Chapter 4
Disclaimer: I own noting. Richelle mead owns VA. I only own Jesse and the band members.
A/N: So here is Chapter 4. It's in two different points of view. I hope you guys like this one. I'm going to work on the list of songs that go along with this story. So please review.
Rose POV
It's been a week since that night that they showed up. Once the concert was over we went back to a small town in New York. I felt safe there. I knew they could find me if they wanted to. But I was scared because I didn't want anyone to know what happened or the reasons why I had left court. I wanted nothing to do with that world. I just wanted to live and be free and being doing what I'm doing now. I just wanted to write my songs and stories. I didn't want them to know where I was. I'm not ready to see the others just yet. I was so scared that something might happen.
"Rose, are you okay?"
I look at Jesse and I wasn't sure what I should say but I just said, "I'm fine. I just wish I could escape my past but I know that I can't. I just wish they hadn't come to that concert because I knew they wanted answers and the reasons why I left. I told my mom, Eddie, and Christian because I can trust them more the Lissa and the others. God why did they have to come, why did they have to try and confront me the way they did. I feel so worthless when they are around."
"Why did- never mind. I know you don't want to tell anyone. But Rose we have to go on that TV show next week. You know what Show I'm talking about right?"
"Yeah I know. The Seven, that TV show is one of my favorites."
Yea another interview, I hated them. Every time that I had to be on one of them I felt like I would start remembering the past and freak out, but Jesse was always there with me to keep me calm. Jesse walked out of the room after a while. I looked at the old book that once belonged to Anna and I couldn't help but think about what happened. Why was I with a child and then lost that child overnight. The memories started to come back to me and I couldn't stand that. But I knew that having them around again and knowing who I am now scares me like hell so I just picked up my old trued blade and cut myself to release the pain so that everything would be normal again.
The week passed without them showing up at my door and yet I felt happy for once. I was standing in room, in New York City waiting for Kevin, the host of the Seven to call me out. The time passed real fast though and I was happy.
When I walked out I looked around and noticed that everyone in the room was watching me and I just smiled and said, "Hi, everyone."
"Wow. Rose Nightshade, you are drop dead hot."
"Thank you. But I try to be." I just laughed which made everyone laugh.
He showed me to my seat and said, "So I have some questions for you. How did you get into the music business?"
I looked at him and said, "I'm not sure myself. I was hanging out with some friends who were in the band, the band was Jesse's. I was singing one day and he asked me to join the band. We've been friends for about half a year. So I joined the band… we went to different places and hung out a lot, then this guy was asking us to come into the studio the next day and it went from there."
"Well I bet that was a shocker?"
"It was. I mean I just joined Jesse's band and they needed a singer so here we are today."
"There are a lot of gossip of you and Jesse being a couple? Is this true?"
"No. Just friends, we mostly act like brother and sister. I haven't dated for almost two years. I know when were out in public, he's holding my hand, it's because of my past and he's been helping me out a lot. Our past life is almost the same, so we help each other out, and nothing going on between us or anyone else."
"So I have a question about your songs. It seems that they seem dark or something along those lines. Where do your songs come from?"
"This is a question that is hard for me to answer without crying. They mostly come from my past. I went to a broadening school when I was younger. When I got out of high school… I stayed with a friend. I found out that my friends that I had at that time didn't care for me. So I left. Haven't seen them once until one of the concerts I performed at. They wanted to talk to me and I told them that I'm not the same. Most of my songs are about heartbreak, being strong, try and move one with life and take what life gives you."
"That's a lot. So I have a clip of your new video that aired last night called bring me to life, and I have to ask about your new album that is coming out… is there anything that you can tell us about it?"
"Sure. The album is called Missing and the main song is missing. This whole album is about what life gives you and so much more. Missing is about regrets that people have or that something is missing from their life. It can be anything from a pet, friends or a family member that have passed away. An ex-boyfriend or girlfriend that they once had and wished they didn't break up with them. The other songs are really important to me. Most of what I write is what could happen within seconds thought."
"That's something new. But you were talking about your friends and how they didn't care. What happened?"
"Well I was 17 when the first guy that I loved left. He was older than me. He didn't come back until I moved in with a friend. Then we had to go and find my ex-best friends sister, we slept together again when we found her and staying at a hotel but different rooms. And a few weeks later we didn't talk or nothing. They all stopped caring about me. They acted as if I didn't exist to them anymore."
"That's real sad. Well we're about out of time. But for everyone here we are giving you all a free Cd of the new album and the old one as well. There is also a DVD on what the band has been up to. Hope to see you again soon."
The show ended and I was on my way home. I loved singing and writing because it made me happy for once. My music always changes with what kind of mood I'm in. Now was time to think about writing a new song to see where I should go from there.
I just want to be happy and not worry about what other people were talking about. I loved my life that I have now and I don't want to lose it and go back to the vampire world. I want to have fun and be who I am. I love this life that I'm living and I want this to work.
