I'm not going to make this sweet. You will ether be lost and confused, shocked, stunned and sadly. You might all be well fed up with me after this.

I'm going to answer one question here: Renesmeeblack333- Jasper's job will soon be discribed in full but not yet, there are little piece's and you might be able to figure it out for yourself at the end of this chapter.

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Yesterday night didn't happen. He stopped though not me. I had to sigh in exasperation because he had me all worked up for nothing, taking off my shirt and kissing my collar bone only to just stop. Just like that one moment we were touching and feeling than the next moment he just stopped. Straightened his back and caught his breath. I had to tick my head to the side to see if I was really getting this. Was he playing me or what. All these little spore of the moments were ticking my last fucking nerve. Making me pull my hair in sexual frustration and the thing about me is that I never got, uncool. I never took it bad if these things didn't go my way but shit. Jasper can pick on little things that really got to me. So here I was in my bra looking at him lean on the booth stall catching his breath.

"What?" I asked.

"Nothing"

"Jasper don't fuck with me" I was still sitting on the table with the gun and box of bullets at ether side of me.

"I'm not trying to" Jasper ran a hand through his hair like many times before.

"Then what the hell are you doing?" I pulled the braid out of my head and let my hair hang low and short. It cupped my face in really messy curls.

"Listen Alice. I fuck when I want to I don't usually bring anyone here because I don't see them for less than a few hours. Then you come along and I just sort of let things happen like today. I should have said no when you wanted to come with us. You don't just bring people along to to the things that I go to, it's not a place for new faces. It's not a place for me even" He was now looking at me.

"So what is this then. Why am I here because I asked you this before and you didn't have an answer" I leaned back on my hands and closed my eyes. Just a little bit I wanted to see him answer.

"I thought about that and I now know that I guess it's because your interesting. I never had to really think around you it just came. The time that you came to help me outside your house was dumb of me you could have worked for Maria to finish the job but I went anyway. Your here because your like a new breath of air when all that's left in my lungs are polluted. I guess it was curiosity. I should bring you back and lead Maria somewhere else, and well I guess I'm just fucking dumb" Jasper concluded.

I took in what he had said and decided what I took from it.

"Your full of shit" I hopped up off the table and went to him. "Your really full of it you know that. It could take a three year old to figure out what your missing. You suck at lying at least you could have simply said it's not good for me to be here but instead you lie with a dull explanation that I'm like a shiny new toy you just had to check out. What bullshit. Don't play that with me. All this time and you still can't answer me that one question truthfully instead you give me something that makes you feel better. Something that makes sense to you right now." I laughed at him.

"All I wanted was the truth, you could have just said you wanted to fuck me. At least that to me on numerous occasions from other people would have been better but this...... This lie, it was worst. Oh and don't even try fucking with me like that because I'm not a slut despite what I've said before. I fuck when I want to right Jasper? Just like you" I didn't raise my voice or even spit it out on him. He flinched.

"Were not dating Alice"

"Yea, your right. Your not nothing which brings me to that golden question again. Why am I here Jasper? Why didn't you just leave me to my own devices and don't use the Maria thing for an answer. Were not dating and that's right, but why are we always in this situation" I pointed to my topless chest. "If your not going to do anything with it don't start what you can't finish"

I picked my shirt of the floor and put it back on. There was a balcony down the long open space. I made my way toward it. When I got out I avoided the comfy looking chairs and went to lean on the wall and sat down. I looked sideways into the green, there were city lights in the distance, really far in the distance. I wish I had a cigarette to dull the moment but I didn't even smoke. So I smoked the clean air and let it calm me instead.

It was a couple of minuets before Jasper came out to join me. I didn't see him because my eyes were closed but I heard the glass slide open. He sat down on the floor beside me. He did not come out running saying poetic things that rivals Shakespeare. He just sat beside me silently.

Honestly these where the kind of things that if it weren't me could put your self esteem down. I'm lucky I got and feel the way I do or I would have been feeling bad right now.

"I have to go finish up on my part of the deal today. Rosalie's coming over to keep watch"

"Remember when you told me you don't like lier's, I never thought I would have to tell you I didn't like them ether" I opened my eyes but kept them looking out into the green. "What do you do anyways"

He let what I said pass inhaling it like it was toxic.

