It had been a week since Ross called Emily. From what she gathered, he did what she asked. Ross and Emily were talking things out and Emily agreed to come to New York. However, she would only agree if he moved from his current apartment to one across town that according to Joey, you had to take the train to get to. Inside, it was killing her to watch him try and get back together with Emily but she knew it was the best thing for him. Now all Rachel could do was sit back and let her heart break every time she saw him. Rachel was sitting on the couch looking through her fashion magazine when Monica came through the door. "Hey Rach."

"Hey." Rachel said not looking up from her 'bible'. Monica gave her a weird look, set down her coat and sat down on the coffee table in front of Rachel. She grabbed the magazine from Rachel which earned her a glare.

"Hi." Monica said.

"Uh hi." Rachel said reaching for the magazine that Monica had just stolen only for Monica to pull it out of her reach.

"What is wrong with you?" Monica asked

"Well for one, I don't have that." Rachel said pointing at the magazine.

"Talk to me Rach." Monica said now giving her a sympathy look.

"Nothing Mon. I'm good." Rachel said not looking at her. Monica cocked her eyebrow. She knew when Rachel was lying. One, Rachel was a horrible liar and when she did, she could never look at the person she was lying to.

"Rachel, you're lying." Monica said. "Talk to me."

"You promise you won't judge?" Rachel said sitting up. Monica nodded. Rachel sighed and started, "I still have feelings for Ross. I thought telling him to fix things with Emily would help. That seeing him move on would in some way help me move on. But my feelings get stronger each and every day I see him. Monica, I don't know what to do." Rachel flopped back on the couch.

"Rachel…" Monica pulled her back up to have Rachel look back at her. "It's normal. You two have a history."

"Monica, it shouldn't be normal. We haven't been together like that in over two years. Those feelings should be long gone." Rachel told her. "I just want to be his friend. His friend with normal friendly feelings. Not the one that wants to…"

"Do not finish that sentence." Monica said getting up and walking towards the kitchen. Rachel laughed lightly and followed her.

"Sorry. Monica help me. You have to help me." Rachel's back was to the door and was to focused on Monica to hear the door open let alone see who walked through it. "I don't want to be in love with your stupid brother." When Rachel heard what sounded like a phone hitting the ground, she squeezed her eyes shut. "Please tell me that's Chandler, Joey or Phoebe." She said looking at Monica.

"Sorry sweetie." Monica said giving her a tiny hug and quickly walking out and shutting the door behind her. Rachel didn't move from her position. Her back still facing the person who had just walked through the door. She turned around and looked at him. The shocked look on his face and the phone dropping gave her the idea he heard. She was mentally kicking herself. They could hear a faint female voice calling for him from the phone that had dropped.

"Ross?" The female voice yelled out. Rachel looked at the phone then back up at Ross.

"You might want to answer her." Rachel said pointing at the phone. Ross just stared at her. You could say he was shocked from that confession he heard from Rachel. On any other day, he would be happy to hear those words come from her again. It had been so long. But, today…the day he was suppose to tell her what he and Emily had agreed to in order to have this marriage work, was the most inconvenient time. Ross shook his head, snapping out of his shocked demeanor and picked up the phone.

"Sorry Em. I dropped the phone." He explained not taking his eyes off of Rachel who was doing the same. Looking at him for some answer.

"And it took several minutes to pick it back up?" Emily asked irritated.

"Again, I am sorry. Was totally by accident." Ross told her. "Look I have to go."

"What? Why?" Emily questioned.

"Well, in order for that thing we agreed on, I am going to have to tell her." Ross said. Rachel looked at him confused. Tell her? What on earth would fixing their relationship have to do with her? She thought.

"Alright fine." Emily said angrily. "But don't be with her long."

"Okay." Ross said. Both he and Emily hung up the phone. Rachel wouldn't admit it out loud but she was slightly relieved when she didn't hear him say he loved her when he ended the call.

"So about what you heard…" Rachel started.

"You're in love with me?" Ross asked.

"Ross, I don't know. I'm confused is about the best answer I can give you right now." Rachel told him

"But what about…" Ross said referencing what he just heard.

