Disclaimer: I do not own the Vampire Diaries in any way shape or form.
AN: So thanks again for all the reviews and follows they really make me smile. They help to inspire me to write too so keep them coming please. So in this I wanted to show some of Bonnie's other relationships along with Damon's. I feel like sometimes people leave them out and I believe the relationships show a lot about Bonnie. Now I will stop babbling so you can read. Hope you enjoy.
The door closed as the other vampires left, only Bonnie and Damon remained standing there. Then Bonnie's emerald eyes began to dim and she felt her emotions from before coming back. In the past her friends had always given her hope to keep moving forward. Once they left she would always be back to square one. Seeing Caroline's face had helped her not to dwell on what she now was. Now that Caroline was gone, she would be stuck inside she would have nothing but to time to think about.
Damon stood there watching Bonnie for a moment. Something in him told him to leave her alone, but another part wanted nothing more than to get back to their normal bantering. To no surprise he listened to the latter. "So Jugdey, what should we do today?" Damon spoke with a grin on his lips.
At the sound of his voice she felt the pure rage bubbling up in the pit of her stomach again. The caramel skinned girl turned on the ball of her feet to look back at him. Her bright emerald orbs looked like they could cut through steel; instead they were fixed on Damon's face. "We are doing nothing. You however can go to hell." Once the words were out she turned again to go to her room.
Within seconds Damon was in front of her blocking her path to the stairs. The younger vampire small body collided with his and he stared down at her. "Now now Bonnie there is no need to go pout in your room. Why not join me in the kitchen for a drink?"
Bonnie stared at him incredulously for a moment and then her eyes showed the rage she felt again. "Out of my way Damon." she hissed through her tight lips. When he didn't move she brought her hands to his chest and gave him a shove.
The raven haired man stood his ground and didn't flinch as she tried to shove him away. "Come on Bon Bon just sit in there with me for a little while." His powder blue eyes searched hers for a sign of her giving in. With most girls he always got his way, even Elena had worn down to his charm and now she was in love with him. Bonnie however was in a whole other league than the other girls he knew. The chocolate haired girl always gave him hell and never forgave him easily.
Now Bonnie's patients were completely gone. After what he did to me he just wants to sit down and hang out?! Who the hell does he think he is? On instinct she tried to give him an aneurism only to remember she didn't have that power anymore. Something in her ached painfully at the realization. All she knew now was that her need to get away from Damon. Her mind tried to recall the speed she used earlier to get to Caroline. Now her feet brought her to her room. Once there she quickly turned to shut the door. The door was met with Damon's hand and it stayed open. "Get the hell out of my room!"
Even at the sound of anger in her voice he didn't move and he didn't plan on it. "First off this is my house. And secondly Bonnie I am just trying to help. Why the hell do you always make things so difficult?" Damon tried to keep his anger down, but there was only so much he could take.
"Don't you think you help enough?" Bonnie hissed at him as she moved back to the dresser and watched as Damon walked into the room. "Because of you I am a..." even amidst her anger she couldn't say what she now was out load. Once she did there would be no ignoring it.
"You are a vampire Bonnie." Maybe he was being heartless, but she needed to hear the truth and he was sure to tell her it. Even if she didn't want to admit it, there was no changing that fact. "No matter how much you don't want to be you are. Just fucking except it."
Bonnie felt her jaw clench and her balled her fist. "And it's your fault! I never wanted to be this. I planned on dying, then you came into my home and force fed me blood!" Her hands reached out on the dresser and grabbed some small glass object. Then she with all her strength behind it she launched it at his head.
With easy he dodged the object and then used his speed to stand in front of where Bonnie was. Their bodies were barely an inch apart. "You are a monster like the rest of us and there is no changing that." Damon opened his mouth to speak again but quickly shut it as he felt sharp pain coming from his cheek. His ears heard the sound of the slap resonate throughout the house. Bonnie Bennett just slapped me? He stood there not speaking; the shock more than the pain caused this. In all his years he could count on one hand the times he hand been slapped. This one however was different; it was fueled not only by rage but by Bonnie's pain.
