That's all he really wanted from his guardian, not some rough affection that would leave him aching in places he didn't care to think about. He watched the sun as it set, not looking directly at it but at the display in general. He didn't have a wish to become blind, not from staring at the sun. He quite liked being able to see...despite his lack of care when it came to everything now but survival.
Even if his life was currently the pitance of all hell and it's tortures, he survived. Though pain gnawed and tore at him daily, he endured for hope of a better day. For a chance that he might be invited back into society, though he knew all too well that his hope might be in vein. That he would die waiting, watching for signs of an invitation back into the world with his friends. A few stray, red colored tears dripped down into the golden sand and stained it red. The tears had been unwanted, yet he couldn't stop them from falling. Even as he wiped them away, he still felt the warmth from them on his face.
With the last rays of the sun, Karkat felt himself drifting back into sleep as he slumped against his Lusus's legs. Dreams returned, some haunting though most of a place where he could interact freely with his fellow trolls once more. Some were less than favorable, others he wished they would've gone on longer but dreams came and went. Nothing he could do to stop them from leaving, not even if he wanted to.
With the fading of dreams, Karkat bolted awake and looked around. He found himself back in bed, inside the building he had occupied. Crabdad was curled up nearby, guarding him as he had slept. He sighed, running his hands through his long hair. He noted that his hair had been let down, compared to the ponytail he had earlier. He supposed his tie worked itself free of his raven hair. He just laid back, resting his hands behind his head and stared up at the ceiling as he mulled over his dreams.
You are Sollux Captor and you're packing for a journey that could be a long one, one that may be fruitless even but you're tired of being here. Of being without someone who could provide a sarcastic comeback, Karkat had filled that role quite well and with him gone. There was no one anymore, not even Terezi with all of her sassy remarks could fill that role. You hate to leave, but you can't sit around anymore and do nothing.
It was time to find your friend and bring him back, though after these past sweeps. Who knew if he was even willing to return to the society who kicked him out and abandoned him. Knowing Karkat, he probably held a bitter grudge against them all. There wasn't much you could do but go after him and find out for yourself, if you could find him. You weren't leaving without a hefty amount of food, your laptop, or a way to defend yourself. Even though you had psychonic powers, it wouldn't hurt to bring a weapon of some kind along as well.
With everything set and ready, you heft your pack on and set out. This will be a long, hard journey but it was one you had to make while everyone else was asleep and no one would stop you. No one. You had to do this, for yourself. And for Karkat. If he was even willing to listen, you had freed your Lusus and allowed him to roam wherever he pleased since you wouldn't be back for awhile. Though it seemed he was going to follow you, you had figured as much and packed plenty of mindhoney for him to eat along the way. It was only a matter of portioning it out for him instead of letting him stuff his face with the stuff.
Your custodian was slow, but he'd be useful in the long run. Especially when you needed to have another heat source other than your own body, you knew it could get cold in where you were going to search. Though you were willing to risk it, fuck the cold and all of it's artic sting.
As the dark was starting to fade, you were growing tired. You had reached the end of the society you lived in, you stopped and looked back upon the collection of buildings. From a distance, there wasn't much to see. Not that there had ever been, even up close.
Turning your back to the housing units, you continue walking with your large Lusus behind you. Tired as you were, you weren't willing to stop and sleep. You wanted to put more distance between you and that place. You'd keep walking until you fall over from exhaustion, which was what had happened. It wasn't much longer, just enough so that you couldn't even see the place you left anymore. All had gone black, a dull sound filling your ears while you slept.
When you awoke, you found yourself face down in the sand. Who knew how much you had breathed in, if any? As you sat up to reach for your drink, you noticed your custodian nearby. He had been crouched not too far from where you were, you wonder just how long he had been there. It couldn't have been comfortable but you were awake now, so you both could get going to wherever it was you were headed.
You just wanted to find your friend...though it seemed pretty hopeless, you kept going.