killua with wide eyes.

"Yeah I love cotton candy." Killua sticks his tongue out, rubbing the back of his head.

"Well...which one is your favorite."

"Hmm...I like blue berry a lot."

"Then I'll try that one!" Gon smiles at the person behind the stand. The man hands Gon a blue one before giving Killua a skeptical look.

"I was serious I want one of each." Killua smirks as Gon pays for his cotton candy before the man starts handing him one of each of the colors. The ex-assassin licks his lips as he pays for his snacks, feeling oh so excited to have this deliciousness melt in his mouth.

"Are you going to get anything Kurapika?" Leorio stops looking at all the choices in snacks before looking over at his friend.

"No I think I'm still full from breakfast."

"Yeah me too." Leorio frowns at all the cotton candy that Killua is holding." Hey Killua, eating all that sugar isn't good for you. You'll make your stomach hurt."

"Pssh this is nothing." Killua grunts, giving Leorio a smirk. " I use to have a whole room filled with chocolate robots. I'd spend hours just eating chocolate. I never got sick. I don't' get sick."

"W-What?!" Leorio looks at him in shock.

"It's true! Killua spent millions of jenny on chocolate." Gon frowns over at Killua. "He's gotten better with his money but I still have to watch him or he'll just spend everything he earns on sweets."

"It was worth it." Killua grins. "I regret nothing."

"You'll regret it when you have diabetes at age 18." Leorio shakes his head. "Hell you might have it now!I need to check your blood sugar." Leorio is about to reach down towards his suit case.

"I'm fine doc. I don't need a check up. We're here for the circus. I'm as fit and healthy as someone can be." Killua waves him off.

"You won't be if you keep eating sweets like that."

"I only bought a whole room of chocolate once."

"Once is enough!" Leorio's eye twitches.

"Actually there was that other time you spent all your money on a four years supply of chocolate only to eat it up in a day." Gon frowns at his friend.

"Okay and I did that but-"

"And there was that time when you let an employer pay you with chocolate cake and you destroyed it."

"...Yeah but-"

"And once I think about it you do eat a lot of sweets Killua, I think you always have candy on you and-"

"Ugh okay I get it Gon. You've scolded me for spending money on sweets before and i've gotten better so I don't know why you're bring this up." Killua's eye twitches.

"I know you've gotten better with your money but when Leorio said you could get sick from eating sweets It made me a little worried. I don't want you getting sick."

The irritation Killua was feeling leaves him as he looks at his friend in surprise, his chest feeling light. He closes his eyes, worried that Gon might be able to see his emotions as he shakes his head. "Don't worry about me. Like I said I don't get sick. I'm not going to get diabetes. If there's anyone you need to check, it's my brother."

"Just keep an eye on how much sugar you're eating Killua." Leorio wipes his forehead he started to sweat when he heard Gon list out all the things this boy's had to eat. Really it's amazing Killua hasn't killed over, or that he's not fat. Killua doesn't look like he's gotten any fat on him. He's small in the waist and his shoulders are wide. He's all muscle.

"Yeah, yeah." Killua sighs before he smiles at Gon. "Why not try out your cotton candy Gon?" The four of them start making their way towards the tent.

"Okay." Gon breaks into the package, taking off the plastic. The raven haired male inspects the cotton candy first before sniffing it. Killua can't help to chuckle at his friend- only to stop when Gon starts to lick the cotton candy with that adorable, tempting tongue of his. Gon closes his eyes, licking the cotton candy with his eyebrows furrowed. Killua feels a bit warmer than he was before watching Gon's tongue work.

I swear you're teasing me! Having that cute innocent look while licking with that tongue like there's no tomorrow. Killua's heart beat picks up. I wonder how his tongue would feel against mind? Or better yet how it would feel licking me like that- Killua looks away from Gon, having to compose himself before he gets excited in front of everyone. One's things for sure, Killua's jealous of Gon's cotton candy.

"Hehe Gon you're so cute." Killua tenses, that warm aroused feeling leaving him immediately at that voice and those words. Killua whips his head over quickly, his eyes widening when he sees Kurapika right next to Gon, a smile on his lips and his eyes half lidded. He's looking at Gon like he's something good to eat. There's a growl in the back of Killua's throat.

"Really?" Gon tilts his head, looking up at Kurapika. "Why am I cute?"

"You're eating the cotton candy wrong." the blonde rips off a piece of the cotton candy where Gon had been licking and puts it into his mouth. This bastard! He just put a piece of where Gon's lips have been touching in his mouth! What the hell?! "You just rip off a piece like that." Kurapika rips off another piece before holding it out for Gon. "Here try it."

"Oh." Gon tilts his head. He doesn't say much else though as he leans in, opening his mouth to take the cotton candy from Kurapika's hand. Killua grips his fists , his fingers twitching, inching to turn into claws. This bastard is using Gon's innocence to his advantage! Trying to feed him with his fucking fingers. Where the hell have those been? I bet he wants to feel in Gon's mouth and Gon doesn't even know what's going on. He trusts Kurapika, he wouldn't think he would try to do something perverted to him!

In a blink of an eye Killua is between the two. He smacks the piece of cotton candy out of Kurapika's hands, giving him a dark look. It takes all his will power not to do anything more to the blonde. His heart rate is fast. Killua is pissed off. Really pissed off. He stands in front of Gon protectively and he gives the blonde a glare. He doesn't have to say anything. The look says it all. Back the fuck off.

