A/N: So I hope you all like it so far. Set during S4.

Also forgot to say I don't own nothing, so don't sue me!

I really hope you all are enjoying it as much as I'm enjoying writing it!

Enjoy!

Chapter 4: Ruined?

They pulled in.

My hearts racing a million miles an hour.

My plan seemed rather stupid right about now.

I should just bolt.

But I want him to know.

Now.

I want to be braver than my mother was.

Happy's getting off his bike. He's grabbing a beer.

I go over to him.

Then I change my mind and go sit down on a deserted picnic table.

Everyone is all caught up in the moment, greeting there loved ones. I only know what three of the guys look like. Clay, I know he's Gemma husband and he's over with Gemma, Jax, because he's with Tara, and Happy, because he's my father. The rest I'm assuming are Chibs, Juice, Tig, and Bobby.

I want to talk to Happy, but should I? God, why is life so damn hard?

I look at him and start thinking about the way things could go.

Would he accept me with open arms? Or tell me to get out of here, he didn't want nothing to do with me. Cause legally, not that anyone around here probably cares about that, he doesn't have to have anything to with me. I'm technically an adult.

I'm pulled from my train of thought when a guy with a mohawk and lightening bolts on both sides of his head, says "Why you staring at Happy? You sure as hell down look like a crow eater."

"What? I wasn't staring. My mind was like a million miles away." I lied.

Luckily, before her could say anything else Clay said it was time for church.

You best believe I was counting my lucky stars.

I have gotta be more careful.

Church was over they were all going outside. Everyone was still here, but the guys were leaving, saying good bye to everyone.

Happy, though he was going for his bike.

I took a chance and went up to him.

"Happy?" I said to him.

"Yeah?" He said annoyed.

"My names Elizabeth. My mother was Sarah Janowitz, and I'm your daughter." I said.

He looked at me and I couldn't tell what he was feeling which bothered me.

Was he happy he had a long lost daughter? Or pissed?

He didn't say anything, so I took that as my cue too let it sink it, a.k.a. I bolted.

I went over to my car got in and got the hell out of there. Home sweet barber shop it is.

My whole plan was just ruined because of my big mouth.

I've been doing this for a month perfectly.

Well, I sure did fuck that up.

I went over to my table and sat down and went through everything that was in my safe.

My mother's locket, my great grandma and grandpa's wedding rings, some old pictures, and one thing I wasn't ready too see.

Could this day get any worse?

I should just go to sleep.

I walked in the bathroom, opened the medicine cabinet, took out the tylenol p.m., and took some.

That should make me sleep, hopefully.

I want to forget this day ever happened.

Tomorrow it's time to plan my trip back to Detroit.

And see my second family and all my friends I didn't tell I was leaving, well that is if they're still my friends.

And maybe I'll see...

I woke up at 5 a.m. the next morning. Guess that's what you get when you got to bed at 7.

Yesterday was coming back too me.

Happy, not the emotion, my father, who I'm pretty sure is void of all his emotions.

I checked my phone and had two new texts. I decided to check them.

Kylee:

Call me soon, he's back.

Not sure what to think.

Piney:

Kid, what'd you say to Happy? He's been on edge since I saw you talking to him. Stay away from him. He's no good for you.

On edge? Yup, he doesn't want anything to do with me. Stay away from him? Does Piney seriously think I'm into Happy? Ew, no, last time I checked incest was not my thing.

I dialed Kylee right away.

"Girl, you are aware it's 7 in the morning right?" She said sarcastically in the phone.

"Why's he back? Is he okay?" I said into the phone.

"Well good morning to you too. But yeah he's fine and I'm thinking it has something to do with you." She said.

"Okay that's all I want to know about him." I said with what I was hoping was authority in my voice.

"Okay. So what's the news on the daddy sitch?" She said.

"I told him and he didn't react. Expect me back home in a week, I got some shit to tie up then my ass is gone." I said coming to tears.

I guess deep down, I really wanted Happy to be happy about having a daughter.

I'm so stupid.

"It'll be okay. We'll do a little retail therapy, then go get fucked up." She said to me, trying to cheer me up.

"I'll talk to you soon okay?" I said and before she could even say anything I hung up.