"Forget that please. Pretend you never heard it." Rachel begged. "So what is it you are suppose to tell me. Or I assume its me you're suppose to tell." Rachel said grabbing a water from the fridge.

"Um…forget about it. I need to go talk to Chandler and Joey." Ross turned around and started to leave.

"Seriously Ross, what is it?" Rachel said sitting down at the table. Ross slumped his head. How was he supposed to tell her now that he wasn't allowed to see her, to talk to her, to be friends with her anymore in order to make whatever it was with Emily work? She went with him on his honeymoon when Emily bailed on him. She was there for him. Sure, there was the whole history thing. And now its even more complicated with Rachel considering the conversation he walked in on. But she was right, he had to at least give it try. And not that he didn't care for Rachel because he did. A lot

Just when he was about to tell her that he wasn't allowed to be friends anymore and break her heart, Chandler, Joey, Phoebe and Monica walked through the door.

"I'm telling you, she was checking me out. What girl doesn't check me out?" Joey said. Phoebe, Monica and Rachel raised their hands making Joey plop on the couch.

"So Ross, you were saying?" Rachel said wanting to get back to the conversation they were having before their friends walked in.

"Maybe another time." Ross said walking to the chair in the living room and taking a seat. He just stared at Rachel who stared right back. Monica came up behind Rachel and whispered in her ear, "You okay?" Rachel just nodded her head and got up. She needed to be alone.

"Mon, I'm gonna slip out." Rachel said as she looked around the room noticing that no one was paying attention. No one but Ross who was still looking at her with sad eyes. "Joey, Chandler can I be alone in your apartment for a bit?" she asked

"Sure. It's unlocked." Chandler told her. Rachel grabbed her purse and walked out of the apartment.

"Ross what happened?" Monica asked walking to the living. Everyone's eyes on Ross.

"Nothing."

"Not even after you…" Ross just shook his head.

Ross stood up and paced around the room. "Haven't told her. About that, I need to talk to you guys before Rachel comes back."

"Alright we're listening." Phoebe told him, taking a seat on the couch next to Joey.

"So Emily and I are moving in together as you know." Ross looked around the room and saw four nodding heads answering his question. "Well, one condition for her to move back here was that I had to promise not to see Rachel again." Ross told them. Monica's eyes widened.

"You've got to be kidding right?" Chandler asked. "You can't just not see Rachel." Ross just sighed.

"Well I can't just give up on my marriage either. She's the one who told me to give it try." Ross admitted.

"So her reward for giving you that advice is to stop seeing her. Great gift Ross. Make sure you put a little bow on that knife you stab in her back." Monica said a little angry.

"Look Mon, I agreed to this before I knew about what she said to you." Ross told her. "If I would have known…"

"But now you do. You know this will crush her." Monica told him gently, losing the anger in her voice.

"Maybe it won't. Maybe this will be the one thing that will help her move on." Ross said hopeful.

"Move on from you? Yeah, I don't see that happening." Phoebe confessed.

"Wait, you know?" Ross asked shocked.

"Ross, I tried to stop her from saying anything at your wedding by trying to keep her here. Of course I knew." Phoebe told.

"I am so confused." Joey said not being able to understand what is happening.

"Rachel has feelings for Ross." Phoebe told him.

"Ohh. Yeah that was obvious." Joey laughed as he got up and went to the fridge to get food to eat. He sat down at the table when he found something that looked good and started to stuff his face.

"What are you going to do Ross?" Chandler asked.

"I don't know." Ross answered. He sat down in the chair he had previously left vacant and put his face in his hands.

…

Ross was pacing around in his apartment that was slowly being put into boxes. He did not feel well. The very thought of telling Rachel that he couldn't be friends with her anymore. That he wasn't even allowed to see her was making him physically ill. Especially since he knows how she feels. He couldn't hurt her, not for a second time. His phone was ringing which brought him out of his thoughts. He picked up the phone and answered, "Hello?"

"Hi Ross." Emily answered back. "You never called back."