How dare this guy call Gon cute? And then try to take advantage of him? How dare he look at Gon like that? He knew something was up with Kurapika...it's obvious now. He has a thing for Gon. He must like Gon. Killua grips his fists, stuffing them in his pockets. He can feel his finger nails changing.

"Killua? What's wrong?" Gon's voice breaks him out of his struggle. Kurapika hasn't moved nor has he backed down either. Killua takes a deep breath before turning to face his friend.

"I didn't like how he was teaching you to eat cotton candy. You don't just rip a piece off with your fingers. You take a bite out of it with your teeth and let it melt on your tongue." Killua gives him a serious look before grinning. "I'm very passionate about cotton candy." Cotton candy isn't what I'm passionate about.

"Oh well you could have just said so." Gon laughs. " You really are serious about cotton candy! It most be really good then." Gon takes a large bite out of the cotton candy. He 'mmms' in delight, those eyes widening. "Wow it really did just melt on my tongue! You were right Killua, blue berry is really good!"

"Told ya." Killua winks, a playful air coming back to him. All those hostile feelings he had a moment ago pushed to the back of his mind. Killua glances back at Kurapika who is staring at him with a thoughtful look. Leorio is staring at Kurapika like he's grown another head, the older male is frowning and there's a look in his eyes that seems familiar. "Sorry about just hitting your hand. I just didn't like what you were doing." Killua keeps his innocent face but there's a hidden tone to his voice. A hidden message. Don't do that again.

"I see." Kurapika closes his eyes and smirks. He actually smirks. Killua has to look away from him to control himself. This kurta does not want to become his enemy. Kurapika is his friend but now that he knows for sure he's a threat, Killua will not let Kurapika walk over him. He'll keep him away from Gon as much as he can.

"Tsk." Killua's eyes narrow before he looks over at Gon. "Let's keep going. The shows going to start soon."

"Okay!" Gon cheers unaware of how tense the atmosphere has turned around him.

"Yeah..." Leorio's voice has lost the pep he had as the four get in line to get tickets. Kurapika and Leorio stay quiet the whole waiting time. Killua keeps the conversation going with Gon, happy that he's keeping the raven haired boy's attention on him. Those sweet lips keep talking to him. He doesn't want anyone else touching them. Killua's aware that his feelings are possessive. Even his love is dark. He can't help it though.

He has the love of a demon. Possessive, dark, and as passionate as fire.

---

"This place is huge! And it's packed!" Gon's large amber eyes take in the circle in front of them that has nothing right now but a tight rope set up. There's music playing and the bass makes it feel like the tent is moving with the music. Gon turns in his seat from the front row to look back at all the rows above him filled with people, no face really sticking out. They talk loudly trying to be heard over the music. Everyone looks excited. Some look a bit annoyed and others have blank expressions. Really the ones who have blank expressions are mostly the people in the front with him. Gon frowns when he looks across from himself to see Kurapika and Leorio on the other side. "It's too bad we couldn't all sit together though."

"Yeah. I didn't expect so many hunters to be here. We almost didn't get front row seats." Killua glances around before leaning in towards Gon. When the four of them made it to the front, they found out their was only 4 front row seats left and that they were separate from each other. Before Gon could even state his displeasure from being separate from his friends, Killua had grabbed a hold of him and pulled him off. Gon looked back at Kurapika and Leorio, noticing the blonde's mouth was open and he was looking at him like he was about to say something. Killua's just as excited as I am. He knew there was no point in complaining to the man in front. If there's no seats left, there's no seats left. He seems to have calmed down now that we have our seats.

"Do you think all the hunters are here for the fox?" Gon leans in so Killua can hear him.

"Maybe." Killua stares forward, those eyes glossed in a way that Gon knows he's thinking.

"Hey mister you're a hunter right?" Gon looks to his right. There's a man that looks like he's in his twenties, his arms are crossed with a stern look on his face. He has large muscles and his hair is blonde and slicked back. Gon can see Killua giving him a look from the corner of his eye.

This stern man's eyes shift slightly to regard Gon. "Don't talk to me."

"Why not?" Gon glares at him.

"I didn't know they let brats sit in the front. You probably don't even belong in these seats."

"What's with you?" Killua snaps, glaring at the man as well, his eyebrow twitching. "We're pro hunters! And have been so for years."

"Hm?" the man seems to look at them for the first time, his sharp blue eyes calculating.

"Ohh who you talking to Lud?" Gon blinks when this large man tenses. He turns his attention to the high pitched, musical voice. A man is running across the performers' stage ground towards them at great speed. He's very tiny with long brown hair, his brown eyes are bright with life and his smile is goofy. Completely different from the man sitting next to Gon right now.

"Feli don't run across the stage!" The man named Lud yells, a vein popping in his head.

"But it's faster this way!" Feli jumps over the ring and lands in front of Gon, holding out his hand. "Hi I'm Feli!" the man grabs a hold of Gon's hand and shakes it excitedly.

"I'm Gon." Gon smiles at this man, chuckling when he grabs a hold of Killua's hand and starts shaking it too.

"And I'm Killua." the ex-assassin blinks at Feli.

"Sit down will you." Lud growls grabbing a hold of Feli and pulling him back, forcing him down next to him.

"I'm just trying to met your friends." Feli pouts.

"What the hell made you think they were my friends?" The man's eye twitched.

"Hm I don't know it looked like you guys were talking." Feli frowns "I didn't want to be left out!"