Dimitri's POV
For the past two weeks Christian, Eddie, and Guardian Hathaway have been giving me evil glares and looks. They didn't tell anyone about what Rose had told them. God how much I have missed her every day. Every day I wished I could have her in my arms and love her. Tell her how sorry I was and how much of an a** I have been to you and to everyone else.
I tuned on TV to find something one until I found MTV and that show called the Seven was. I noticed the host was talking about Rose Nightshade would be coming out. Then all too soon she was walking out and talking.
"Hi, everyone," She said with a forced smile on her face.
"Wow. Rose Nightshade, you are drop dead hot."
"Thank you. But I try to be." She just laughed which made everyone laugh.
He showed her to a seat and said, "So I have some questions for you. How did you get into the music business?"
She look at and said, "I'm not sure myself. I was hanging out with some friends who were in the band, the band was Jesse's. I was singing one day and he asked me to join the band. We've been friends for about half a year. So I joined the band… we went to different places and hung out a lot, then this guy was asking us to come into the studio the next day and it went from there."
"Well I bet that was a shocker?"
"It was. I mean I just joined Jesse's band and they needed a singer so here we are today."
"There are a lot of gossip of you and Jesse being a couple? Is this true?"
"No. Just friends, we mostly act like brother and sister. I haven't dated for almost two years. I know when were out in public, he's holding my hand, it's because of my past and he's been helping me out a lot. Our past life is almost the same, so we help each other out, and nothing going on between us or anyone else."
"So I have a question about your songs. It seems that they seem dark or something along those lines. Where do your songs come from?"
"This is a question that is hard for me to answer without crying. They mostly come from my past. I went to a broadening school when I was younger. When I got out of high school… I stayed with a friend. I found out that my friends that I had at that time didn't care for me. So I left; haven't seen them once until one of the concerts that I performed at. They wanted to talk to me and I told them that I'm not the same. Most of my songs are about heartbreak, being strong, try and move one with life and take what life gives you."
"That's a lot. So I have a clip of your new video that aired last night called bring me to life, and I have to ask about your new album that is coming out… is there anything that you can tell us about it?"
"Sure. The album is called Missing and the main song is missing. This whole album is about what life gives you and so much more. Missing is about regrets that people have or feeling and or that something is missing from their life. It can be anything from a pet, friends or a family member that have passed away. An ex-boyfriend or girlfriend that they once had and wished they didn't break up with them. The other songs are really important to me. Most of what I write is what could happen within seconds thought."
"That's something new. But you were talking about your friends and how they didn't care. What happened?"
"Well I was 17 when the first guy that I loved left. He was older than me. He didn't come back until I moved in with a friend. Then we had to go and find my ex-best friends sister, we slept together again when we found her and staying at a hotel but different rooms. And a few weeks later we didn't talk or nothing. They all stopped caring about me. They acted as if I didn't exist to them anymore."
"That's real sad. Well we're about out of time. But for everyone here we are giving you all a free Cd of the new album and the old one as well. There is also a DVD on what the band has been up to. Hope to see you again soon."
I turned off the TV and couldn't believe that she would say that. How could she think that? But I knew that all of her songs were mixt of anger, pain, sadness, and so much more. I wanted to go to her and tell her that I would do anything to get her back. But I knew that I couldn't and that she wouldn't want to see any of us ever again. Not after how we all treated her in the end. I just wish that she would let us in so that we could understand her and I knew that she would never forgive us.
"Dimitri what are you doing in here? The party is outside. Abe was looking for you."
I turned my head to see Christian and said, "I'm sorry, but I'm tired and I'm not on duty right now."
I started to move when Christian said, "I know you're pining over Rose and all, But you need to understand that you hurt her where she believes that we're dead to her. She doesn't want us in her new life. No matter what happened. She wants to live her life wild and free and to be away from our world."
"Haven't you noticed that none of us have been the same since she has left. She doesn't hunt the strigoi anymore. She is acting like a human girl and she's not. She's not human."
I told him. I know that she was hurt and upset at everyone. I knew that she was hurting herself before she left. I noticed that she spent more time in the gym and in the church. People were asking if I know what was wrong and I told them I didn't. Which was the truth or what I could see as the truth at the time, but now I wonder if it was more than that.
"We know that. But there are things that you cannot know. Things that me, Eddie, and Rose's mother is pissed off about and that we all agree that you should have told her the truth instead of sleeping with her and after she got out of the hospital that you should have talked to her instead of thinking that she would just forget what happened. She loves you Dimitri. More than you can know. But she's hurting and if you go after her now you'll lose her again."
"Than what am I to do. She has no guardian with her. No one to protect her if something was to happen to her. Plus our dear Queen needs me as her guardian instead of some dhampir acting like a human."
"Dimitri why don't you get some rest. We have a plan of trying to talk to Rose. But for now you need rest."
A/N: What do you all think of this? I know its long but the next chapter will be better. SO please review.
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