"I have to go look for my next target. I'm not really an assassin I work differently then that. I take jobs, but they don't always involve killing the target but that's apart of the description. I can't tell you exactly what because I don't want to lie and Alice I am going to half to lie to you, but whats between me and you I won't" Jasper put his hand on my thigh. "And fuck Alice don't judge me"

I shook his hand from my leg. "Yea me ether"

We heard shooting coming from inside. I got up and headed back inside. I did know how I felt for him but that didn't mean at this instant I had to like it. It was nothing new to me if he just wanted a ride on the merry go round.

I seen Rosalie shooting up the targets one after another. Jasper disappeared with the elevator.

She was pretty good, got shots really close to the center and some hitting dead on. I wanted to be good at something other than dancing I do that for me, I'd like something new. I just wish it wasn't her.

"I hate to ask you but could you show me how to do that" I asked. I wasn't bad but when I was a kid I took the lessons as jokes mostly. I'm good but not great.

"Hostility gone down" Rosalie shot another one.

"No your just good and I could need some help. I'm not asking you to be a friend or anything cause well. I still think your a bitch" I said.

She removed the middle separator to her right. It combined the two booths. I put the ear muffs or what ever they we called on and picked a gun.

"To small, they give us those bitch ones in shooting ranges because were women. Take this" Rosalie handed me the one she had and took another one. 9 millimeter. "Hold it like this, one arm straight one arm slightly bent. Stay cool, aim and..." Bang!! She hit dead center of the heart. Cruel.

I did the same but aimed for the head, over and over again I tried until I finally got it. We kept shooting at different parts of the body but Rosalie's favourite place seemed to be the heart. She kept going back and back to it between other's.

"Your not that bad" Rosalie said. "But this, this word make a crowd brake" She took at a shot gun and aimed. It blew the paper away leaving a big whole in the chest. "Though, you. Your not ready for this" She took her ear muffs off. And put the gun away. "Put yours away"

"So what do you do?" I asked.

"Sacrifice things that I need to do for this team. Give or take a few things and people" She said.

"Your being nice" I said.

"I'm really not. I'm being civilized because I"m going to be here with you for awhile and unlike my bitchiness I don't have a reason yet to completely hate you"

"He brought me here" I said.

"I wonder what else he's willing to do" She went into another room to put the bullets away. I followed after her because there really wasn't anything else better to do right now.

"What do you mean" I asked.

"I mean your going to gambled like no tomorrow and because of that, and because of him. I'm going to have the right to hate you really soon"

"It's not like that for him and me" I said.

"Um"

"Who was that big guy holding Maria's hand. The one that has curly brown hair" I said.

"Emmett, Maria's indulgence. He is her new part time job when she isn't trying to get a different type of hold on Jasper. I hear his good looks gets him a spot with out actually fucking her"

"And the one with the long brown hair who always carries that case?"

"Bella she's Maria right hand and Emmet is two but so are other people. That was the last question everything else is Jasper" She said. She plopped down on one of the sofa's and flipped through the channels. Today is going to be a long night"

I took a bottle of gin I found and sipped on it. Rosalie told me it was Jasper's and I laughed. Right now I did not really care. I walked around and took a look at the place. It was very scary.. I could say. Very mob boss if that made any sense at all. It never had any pictures or anything like that. Just a lot of guns where the targets where and chairs everywhere. It had a weird kitchen and this place was deep in the middle of nowhere. Jasper had taken a lot of short cuts and dirt roads to get here. He had a plan of a motorcycle on his table. Of course I had no idea what any of it said but it was going to be black and silver. Unlike the one we came here with which was all silver.

To think of it this place kind of looked like a loft. I came pass a door that looked like it headed into a bedroom. I skipped it and went back over to where Rosalie was. She talked on her cell phone a lot saying things that confused me.

"We're a day late. I know there's going to be some up roar and Jasper's fixing it right now..... Yes he's doing that and should be done soon you know he dose not take long"

"Yes I'm sure of it Edward. You know we can't call, we have to keep it like this, they have to call us because it's safer..... I know........ She is here with me. Just for a few more minuets I hope"

"Your picking it up right now, Remember to divide it and hand it out. Only you me and Jasper know what's going on....but everyone else....."

