Bittersweet Emotions

Chapter Four

Tokyo, Japan
June 9, 2002

Rin sighed heavily as the rain fell down upon her. Her body was soaked by now, and she felt nothing but pure disgust at herself. How could she be so pathetic? How could she possibly have done something so terrible to her best - no, not best - her only friend? She and Sesshoumaru had finally been discovered; and boy were they discovered. They both agreed to no longer see each other, but that didn't stop Kagome from breaking down the way she did. She remembered how Sesshoumaru had immediately rushed to her, seeming to forget all about Rin. Perhaps that was the real reason why Kagome pinned the necklace on her. To make Sesshoumaru angry at Rin? So that they would no longer get together behind her back? Perhaps Kagome knew more of the situation that she had originally thought...

Why couldn't Mother Nature be on her side just once?

She scowled as the city bus made its way to her, pulling over and opening the doors. The water flung off the edges and hit Rin in the face, causing her to faulter some. She glared up at the driver who gave her a hurried look. She sighed and walked onto the bus, putting the change into the box as she took a seat in the very back. Kagome had kicked her out. Her brother's could stay there, but she had to leave; she was glad she had managed to at least give her brother's a home. InuYasha had been kind enough to supply her with money; at least enough to make the plane ticket and survive for a few weeks in her new home until she managed to find a job. She smiled some as she thought about InuYasha.

"Good luck with Kagome, InuYasha...I'm sure you two will become a great couple..." She whispered to herself. She looked at the people that had boarded the bus, sighing as they kept to themselves. She leaned her head against the window, it's cold surface cooling off her hot head. She slowly drifted to sleep.

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Tokyo, Japan
July 28, 2006

She grinned as she ran around the carnival, flying past people and easily dodging them in her rushed movements. She would stumble here and there, but it was nothing she couldn't handle. She stopped in front of a Cotton Candy stand and stared, suddenly feeling the urge to have that sweet sugar melt in her mouth and at her touch. She nodded and walked up to the man, ordering herself one. It came quickly and she paid him, telling him to keep the change. She broke off pieces of the cotton candy with her fingers, sticking it in her mouth. She cooed softly in happiness as she felt the sweetness slid down her throat. She stopped when she accidentally bumped into someone, her cotton candy now ruined and all over him. She glared at it before glancing up at the man that had dared to ruin her moment of bliss.

Sesshoumaru blinked as he smirked down at her, sighing in annoyance slightly at the sugary substance that was now all over his clothing. He looked at her and raised an eyebrow, wondering why she was glaring at him. "...you're the one that wasn't watching where you were going." He stated firmly. Her eyes widened some and she blushed, looking down. He was right actually...she was too involved in eating her cotton candy that she forgot to look at where she was going.

"...sorry...but...you so owe me another cotton candy." She said as she looked back up to him. Sesshoumaru chuckled and shook his head, bowing over some out of pure playfullness.

"Very well, Lady Rin...shall I attend to the Stands with you, or shall I be shamed and go on my own?" He questioned, smirking at her blush that had come anew. She looked around nervously before he quickly laced an arm around hers, not giving her the time to think of an answer. She shook her head with a smile, sighing some.

"Doesn't seem as if I have a choice now, does it?" She questioned. Sesshoumaru smirked.

"Of course not." He stopped in front of another stand and bought Rin another cotton candy. Rin grinned and took it eagerly, her hands already working their way to the candy before she was immediately stopped in her tracks when Sesshoumaru plucked off a piece and placed it in her mouth. She looked at him with widened eyes, closing her mouth slowly, blushing viciously when she realized he had not moved his finger; most likely on purpose.

Sesshoumaru's eyebrows shot up as a glimmer of humor shot through his eyes. Rin narrowed her own, biting down on his finger, but she knew he wasn't affected. He chuckled again, which sent shivers through Rin's spine. How she loved it when he laughed...

His smirk widened some as he bent towards her, slipping his finger out of her mouth as he quickly captured her lips with his, slipping past her lips as he forced his tongue into her mouth, tasting the candy that had been there mere moments ago. He growled deep in his chest, his lips vibrating against hers as she moaned some, feeling him wrap an arm tenderly around her waist...

End Dream

Rin shot up, the pain in her arm shrieking in her mind as she held it, groaning some. It had been two days, and she still needed to heal. She guessed that Sesshoumaru had popped it back in place, but the way he had treated her was the absolutely last straw. She wasn't going to put up with His Highness anymore. She ground her jaw and stood up shakily, wobbling over to her door and banging on it, quickly pausing as she saw it move. Usually the door never moved, no matter how hard she'd knock on it. The lock was too thick...

She looked to the side of her door and she shrugged. There wasn't anything to lose...she grasped the doorknob and twisted it, her eyes widening greatly as she pushed the door open. Was this really possible? Had Sesshoumaru really forgotten to lock the door...? That was highly unlike him. Regardless, she peeked her head out of the door and glanced around. She had never snuck out of the house before. She had snuck away from guards, but him as well? She would be caught...but she had no time to waste. She took a single step out, immediately wincing and waiting to see if his hand would strike out and smack her back into the room. When nothing happened, she opened her eyes.

Was freedom really hers to grasp now?

She didn't wait for the answer. She quickly took off down the hallway, bounding around the corners, not bothering to stop and apologize to the people she accidentally knocked over; not like they would do the same for her regardless. Besides, everyone in this place hated her, why should she care how they felt when she'd knock them over? She stopped immediately when she came to the familiar door of Sesshoumaru. She tip-toed past the door, knowing that if he heard her, she'd be done for. She paused when she heard sounds coming from within the room, and her curiosity grew. She slowly made her way to the door, surprised to find it unlocked.

