haha... the last two reviews really made me sit down and type... thank you for reminding me
Thursday seemed to finally slow down what seemed like an era of unsettling episodes.
Within the twenty-eight hours I was here, I noticed that high school had the same scale and magnitude as that of a dysfunctional family's… Problems were out of sight, buried underground, and hidden from the populace, yet there they were, slowly gnawing and eating away at the student body as a whole.
Why do I say this?... because at my old school, no girl was left out… or else Sister Agnes would "have a word" with you. But that's beside the point… the point being, we were all connected; there was no girl whose name was forgotten among us. We all talked. We all laughed. We all cried. We were a family whether we liked it or not.
Yet at Forks High, people were separated, talking only amongst themselves, laughing only amongst themselves, crying only amongst themselves. There was no union within the school whatsoever. Smart students only conglomerated with other smart students. Athletic students only teamed with other athletic students. Musical students only performed with other musical students.
"That's the way it's always been; the standards, Bella… You can't change that. Just be glad you aren't hanging out with Buddy over there." Rosalie pointed at the same chubby little boy I had seen on the first day of Mr. Banner's class. He was holding a lunchbox standing ninth in line for pudding cups.
"What are the standards?"
"Bella, we are the standards. Everybody compares themselves to us," Emmett proudly smirked.
"Us?"
"Us as in you, me, Rosalie, Alice, Jasper, and Edward..." Emmett beamed even more proudly. "Oh… and Lauren." He quickly added meeting a murderous glare.
I could see her from the corner of my eye as she turned around to rub Edward's arm. Strangely, he seemed irritated… well, more so than usual. His eyes were shut tight as he leaned his head against the wall with an expression of… pain?
"Me? I'm a standard?" I could feel my face blush as I reeled myself back to the conversation,
"Hell yes! Bella, you're gorgeous, why wouldn't you be?" Alice suddenly snuck up behind me. "I swear, the first time I saw you, I almost changed my sexual preferences… no offense Jasper." She squeezed her tiny self between Emmett and me.
"No, it's okay… Now I feel less guilty about getting a boner sitting next to her in AP bio." Jasper shot back. Alice started choking on her food as Emmett and Rosalie started laughing.
"Anyways," Lauren cut in, "about the colors that we're going to wear tomorrow, I was thinking we should wear-"
"Oh shit! I forgot all about that…. Bella, pick a color, any color." Alice turned her head towards me along with everybody else who was at the table.
"What? Bella can't choose the colors! She's barely even been here for a week! She's not even a cheerleader!" Lauren's brown eyes looked like they were going to brim over. "Edward! Do something! Tell your sister that it's unfair!"
"Alice, it's unfair." Edward said in an apathetic voice.
"Well tell your girlfriend that I don't care if it's fair or not."
"Lauren, Alice doesn't care if it's fair or not." Edward mumbled back again.
"Well tell your sister that-"
"I don't give a fuck about the colors that we wear tomorrow, alright? Let's just wear white like we did last year. Now, will you guys stop arguing? I already have a migraine." Edward's voice sounded over Lauren's.
"But Eddie, I always wanted to wear blue on Fridays…" Lauren moved over to sit in Edward's lap. "Don't you want to do that for me?" She was pouting as her right hand ran through his hair.
"Quiet frankly, I don't care, Lauren. You're just a good fuck. Now, can you get off me? Your perfume and weight aren't helping with the headache." Edward pushed her off and buried his head into Rosalie's chest.
I looked back up to see Lauren's face slowly turning purple. "Edward, you can't do this to me."
"Yes, I can. I'm in a shitty mood so can you leave me alone."
"Are you breaking up with me?"
"Considering the circumstances, I would say yes; and quite confidently at that,"
"What? N-No! I refuse to believe that! You said that I was different! You said that you loved me! You said that I was the only one for you. You said-"
"Lauren, save yourself the embarrassment." Rosalie said as she petted Edward's hair. The image of her shaking body was branded into my head. I couldn't believe this. And so I sat awestricken seeing Edward being nursed by Rosalie and Lauren running out of the cafeteria leaving an ocean full of tears behind for the rest of us to drown in. My heart sank looking at her running away, heartbroken and blown over.