Retail therapy and alcohol wasn't going to help with this one. Nope, not at all.

As it rolled around to the time I should start getting ready for work, I did.

I don't know why, I don't exactly need the job now that the truth is out, but apparently Happy hadn't told anyone.

But I want to tell Gemma face to face I have to quit.

And I will today.

I'm going to be a girl who doesn't need a father.

I got in the shower and started my day.

During breakfast, I decided to watch the news. For all I knew the world could be ending.

Something about bodies caught my attention.

There it was out in front of Charming Heights, they found Russian bodies.

Holy shit!

I turned off the TV and put my dishes in the sink

Right when I was about to walk out the door my phone went off.

It was Sue, my agent.

"Hello." I said into my phone.

"Lizzie! You sound good. How are you?" She said.

Sue is cool. When my mom died, she didn't bug me at all about anything.

"I'm great. And you?" I lied.

"Good. I hear your living in California now?" She said.

"At the moment yeah." I said while twirling my keys.

"Well if you plan on staying, my cousin's husband's an agent in L.A. and I sent him your portfolio and he's real interested. Wanted to know if you'd ever consider acting?" She said.

That was nice of her. Well it wasn't like she wasn't getting commission on this, but Sue's a nice person.

"Yeah I would be interested. Text me his number?" I said.

L.A., fresh start, sounds great.

"Okay I sent it to you. Your going to go far in life, Lizzie, I just know it." She said.

"Thanks Sue. Well I gotta go. Talk to you soon." I said.

"You too." She said then the line went dead.

Sue

Bryson Baker

310-555-5555

Maybe coming to California was a good idea after all, just not for the reasons I thought.

I walked out the door and headed to tell Gemma I was quitting.

I walked into the office to tell Gemma, and guess who was there: Happy.

Ignoring him, I looked at Gemma.

"I'm leaving Charming." I said to her.

Happy remained silent, staring at me.

"What? I thought you liked it here! Why?" She said.

"She's just doing what her mom did, running." Happy said.

Really? Now you choose the time to talk. Asshole.

"Your mom's last name wasn't originally Henderson was it?" She asked, but it seemed more like a kind of statement. I guess she had the right hunch for a long time.

I couldn't say anything. I didn't know what to say, so I just remained silent, cursing myself for the tears that were rolling down my cheeks.

I grew to look at Gemma like a maternal figure.

But I'd been lying to her, or at least not telling her the truth from day one.

"Happy, we got church." Opie said once he opened the office door. He looked at the scene in front of him and seemed confused.

Happy got up and left the office without one word, just a nod to Gemma.

He so did not care whether or not I left.

And to think I uprooted my life for that asshole.

"You know I believe family is the most important thing, right?" Gemma said.

"Yeah and that sometimes family isn't always blood. You've told me that alot, Gemma." I said getting up to leave.

"You're a granddaughter of one of the First 9, that makes you family." She said.

Yup, that was out. Thanks a lot, Happy.

"I'm not trying to be rude, but frankly I don't give a shit what that makes me. The reason I came to Charming was to find my father and turns out, never mind, I'm out of here. Bye Gemma." I said then walked out the door, sobbing.

I wanted Charming to work out, I really did.

"Elizabeth! Where the hell you think your going?" Piney hollered at me from a table by the clubhouse.

I walked over to him, gave him a hug goodbye, then walked my crying ass to my car when the Sheriff pulls up, along with fire trucks, blocking my exit.

I get in my car and wait for them to leave.

The sheriff taps on my window and I get out.

"Go over there with the rest of them." He says motioning towards everybody I didn't want to be around.

"No." I said.

He motioned for another officer to take care of me.

"Is that smoke?" I hear him say.

"Go over there." The officer said.

"You're going to have to arrest me before I would ever go over there." I said.

"On what grounds?" He asked.

"Assaulting a police officer." I said then proceeded to knee him in the nuts.

I didn't try to run while he was on the ground, I wanted to be fucking arrested so I at least didn't have to be anywhere near Happy.

Before I knew what was going on, another officer slammed me down on my car with a little too much force if you ask me, slapping handcuffs on my wrist.

Telling me I was under arrest, and all that shit.

That's when I saw Happy looking at me, with emotion.

That fucker was smiling!

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