She left the room to finish her conversation. I peeped around the corner and tried to catch some more of it but she went outside.

I ended up falling asleep on the couch.

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I felt like I was being carried – scratch that – I was being carried. I could feel the difference in the steps, my head leaned back the my legs dipped down.

I mumbled put me down, even though I was to sleepy to walk.

"Your going to my bedroom to sleep, why didn't you go there I left the door unlocked? You slept on the couch" Jasper questioned me. I didn't go because I didn't want to see what was inside.

Although I didn't feel like telling him that.

I could hear the door opening shit. I should have opened my eyes before because now it would be more shocking. I kept my eyes closed as he laid me in the bed. I was surprised he would even want me here after all the things I said to him but I meant and won't take them back.

I could feel him looking at me in silence so I opened my eyes.

"Your bags are in your car down in the garage. I didn't think to bring it up..... do you want a shirt...." He let it trail, it was almost cute how he acted differently when it was just me and him but I didn't let it get to me. So I shook my head no.

I sat up on the bed and started to take my clothes off. Starting with my shirt, and then my jeans. Jasper stood there and watched me like he seemed to always do.

I looked at him for a second, His jacket was zipped all the way up. It was never zipped. I noted that as I pulled the covers up around me. I only had my bra and underwear on. He kept watching me.

"Don't even start" I said I knew what he was thinking.

"It only passed in my mind for a second don't worry. There is no way I could forget what you had said earlier" Jasper walked to the other door in his room. "I'm going to take a shower"

Jasper left the door open – we always left the door open. He stepped out of view as he took his clothes off unlike me I didn't care. His jacket came to view as he threw it on the floor along with his jeans. I never seen a shirt. I heard the shower go on.

I popped up on my shoulder to take a look. I had to keep my gasp In as I took it all in. Here was nothing like the rest of his house. He had pictures of war and the army, they looked like olden day pictures. Nothing like how the army would look now but unlike army people he didn't keep the flag anywhere. He even avoided the colours Jasper's room was black and brown, the wood a deep shade of red. He had a army suit framed in his room. It was narrow and went down to the floor, it looked about his height.

I was concerned that I would have walked in here and seen the dry walls like outside. Jasper didn't keep himself in the open. I knew now what Edward had meant from before about Jasper.

I closed my eyes and thought about Maria and the wave she sent me. I thought for a second if I shouldn't have blew my medal finger at her but took it back. She so needed it. I even thought a little if I wanted to learn how to shoot because of her, it made sense to me. I would like to shot her.

I needed to stop this wasn't me. I usually kept this thoughts for other people like James. Though he was dead now or at least that's what my mother would like to tell me, my dad to. Although you know when you get that little feeling inside when they don't even know if it's true. Yea I got that.

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It went like that for about two days into I got fucking pissed. Jasper would leave and ether Edward or Rosalie would come and frigging babysit me. Today I pissed him off enough to let me follow him to another deal, that's what he called them. I couldn't use my car because it was to bright I had to ride with him, Edward or Rosalie. Never by myself like I was two years old.

Again I was in another cabin in a different sight with Glory Torry staying with me. I felt better when she was here because it was more like I was babysitting her for a change. Jasper made it seem like it was her who needed to be looked after more than me and well shit that makes me feel better.

I kept watching her there was something that set me off with her. All I needed was something to trigger whatever it was that my mind wanted me to know.

"Torry where you from?" I asked.

"Far away"

"Your hairs a odd colour is it orange or red naturally?"

"Who cares, you would look better with longer hair. Covers up that ugly Jasper caught a cold on"

There it was, everyone else but my parents naturally think that my hair has always been short because of my height. They just see short hair and me. Torry here said something that no one every tells me. That I would look better with longer hair. The hair that covered my face before I cut it short after James. How could she have known that my hair covered my face a lot when it was long if it didn't do that now.

Torry, Torry.... Torr.... Tori... Loria.

