Chapter Four:
Danny had been lying in exactly the same position for the last hour. His knees were drawn closely into his chest with his arms wrapped protectively around himself. How was he supposed to cope with out Ellan? She was the one that cooked the food, did the washing, cleaned the house, she was the one that made him feel guilty when he came home late, the one that always shouted at him for leaving the toilet lid up, how was he supposed to carry on with out her? He reached over her side of the bed and grabbed the phone, at the time Danny had told her to make sure it was fitted on her side so that he wouldn't have to answer 'annoying' calls at 3am. Despite the fact they may well have been emergency calls. He picked the phone up in his trembling hands and began to dial a number; he sniffed loudly and chewed his bottom lip waiting for an answer.
"brriiinnng brriiinnng brriiinnng brriiinnng… Hello?"
The voice on the other end sounded weary, like they had just woken up. Danny held back a sob as he spoke into the receiver as clearly as he could manage.
"Tom, she left me mate. She left me"
Tom hesitated in answering, the sound of Danny's shaky voice and sorrowful tone was enough to tell him this was serious, otherwise he would have just put it down to another drunken phone call, he had been getting quite a few of those off Danny lately. It was starting to worry him.
"I'll be right there"
Danny gave a weak smile as he thanked Tom and put the phone back in its cradle. He knew he could count on Tom, he was his best friend; they had been through everything together, hence Tom agreeing to come over at 1am. Danny knew he should have probably waited for the morning to come, but he just couldn't it was too hard. He needed the company.
Meanwhile, Tom carefully leant over and kissed his sleeping girlfriend on the cheek before brushing a stray piece of hair from her eyes and then swinging his legs out of the bed and pulling on his discarded jeans. He sighed as he read the figures on the digital clock; Danny certainly knew how to pick his timing. He hurriedly made his way downstairs, quietly in order to not wake Tink and then quickly scrawled a note to tell her where he was if she awoke and got scared, not to mention Tom highly doubted he would be home before morning anyway. He grabbed his car keys and rubbed his still tired eyes before stepping out into the cool evening air. He was just thankful it wasn't raining.
Danny decided to freshen up a bit, he knew Tom wouldn't mind seeing him in this state but he thought it might make him feel a bit better if he changed his clothes and had a quick shower. He had just finished getting changed when the doorbell rang and he hurried downstairs to open the door. The second the lock was undone and the door opened Danny flew into Toms arms and cried, Tom was overridden with shock at first, but once it registered what was going on he tentatively placed his hands upon Danny's shaking back and rubbed up and down trying to soothe his tearful friend. It was heartbreaking to see him like this, I don't think anybody realised just how much he loved Ellan. Millions of thoughts ran through his mind as he wondered what had made Ellan leave in the first place. Tom carefully guided Danny back into the house and into his kitchen, deciding they both needed a hot drink before anything else. Danny pulled himself a chair out and held his head in his hands, it was almost as though he was only just coming to terms with the fact she'd gone.
Once Tom had made the drinks he carefully carried them over and sat down opposite Danny, asking what happened. Instead of an answer a note was thrust towards him, he raised his head to look at Danny who was in the process of tracing patterns in the table with his red eyes. Sighing slightly before opening the note, he read in silence, taking in every word of the accusatory note. Tom's eyes widened as he finished reading it, he was confused to say the least.
"Danny I don't understand. What did she find?"
He slowly lifted his gaze and held eye contact with the blonde boy. Shaking his head slightly it was very much obvious that was one question he didn't want to answer. The one question he didn't want to face up to yet, because it was the one question that had pushed away the love of his life.
"Tom I'm so sorry. She has to know, how can I tell her?"
Fresh sobs were emitted as he finished the end of his sentence, he would never have thought it possible to cry until his throat was raw, his head was stuffy and his heart aching. It was possibly the worst feeling in the world and he'd brought it all on himself. Tom watched as Danny broke down even further, it was no obvious that it wasn't just a misunderstanding between the pair, he'd made another mistake. Instead of being angry he walked around the table and embraced him, knowing that Danny didn't need to be yelled at, he was already angry enough with himself. He knew he'd done wrong and this time he knew it was going to be easy to fix.
Tom advised Danny to try and get some sleep, telling him that he'd stay in the spare room that night and if he needed anything he knew where he was Danny nodded feebly and dragged himself back upstairs, knowing he was in for a rough night. Tom watched him retreating before taking the mugs and putting them in the sink before turning off the light and heading upstairs himself.
Danny was already sat on his bed and scribbling half heartedly on a piece of white paper. The words were emotional, meaningful, they came from his heart. It was everything he couldn't bring himself to say, because it meant he was admitting defeat, it meant he was giving in and he wasn't ready to face that.
she walked in and said she
didn't want to know anymore
anymore, anymore
before I could
ask why, she was gone out the door
out the door, out the door
I
didn't know
didn't know, didn't know
what I'd done, but now I
just can't move on
since she left me
she left me
she
told me
she told me
don't worry
don't worry
you'll be
ok, you don't need me, believe me, you'll be fine
then I knew
what she meant, and it's not what she said
now I can't believe,
that she's gone
Lyrics: Mcfly- She left me