Deeks entered Kensi's room. She was still groggy and trying to wake after the surgery. Deeks sat on the edge of her bed and gently kissed her hoping it would wake her. Memories flashed through him of her weeks in a coma. He hated seeing her this way. He brushed the side of her face, this time she stirred more, unlike the weeks on end he waited for her to wake from that dreadful mission to Syria. Her eyes began to flutter more as he talked to her, finally, she was able to focus.
"Hey there sleepy head," he joked.
"Hey," she licked her lips. Her mouth felt so dry. Deeks brought her some water. She sipped slowly. "The baby? How is she."
"She perfect, absolutely perfect," he beamed. "She's an amazing mix of me and you, baby."
Kensi took a breathe and tried to sit up. She was in so much pain, but didn't make a sound. He knew her looks, her movement, he could tell what she was feeling. He tried to help her adjust.
"But she's healthy. She's ok? When can I see her? Where is she?" her brown eyes were still tearful.
"She's getting a light treatment. She's a bit jaundice, so she needs that to help her. The nurse said she would get us when I could take you to see her."
"Is she ok, otherwise though. She came so early. Too early," Kensi's voice shook with worry.
"She's good baby, she needs some oxygen to help her lungs. She'll probably have to stay here a few weeks, but that will give you some time to heal."
"What? I don't want to leave her here. I want to take her home when I go home." She began to panic a little.
"Baby, calm down."
"No Deeks!"
"Ok,ok," he grabbed her and held her. "But we have to let the doctors take care of her. Just like you had to let them take care of you and I had to let them take care of me. Remember?" He tried to calm her as She sobbed in his arms.
"What did I do wrong," she looked at his eyes beginning to form tears. He wanted to help his wife who was hurting.
"Baby, you didn't do anything wrong. Sometimes things just happen. You're both gonna be fine after a little time of recovering. You're Both amazingly strong girls. I promise." He lept using that p word hoping he could keep it.
She threw her head back against the pillow with frustration. Two nurses came in the room.
"How are you feeling Mrs. Deeks?" The first nurse asked kindly.
"Ok," she huffed. "When can I see my baby?"
"I'm here to take you to her after your vitals are taken." the second nurse said in a sweet tone.
"Ok," Kensi felt a little better knowing she would soon have her baby in her arms. She waited eight months to meet her.
"How is your pain from 1-10."
"Bout a 6," she lied a little. She felt like it was closer to a 9, but she wasn't going to let anything keep her from her daughter.
"Would you like anything for the pain?"
"No, not right now."
"Kens, baby are you sure." He could tell she was hurting.
"I said I'm fine."
"Alright then, Let's get you into the wheelchair, so we can get you down to your little girl." The second nurse kindly took her hand.
Kensi winced in pain as they moved her to the chair.
"You good?" Deeks asked her with concern.
"I'm good."
"Ok, mommy let's go meet your daughter." The baby's nurse unlocked the wheelchair and began pushing her down the hall. "So your husband tells us her name is Princess Sunshine."
"Does he now?"
"No no, I said that's what I call her, because we have yet to agree on a name." He defended himself as daggers shot from Kensi's eyes.
"Well she has definitely earned herself a following from all the nurses on duty tonight. She's a strong little girl. She's very good. She only fussed when she needs changed or is starting to get hungry."
Kensi smiled, relieved to hear her daughter was a fighter. A warrior in a sense, fighting against the odds. Kensi was so anxious to get to her and finally meet her.
"She's definitely our little mutant ninja assassin," he grinned.
Kensi's smile became bigger. He could always make her laugh in the worst of times. She grabbed his hand as they headed closer to the NICU.
"Are you ready?" The nurse asked.
"Extremely!" Kensi gasped as she saw her child. She was beautiful despite being hooked up to the multiple machines. Kensi was immediately in love with her and Deeks' perfect creation. "She's absolutely amazing."
"You did that," Deeks leaned down to whisper to Kensi.
"We did that," she winked.
"We did," he nodded in agreement.
"Let's get a fresh sterile gown on you both, so that you can officially meet her."
Kensi felt knots in her stomach. She was very nervous to hold her baby. Deeks immediately could see the fear growing, "I was scared at first too, but you'll do fine." He kissed the top of her brown locks. The nurse helped Kensi into a new gown. She gave them a private isolated room with a rocking chair. The nurse and Deeks helped settle Kensi in the rocking chair. Deeks clothed himself in a new gown and followed the nurse to get the baby. Kensi watched as the nurse unhooked the machines and lines attached to her daughter. She swaddled her in a fresh yellow blanket, at Deeks request, whispering to the nurse that Kensi wasn't a fan of pink. Kensi snickered to herself at the gesture. She watched as the nurse handed the baby to her husband. She could see the pure joy that lit his eyes as he cradled her. She watched him walk towards her. He kissed their child gently, their perfect creation. "It's time to meet mommy, princess."