Loria? Toria? Victoria! That bitch it took all I had to not reach behind me and pull that gun I take from Jasper all the time and shoot her. Victoria, that's Jame's Victoria. How could I be so clueless who else had hair like hers. Maybe it took her shorter to figure out that I was Alice then I did because I know she didn't know the first time I met her.

I composed my face and decided to not just yell out I know you! Instead I held my hands tighter in my lap as I looked out the window and watched the deal take place. I kept my eyes on her though I couldn't help it anymore.

"So you want Jasper" I asked her leaving all anger out of my voice.

"I want Jasper yes in a sense. Unlike you I don't throw myself at him"Victoria said.

"Throw myself at him that's funny. I think you and I both know you take the gold in that"

"Your just better at being sneaky you want him for what most of the other girls on this team want him for" She said.

"Oh and what's that?"

"Protection, status. A lot of things come with him"

"That's what you want his title or what ever his title is" I stated.

"No now why would I want that, if your the one on Maria's hit list. I want something more healthy like side thing would help. His title would help to, yea that would help a lot but way to risky. You see when I walk out alone no one would be trailing me" She looked over and out the window, I followed her gaze.

There was Maria staring over at me again. I know she couldn't see me because the windows were way to dirty and we were way to far back. That didn't stop her though from looking at the cabin the farthest away, if I were her I would have looked over here to.

When it cleared out a bit Jasper called Victoria to tell us it was okay for us to come out again. Jasper was waiting for me outside of the cabin. We walked with a good space between us.

"Where did you get Torry from" I asked him.

"She came into us looking for work. She came recommend, why?"

"Nothing she's just bitchy I don't like her" I told him I don't know why I didn't tell him I just didn't.

"Yea she gets like that a little" A little? Yea right.

When we got back he sent me up with Edward. I liked it better when Edward was here. We just watched T.V and he actually announced when he was leaving unlike Rosalie and that Jasper would be here not to long after he left.

When he was gone I went into Jasper's bedroom. I noticed how pissed of he got when he sees me sleeping on the couch he would always carry me in despite my protest. I pealed off my clothes and led myself into his bed. I took to sleeping in my underwear, his sheets felt way to nice. I hardly looked at my suitcase unless I wanted something to wear outside.

It wasn't to long into I woke up to him coming in the room. He always locked the door on his way inside. You could open it from here but from out there it was helpless.

I didn't let him know that I was awake. It was easier, this way. I couldn't help but wonder why he always came back with his jacket zipped all the way up. I tip toed out the bed and into the door way. He stopped when he seen me. His jacket was on the floor and he was throwing his shirt down a different laundry shoot that he used in the morning. Now I knew why. He was in his shorts and had just come out of the shower.

"That is a lot of cuts and bruises" I said. I was standing there in my bra and underwear nothing new. There was blood rolling down the many small and big cuts on his shoulder and stomach.

"That's why you always come in with your jacket zipped up you don't want me to see. That's from those deals isn't it? What do you do with them?" I asked him.

"Wash up and alcohol" Jasper shrugged.

"That's why they scab, where's your first ad kit? Sit down" He got it from the cabinet and handed it to me. "Sit"

"Alice I'm capable of doing this myself" Jasper said.

"Yea and that's why you suck at it sit down" I had to force him to sit on the toilet. I used a wet rag to wipe the blood off first then got to work on doing what I did best. Fixing cuts and hiding bruises.

He leaned back into my arms, for someone who only thought I was interesting he sure did like my touch. His arms felt good under my finger tips. I had to keep myself from leaning into him and kissing his back like I did once before. He wouldn't need any stitches like before just cover up.

"Your young" Jasper said.

"I'm 18, that's barley anything to cry over" I answered.

"I'm 20"

"Good for you" I told him. "Your the only one fretting over it"

"Alice?"

"Yea"

"What do you want?" That was a good question. I wanted a lot and nothing all at the same time. Was that to much or to little to ask for. I want to have that feeling of truth when someone tells me James dead. I want to feel comforted that my problems died with James if he really was gone.

