Before I begin.. I'd like to think tradess5, evrafan1, and capt'n smuggins for reviewing *-* I nearly FAINTED (Okay.. Perhaps "fainted" is an exaggeration but I had one of those mini heart attacks, like when you miss a step on the stairs? Haha.. Where did I get that from?) when I saw your reviews :')

So here's some more for you guys (I'd dedicate this chapter to you, evrafan1, BUUUUUT nothing too *remarkable* happens in this chapter..! Perhaps in future chapters, though? :D

Also, this chapter isn't very... Good. See, I just finished watching HP and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 so I'm a bit.. Out of it, if you get what I mean.. :( My heart is shattered...

Disclaimer: The Darren Shan Saga and/or Cirque Du Freak's characters do not belong to me..

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Chapter 4!

Evra

What... In... The... World... Just... Happened?

Darren and I were wrestling perfectly fine right now! Having a great time, like pals! Then… He kissed me.

Darren kissed me.

And.. It felt.. Good? No, no, NO. This isn't happening. This must be a dream or something!

I took a minute or so to grasp this around my mind.

Sure, I thought that Darren was attractive at times but… Never like this. Just a small crush. Everyone gets one of those then it passes! I'm not gay...

But... When we kissed I felt something go through us. As our lips connected, I felt a shock go throughout my body. A warmth and a buzz.

I touched my lips and recalled his smooth lips on mine. I could still feel them. They were so urgent and I just could not help but to continue with them. It was so natural. His hands as they trailed down my face with such gentleness that I didn't even know he possessed...

I snapped out of my thoughts and remembered that Darren could still be here.

I sat up and looked around at the trees, pond, and stumps but then realized that Darren was no longer here. Where did he g— Back to the Cirque, I'm assuming.

I stood up, picked up the clothing that Darren and I left behind, and walked back slowly, in absolutely no rush to face Darren after this.

Would this ruin our friendship? I really hope not, Darren is my best friend and I'd hate to lose him...

Should I talk to him about it? Or should I let it pass? It was probably only a one-time thing anyway. Something that happened in the spur of the moment. We were wrestling and we were and him being on top of me didn't help much either. It was a moment thing.

Yeah. That's all. I'll let it pass. Certainly.

When I arrived back to the Cirque I saw Darren talking with Mr. Crepsley rapidly. They seemed to be arguing about something heatedly because Darren was raising his fists and it appeared as though steam were coming out of his ears. I also don't think that he realized that he was only in boxers. Goodness.

Darren stormed off into our tent leaving an exasperated Mr. Crepsley behind.

As I entered the tent, trying not to call too much attention to myself, I tripped over a small box. "Aaah!" I pushed myself up and rubbed my knee. So much for 'trying not to call attention to myself'.

"Evra! Sorry! I.. Uh.." He leaned over to pick up the box then scuffled back to a small table. I saw a suitcase on a table and a pile of clothes. Is he leaving?

"You left these back at the pond..." I handed him his t-shirt and pants. He blushed fiercely while taking back his clothing and turned his attention back to the suitcase. I continued to interrogate him.

"Going somewhere?" I asked casually while looking at my shorts, trying not to look at his eyes, afraid of what his eyes (or my eyes, for that matter) may reveal.

"Yeah. Mr. Crepsley says that he needs to go take of some business in a city and as his assistant, I have to go with him." He sighed. I could see that he was trying to avoid eye contact.

"Ah. That sounds like fun." I picked up a sock that he dropped on the ground and tossed it into his suitcase.

"You know, Mr. Crepsley said that I could bring you along. I mean, if you want to come, you can. I'm sure that it'll just be me while we're there so a friend would be cool." He said.

"Hmm.. When are you guys leaving?" I asked. Go with them? Where to? A smile began to tug at my lips but I wiped it off quickly. Why am I smiling? Snap out of it, Evra!

It could be fun and who knows? Maybe Darren and I could be friends again and forget about the kiss.. The kiss.. I looked at Darren's lips as he packed and spoke to me. Damn. "Tonight, I believe. So, you don't have that much time to decide."He looked up at me and I looked away quickly, trying to make it look as if I wasn't looking at him.

As I was looking away I brooded for a couple of minutes. Was this really wise? Surely Darren and I would be alone most of the time... I couldn't help but smirk at the thought but I slapped that thought away.

"Okay. I'll go. Do you know where this city is?" I inquired. He shook his head and continued to pack. With that, I got out a bag and I basically shoved clothes into it. I always did like the element of surprise and adventure so it didn't bother me much.

As we both packed in silence Mr. Crepsley entered.

"Will you be joining us, Evra?" asked Mr. Crepsley. I nodded quickly and he said that we would be leaving in exactly thirty minutes. I'm kind of excited about this trip because I haven't been away from the Cirque in a while so this felt like a vacation. Don't get me wrong, I love the Cirque but trying something new was appealing, even if it was for a while.

When we both finished packing Darren turned to me and spoke with determination (or so it looked like it, he seemed to be trembling a bit), "Listen. I don't know what happened back there but I hope that it doesn't ruin our friendship. Sorry for going on you like that. Are we cool?"

"Cool as ice" I responded, smiling, half-relieved that things could probably go back as if nothing had happened but... Another part of me had secretly been hoping that maybe we could've… No.

"Okay. Let's get moving and try to enjoy this vacation." After we said goodbye to everyone in the Cirque we found Mr. Crepsley and the three of us walked in complete silence to wherever he would lead us.

I found myself enjoying the quietness while chewing on some cookies that Truska gave us for the road.

Sadly, we had no idea as to how much our lives would change during our 'vacation'.

Wow! Another chapter done! This is quite shocking but I am, nonetheless, pleased!

Tune in next week for the upcoming chapter!

I am still working on that Steve/Darren fic and it's taking me a while to write all of it down.. :P Does that ever happen to you guys? You have an idea.. You write some of it down but then life (and by life, I mean school. How I loathe you, school!) gets in the way and shoves all of that away? Urgh.. It's frustrating -.-

Anyway... Next week a new chapter, for sure! :)