"Hey Feli why are you here today?" Gon smiles, liking Feli a bit more. It seems like he'll talk more too. "Are you a hunter?"

"Yeah! I'm an art hunter." The man smiles. "I'm here to see the circus! Just like you are right? I can't wait to see to see the dagger guy! Ohh and the people who walk on that line up there, it's so cool!"

"And i'm here because he dragged me into to this." Lud grumbles.

"Don't sound so down! This is the best circus in the world! I told you everyone would be here! Look at all the front row seats taken up! Either everyone is rich or their hunters. Are you guys hunters?" Feli beams.

"Yup. We both are." Killua grins at how Feli gushes at them.

"Amazing! And you guys are so young!-"

"Settle down a little bit Feli if you get too excited you won't be able to shut up for the show."

"Eh I know" Feli frowns a little only to smile at Gon. "We're also here to relax." Feli acts like he's whispering but Jake is between them.

"No we are not. Don't think you're done with your training. Once this is over we're back on it."

"Aww but I don't wanna." Feli deflates.

"Training?" Killua raises his eyebrow.

"This guy is an idiot. If it wasn't for me he wouldn't have even passed the hunter exam or survived." Lud's eyebrow twitches. "and to top it off he won't leave me along. Always clinging to me. So I decided I mind as well train him so I don't have to worry so much about him getting himself killed."

"Eh you make it sound like I'm annoying." Feli fiddles with his fingers.

"Now would you leave us alone? I don't feel like idle chat right now." Lud grunts.

"Aw." Feli frowns only to smile, bouncing in his seat, looking around excitedly.

"So it seems like they're just here for the show. I wonder if it's possible that most of these hunters are just here to watch. Danial doesn't seem like he'd be a good liar. Maybe this circus is known world wide? Though I've never heard of it." Killua whispers to Gon, his eyes narrowing.

"Me either. But if it brings this crowd and so many hunters..." Gon's eyes start to shake as he grips his chair. "I can't wait to see it! This is going to be awesome Killua! And I'm happy I get to see it with you."

"Yeah it should be something." Killua waves his hand, glancing away from him. Gon chuckles before he looks back over towards Kurapika and Leorio. They don't seem to be talking to each other. I hope they're still having fun. I really wish we could have all sat together but Feli and Lud got these seats before we came.

The music suddenly turns off and with it the lights. Everyone gasps, excited shuffling can be heard. Gon can see in the darkness pretty well. There's people on the stage now! In a blink of an eye a red spot light comes on a man now standing on the stage. He's dressed up in a fancy suit, he bows before everyone, wearing a smiling mask.

"Ladies and gentlemen thank you so much for your patience. Now I must warn you, if there is anyone of the faint of heart, you should leave. What you're about to see is all real. You see ladies and gentlemen." The man chuckles darkly. " this is a circus of monsters!" He lifts his hands in the air, the lights turning back on revealing 10 others that Gon had not seen or sense come onto the stage. Killua whistles, both the boys exchanging an impressed glance.

"First off we'll start with our amazing knife thrower, Sid!" The man with the mask moves out of the way, another man taking his place. As the man was walking up, a couple of people pushed out a large wooden wheel with straps on it.

"Aw so this is going to be one of those boring knife throwing bits. Anyone can throw a knife." Killua yawns.

"Killua I think he can hear you." Gon blinks when the man sends Killua a dark glare before his eyes light up in dark glee. He takes the knifes that were attached to his side and throws them to the side.

"I need a volunteer for this. Why not you? The boy with the white hair! Right in the front!" The man grins pointing at Killua.

"Oh me?" Killua still looks bored as he shrugs his shoulders. He gets up and hops on the stage.

"Yay go Killua! You're in the show!" Gon claps first and soon others follow his example. Killua waves at the crowd but his eyes mainly linger on Gon.

"So what? Am I suppose to get on that big wheel so you can prove you can throw a knife?" Killua smirks.

"Heh actually there's been a change of plan." The man gets into a stance, aura starts covering his skin, flowing into him. It looks like he's using zestu but that's not it. His skin is turning sliver!

"Wow!" Gon watches with awe as this man grabs a hold of his own skin and rips a piece off. The piece of flesh turns stiff, the edges sharp. His skin has turned into a blade!what's even more crazy is that the man didn't flinch when he ripped off his flesh, nor is he bleeding.

"We're going to play a little game folks." The man smirks when he hears all the gasps and talking at seeing what he just did. "This boy will have to do all he can do to not be hit by my knife." This causes more excited talks and whispers of concern.

"Killua will you be okay?" Gon tilts his head, not really knowing what a blade from the skin can do.

"I'll be fine." Killua gets into a stance.

"Here. I. Come!" The man throws the knife. The ex-assassin easily doges it only for the knife to turn and follow his moment. Killua's eyes narrow as he continues to doge the knife, moving around the stage. Gon follows the knifes movements with Killua as if he was right there with him, dodging it. The knife seems to be aimed at him and this man must be using his nen to keep it following after him. It's fast too.

Killua jumps up to doge the knife only for the man to rip off his skin, making 5 more skin blades. He throws them at Killua. There's no way he can doge all of those! He'll have to- Gon's eyes widen when Killua doges to the right, knowing that's a bad move. Killua should know it to. At that moment 4 of the blades hit Killua's stomach.