"I want truth, happiness, and sanity. I want hope and forgiveness. I want to stop hurting myself by going in every direction but the ones that lead there. I want to stop hiding from things I can't avoid and stop missing signs that are right in front of me. Most importantly I want to stop hiding from myself. I want to know what I want because in truth I don't know If I want to go through on anything that I've just said. I also want a lot of things I shouldn't have that's why I don't want anything. If that makes sense" That was the most I could make of anything.

"Yea it does" Jasper answered back after a few minuets. I finished up on my job.

"I don't like you Alice" Jasper said.

"I don't like you ether" I said because it was true I didn't like him. I was far past that. I felt numb to his words, It was unconventional in my search for nothing.

"Let me fi-" He was cut off by his cell phone ringing. I let him get up to get it. He looked back at me as he answered the phone. Jasper eyes widened at what ever he was hearing. He waved me over to the room and threw my suit case on the bed. He motioned to it. He went to his closet and started pulling out clothes. I followed his example and threw on a wife beater, hoodie and a pair of jeans. I reached for the flip flops that I took a liking to but Jasper stopped me. He moved the phone from his face.

"Not good enough get socks" I went back into my suit case and put a pare of socks on. Jasper threw me a new bag. It had a pair of Jordan's In it, my size and everything. I quickly pulled them on and tied them.

Jasper was still taking little things from around his room. He took another bag from the closet and took a cell phone out of it and threw it at me.

"Don't lose it" I started to get a bit jittery at his tone of voice. His was moving in that mode he goes into when he's around his team or whatever.

"I'm not trying to scare you Alice but take your bag and throw it down the shoot that I use in the morning. I know you know which one it is and do it fast" Jasper was talking to me and the person all at the same time. I did what he said and decided to ask questions later like I always did.

Jasper came in behind me and closed the door.

"Trust me" He said. I nodded my head despite the fuck you what's going on that went back and forth through my head. "lean back on my shoulder's as I pick you up and help you down the shoot, when I say go let go of my hands"

"I have to fucking drop down that?!"

"Yes Alice if it were going to hurt you I wouldn't ask you to go I'm coming down after you so jump out quick" I opened the shoot and he picked me up. I had to put my feet in first and wiggle my body into I was hanging by Jasper's hold on my arms. I didn't even bother to look down.

"Ready?" he asked.

"Just do it" he let go and I went falling straight down into I landed rough on my bottom. The shoot slanted and it slide down the rest of the way into a huge heap of clothes. I hopped out straight away. Jasper came down right after me. He grabbed my bag and then grabbed my hand.

He wasn't on his cell phone any longer.

"Keep up Alice" He dragged me through doors and unfinished hallways of the basement.

We ended up in the garage I have never seen before. He beeped and threw my bag into the back seat of a black Ford Mustang. I swooned at the car silently in his haze. He opened the door and slightly pushed me in. Jasper was taking the car out of park before I could even get my seat belt on. He zoomed up and out of the warehouse. He slowed down as we saw light coming into the front of the building. Neither of the cars where Edward's nor Rosalie's and they were the only ones who came here ever.

He went to a back dirt road and started to speed a lot but not enough to let the engine roar.

"Is that Maria?" I asked him.

"Yea it was her, and someone else" he said.

"Who?"

"I don't want to lie so don't ask" Jasper said. His cell phoned went off in the car , Jasper opened it and put it back in his pocket.

"Five minuets watch the time Alice" Jasper told me, and so I did. I pushed back what he had said in the washroom back because it was nothing I didn't already tell Rosalie.

I kept my eyes on the dash and watched the time. Jasper picked up speed, we where still on the dirt roads.

"Two minuets" I said, he picked up more speed. "Five"

Lights came up from behinds us but far back. I could see them taking dirt roads some got lost and went in different directions that the turns Jasper took. He speed up when the car lights behind us got darker.

Soon we were driving like mad people. That one car kept pace behind us. Then there was another one. Jasper's phone went off and he picked it up he answered it.

"That's you.... Yea. What!? Today when...... Bye" Jasper pushed his phone into his pocket and pushed even more speed.

They were both picking up speed now. One of them got so close between a turn and bumped their bumper to our car. Jasper jerked forward but kept control.

"Put your fucking seat belt on!" I screamed at him.

"Alice fuck it" He said.

