Hi guys... i know i know it's been a long time since i've wrote i'm not really getting any feedback on this story but i will continue it nonetheless.. anyway i hope you like this chapter..

The following week I broke the news to the company and they agreed to take me off of the road two weeks later. So I'm home now and 11 weeks. I've got a bump now... It's getting bigger everyday

I was sitting on the couch and Kenzie came in and sat next to me

"Hi mommy" she said

"Hi baby girl" I said

"I miss daddy" she said

"I know... I do too baby..." I said and she laid her head on my lap she put her hand on my stomach

"Can they feel me?"

"Probably... But they're still to small to let you know" I said

"daddy will be here soon.." She said I smiled

"Yeah... He'll be home in a few weeks"

Three weeks have passed and I'm 14 weeks along and growing everyday... Philip's coming home today! Finally somebody to help me even though it's just for a few days..

Once he got home and everybody was settled and asleep we were in our room

"Want to watch a movie?" He asked

"No..." I said laying down

"Wanna mess around?" He asked

"No..." I said

"Well what do you want to do?" He asked

"Go to sleep... I'm tired.." I said

"I'm tired too but I just got home and I want to spend time with my wife..."

"Well your wife is tired.." I said getting irritated

"Babe..." He said

"No! Philip I'm tired! What part don't you understand? I'm dealing with all the stress on my own! I'm taking care of your three kids! While trying to grow three more! I'm taking care of six kids at once basically. My day starts at 5:30 every morning so by the end of the day I'm exhausted from running everywhere and making sure everybody is taken care of! It would be a little easier if I had a partner in this and somebody who is constantly here but I don't! It would be amazing if my kids had somebody who's there but all they've got is a friend... They don't have a father... You're not a father!" I yelled I could tell he was pissed at me he shook his head and walked out of the room shutting the door behind him I laid their for a second thinking... Oh my god what have I done? What did I just say to him... I didn't mean it... He was a great father... My hormones are just so crazy and I'm so tired... Oh my god... I wanted to go find him but I decided to let him cool down a little bit before going downstairs I was looking everywhere.. I looked outside and saw him sitting in a patio chair in the dark I walked out there

"Hey..." I said he looked at me "look I'm sorry..." I started

"That doesn't even begin to make this better!" He yelled I knew I was in for it so I was prepared to take it "you can yell at me all you want! You can call me every name you can think of! But one thing you can never ever say to me..That's something I never will get over! And you're right I am a friend because that's what they need at times! And no I'm not a father... I'm daddy...do you know how much it warms my heart to hear daddy every time I do? It makes everything else I'm worried about go away! And I know you're growing three more kids.. I see that and frankly it scares the hell outta me... You know what just forget it... I'm done.. " he yelled at me I was crying at this point I just sat there thinking about what had just happened

Oh No! what's gonna happen? That was a tough chapter for me to write just saying... anyway I hope you guys are enjoying it. Let me know and as always Thanks for reading! XOXO