The first to move was Bonnie, she decided to retreat into her bathroom. As she walked she whispered in a broken voice, "Just stay away from me Damon." With that she shut the door locking it behind her. Her body began to tremble and slowly she sunk to the bathroom floor. She brought her legs to her chest and hugged them close. Bonnie had expected tears to fall and to begin to sob loudly, but no tears came. Instead she just sat there staring at the far wall.
Those words from her lips where nothing new to Damon, but this time something felt different. This time her voice wasn't angry or aggravated this time it was broken and defeated. Bonnie had always been so strong in his eyes but she was only a seventeen year old girl after all. Now she would forever be that age. I did it for Elena and that is the end of it. He tried to reason with himself as he closed the door to her room. Though he was starting to notice Elena couldn't careless that Bonnie was alive, but he held on to that reason. As dumb as it sounded it was the only reason he would let his mind think. Damon thought maybe he should feel guilty and part of him even wanted to, but he couldn't. His actions kept Bonnie on this Earth even if she hated him for making her turn, she was still here and that's what matters.
It had been hours since Bonnie had heard Damon slam the front door. The fight with him had left her feeling emotionally and physically drained. Damon had that affected on her, he always pushed her over the edge and she hated it. No other person could make her feel her emotions that powerfully and it wasn't because she was now a vampire. The man had always had that effect on her, no matter how hard she tried to ignore him, he always got to her.
The young vampire had no idea how long she had been sitting on the bathroom floor, but she figured she should at least move to her bed. She stood from her spot and opened her bathroom door. As she walked she stretched out her body trying to loosen up the tight muscles. Physically her body felt stiff from not moving and emotionally she was feeling almost numb after all the emotions she felt before. She reached her bed, but then decided to walk around to help her muscles to move again.
As she walked her small feet made a soft pat and she soon arrived at the stairs. Once she reached the bottom of them she walked into the living room looking at the books on the wall. Bonnie needed to get her mind off of everything in her life right now and books had always been a good escape for her. Her fingers ran over the spines of the books as she walked and her eyes scanned the names on them. Most of them she had never heard of them. Her attention was quickly brought away from the books as she heard the front door opening.
Stefan walked into the house carrying an unconscious Elena over his shoulder and balancing his phone on his ear as she talked to Damon. "Yes Damon. I am walking in the house with her right now... No putting vervain into her system was the right call. She hurt Caroline." The younger Salvatore brother shut the door with his foot. He looked up to see Bonnie staring at him with a worried expression. "I will talk to you later."
Bonnie had been planning on fleeing to her room, but the sound of Stefan caused her to pause. Instead she stood in the hallway concerned with what Elena had done. "What happened to Caroline?"
A long sigh escaped his lips, "Let me put Elena down and I will explain." He made his way up stairs with the passed out girl in his arms. Slowly he laid her down on her bed and made his way slowly downstairs. Stefan thought about what to say to her. Bonnie and he had grown closer over the years and now he considered her a friend. Now she was a vampire and he knew just how badly that could affect her.
Finally he reached the bottom of the stairs and saw Bonnie sitting on the couch waiting for him. Stefan made his way to sit across from her. Then he explained everything that had happened at the cheerleading tournament. Elena had bitten a girl, tripped another down the bleachers and dropped Caroline on her head. He constantly kept trying to defend her saying having her emotions off where the cause of it.
Bonnie listened to everything and felt anger build up at hearing what Elena had done. She took a deep breath before she spoke and tried to keep her tone understanding. "I understand that her emotions off has a lot to do with it Stefan, but we can't let her get away with it. If she dropped a human girl instead of Caroline, they would have been servilely hurt." Her mind began to wonder and she started to fear what worse things Elena could do without her emotions.
"I know. We just need to keep an eye on her and make her want to feel again." The look Bonnie gave him was clear she didn't think that was good enough. "I won't let anyone get hurt. When she comes back she wouldn't be able to handle it if she actually killed someone." He knew all too well what that would be like. When your emotions come on it was like a tsunami beating down on you, he had no intention of letting Elena hate herself.
Bonnie opened her mouth to talk more on the subject but Stefan spoke first. "How are you feeling?" In all honesty he wasn't just changing the subject from Elena; he really cared how Bonnie was taking everything. He couldn't help, but to feel guilt for her situation. Deep down he knew he couldn't control Damon's actions, but he still wished he had stopped it in some way.
