Max decided she didn't want Iggy and I near the flock that night, so as soon as the younger members were asleep, we flew into the night and landed at a cave not far from camp.

"You were four when they began raping you?" Iggy asked quietly from behind me as I tossed some wood down and stared at it blankly. He wandered behind me and wrapped his arms around me and kissed the top of my head.

"I was about that age…I don't really know how old I am…Jeb said I was three or four when it started." I sighed and gently moved his arms from around me. "Let me build a fire and we can get comfortable." I took his hand and led him to a rock before returning to the wood.

"And Jeb let this happen to you?" he said in disgust, picking up a rock and throwing it angrily at the cave wall. I touched my fingertips to the wood and allowed my body heat to concentrate in them before lighting the wood and turning back to Iggy.

"Not exactly. I remember him yelling at them a few weeks after it happened when he found out about it." I grabbed Iggy's hand and led him closer to the fire and sat with him against a wall and giving him my sight. "But he didn't stop them from beating me or raping me more, either. I guess there wasn't much he could do, though."

"Will you please tell me what happened to you? And I mean the real stuff. I can tell there's more than what you're admitting to." Iggy asked quietly, the tone in his voice afraid.

"I apologize now if this scares you…I don't mean to. I remember waking up to an odd sensation around my arms and legs…"

A/N: graphic details of Raven's past will begin here. Rated M for extremely explicit material. Those that don't want to read it, please skip until the next A/N. Thank you for reading and enjoy

"My eyes opened to the feeling of ice on my flesh. When I tried to sit up I found myself strapped to a table, arms and legs spread wide and totally naked. I could hear the laughter of men around me, but those laughs held an evil tone to them.

"Are you sure it's not illegal to take this one so young?" one voice asked, with a worried tone.

"It's a monster. There's no laws to protect these disgusting creatures." A rough and deep voice answered, dripping in lust. "Such a sweet little body though. Such a shame it's wasted on a freak like this." I felt rough and callused hands scratch the tender skin of my breast and it made me cry out in pain.

"Shut up! You'll enjoy this you ungrateful monster!" the first voice screamed, slapping me across my face. His cold grey eyes were dark and evil. I felt a strong bite on the inside of my left thigh and I whimpered in pain, feeling blood trickle down my flesh.

"Who gets to take her first?" the deeper voice asked as the distinct sound of zippers undoing echoed through the room.

"You can, Jack." the grey eyed man answered as he grabbed my hair and made me stare at the large protrusion from between his legs. "This, you bastard, is a penis. You will learn to love this. You will please me well, or I will beat you until you bleed an inch from death."

"Wait to choke her until I make her scream." The man, Jack, groaned in lust. I felt something thick and rounded press against my tiny entrance. I tried to close my legs, to get what I guessed was another penis away from me but I was tied down too tight.

"Please! Please don't do this to me! I'm little! Young! Four, I think…please no!" I cried, tears staining my cheeks.

"Keep crying. That only gets us off more, dumb ass. That's why we're raping you." The grey eyed man growled in my ear. I felt that thickness press further and suddenly the whole thing was rammed into me, ripping something inside me and making me scream in so much pain all I could hear was my own agony. Then the grey eyed man's penis was rammed down my throat and I couldn't scream…couldn't breathe…all I could do was lay helplessly as the men shoved their penises in and out of my tiny body…"

A/N: Graphic description is over, rating returned to T for now. I'll continue to warn in this fashion for the rest of the story. Once again, thank you for reading.

I turned my face from Iggy, the full weight of my shame crushing my chest. The pain in my scars on my body throbbed and I doubled over from the pain between my legs from the roughness of the rape the night I left the School.

"Forgive me, Iggy…I can't continue. There's too much to talk about this soon. I'm sorry." I began to move away from him in pure shame, but he moved his free hand to my hip and pulled me to him.

"No…don't go away from me. Don't be ashamed. You couldn't have stopped it, no matter your age. They didn't train you how to fight for a reason. You had no chance." His lips grazed my neck and he nibbled my skin softly. I jerked from him in fear, the memories of teeth attacking my skin scaring me and made me worry Iggy would hurt me too.

"Please! No…no…don't hurt….me" I whimpered and tried to push Iggy's face from my neck but he only got closer to me, laying me on the floor of the cave and laying on top of me.

"Shhh. Raven, I won't hurt you. See?" he rolled us over so I was on top and he gave me my sight back. The look on his face scared me…the same expression as the men who raped me. But as similar as his look was…there was something more to it. Something kind and sweet. "See? Nothing bad is going to happen from me. I won't do anything you don't want."

"Thank…thank you, Iggy." I whispered and kissed him passionately before rolling off of him and laying next to him with my head on his chest. "Good night, Iggy."

"Good night, Raven. Sleep well." He breathed happily before kissing the top of my head and drifting to sleep.