"Oh sorry I forgot." Ross admitted.

"You forgot?" Emily asked in disbelief.

"Yes. Look I'm sorry." Ross said getting slightly irritated.

"Well, what have you been up to that was more important than talking to your wife?" She asked getting irritated herself.

"Spending time with my friends. I had to talk to them." Ross told her.

"Was she there?" Emily asked.

"No. She wasn't. She left shortly after I ended the call with you." Ross explained as he sat down in one of his dining chairs.

"Good." Emily said smirking.

"Look, about that. I can't do it. I can't just cut her out of my life. It's not as easy as you may want it to be Emily. She lives with Monica, she friends with my friends who have already said they aren't going to cut her out. Its virtually impossible to cut her out. You just have to trust me." Ross finally told her. He never actually wanted to cut Rachel out. Even before the whole agreement and hearing Rachel tell Monica she had feelings for him again.

"That's the thing, I don't." Emily told him, making him drop his mouth.

…

It had been several hours since Rachel left the apartment. She couldn't be in Joey and Chandler's too long. It made her feel…gross. So she ended up down at Central Perk drinking a rather large cup of coffee. Ross walked in after informing his friends minus Rachel about the conditions of Emily moving back, he had to be with his thoughts and had to talk to Emily. He couldn't not be friends with Rachel. When he walked to the counter and order his coffee. Rachel heard his voice and just sunk into her seat. She couldn't face him right now, not after what happened in the apartment. But he saw the top of her head and walked towards her.

"Rachel?"

"Oh hi." Rachel said sitting up. "What uh, what are you doing here?"

"Coffee." Ross said grabbing his cup and sitting down next to her.

"Look, I need to talk to you." Ross said putting his coffee down and held her free hand.

"Ross, if this is about what you heard…" Rachel started.

"It's not. Although we do need to talk about that as well." Ross looked at her. "I've been trying to find a way to tell you this and it has been making me physically ill trying to come up with the words…" Ross told her.

"Ross, you're scaring me." Rachel said now giving him her full attention.

"So remember when you told me that I should do whatever it took to fix my marriage, that I shouldn't give up?" He asked. She faintly nodded. "Well, Emily suggested that one way to help our marriage was…" He swallowed hard "was to not be friends with you." Rachel's eyes widened and felt her heart break almost completely. She let go of his hand and turned away from him, looking down into her cup of coffee, trying to hold her tears back. "So I told her I would." That made Rachel turn completely towards him with a shocked but hurt look on her face.

"You what?" She whispered.

"I told her I would. Until earlier today when I over heard you talking to Monica. When you told her you still had feelings for me, that made it all the more difficult to tell you this let alone go through with it. So, about an hour ago, my marriage is over." Ross finished.

Rachel continued to stare at him with a shocked expression but asked, "Why?"

"Because I have feelings for you as well Rachel. They've never left. I've put them away for my own sanity and for yours. Emily was a fresh start but she wasn't you." Ross admitted to her.

"Wha..what does this mean?" Rachel asked feeling a small tear leave her eye and it travel down her cheek.

Ross took her hands in his and squeezed them, "I'm not sure. I hope it means we start over. Forget the past, be in the present and think about the future." Rachel smiled at him. He leaned in and kissed her softly on the lips.

"Are you sure about this Ross? I mean you are going through a divorce." Rachel said looking him in the eye

"Never been more sure about anything in my life." Ross answered her and then kissed her again.

"I know that you just got out of a relationship that had conditions but can I ask a favor?" Rachel asked.

"Anything." Ross said

"Can we keep this between us? At least for a while. I know they will be happy but we don't need that pressure on us right now. We are starting over and we don't need questions." Rachel said playing with his hands.

"Of course." Ross smiled at her. "So…wanna help me apartment hunt?" He said making Rachel chuckle.

A/N: So sorry for the late update. I got a strong case of writers block. I couldn't for the life of me figure out how I wanted Emily and Ross to break up for good and Rachel and Ross to finally get together. I wanted to put it all in one chapter only because If i didn't, I would forever be stuck. I hope you enjoy. Read and Review as always.