Chapter 4

Fiona's P.O.V

"Where have you been?" exclaimed Holly J, waiting for me to respond as I entered our history class. I really didn't feel like dealing with anything she or anyone else had to say. I was in a daze and it was called Adam Torres. I had done it! I had kissed Adam. I still felt his cheek on my lips. I wanted to do more than just a kiss on a cheek, but I was trying to take things slow. Last time I rushed things, I ended at the bottom of a staircase…ugh… No. Bobby is not going to ruin this day for me. I bit my lower lip as I made my way to my desk.

"Well aren't you happy today". I snapped back to reality as Holly J continued. "So who's the lucky guy who put that big smile on your face?"

"Nobody" I responded

"Are you sure?"

"Well it is someone"

"Who is it?"

"I don't want to say"

"And the reason is…"

Why didn't I want Holly J to know? Why couldn't I tell my best friends that the guy who had put this smile on me was non other than Adam Torres, a sophomore who, for being so young, managed to get me to go on a date with him. Maybe it was the reason he was so young, but I don't think that would matter. Or maybe because until a few days ago, I didn't think he existed. Oh well. This is bound to happen sooner or later so I rather just tell right now and get it over with.

"His name is Ad…"

"You know what? You don't have to tell me"

"I don't?"

"Yeah. Its so new, you rather not jinx it right?"

"Exactly I don't want to jinx it, but I can tell you who he is after school, before we have our date at The Dot."

"Wow so fast?"

"Well I've kind of known him for a little while and I rather just break the ice sooner than later."

"Wow Miss Coyne, aren't you quite the romantic."

"Ok ok enough with the questions for the moment. We'll talk more after school."

"Ok."

I took my sit in front of her. Aah history. Its might have been one of my favorite academic study classes. That was something everyone had and not all of it was good. Mine, for instance was filled with booze and bruises and well pretty much anything you can think of. Huh…I wonder…what's Adam's history? Every time we talked, I found myself in a one way interception when it came to some topics. He would listen and that was pretty much it. I took the rest of the class to think about what exactly I knew about Adam Torres. I knew his brother Drew. I knew about his friends Eli and Clare and I knew he could draw but what else? What wasn't he telling me?

…..Hours Later…..

BRRRRRRNNNNNNNGGGGGG!

Yes. The last bell of the day had rung and I was out the door. I decided to stop by my locker to see if Adam was there. He wasn't. Oh well. Maybe he was meeting me at The Dot. I open my locker and put everything that was school related in there and took my purse and my sketch with me and slammed the door.

"Hey". Startled, I look to my left. It was Holly J.

"God you scared me"

"Well aren't we jumpy. Does this have anything to do with your date?"

"What do you want Holly J?" I said in an annoyed tone

"Well what you promised me."

"And that is…"

"The name of the guy your gonna go meet on your date. Come one spill"

"Ok, but you promise to keep quite, right?"

"Cross my heart. So who is it?"

"I don't think you know him anyway"

"Hello, student council president"

"EX- president"

"Whatever. You're stalling. Come on…say it"

"Adam"

"Ok…Adam… and does he have a last name by any chance?"

"Torres... You know as in Drew Torres' little brother"

"You're going out with a fifteen your old?"

"And the problem in that is what?"

"Wait… did you say Drew Torres? The quarterback?"

"Yeah. Why?"

"Uhhh… No reason"

"Tell me"

"Well don't you know?"

"About what?'

"About his secret?"

"Whose? Drew's?"

"No. Adam's."

What secret was she talking about? And if he did have a secret, how did Holly J know about it and not me?

"Ok what's going on Holly J?"

"You better sit down"

"No I am perfectly well standing up. Now tell me what you know."

"Well a few months ago, Adam went by a different name."

"What was it? A nickname?"

"Well no….it was Gracie…"

"Gracie?"

Why would Adam go by a girls name?...Unless... Oh no. Not again. It's Riley all over again.

"Oh my god. Is he gay?"

"No, Fi. Adam is a FTM.

"And that stands for…"

"Female to male transgender. Adam is transgender. He was born in the wrong body."

I felt my legs give in. I plummeted to the ground. Adam was not a guy? But I thought we had something. I thought he liked me…what is going on? Holly J sat next to me.

"Its ok, Fi.

"How's it ok? He didn't even tell me."

"Maybe today after school he was. You know since he gets picked on and bullied…?

"He gets bullied?"

"Yeah. He's the one who made that glass break on the door… you know… right next to the boys' bathroom on the West hallway."

"He punched it?"

"No… he got thrown through it"

"Oh my god. Why would they do that?"

"That's how most people found out about… Mr. Simpson told most of us on student council to try and ease some of the kids in his grade and above to leave him be."

"Did it help?"

"Not really. The only good news is he mostly keeps to himself and his brother and some other kids. Are you Ok?"

"How can I? I just found out the person I thought I was falling for might not be who I expected."

"I'm so sorry Fi. I just thought you knew. What are you gonna do now?"

"I have to go."

I got up. I snatched my purse and the sketch of me that Adam had made from the floor and started for the main entrance door of Degrassi.

"Wait! Where are you going?"

"To The Dot." I replied as I ran for the exit.

My legs still felt a little weak, but the rage I felt carried me closer to the outside. How could he not tell me? I was angrier with myself for not figuring it out, but how was I suppose to know. My head went back to when I first met him when he was with Drew. Wait…Drew! He was trying to tell me something yesterday at The Dot but just kept rambling on about Adam being nice. I should have known something was up. Well now it was time to get to the bottom of this whole story. I was outside The Dot. Looking through the window, I saw him. He had a lot to explain to me…

End of Chapter 4