The crowd starts to yell. Some in joy others in shock. "Killua!" Why didn't Killua use his ren to protect himself? Gon gets ready to jump in the ring only for the 4 knifes to fall from Killua's stomach. There's no blood or anything. His shirt isn't even torn. When Gon looks at the knifes again, their sharp edges aren't there anymore. They're nothing but skin. Weak paper thin flesh.

"There was nothing to worry about folks! What I thrown at him were blades but I have the magic ability to change my skin from blades to soft tissue! Once I knew my Blades would make contact I just changed them back. The boy is unharmed, if only a little spooked." The man grins.

The whole crowd starts to clap, cheering. "Next time watch your tongue boy. You might just lose it." The man grunts at Killua as the ex-assassin walks calmly back to his seat next to Gon.

"Why'd you give up?" Gon looks over at Killua. "You let them hit you?"

"So you noticed?" Killua grins. "I didn't feel like running around anymore and I didn't feel like showing my power to all these people. I got what I wanted and one of his knifes actually touched me before I let all those ones stab me. As soon as it man contact with my skin it changed into a soft tissue. He must have put a special Nen in his skin to make sure if it made contact with other flesh that it would change back to it's normal state. Don't worry, I made sure of this before I decided to give up."

"Oh okay. That's really cool. This circus really is amazing." Gon blinks. "What did you get out of this?"

"Duh." Killua pokes him on the forehead. "I got to see more of his ability and rate his strength compared to ours. By taunting him I made him go father than he was going to. He was going to use regular knifes but at my taunt he decided to show me." Killua's smile is cat like.

"So you were being loud on purpose." Gon smiles at his friend. "Killua your really smart."

"It was nothing. That guy is easy to irritate. I just took note of that and used it to my advantage. "Killua waves off his compliment, his eyes closed but there's a smile on his lips.

"Ohh I want to be in the show too." Feli gushes. "That was really cool!"

"No. You'll end up embarrassing yourself." Lud grunts.

"Oh please Lud? I'll show them what I can do with my paint brush and-"

"No." Lud gives him a stern look, the other male deflates. "It's not wise anyway to show all these hunters your abilities." Lud looks over at Killua. "He understands that."

"Why not let him volunteer?" Gon tilts his head, looking at the larger hunter.

"Because he'll end up get himself hurt like he always does. I swear he'll just be walking outside and all of sudden he'll get smacked with something that falls from the sky. His luck is that bad. He's weak. So it's smarter for him to just watch the show and learn from it. Your little act was very educational for him Killua." Gon glances over at the ex-assassin.

"Yeah! I learned that when a bunch of weird skin knifes are coming at me I should jump right! Or just surrender and beg he doesn't stab me in the face." Feli smiles sheepishly.

"NO! You idiot! You protect yourself with nen! You never just surrender and hope the enemy will leave you alone. That doesn't happen in the real world. What you should have learned is that you pick your fits wisely and don't let your rivals see all your tricks." Lud starts to go off on the other male.

"Gon." Killua's voice gets the raven haired male to look over at his friend. Killua is looking at him seriously. "They'll probably only pick a volunteer once so i'm out. You need to save yourself till the fox act okay?"

"Right." Gon nods his head, gripping his fist. Gon glances over at Kurapika and Leorio. He smiles when he sees that the two seem to be talking over there. He was getting kind of worried that those two were fighting again or something.

Performer after performer come up and do their act. They're all amazing but not quite like the first guy. These acts consist of doing tricks on the tightrope, sticking needles into skin and not bleeding, and a man lifting hundreds times his weight while breaking brick with his teeth. All of the acts have kept Gon entertained but he can barely wait to see the fox.

"It should be coming up soon." Killua glances over at Gon, the raven haired male nodding. And then it happens.

"We saved the best for last folks." The man in the mask comes back, chuckling. "Please give it up for our wild beast tamer!" The crowd cheers, hyped up from the last couple of acts.

"That's him Gon!" Killua taps Gon's leg.

"He'll be showing you the legendary white fox but not just a white fox, a tamed white fox! He has done it!"

The crowd goes wild when a man with a whip comes out with a cage covered by a tarp. Gon leans in his chair, he can barely contain his excitement.

"I'll need a volunteer to-"

"Me! Oh me me!" Gon jumps up in his seat, raising his hand.

"Okay then the boy in the front." The man with the whip chuckles. "Come up here and stand by my side."
"Go Gon." Killua smiles at his friend, giving him a nod. Gon smiles back before he jumps up into the ring, running up to the man with the whip. He hears Feli cheer for him and he thinks he can hear Leorio too.

As soon as Gon gets near the beast tamer, the performer takes out a knife. The crowd stops in it's cheering. "Now I'm going to injure the boy." The beast tamer holds out the knife for everyone to see before he holds out his hand. "Give me your arm. I'm just going to cut it up a bit. This is the only way I can prove to you all that the white fox is the real deal. It's saliva will hear the boy's cuts with no problems."

Gon hands him his arm without hesitation, his eyes bright. "Go ahead. I can't wait to see the fox. It's amazing you caught one."

The guy with the whip doesn't really say anything to that as he takes his knife and quickly slices it over his forearm. His blood starts to drip down his arm. It was only a sting. Not bad at all. "Now i'll show the fox! What you've all been waiting for!" The beast tamer yells with pride as he rips off the tarp. Gon gasps with the crowd once this beautiful creature can be seen.