"Good Edward," Rosalie cooed caressing his bronze locks. "It was about time you broke up with her."
"What are you staring at, jellybean?" Without looking, Edward had caught me staring.
Jellybean? I quickly lowered my gaze down to my hands in my lap. My voice was barely over a whisper. "What you did just now was horrible." I said it more to myself than to him.
"Want to say that to my face?"
I looked up to see Edward's intense glare. I couldn't sit there and be quiet. I had to fight for Lauren's dignity in her stead, no matter if she hated me. I swallowed back every instinct in my body to stay quiet.
"Why did you have to be so mean?" My voice rose only by a tenth of a decibel, yet Edward seemed to hear me perfectly.
"What did you have in mind? The truth? Should I rather have said 'I'm sorry, Lauren, but your pussy isn't tight enough anymore; I want to break up.'?"
I blushed crimson as my head dropped back down again.
"Calm down, Edward. Bella just isn't used to your… hunting patterns." Rosalie intervened.
"No, I really want to know. What would Bella, the guru of all things righteous and moral in the world, do in a situation like this? Care to lecture me?"
"I-I didn't mean to-"
"Damn right you didn't mean to."
There were ways to talk to people civilly without making them feel like trash.
"PMS much?" Alice turned around to comfort me. "It's okay, Bella. When Edward was five, our mom accidentally left him at Neiman Marcus on Christmas Eve and forgot about him until the day after. He's still a little fucked up from being left behind in the lingerie department."
"Talking shit about me?"
"Oh come on Edward, you have to admit it was funny. When the floor manager finally came to open the doors, you were sleeping in a bed of thongs and wonder bras."
"Was that when we were still living in New York?" Emmett scratched his head trying to remember.
"Yeah, the Christmas dad got you a pregnant horse." Alice giggled as a half watt light bulb went off in Emmett's head.
"Damn it! I'm taking vicodin." Edward stood straight up as he headed towards the cafeteria doors.
"What an ass," Alice murmured. As soon as she said that, my mind was made up. Without another word, I followed him out of the cafeteria.
The halls were deafeningly quiet compared to the din of chatter in the lunch room. I couldn't hear anything except for footsteps that seemed to belong to Edward.
"Wait!" I yelped as I finally caught on.
"What?" He seemed annoyed as he tried walking faster. I attempted to get closer but instead, fell… bringing down Edward with me. I landed, not on the ground, but on his back; unfortunately for Edward, he hit the ground harder.
"What the fuck?" He pushed me off onto the ground as he got up to brush himself off.
"I'm sorry. I really am…" I quickly got up feeling awfully embarrassed. My only response was to help him dust off the dirt from his jeans… if only I had thought before I acted… My hand touched the crotch of his pants, and before long, I could feel something swell underneath the coarse material.
My eyes widened as my hand retracted. "I'm sorry." I whispered.
A shrill bell rang through the halls reminding me that sixth period would begin soon. I looked up to see a smirk on his face. He wrapped an arm around my waist pulling my body towards his front. The swell had become rather big now and protruded against my lower stomach.
"What are you doing?" I struggled against his chest.
"Do you expect me to walk around school with a boner? Hell no!" He hitched my left leg up and pulled me higher just enough to cover his swell. Was he going to carry me around the whole day just to hide his erection?
People began to swarm around us and gossip erupted.
"Do you think they're going out now? That was fast… it hasn't even been 30 minutes since he broke up with Lauren! Maybe he was fucking Bella while Lauren and Edward were still dating."
"Why's Edward carrying her? Do you think she's pregnant with his baby?"
"OMG! That whore! I bet she just acted like a good girl to get Edward's attention. I bet she's really a gold digger."
And so an awkward bond began between us…
i'm sorry Edward fans for making him so mean... T___T i promise to make him nicer later on...