"What the hell happens when you go flying through the fucking window when they bump us again put it on. You want us to die this way put it on!"

"I need my hands Alice" Jasper said dismissing my argument. I rolled my eyes in fustration on pulled on my belt to get it lose enough for me to move around. I leaned over to him and pulled his seat belt over him.

"Alice..... Hurry up" Jasper sighed. I clicked it in place. Bang!

"What the fuck was that? Was that a gun, are they shooting at us?" I asked shocked but not really. I've had a lot of firsts but being shot at was not one of them. This oh this was new.

"It's bullet prof Alice" The car jerked onto a main road. He made crazy turns and my heart was pounding on the adrenaline forcing its self into my system. Holy shit. Jasper threw his cell phone into my lap.

"Call Edward, number two in the contacts" I dialed the number. "Tell him"

"Yea?" Edward answered.

"We are being shot at, we left Jasper's and are on one of the roads right now."

"Alice, Is Jasper there?"

"He's driving"

"How many cars Alice?'

"Two"

"Look for a road sign tell me some name's. Me and Rosalie are heading into the streets right now"

I tried to catch something but we were moving way to fast. I seen a little park.... that park we paced on the way to that meeting. It reminded me of my real name..... Mary..!

"We just past St. Mary" I told him.

"Were coming" Edward hung up.

I heard shooting and windows breaking but it wasn't us.

"Maria..." Jasper said after taking a quick look out the back window.

"Alice take my gun put it deep into your bra, keep the cell phone. I'm... I'm shit. You have to know that I didn't know you before this okay"

"What?"

"You have to know that I never knew who you where. Just promise me you'll remember that" he said.

"What Jasper what the hell are you talking about-" One of the cars hit us so bad it swerved into an almost circle but Jasper took us out of it.

"Just fucking promiss! Alice please...." Jasper said.

"You don't even like me" Why was he doing this now, here why now?

"You asked me why your here" Jasper said. "Remember?"

"Yea"

"Alice I didn't get to finish in the washroom despite what I've said I didn't get to finish and your going to hate me so just promiss you'll remember I never knew you. And that I didn't finish, don't believe what you thought I said" He said.

"Okay"

"Okay"

We dove faster I could see Rosalie and Edward, I could see Rosalie's car. They were shooting at the cars following us.

Edward and Rosalie's car didn't follow us in when Jasper took a turn into another dirt road.

It was to late though. Right then we didn't have the right number's to pull it through and Jasper knows that. They made one more huge bump and we crashed into a tree. I guess it would have been better if we gotten deeper.

I breathed in deeply at the impact but Jasper would allow me to knock out.

"Remember" He said as we were both pulled out the cars. That Bella girl had me by my hair and was dragging me over to the other cars. It was really dark outside and it was hard to see into the distance.

Jasper was being pulled by the guy Rosalie told me was Emmett.

I seen that Maria sitting on th trunk of one of the shoot up cars. I was surprised their weren't helicopters in the sky looking for the cause. If I didn't want to reach into my Bra and pull that gun out and shoot her I'd wish she would kill me here.

"Jasper nice to see you again so so. It's been a few hours since morning" Maria said.

"Hello Maria, It's never long enough" Jasper spat at her, she smiled. I glared.

I seen her saying some shit like that. Nothing prepared me for this.

The car door that Maria was sitting on opened up and a pare of male shoes stepped out. When the door closed my eyes led up the legs to the arms of a man and then his face.

James.

"Hello Alice, it's been way, way, way to long. I've missed you" He said.

"Fuck you'

"Aw Alice you haven't changed a bit. Just as priceless"

Jasper was right, I could feel the hate coming on right about - now.

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Hate me? This was where I had it heading. No there will be the ending I want even if I have to kill some character's ..opps. Did I say that.

Any questions I'm glad to answer them. I hope your all not throwing daggers at the screen. Was it only me who knew it was Jasper who would sort of crack first? And Torry Victioria..... One of you guys asked me and got it dead on, that little part was for you. I know Torry was well a give away. REVIEW!!!! Did Alice over react? here comes fun and smexy bad boy/girl times.

Alice wants answers, and answers she shall get, but how much? What do you want to see, I'll try my best to let you see it.