"Deeks! She's going to think that's her name."
"Then we need to find her one," he stated placing the baby in her arms.
"Oh my goodness, she's so tiny." Her heart filled. "She's perfect."
"I mean, she is a combination of you and me, more me, so what else would she be."
"Martin Deeks!"
He cackled mischievously, "ok, more you than me, but absolutely perfect."
"I love her so much, Deeks. I love you so much."
"I love you both too. Kensi, thank you. Thank you for her. Thank you for this awesome life. For everything."
Kensi stared at their daughter. The nurse reentered their room. "Please don't take her yet," Kensi pleaded.
"No need to worry. She still has an hour before going back under the lights. However, she does need to eat." The nurse handed her a bottle.
"Oh, I'm not too good at this whole mom thing yet, I guess." Kensi felt a little embarrassed. She was so wrapped up staring at the new life her and Deeks created, she didn't think about anything else.
"You both went through an ordeal today, you're doing great." The nurse reassured her.
"Thank you," Kensi forced a small smile. "I don't feel like I am."
"You're here loving her." The nurse wanted her to know. "Look around. It's hard to work here. Some of these babies are here alone. Addicted to drugs and alcohol. No one to love them. So we love them. And as much as we love your little girl, we know she has two parents that love her and when she goes home she will be loved just as much as she was loved here."
Kensi felt awful looking around at all the babies who were alone. There were more alone then not. Even though things were not as she had planned, she was grateful her baby would be able to come home in a few weeks, not months. She was not suffering withdrawal as some of these innocent babies. She kissed her tiny package. "You are so loved."
"I'll be back in a bit," the nurse scurried away.
"So, while you were busy napping," Deeks chuckled, "I did some name research."
"Napping huh? Your lucky I have your daughter in my arms."
He smiled wider. "Like I was saying, I found a name to run by you."
"Well, let's hear it, it's gotta be better than Princess Sunshine."
"You know you're my original sunshine, right."
"Mhmm," Kensi was wary.
I found a name that means daughter of the sun, Eliana, we could call her Ellie for short if we wanted."
Kensi was a bit in shock that he had taken such thoughtful steps to research a name. Surprisingly, she actually loved it. "It's perfect Deeks."
"Really?" He was surprised. "Your messing with me right? For all the times I pretended to have amnesia when I was hurt."
"I should, but I'm not. I love it. Hello Ellie, I'm your mommy and this shaggy guy here, well that's your daddy. We are so happy you're here with us. We already love you more than you can imagine baby girl." Kensi spoke to her daughter as she finished feeding her.
Deeks stood there, admiring the two most important girls in his life. "Do you want some daddy daughter time before they have to put her back."
"I do," he took the baby from Kensi. "Hello there princess Ellie."
"Deeks, with the princess still?"
"Are you jealous," he winked.
"You're an idiot," she shook her head.
"Mommy likes to call me that a lot. See she has this little green eyed monster that lives inside her, but what she doesn't realize is now that you are the princess, that makes her my queen." He looked back at his wife and winked again.
"Idiot," she repeatedly whispered with a laugh.
"It's time for her to have her light treatment now. I'm sorry, I have to take her," the nurse tenderly said.
The couple nodded as Deeks handed her the baby. "Mrs. Deeks, your nurse is on her way to transport you back to your room. Mama needs her rest too."
Kensi knew she couldn't argue. The pain was returning and she was extremely sore and very tired. The nurse arrived and helped Deeks get her back into her wheel chair. They rolled her back to her room and situated her in bed.
"Here are your pain meds. You need to sleep and heal. You can see your baby again in the morning."
Kensi began to resist, not wanting medicine. Deeks insisted, "Baby, please you need your rest to be strong for Ellie. I promise I'm not leaving and I'll check on her periodically through the night."
"You need to sleep though too, babe." She told him.
"I will, but I'll check on her before I do and I'll wake up to make sure she is good. I'll need the practice for when she comes home. This is a partnership."
Those words made Kensi happy. She missed their partnership. She missed being his work partner, but loved being his life partner. "Partners," she huffed.
"Partners, that's what we are right?" He joked repeating words he once said to her before they went all in. He handed her the pain medicine the nurse left for her.
Kensi reluctantly agreed and took them. She fell as sleep within minutes. He stared as his peacefully sleeping wife. So happy, ready to take on their new mission as parents.