In the cage there's a large white fox sitting straight up, staring forward. It's fur is glowing and it's tail looks so fluffy. Just by looking at this fox, Gon knows it's the real deal. He feels his chest well up with emotions.

"Wow so gorgeous." Gon smiles, ignoring whatever the whip guy is saying now. He moves till he's right in front of the cage. The fox tilts his head, seeming to study Gon. "How did you get caught?" Gon reaches in with his hand, letting the fox smell it before petting the top of its head. The crowd starts cheering, liking what's going on. The whip guy seems a bit surprised. The white fox's tail twitches, locking eyes with Gon before it licks the area where he's bleeding. There's a slight sting and then...the cut is gone.

"Look! The white fox has healed the boy! It's truly the legendary white fox!" The whip man shouts, the crowd going wild and clicking of cameras can be heard everywhere.

"Thank you." Gon smiles at the fox. "Do you want to leave this place?" Gon grabs a hold of the lock on the cage, ripping it off. Gon can hear the crowd grasp as Gon opens up the cage, the white fox walking out calmly. Gon can't take his eyes off how pretty this fox is. "Well?" Gon tilts his head, the crowd has gone quiet.

The white fox stares at him for a moment with those dark as cole eyes before it walks up to Gon. The whole crowd seems to be holding their breath as this large beast that comes to Gon's height sits down, wrapping it's long fluffy tail around the boy. The white fox starts to lick his face getting Gon to giggle.

"Awww!" Can be heard from the crowd while others are like 'wow!'

"I can't believe this folks!" The whip man was watching closely not making a move. His eyes had lighten up with excitement as soon as the fox wrapped it's tail around Gon. "This is truly a sight for you! These licks to the face are the fox blessing this boy! The white fox will lick the face of their young before sending them off on their own. It's showing this boy affection. I've been training it for years and Clover just recently did that to me! This boy most have something she likes!" The crowd gushes more at the explanation.

"Hehe I guess that's your answer huh? You don't mind it here. He treats you well." Gon smiles gently before looking over at where Killua is sitting. The ex-assassin is staring at him with a strange smile on his face, those purple eyes even from here look softer. "Killua! Come over here!" Gon waves at his friend, wanting to share this experience with him. The ex-assassin's eyes light up before he jumps onto the stage, an excited grin on his face. When Killua gets closer the fox tenses a bit, those cole eyes studying the other boy. "It's okay." Gon soothes lightly rubbing the fox's head. "he's a friend."

"Wow it's really the legendary white fox." Killua takes the beast in, noting the tensing of it when he got close. "And of course it would take a liking to you." Killua chuckles, it's light.

"Do you want to touch her?"

"I don't think she likes me much." Killua reaches out only for the fox to move back a little. He smiles sheepishly.

"She's just not use to you is all. See Clover." Gon takes Killua's hand, putting his hand over top of Killua's, he leads the ex-assassin's hand and places it on the fox's head. The white fox is a little tense but soon it loosens up as Gon pets her with Killua's hand. "There you go." Gon smiles letting go of Killua's hand so he can pet her himself. Killua doesn't move his hand at first, his face is a bit flushed but it's probably because it's hot in this tent. Killua starts to pet the fox, his eyes lighting up when the fox doesn't tense or move away. He smiles.

"This is so cool." Killua beams.

"Alright you two. It's time for me to put her back." The whip guy smiles at them as they reluctantly move away from the fox. "Hey kid if you ever need a job why not join us? I watched the way you handled her...you could work under me as my apprentice."

"No that's okay." Gon shakes his head. "Thanks for the offer. Take care of Clover okay? I think she wants to go outside more but beside that she's happy with you." Gon gives the surprised man a smile before he walks back to his seat. Killua walking by his side. When they get back to the seat, Feli is staring at Gon like he just fell from the sky.

"That...was...beautiful!" Feli sniffles, rubbing at his eyes. "And so cute! You had me in tears! You two are just so cool. You with your fastness and you with your ugghhh feels!" Feli squeals, getting Lud and Killua to wince.

"Calm down will you." Lud shakes his head but he's looking at Gon differently.

"How did her fur feel like?" Feli grabs a hold of Gon, shaking him.

"It felt really soft! Just like silk. There was such a soft glow to her too." Gon smiles. "I could have taken a nap on her!"

"Yeah it was just like the legends described her fur." Killua stuffs his hands into his pockets before glancing over at Gon. "So it's all good?"

"Yeah she doesn't mind being here. She likes the guy with the whip. She's looking after him." Gon smiles. "So we don't need a plan."

"That's too bad, it was getting kind of interesting." Killua shrugs. "...But I'm glad she's happy." He adds at seeing the smile on Gon's face, his lips turning upwards.

"Yeah me too." Gon takes a deep breath, putting his hands on his pants only to blink when he feels something hard and square in his pocket. Then he remembers the earrings he bought and he can't help to become excited again.

"You have that smile again." Killua's eyes narrow. "You said you were going to tell me what it's about."

"Not yet." Gon can't help to chuckle. "Soon."

"Aw come on. I'm getting really interested now." Killua's purple eyes shine with playfulness. I can't wait to give these to him but I want to give them at the right moment...That's what Leorio said I should do. Giving these should be done in a special moment.

"Too bad." Gon grins widely.

"Cheeky bastard. You know I have ways of making you talk." Killua smirks, cracking his fingers.

"Uh..." Gon moves back a little knowing what's coming next. He blinks when the music suddenly comes back on and people start getting up from their seats. "It's over?"

