Twilight is not mine.
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Sound— BPOV
His nails scrapped, in a pleasure pain, down my back causing me to arch and scream out his name as he kept pounding into me. My hands clung to the blankets and pillows over my head, trying to find something to hold on to.
My body seemed to be its own entity has my hips started rotating on their own accord. He was growling loudly and moving his cock in me at a faster speed.
Our breaths caressed as we panted and shook as we moved together. His thrusts became erratic moving in and out of me. My walls were clamping down when he started hitting that spot.
"Come for me, Bella." He grunted out as he plunged in, keeping my hips moving.
His name would leave my lips in almost a screech as my whole world turned dark.
I practically jumped out of my bed from the intensity of the dream. It really should not be surprising at all, every night for the past eleven nights it's always the same dream, but I suppose I just never get used to it.
And it is always intense.
I have found it strange that Edward hadn't mentioned anything about it, or even look upset. I mean because surely I would have said his name at least once. Yelled it out, at least once.
But hey, if he doesn't want to mention it, I'm all for that.
The dream is extremely vivid, I always feel like everything is actually around us and we're actually moving as one. Like at the moment, I feel like he just pulled out. I feel empty.
I was glad Edward wasn't in my room at the moment. I don't think I could actually look him in the eye knowing of what I just dreamed. Of whom I was dreaming of.
At first I thought it was nothing, that all it was because of what we did, but as more days past by and the more vivid the dreams became I started to have the feeling that I was having them for a much bigger reason.
Days passed in which I became a coward by not stepping foot in the Cullen household. I was even lucky that Jasper already graduated from school, so I didn't need to worry about anything there.
The only problem was that for some reason…I missed him. My body and my soul called out for him, but it didn't make sense. The only time we ever got close or spoke was that weekend.
What took place then seemed to change something. For the good, the bad, I couldn't say. Only time or Alice could tell, but she hasn't said anything so perhaps I'm over thinking things.
Shaking my head rather forcefully helped dispel my thoughts for now.
I quickly launched myself from my bed and successfully made it to the door without stumbling. My hand was just on the door knob, when I caught site of a note taped against my door at eyelevel.
I sighed in resignation when I read that Alice wanted to drag me around the mall. There was no point in even fighting with someone that never took a negative for an answer or who could see the future, and I might as well add the fact she is a vampire.
The shower was much shorter than I had intended due to the fact a certain pixie stomping into the room and turning it off. She probably saw that I had decided to simply stand under it after I would be technically finished.
"I picked out your outfit; I didn't like anything you decided on." She yelled from downstairs.
"Fine." I huffed and practically stomped towards my room.
Freaking eighteen years old and can't even dress my own damn self. I thought angrily.
My mind was pretty strange lately, more so my emotions. I kept thinking and almost saying things that I would never have thought of before. Like I have never once been this mad at Alice before, I don't even recall ever being upset with Alice unless it had something to do with her keeping something from me.
It was strange, but I figured nothing to dwell on.
After dressing I began walking down the stairs, only half way down my stomach churned and my mouth began to overly salivate. I turned abruptly back and dashed towards the bathroom luckily only stumbling slightly once. I covered my mouth during the run, not being able to control the flow from my throat.
I barely made it to the toilet when a sudden rush of acidic water and dry heaving wracked through my clammy body.
Alice was holding my hair out of the way and placed a glass of water beside me less than a second later. I wasn't able to drink it for a couple of minutes of dry heaving.
"Oh my gosh, Bella, are you alright? Did you get the flu?" She asked quickly.
"I don't know." I replied shakily. "I was fine one minute then I drastically wasn't, but I'm feeling alright now."
"Are you sure? We don't have to go to the mall if you don't feel up to it." She said worriedly.
"As much as that offer sounds great, I do actually feel fine and you really want to go, so we'll go." I told her honestly.
It was extremely weird but I did feel normal.
"Alright, if you really say so." She said skeptically.
I nodded. "I'm really feeling normal; it was probably something I ate yesterday."
The car ride was filled with a singing competition that Alice easily won. But somehow I could sense something was off about Alice's demeanor. I hoped that whatever was on her mind, she would speak to me about it.
The mall wasn't so packed since it was a Wednesday morning. The only people shopping being shopaholics almost as bad as Alice or parents simply taking their children someplace.
Alice dragged me around, forcing items and clothing to be bought by her for me. I needed up getting at least four bags worth of clothes that I wouldn't be wearing and maybe one and a half worth that I actually liked.
After about three hours of her crazy shopping, she finally allowed me a break at the food court. She seemed lost in her thoughts as she walked behind me in line for my lunch, and even when I found a place to eat.
"Bella, I have no idea as to what is going on anymore." Alice finally said after many more minutes of silence, seeming annoyed and worried.
"About what?" I asked.
"Your future, it's blurry." She said, shaking her head frustrated. "It's been like that since a few days ago. I suppose I shouldn't mind it too much, since I already know your set future."
