DIB
I don't know if I should. Should I? I shouldn't. She'd hate me…..she already hates me. But she's my sister. I don't want her to hate me. I have to, if I don't she'll hate me forever. I cant believe she had a baby. And then who knows how big that baby is now. I'll miss the baby's entire life…..I have to do something. I have to take action NOW!
I get up of my bed. I've been in here for the majority of every single day since she made me leave her. Everyday I get up, shower and shave, go to school, come home, and go to bed. Melissa has been worried a lot, I can feel it. It's radiating off of her. She's afraid to touch me, to say the wrong thing, to even be around me. I'm surprised she hasn't left me by now. I'd leave me. Especially knowing what I know and what I did. But Melissa doesn't want to. I don't know why, but she's with me, and I have a feeling that she isn't going anywhere. Which is the only reason I haven't left her for her own good. Because if she can put up with this, then she's strong enough to go through anything I can throw out. Not saying that I'd ever hit her. Not saying I'd every hit any female.
God, I'm so STUPID! What the hell came over me? I can't believe I did that. I don't even remember doing it. All I remember is seeing her come in through the door smiling. I'd known where she was, I knew from day one what was going on. I didn't care at first…..so why did I react that way? What came over me?
Now that I think about it….that's extremely unlike me. I would never hit a girl. Not even if she'd hit me first. No matter how much bigger she was, no matter how like a man she was…..I would never do it.
Something…something's not right.
I jump up suddenly! When was the last time I used the bathroom? I cant seem to remember. I think back to the day Gaz came home from Zim's house. That was a month ago. I think back to a week before then. The day Melissa kissed me. I remember I was on my way to the bathroom and she caught me in the hallway. I remember thinking how surprising it was that she was even talking to me in the first place.
She told me she had something important to tell me, and I remember that she looked nervous. I remember thinking I had never seen her look so nervous before. She was never one to be nervous, ever. So I stopped in shock thinking it had to be important if she was coming to me, of all people, like this. She took my hand and got really close, and before I know it she was kissing me. At first I felt like I was choking on something, but I had never been kissed so I thought it was normal. Eventually the choking feeling went away and it felt normal.
When she stopped I was in awe. I didn't know what was going on and I didn't know what to say to her. I just stood there and stared. She asked if she could come over today to talk and I told her yes and she walked away back to class, blushing.
After that I went on to go the bathroom but when I got there nothing would come out. I was about to burst before she kissed me…what happened between me having to pee and her kissing me?