"Yeah you missed the guy saying the closing because you two where talking." Lud grunts, standing up with Feli by his side. Gon and Killua stand up too, a bunch of rolls by their feet from the cotton candy they had eaten before the show even started. Gon can't help to sigh in relief. I was saved for now but the look Killua is giving me lets me know I'm in for it latter...Gon can't help to laugh. He's really having fun.

"What are you guys going to do now?" Gon looks between Feli and Lud, haven grown a little fond of them.

"Head home." Lud turns and starts to walk away.

"Maybe we'll see each other again!" Feli smiles before he hands Gon a piece of paper. "This is my number and Lud's!-"

"Don't hand out my number!" Lud grabs Feli by the ear, pulling him away his eyebrow twitching.

"ow! Don't! It's okay isn't? Because they're our friends-"

"They are not my friends! Idiot!"

"Ow i'm sorry- the ear hurts you're going to pull it off!" Feli whines.

Gon blinks watching the two go. "Lud seems a little mean to Feli but I don't get a bad feeling when i'm around him."

"Yeah. I think he just has a stick up his ass." Killua grunts.

"Gon! Killua!" the two boys look over to see Leorio and Kurapika walking across the rows to get to them. They both have a smile on their face so whatever had been bothering them must have sorted itself out.

"Leorio! Kurapika!" Gon waves at them. "Did you guys enjoy the show?"

"Did I? The most entertaining parts were when you two got up there. Man, Killua you had me scared for a minute there! I thought I was going to have to go doctor mode on you."

"I knew you were going to be fine." Kurapika smiles to himself when Leorio glares at him. "I could tell by your movements you were just analyzing him."

"Yup." Killua shoves his hands in his pockets. His face is blank but his eyes have shifted.

"And then Gon gets up there and gets licked by the legendary white fox! I mean wow that was awesome!" Leorio grins, giving him a thumbs up. "how did it feel when she healed you?"

"It stung a little but then there was this pleasant warmness. Then when I looked down the cut was gone." Gon holds out his arm for him to see.

"Incredible. If we got samples of her saliva we could use it to heal people with disorders!" Leorio's eyes light up.

"hmm I don't think she'll let you do that." Gon hums. "I think when she heals others it hurts her. She did it for me but she whined a little. Maybe there's a limit to how many she can heal or maybe it just brings her pain to do it."

"Oh I see." Leorio's shoulders slump a bit. "Oh well. Back to science I guess." He grumbles.

"What do we do now?" Gon looks at Killua. The ex-assassin seems a little tense in the shoulders. He's been staring at Kurapika and now Gon realizes Kurapika's been staring at him.

"Let's go get something to eat and then go shopping." Kurapika looks between everyone. "If we're tired after that then we can just rest in the hotel and save the art museum for another time."

"Sounds good to me!"Gon grins. As the four of them walk out of the tent, Gon starts telling Kurapika and Leorio about him and Killua's plans if the fox was being treated badly. He tells them about Lud and Feli. As Gon keeps talking Killua's shoulders relax, Kurapika and Leorio seem to smile more.

Gon really is having fun with his friends.

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"That was fun." Gon chuckles, carrying a couple of bags. Killua comes into the hotel room behind him before shutting the door with his foot. "We were able to get some more outfits and some bathing suits for Saturday." Gon places his bags on the bed before jumping on the bed, signing in contentment.

"Yeah we made good time." Killua grins, putting his bag on the bed as well. "We got all the shopping done so we don't have to worry about that tomorrow. We get to focus all on the chocolate." Killua rubs his hands together, licking his lips.

"Don't eat too much now Killua." Gon chuckles at the look his best friend gives him. "Save some for me! I want to try it too."

"Of course i'm not selfish." Killua grunts, crossing his arms. "I'll let you have a piece while I eat the rest." He looks at Gon with a playful glint in his eyes.

"Not fair!" Gon grins, knowing that Killua is playing around. He won't eat all the chocolate...well he could but he won't. He'll share. "Do you want to do some training with me?" Gon hops off the bed, grabbing his shoulder and rolling his arms, starting to do his stretching.

"Sure but first..." Gon blinks, the other male is suddenly in front of him, a devilish smirk on his face. "I think it's time you told me Gon."

"Tell you what?" Gon blinks before it comes back to him and once again he can't stop the lopsided smile that fills his face. "Oohh that."

"yes that. I've been waiting all day." Killua grins, leaning closer to his friend.

"Hmm I wonder if I should tell you." Gon turns his back to Killua, he's smiling too big. "Maybe I just won't."

"Oh really?" There's a dangerous tone to Killua's voice so Gon jumps away, turning to face his friend. He's in a stance but it's playful. Killua's eyes are narrowed but they're filled with mischief. "I think it's in your best interest to tell me Gon. You said you would. It would be mean not to tell me." Killua walks towards him slowly, menacingly. He holds out his hand with a smirk. "But if not I'll make you talk."

"Nope!" Gon grins before he starts hopping around the room, Killua right on his tail. Gon can't help to laugh finding this game really fun. He's being chased by Killua, the object of the game is not to be caught. Gon makes a sharp turn, surprising Killua and makes a run for the hotel room door, knowing that Killua will get a hold of him soon in this small space.