"What do you mean? I thought the future was always changing."
"That's true, but sometimes things are just set." She said. "Things happen that need you to make a decision, but depending on your choice it might take you longer or shorter to go where you need to. I simply see where you end not exactly how you get there."
"Where do I end?"
Alice had me promise to not say anything about my now blurry future. She wouldn't tell me anything other than my future was indeed blurry, and not to worry about anything. For some reason she kept stressing anything.
She then went on to tell me about Edward not being able to be at my house until the next day, because she really needed to speak to him and drag him shopping. She made it seem like it was supposed to be very important that he wasn't going to be at my home tonight.
I didn't know what to think about it.
And at the moment all I wanted to do was snuggle against my pillow and drift to the wonderful land of unconsciousness.
I entered my kitchen in search of a small dinner. There happened to be a note on the fridge from Charlie, telling me he would be down at Billy's till the next day in order to comfort him on Jacob's runaway.
I snorted at the thought of Charlie trying to comfort anyone, and also because everyone but my dad knew that Jacob was perfectly fine. Although, technically Jacob was in pain because of my choices; Charlie didn't need to know that. I didn't want to remember that.
I made myself a sandwich, without even realizing until I took a bite that it was the same as the one Jasper had made me. I laughed humorlessly to myself as I ate.
My body swayed when I got up from the chair and my head was light. I clutched the end of the closest counter, waiting for the lightness to dispel.
Once I felt normal, I cleaned my plate quickly, thinking I needed to rest. The day was pretty full and I was sick at the beginning of it, it only made sense I would be feeling a little funny sometime.
The moment I was on the bed, my body immediately relaxed and my eyes automatically shut closed along with my mind.
A sound had me jumping out of bed, still twisted sheets around me but luckily I didn't fall. My head swiveled around while I slid the blankets to the ground and stepped away from them.
I tiptoed towards the window, though it wasn't necessary, and peered through the glass seeing only the darkness. A gentle knock from the glass had me a bit startled, but I moved closer and unlocked the window.
My feet shuffled backwards quickly to give whoever it was some room. My eyes stayed focused on the darkness, simply trying to figure out who it could be.
The window slid open, but no one came through. My heart beat frantically against my chest and pounded against my skull. My hands started shaking as my feet slid backwards against the floor.
Had I not been so terrified, I might have felt a sudden brush of wind rush by. But I didn't, and so ended up screaming into a cold muffled hand when the person tapped my shoulder.
An overwhelming feel of calmness hit me, making me to twist around in my captor's arms.
Jasper looked a mess. His golden locks were decorated with twigs and something seeming to be mud. His face was also splattered with mud. Thirsty black eyes stared back at me, but I couldn't feel afraid when all they held was concern.
"Jasper, what happened?" I finally asked.
"You've been avoiding me, haven't you?" He asked quietly, moving away from me.
"No, no of course not." I rushed.
"You can't lie to me, Bella." He said with a humorless laugh.
"I…I don't know…I just couldn't face you, I guess." I replied.
"Why is that?" He asked, before pacing like a feral animal. "You haven't been around the house since our weekend together; could it have something to do with that?"
"Jasper, what happened to you?" I asked again.
I still couldn't find it in myself to be scared of this untamed animalistic Jasper. Call it lack of self-preservation or just plain stupid, but whatever it was I just knew he could not hurt me. He would not hurt me.
I was worried, of course I was worried. This didn't seem like anything Jasper would usually do. Whatever happened had to have really done damage on him, and from hearing his story it would have to be something extremely terrible to cause a reaction like this. But then there was the question of why come to me? And why ask about why I haven't been to the Cullen home since that weekend?
"Jasper?" I whispered, trying to get him to stop and talk to me. "Jasper."
His head snapped in my direction at my second call. He was in front of my face before I could even blink.
"Bella." He breathed, his scent penetrating my senses. "Don't avoid me."
"I…I…sorry." I said, turning my gaze to his muddy shoes.
One of his hands came up and forced my head up, making me look to his coal eyes before he dropped it slowly to his side. I brought one of my hands up and placed my index finger lightly on the dark bags under his eyes.
"You haven't been eating." I stated.
"I missed you."
I stopped my actions and tried to move back, but he wasn't having any of that and brought his arm to snake around my waist holding me in place.
"Jasper, I can't handle this." I said struggling against him.
"Bella, please just give me this time. We don't even have to do anything you don't want."
What was this? What was any of this? I thought what went on between us was only supposed to be that weekend. I thought Jasper simply did it for the sake of saying he did. I thought no feelings were involved.
I thought completely wrong it seemed.
"Jasper, we can't." I said. "What we did was because Edward allowed it, he wouldn't allow you here."
"I can feel you want me, Bella." He said. "He doesn't have to find out; we'll have our own little secret."