She pushed it open, and what she saw inside made her want to vomit; made her wish that she had never existed.

There, on the bed, were Sesshoumaru and Kagome in the middle of sex. She could see Sesshoumaru's body fully, no sheets hid anything from her. Kagome's eyes widened when she saw Rin in the doorway and shrieked. Sesshoumaru growled, his fangs glinting in the light as he set his crimson gaze on Rin's still form, which immediately turned back to gold. "Rin?"

Rin stared, her face completely slack. She had felt as if every emotion was ripped from her body. She stared for a few more moments before the realization of tears flowing down her face brought her out of her reverie. She slammed the door closed and took off down the hall, quickly making her way out of the main door. She didn't care if he found her again. She didn't care if he forced her back. She didn't care if he harmed her in the process. She couldn't believe that she had that dream. She couldn't believe what a fool she was to marry this bastard.

She didn't stop running, even when she realized; he wasn't coming after her. He wasn't stopping her as she ran out. He wasn't going to chase her down again. He was letting her go for good. She smirked with irony. All this time she had wished to get away; now it simply tore at her even more. She had indeed once loved this demon man. She had indeed once thought they could have a family together. She had indeed been blinded by her own wishes and desires, that she didn't realize what kind of a shithole she had gotten herself into...

Sesshoumaru sighed as he pulled himself out of Kagome, walking calmly over to the window, just in time to see Rin run out of the estate. His eyes narrowed. He would give her a day or two - a head start. He looked over to Kagome and growled softly. "Get out. Your purpose is through here." He said with a stone cold face, and an icy tone which made Kagome flinch slightly.

"...Sesshoumaru...why can't things go back to how they were? When we still loved each other..." She questioned, not at all embarrassed about being naked in front of him. Why should she be? She and Sesshoumaru had been having affairs behind Rin's back ever since their marriage. And judging by the fact he wasn't going after Rin, he didn't really mind it at all. She flinched again at his answer.

"Because we never loved each other. If there was love at all, it came from you. I love no one wench, you're just a good fuck once in a while." He said, not faultering once in his statement. He growled slightly as he thought of having sex with this wench. He didn't like her in the least. But he needed release once in a while. And if none of his other partners were unavailable at the time, he would call her. He didn't care if she was bearing his brother's pup. He smirked wryly. If it even WAS his brother's pup. This woman never desired to use a condom when they were having sex, so there was an even chance that the pup could even be his. It was too early to tell.

"Sesshoumaru, how can you say such a thing?! I love you, why can't you see that!?" Kagome said forcefully. Sesshoumaru turned and glared at her, his façade slipping some as he let loose a snarl on her.

"Get out!" He yelled, swiping his claws at her. She squeaked and fell back off the bed, hitting her head. She groaned and opened her eyes, widening as she saw Sesshoumaru over her body. It immediately heated up, but she knew it wasn't out of arousal. She was terrified. Sesshoumaru glowered down at her, his growl's loud and vicious.

"Get. Out." He ground out, a mere hair away from losing complete control. His anger was flared, and he wasn't in the mood to have this wench breathing down his neck about "love". He loved no one. He smirked to himself as he watched Kagome rip out from under him and gather her clothing, taking off out of the room. He let loose a small sigh, enough to calm himself down before lying down on his bed.

"...damn it Rin..." He whispered as he covered his face with his hands. "Why did you abandon me...?"

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New York, America
June 10, 2002

Rin sighed as she pulled her luggage out of the plane. It had been a long ride, and she was worn out. She sighed heavily and made her way out of the airport, taking a look at her new home. Everything and everyone was behind her now...including Sesshoumaru. She refused to hurt Kagome like that again. She would avoid it at all costs, even if it meant to abandon everything.

She sighed at the crowding people around the airport. She managed to somehow find her way out, and keep her luggage in one piece as well, which to her seemed like a miracle. She sighed; it was a good thing she had taken English in school, otherwise, she would most likely fail at being a citizen in the United States. She looked around, holding out her hand and watched in happiness as a taxi immediately pulled over for her. Looks like people here were friendlier than made out to be.

She got in the cab and smiled at the driver as he turned around to look at her. "Where to, Miss?" He questioned, eyeing her some as she smiled at him. Such a strange girl...Rin nodded some and sat back.

"Time Square...please." She finished, eyeing her purse some, wondering if she'd have enough for an apartment. He nodded and quickly took off. Rin's eyes widened and she immediately snapped the seatbelt over her. They were friendly, but dangerous...

Author's Note: w00t! Another chapter. And hopefully, this one came just in time for a certain reviewer, who knows who she is and hopefully, I do not have to tell.

Reviews
Starrilight-Hotaru - ...was this in time? I couldn't tell...sorry if it wasn't.
caramel
DCoD - You'll find out soon...you kinda got a glimpse of it in Sesshoumaru's POV with Kagome. Though it's not the entire reason. And yes, it's astounding that Rin has managed to live this long; I feel so evil. -grins- I'm glad you still like my Modern Time fic as well.
Wolf-Inu-Yasha38
DarkHeartMistress
TeArS oF gLaSs - Yes, I finally revealed who the husband was. -sweatdrop- Though it was absolutely too obvious... -sigh- Oh well.
Karina
Angels Strawberry Kiss
essis
FluffyRinLover

PS: I just realized that many of you aren't reviewing. Oh well. As long as you're reading, I'm happy. I can't force you to review, but I'd really like it if you guys did. It could inspire me more, and like with some of my past stories (yes, I've written others) I actually updated one story two times in a day thanks to the reviews I got. But alas, I repeat, I can't force you...though Starrilight-Hotaru seems as if she's about to. ..

FIVE REVIEWS MINIMUM!

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Kishai