What is up my homies? Wow I'm gay. Anyway, onto the next chapter.

Once again: I do not own Big Time Rush in anyway, still belongs to Nick...for now...

"James, it's been two weeks, two weeks, please man, talk to us!" Logan begged his unresponsive friend.

The day after Logan and Carlos and talked about James' hockey incident, Dr. Matthews decided it was in the boy's "best interest" if he went under a mental evaluation. It began with the shrink asking very simple questions, it ended with James being sedated with enough morphine to keep an elephant out for three days. It kept James out for a week. After that…well, it was as if his body had shut down, he had become closed off, moving only when he was throwing up what little food he had ingested earlier that day. The singer refused to speak to anyone, he even ignored Kendall, who was slowly becoming a reflection of James.

James looked away from Logan and at the closed window, his empty eyes looking at nothing. Just like after the rape. Kendall sat next to the taller male, bags under his green eyes showing just how little sleep he had gotten over the past two weeks.

"James, baby, please, talk to me. Say anything, anything." He knew it was useless, James would talk only when he felt like it. But how long would that be?

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"Shh, it's okay James, just let it all out…" Carlos rubbed his friend's now skeletal back as he threw up what was left in his stomach.

James was deteriorating every day. Slowly becoming nothing but a shell of his former self; he was so skinny, his sunken face showing off his high cheekbones, his ribs and hips were now prominent even when he was standing, and when Carlos ran his hand down his back, he could feel James' spine.

The Latino looked at Logan and shook his head, "He's getting worse Logan…"

Logan nodded and sighed, "We may need to check him into, like, the psyche ward, or something."

Carlos frowned and looked at James, who was now lying on the ground, "James, please, please come back to us."

Gustavo was watching the scene from the doorway, Mrs. Knight had taken Katie home after James starting throwing up; Kelly had gone to tell Griffin they would need a few more weeks. No one thought the boy could have gotten worse, they were sadly mistaken. His doctor wasn't making things any easier. Dr. Matthews deserved another punch to the face, whenever the boys left the room they would come back to find James strapped to the bed once again, sobbing and screaming for Kendall. Those were the only times he spoke, when he was screaming. Kendall had begged the hospital for a new doctor, but all they said was that they would "get back to him.". All of them had a strong feeling that their lack of concern had something to do with Kendall and James' relationship.

Not everyone was ignorant though, Nurse Karen was a sweet, caring old woman who deeply cared for all four of the boys.

"Boys, I don't mean to sound insensitive, but…we may need to look into setting up auditions for a new fourth member of the band."

Kendall, Carlos, and Logan all spun to face their manager, "What?!" They shouted in simultaneous rage.

"I'm just saying-"

"No! No one is going to replace James!" Logan stomped over to Gustavo, a look of fury he never saw in the boys eyes.

Carlos nodded furiously, "Big Time Rush is and always will be me, Kendall, Logan and James! No one else!"

Kendall picked his boyfriend off the ground and glared at their manager, "And if you have a problem with that, you had better start looking for a new band, because we'll go right back to Minnesota!"

Gustavo looked down at the ground, ashamed for even saying anything like he did, "You…you guys are right," He looked back up at the form in Kendall's arms, "Besides, no one could take the place of that dog. I don't think anyone could look at themselves so much without getting sick of their reflection except James."

Logan nodded and smiled softly, "He's gonna come through, I know he is."

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"Kendall…"

Kendall's neck almost snapped due to the speed of his head turning towards his love, "James?" he whispered shakily, almost denying that James was actually talking.

"Kendall…" The young male's voice was scratchy due to lack of speech for two weeks, he reached for his boyfriend and whined quietly.

In a flash, the singer was next to James, gently pulling him into a close hug. He buried his face in his hair and took a deep breath. It made Kendall shiver. The smell of Redken conditioner, hairspray, and other products was long gone, replaced with the sterile smell of hospital shampoo. The brown locks were still soft and long, but were no longer as luxurious as they once were. James didn't look, smell, didn't feel like James. And this place was the problem.

"God James, we were so scared that you wouldn't come back to us. You've been so…dead to us. I thought I lost you…"

James whimpered quietly and snuggled his head into the juncture between Kendall's neck and shoulder, "I'm scared Kendall…"

"Of what baby? He's never going to touch you again. I promised."

"That's not it…well…not all of it."

Kendall ran his hand over James' bony back, "What is it sweetie?"

"What if…what if he does come back. But this time…this time he hurts you. Or Logan or Carlos? I couldn't handle that. It's hard, g-getting through this. But if one of my best friends was…" He swallowed heavily, "hurt, I would die…I'd rather have Bobby take me again if it meant keeping you all safe…"

Tears burned the back of Kendall's eyes, he pulled James even closer to his own body and released a shuddering sigh, "James…no matter how you acted, Logan, Carlos, and I always saw the real you. You care about others so much that you would throw yourself in harms way to save us. But you know what James? Right now, this is about helping you, protecting you. Bringing our old James back. You can worry about us later, for now, it's all about you."

James looked up at Kendall, and then did something that made the other boy's heart skip at least three beats.

For the first time since the attack. Since James had been taken from his friends and had his innocence stolen. Since the vicious rape occurred.

James Diamond smiled.

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Dr. Matthews watched in disgust as the boys in room 2113. His patient being held in the arms of another man. It was wrong, it was disturbing, it had to be stopped. A dark smile slowly made it's way onto his features and he grabbed his phone.

"Yes this is Dr. Matthews of Hollywood Central Hospital. I have a patient here. A very interesting patient with a very interesting case...of course. His name is James Diamond, one of the singers from that new top band Big Time Rush."

Dr. Matthews nodded and chuckled quietly.

"He's here right now. In the arms of Kendall Knight. He was raped."

What better way to stop it then completely destroying the already shattered boy?

Wow, I'm pretty sure that doctor needs to go die. Now I'm really sorry it's short but I'm on complete writers block. Give me an idea for the next chapter ok? It'll make me write more. And I know I update fast now, but I get slower as reviews get slower. So review review review!! And remember, chapter ideasss ;P Love you allll!