" I don't think so." Killua slams into Gon, banging him against the door, using his own body to trap him in the room. Gon goes to push Killua back only for the ex-assassin to grab a hold of him tightly. Gon knows if he pushes Killua, the ex-assassin's grip is tight, he will just take Gon with him. Killua smirks and Gon gulps knowing Killua has him where he wants him. "Last chance Gon~" Killua chimes, his fingers cracking as he moves them closer towards Gon.

"No-" Gon starts only to bust out into laughter when Killua jabs his fingers into his stomach only to wiggle them around on his torso. Gon starts to kick, his face turning red as Killua continues to tickle him mercilessly. "Okay! Okay I'll tell you!" Gon gasps for air once Killua stops his tickling. Those purple eyes are alight with playful mischief. Seeing this look on Killua's face with the boy hovering over him gives him that strange feeling in his stomach. Leorio says it's normal...

"What did I tell you." Killua chuckles as he gets off of Gon, offering his hand. "I warned you this would happen if you didn't tell me."

"You did." Gon chuckles as he takes Killua's hand and gets up. He smiles brightly at his friend, feeling so very, very excited. His chest is fluttering. Killua's smirk falls from his face. He's looking at Gon differently now. "This is really cool Killua. I know you're going to love it." Gon smiles before he leads Killua over to the bed, holding his hand. Once again Gon can't help to feel like Killua's hands are so much softer compared to his, and they fit so well with his. Gon sits on the bed, Killua sitting next to him. His face isn't as pale and he's glancing away from Gon but he hasn't taken his hand out of his. "Close your eyes and no peeking!" Gon gives Killua a stern look when Killua glances at him. The ex-assassin closes his eyes.

For some reason seeing Killua like this, and holding his hand is making his stomach twist some more. At least he knows he's not getting too sick. Gon digs into his pocket, feeling so much excitement as he holds it out towards Killua, letting go of his hand. "Open your eyes."

Killua opens his eyes slowly only to blink at the box that's in his face. "What's this?" He looks at Gon confused.

"It's a gift! I saw it in a store when you were gone and as soon as I saw it, they made me think of you. I wanted you to have them." Gon's heart is beating faster as Killua opens up the box. The ex-assassin gasps, those purple eyes sparkle as he takes in the earrings.

"Gon..." Killua speaks his name softly. He looks up at Gon, those purple eyes so bright and his cheeks slightly tinted.

"Do you like them? They match your eyes! Not only are they pretty but the guy who was selling them told me they have special powers! You're suppose to give these earrings to someone you really care about and when they wear these, they're protected by the love of the person who gave it to them! They're really cool and I wanted you to have them." Gon smiles gently, feeling as if the room has gotten a bit hot at the way Killua is looking at him. His heart is fluttering... "I really can't thank you enough for all that you've done for me these past years. I couldn't have made it to this point without you. Please take these and when you wear them know that your my best friend. They say these earrings keep people together, so I hope they'll work with us too. I want to be with you forever."

Gon remembers what Kurapika told him, just tell the person your giving them to how you feel. The words Gon just spoke are completely true, his stomach is fluttering along with his heart. This sickness sure is strange but as long as he's okay then it doesn't matter. He'll endure it.

Killua stares at Gon, his lips sightly parted. He holds the earrings with such care, those purple eyes are starting to glisten, they almost look watery. Gon feels himself deflate a bit. Maybe he doesn't like them. He hasn't made any movement.

"I'm sorry if you don't like them Killua I-"

Gon blinks when Suddenly Killua is hugging him, his arms wrapping around him tightly. Killua buries his head in Gon's shoulder. "No I love them Gon! I just..." Killua's breathing seems a bit uneven, being felt on his neck. "Thank you..." Killua tightens his grip on Gon. "You just...made me really happy."

Gon feels all warm inside and out. Killua's never hugged him before. Gon quickly wraps his arms around his best friend, enjoying the warmth and the feeling of Killua's breath on his neck. His heart is fluttering so much and his head feels fuzzy. He really likes the feeling of Killua's arms around him. Gon feels so proud and accomplished for making Killua so happy that he would hug him. Gon can feel the muscles in Killua's arms shift, his hug is a little tight but Gon doesn't mind. The raven haired is feeling the sickest he's felt since this trip.

"I'm going to go put these in." Killua lets go of Gon slowly, his bangs covering his face. He holds the box to his chest carefully as he makes his way to the bathroom. "I'll be right back." His voice is laced with emotion.

He really, really likes them! I knew it! Gon starts to pace around the room. He can't wait to see how they look on his friend. When he saw it in his head it looked amazing so it's going to look even more better than that! Gon's feeling a little restless, this feeling not going away. The sickenss makes him feel so strange around Killua.

Gon gets on the floor and starts doing push ups, trying to focus his ten at the same time but it's hard to focus on his aura right now. So he keeps doing push ups as he waits for Killua, giving him something to do. In a way he guess he feels nervous. I wonder why...Killua said he liked it. No, he said he loved them. Gon is feeling a bit impatient so he stops his push ups and looks over towards the door. "Killua whats taking so long! I really wanna see!"

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Everything feels fuzzy, his once sharp senses now dull, his body feels numb. The only thing that Killua is aware of is the light weight of the box held in his hand. The ex-assassin walks to the mirror, feeling as if this is all a dream and he'll wake up at any moment. But once Killua looks at himself in the mirror, looks at the smile on his lips and his watery eyes, once he realizes he's actually very warm from being in Gon's arms, he knows this is no dream. That really just happened. Killua stares down at the beautiful purple stones that glisten in the light, it feels like there's not enough room in his chest for all the emotions he's feeling.