The new vampire turned her eyes to the floor. She knew Stefan really cared, but she wasn't sure she was ready to talk about it. "I just... It's hard to adjust I guess." Bonnie looked up at him after a moment.
He nodded his head and studied her closely. "Listen Bonnie, I am so sorry for what Damon did to you. If you need anything I am here for you." His words held truth behind them as he stared at her. The girl before him had gone through so many losses just as Elena and Caroline had. All of it started happening when he came to town.
Bonnie nodded her head causing the curls on her head to bounce lightly. "Thanks Stefan it means a lot. I just think the best thing for me is time." The caramel skinned girl felt slightly happier knowing that Stefan was there for her.
A warm smile came to his lip and Bonnie returned it. Stefan was the opposite of Damon and that was why Bonnie could be with him like this. Times like this she found herself questioning whether or not they were actually related. They remained like that for a moment and then it faded as they heard Elena begin to stir up stairs.
"I should go take care of her." Stefan said with an apologetic smile on his face. He waited till he saw Bonnie nod, then he stood and made his way to the stairs.
With that Bonnie was alone again. Taking a deep breath she stood and moved over to the books. Her emerald eyes scanned the spines again and saw a familiar title. Her hand brought out the worn copy of The Great Gatsby. The cover clearly showed its age and that it most likely read many times by others. Even though she had read the book about four times prior, she still decided this would be the book to read.
Slowly she made her way back to her room to read it. Once she closed the door she went to her bed and crawled under the thick covers. When the pillows where tucked behind she opened up the book and began to read. The pages were smooth and had the rich old book smell that cause Bonnie to take a deep breath. The words in the book brought her back in time to the 1920s, which was actually one of her favorite decades if she was being honest. Something about the dancing, prohibition and music just seemed to fascinate her. The characters had so much to offer as well, they were made to me hated in her opinion. Each had such bad qualities, but you could find over a dozen people like that when walking down the street.
Bonnie had been wrapped in her book that she didn't notice the sound of people pouring into the house. After an hour of people being there Bonnie finally heard the roaring of cheers and music coming through her floorboards. Then the sound of their hearts beating fast came to her ears and she felt the hunger she had been trying to ignore. Maybe if I just tune them all out the hunger will go away. Her eyes tried to focus on the words as she tried to ignore the people downstairs. The hunger was more intense than anything she had ever felt before and her eyes couldn't focus on the words. Instead her mind began to focus on the heart beats
The sound of her door opening snapped her back to reality and she quickly turned to look away from the door. She knew her face was covered in the grotesque veins. Her eyes closed as she focused on breathing. This was something she saw Caroline do often when the hunger was too much.
Once inside the blond shut the door and put down the bag of clothes Caroline had given him. "Hey Bon." as Matt spoke his voice crack. Caroline had explained everything to him and he wanted nothing more than to see Bonnie alive for himself. In his life he had lost so many people he cared about and to lose another had been so Earth shattering.
The sound of Matt's voice made Bonnie's happiness from before return. Once the veins disappeared she turned to look at him. "Matt." The caramel skinned girl took off the covers and quickly went into his arms. "I am so happy to see you."
"It's great to see you too. I thought we lost you too." Matt's voice cracked and he allowed a few tears to fall as he held his childhood friend in his arms. To think less than twenty four hours ago he thought he had lost another person close to him and now she was here. While yes she was a vampire, but she was still Bonnie.
Bonnie closed her eyes and chose to enjoy this moment. Then she heard his pulse beating in her ears. Her body tensed as the hunger filled her again. The dark veins stretched across her face and no matter how much she tried to focus on breathing all she could think of was the sound of his blood flowing. Her brain told her to push Matt away but her body didn't respond to the command. Instead her fangs slowly began to extend. Then they sunk into his neck and the warm liquid filled her mouth and she couldn't stop.