"I can't…I can't." I quietly chanted, full of frustration. Whether I was frustrated with his pushiness or for the reason of really actually wanting him, I didn't know but I might have to say both.
"Bella, I need you. I can't stay away. You can't avoid me anymore, I won't let you."
I couldn't say I needed Jasper. I couldn't say I couldn't stay away. Because I didn't believe I need him, and I did stay away this week.
I closed my eyes tightly, lessening the temptation. My whole being was filled with major conflicts. I craved so much of him but it was extremely wrong to do anything on the urges.
Perhaps, I wouldn't be feeling like this if Edward actually let our relationship take that next step. Maybe if he didn't keep rejecting me every night for this whole week, I wouldn't feel the desire, the want, to be with Jasper, who was offering and confessing, not only wanting, but needing me.
I never wanted someone as much as the way I wanted Jasper. Not even Edward could unleash this much desire.
"Just this night." He whispered against my ear, causing me to shudder.
His tongue grazed lightly across my neck, making a mix between a moan and whimper to escape me. His hands moved to rest on my hips with his thumbs rubbing my exposed skin.
My fists clenched and unclenched while a bit my lip and trembled slightly. My will power was beginning to crumble with every light touch his hands made. But I was going to fight it, him, even though we both knew I was going to lose.
One hand stayed on my hip while another moved under my light shirt across my back. I shuddered against the cold; at least that was what I told myself. He began to graze his fingertips moving them up and down my spine.
A nip at my collarbone made me gasp and snap my eyes wide open. The first thing I could see was Jasper's hair, but slowly he moved his head up towards my view.
I think I completely snapped when his hungry eyes stared back at me, but I couldn't be sure. The only thing was one moment we stared at one another, then the next our lips were pressed roughly together.
I didn't even bother fighting against him for dominance; he already won. His taste was the only thing that could clearly process through my fogged mind. I moaned loudly against his mouth when he pressed his prominent erection against my core.
My fingers tangled through his messy locks, pushing him closer. His mouth moved away from mine, letting me the air I needed. We were both panting with our foreheads pressing against each other.
I moved one of my hands down from his hair and grazed my fingertips along his neck to his chest down his stomach stopping at the top of his jeans. I did the same with my other hand, and brought them together to unclasp his belt buckle.
Before I could blink, I was laying flat against my back on my bed with Jasper straddling my waist. He kept his eyes on mine while he moved his hands to the bottom of his shirt, his hands lifting it slowly from his body and over his head.
I was panting as he moved to hover over me, hands pulling my legs closer. I was so caught up in him that I never noticed that we were both now naked until his tongue flicked my hardening nipples.
I gasped and arched closer, my fingers entangling themselves in his hair. He left kisses down across my stomach, pulling my thighs over his shoulders.
A cold breath over my heating sex had my pants begin to be mixed in with whimpers of want. He licked completely up my slit and swirled his tongue on my clit. I began bucking into his face and wrapping my legs around his head.
"Fuck, I missed you so damn bad." Jasper growled when he pulled back slightly.
I didn't get a chance to reply before he inserted a finger into me. He moved it slowly at first, teasing, but quickly started pushing in and out at an inhuman speed inserting another finger along the way.
My hands clutched tightly against his head as he continued drawing patterns across my nub with his tongue.
I screamed his name when he had grazed his teeth on my clit causing me to shudder wildly. I could barely feel him lapping up my juices as I was lost in ecstasy.
Jasper traveled up my body, sucking roughly at my breasts before looking at my face. His hand came up and caressed my cheek, tangling in my hair as he pressed his lips against mine in a sweet kiss.
His cock entered me slowly allowing me the time to adjust. A groan/growl vibrated through Jasper's chest and escaped past his parted lips.
"Shit, better than I remember." He growled. "Tight, fuck hot."
A guttural moan was sung by me when he finally just plunged deeply inside. He pulled out all the way only to thrust harder back in. The heat bloomed heavily all throughout my body as he began to suck and pinch my breasts.
His thrusts were wild and frantic like an animal. Loud noises kept leaving him and vibrated my body with his movements.
"Ah, Jasper." I yelled. "I…more, more."
His nails scrapped, in a pleasure pain, down my back causing me to arch and scream out his name as he kept pounding into me. My hands clung to the blankets and pillows over my head, trying to find something to hold on to.
My body seemed to be its own entity has my hips started rotating on their own accord. He was growling loudly and moving his cock in me at a faster speed.
Our breaths caressed as we panted and shook as we moved together. His thrusts became erratic moving in and out of me. My walls were clamping down when he started hitting that spot.
"Come for me, Bella." He grunted out as he plunged in, keeping my hips moving.
His name left my lips in almost a screech as my whole world turned dark.
Yep, her dream actually did happen. Can anyone say Déjà vu? I hoped you liked :)
Anywhoz, I wrote an OS for the Darkella contest, be sure to check it out. It's called 'Pleasure of the Flesh' and is a pairing with Bella & Jasper.
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