Killua is so...happy. Gon got him a gift. Not just any gift, but special earrings he had picked out because they reminded him of his eyes. What's sweeter is the story he gave behind giving them to him. Killua is special to Gon. And that alone makes Killua want to cry. Killua knows he's not special to Gon in the way that he wants but it's okay. Gon cares about him. Gon is his best friend. Gon goes out of his way and gets Killua something like this, thanking him for being there when really Killua should be thanking him for letting him stay around for so long. Gon wants Killua to be by his side forever.

Killua wishes he could be a better friend. That he could be honest like Gon is about his feelings and that he could be with his friend without getting the urge to taint him. He wishes he could be like Gon, so that he could be truly worthy of such a friend. Killua knows Gon said there's no requirements to be someone's friend, that you don't have to earn it but being with Gon, and being this happy...Killua doesn't feel like he deserves it.

Killua carefully takes the earrings out of the box, biting his lip, all his emotions ready to spring forth. He couldn't stop himself from hugging Gon. He wanted to squeeze him and keep him in his arms forever. That was the first time he's hugged Gon...and the raven haired male responded with wrapping his arms around him immediately. Killua felt he could burst being hugged by Gon. Killua was confused at first by the earrings since he doesn't have his ears pierced but after Gon explained them...Killua was touched. He felt so light.

Killua tucks his bangs behind his ears to get them out of the way. He washes the earring's metal end with soap and water before gripping his ear lobe and pulling down. I didn't have my ears pieced but that can be easily changed. Gon won't have to know. Killua makes sure the hole is going to be in the middle before he forces the dull end of the earring through his ear lobe. The ex-assassin doesn't even flinch as he watches the metal go through. Blood rushes to his ear, making it red but that's it. This pain is nothing. Killua does the same to the other side, both of his ears sting and feel hot. The ex-assassin's smile hasn't watered if anything, it's grown at seeing the earrings on him. They really do go well with my eyes...

In some sick way Killua feels pleased, as if these earrings are Gon's way of claiming him. In a way they are. Gon has claimed him as his best friend, as someone who is special to him. Killua's false hope has grown and his sicker side sees this as Gon claiming him as his own. Either way, Killua feels extremely happy.

Killua wants to shower Gon with gifts. He wants to give him anything that he wants. He wants to kiss those lips and keep that body close to his. He wants to see his bright smile. He wants to kiss every part of that glorious body. He wants to claim Gon as his own.

"Gon...You didn't need to give me earrings to make me stay." Killua whispers to himself. " As long as you still want to, I'll keep my promise. I'll never leave you."

"Killua whats taking so long! I really wanna see!" Gon's voice breaks him out of his fuzzy state. Oh that voice that's deep and smooth, a voice that burns him to the core.

"I'm coming." Killua takes a deep breath, trying to ride himself of this love stuck look on his face, trying to stop his lips from being in such a large smile. But really he's too happy. I want to be better...I want to do better for you Gon.

Killua walks out of the bathroom, as soon as he does Gon runs to him, those amber eyes so excited and bright. Killua feels his heart skip a beat, his breath getting caught in his throat. You're light. You're my light. "Let me see!" Killua tucks his bangs behind his ears, feeling his face warm at how Gon smiles at him, taking it in. He looks pleased. "Wow they look amazing on you Killua! They really go with your eyes. Your ears look a little red though, did they hurt you?" Gon frowns. "You know Kurapika was telling me that you need to have your ears pierced in order to wear earrings. I wasn't even sure if you did or not I just wanted to give them to you..."

"I had my ears pierced." Killua lies but he doesn't mind this lie. He doesn't want Gon to feel bad when he loves his gift. "They'll be red like this at first because my ears aren't use to them."

"Okay that's good! I'm glad you're able to wear them I would have felt bad if I got you something you couldn't wear." Gon smiles brightly. "Now it's like I'm always with you! So really we'll never be a part if my love is always with you. And they will protect you."

You're my everything. Your love is as pure as you are Gon."I don't need protecting." Killua tries to sound stubborn, grabbing a hold of Gon and putting him in a light head lock, just so he doesn't see how deeply his words have affected him. "Let's go out and train Gon. I'm feeling hyper." He needs to run and concentrate on other things or he'll kiss Gon. He'll spill everything here and now.

"hehe me too! I was inching for a fight at the circus but we didn't get one. And i'm so happy you like your gift! I feel like I have tons of energy to burn!" Gon chuckles in Killua's hold before spilling out of it, those amber orbs too bright. "I'll race you down to the beach!"

"You're on." Killua smirks. The boys give each other a look, Killua's eyes lingering longer then they should before they both take off, fighting and pushing to be the first one out of the door, laughing while doing so. The smile on Killua's face is too big, and his laughter light. It should be a crime for him to be having fun like this. It should be illegal for someone like him to have a friend like Gon.

The stones that hang from Killua's ears and bounce as he runs are a reminder of who he belongs to, who he follows, and who he loves. The new weight to his ears makes him feel like a different person. They remind him that Gon cares about him and sees him as special.

As long as I can be by his side like this that's all I need. There's a part of him that chuckles at the lie. I want more. I want more of you. I want you to be all mine. Theses are all things I want but what I need is...

Gon gets in the lead, looking back with a large grin on his face.

...to always be by your side. Whether lover or friend, I need to be with you Gon.