Matt tried to shove her off and nothing happened. Then she felt the acid going down her throat like it was burning her from the inside out. She released her grip from him and stumbled back as she spit out the blood. Tears began to fall from her face as she looked down at the blood. The red liquid was everywhere. Her mind began to tell her she deserved the pain from the vervain in her opinion and so much more. Then things started to grow dark and everything faded as she fell lying on the ground.
Quickly Matt ran to find Caroline or Stefan or someone. It took a while in the crowd but he soon found the two dancing. In a rush he blurted out what had happened. Though he was still in shock he knew they should know. Caroline was gone in a flash to go help Bonnie. Then Stefan instructed Matt to get himself cleaned up in one of the bathrooms. Stefan then set off to get a blood bag for Bonnie.
Once he reached the room he saw Bonnie lying on her back still passed out and Caroline rapidly trying to clean everything up. Even despite her best efforts her fangs where still extended because of the smell and the smell began to cause his to come in. Slowly he walked to Caroline and handed her the bag. "I-I have to get out of here" he said though a clenched jaw. Then he quickly turned and closed the door behind him. His ripper binge wasn't too long ago and he would rather not repeat it.
The blond sighed, most of the blood was cleaned up and now she needed to focus her attention onto her best friend. Caroline used her fangs to make a hole for Bonnie to drink from, she knew the blood would help her to snap out of the vervain coma. She brought it up to Bonnie's lips and began to drip it inside a little at a time.
After some time had gone by Bonnie slowly gained consciousness and the liquid in her mouth helped to get rid of the raw feeling in her throat. It felt like being put in a cool pool after being lit on fire. Her green eyes slowly began to open and the pace at which she drunk began to pick up. Soon the bag at her lips was empty.
"When was the last time you ate Bonnie?" Caroline's brought the bag from her lips and gave her friend a concerned look.
Bonnie couldn't process her question instead she remember what she had done to Matt. "I-I bit... I bit Matt!" Then her body began to shake and she shook her head fiercely. She had hurt Matt, one of the people she cared most about and she couldn't control her hunger so she bit him. "I am a monster!"
Caroline stared at her for a moment. Then she brought her arms around her and hugged her. "Bonnie calm down. Matt is okay he is fixing himself up. Everything will be okay, I promise." Her hand ran over Bonnie's hair as she held her close. "You're not a monster Bonnie. You just need to eat and not suppress it." Over the years Caroline had rarely seen Bonnie in states like this, but she still tried her best to be there for her.
The two girls stayed there for half an hour; only once Bonnie was barely sniffling did Caroline let her go. Her eyes searched Bonnie's trying to see what else she could do. Then she knew what to do; there was a party going on down stairs and Bonnie needed to get her mind off of things. "Hey listen go get cleaned up in the bathroom and I will pick out an outfit for you."
The caramel skinned girl stared at her incredulously. After what just happened Caroline wanted to go party with humans? "I don't think that is a good idea." She loved Caroline, but she couldn't face people and didn't want to.
Caroline helped Bonnie to stand the gently pushed her towards the bathroom. "It is Bonnie. You need to drink and dance. You just had a fresh blood bag so you will be good. Now trust me. Plus Matt is down there and you can hear from him he isn't mad."
Bonnie couldn't argue since she thought alcohol sound very appealing right now. Once inside she took a deep breath turned on the sink. She didn't dare look up at the mirror; instead she closed her eyes and wet her face. Then once there was sure to be no remains of blood did she dry her face. Leaving the bathroom she saw the black pleated skirt and deep purple off the shoulder top laying for her on the bed. Quickly she stripped and changed into the outfit. Caroline entered the bathroom to wash off any blood from her hands.
Once she was dressed, the blond put her hair up in a bun to keep it out of her face. The only thing that remained out of the bun was her bangs and two spirals on each side of her face. "There now you look damn sexy." She grinned at Bonnie and took her arm leading her down to the people.
AN: First I hope you don't hate me for having her bite Matt. From what we have seen vampires who have just turned are very hungry and the fact that Bonnie hadn't fed only added to the hunger. Another thing don't worry Bonnie isn't just going to party and forget about what she did, that's not like her at all. I just feel like Caroline wouldn't want her to sit around and have bad thoughts so that is why she dragged her to the party. So the night is still young and I have a lot planned to happen. Please review to tell me what you think.