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Chapter 4 – Can´t Believe
I was really nervous! I'm not ready for this!
He was apprehensive, hopeful and nervous, I could feel it. He was in front of me now, embarrassed because he didn't know what to say. I was feeling awful, I just wanted to hug him, tell him I forgive him and that I missed him. But I didn't want, I couldn't survive if I got hurt again!
He stood there, just looking at me with a pained expression for I don't know how long. The bell rang telling us that we should get to class. This was going to be a long painful day, almost all of my classes were spend with Paul sitting next to me.
By the time lunch came around I was pretty tired about the awkward it was between Paul and I. It was driving me crazy! He could feel everything I did so this was getting harder. We were mid way thru lunch when he finally decided to talk to me.
"Bella…can…can we…talk, after school? Just…let me explain. Please!" He was pleading with me, and it broke my heart, so I agreed.
After school Paul took me to the beach so we could talk.
"Bella, I did call you a leach lover, I did say bad things about you, and I did not like you one bit. But I didn't know you! I had only seen you in Jacob's mind. Then you came, I imprinted on you, and all I could think about was 'not her, not the leach lover. Please!' But it was too late. I felt drawn to you, and the more time I spent with you the more I wanted to get to know you. I started falling for you. It wasn't just the imprint anymore; it was you. I love you, and I care about you. I know you've been hurt very deeply and that it's for you to forgive me. But I will make it up to you. I don't care if it takes years!"
"Paul, I forgive you. But I'm not gonna forget that easily. I want to take things slow, ok?"
I could feel it, love, happiness, relief and contentment.
PAUL POV
I was relieved when Bella told me she forgave me. I couldn't live without her. I can't believe that I once thought bad of her.
*Flash Back*
We were in the woods, going in the direction of Jacob's place. The little pup needed babysitters, he would never go to the meetings or patrols on his own, someone had to go get him every fucking time! The guy really pisses me off. Seriously all he could think about was that leech lover, chief Swan's daughter. God! The chick dated a vampire! And still he couldn't stop thinking about her. This was getting on my nerves, especially when I was on patrol with him. I'm glad that Sam ordered Jacob not to see her, them the rest of us are free from seeing as well.
We were getting closer to Jacob's house when we smelled her. She smelled good I have to say, like freesias and strawberry. She was fucking good looking from what I saw in Jacob's mind. But I would never look at her twice! Just the thought that she was with a bloodsucker once, made me sick to my stomach!
By this time Sam was getting pretty pissed, thinking that Jacob had found a way to go to her. Then we heard them. They were fighting. He was sending her away.
"This has nothing to do with Sam, actually he's helping me through this!"
"I can help you too, if you just let me!" By this point she was getting really mad at him.
"You can't! Nobody can fix this, it's done. I can't see you anymore! I'm sorry."
We got out of the woods just then. The girl came to Sam's direction, looking pissed as hell. She looked like a little kitten. Just then Sam looked at Jacob and asked him,
"Did you tell her anything, Jacob?"
"Nothing, he tells me nothing. What are you getting him into?" she answered, Sam was starting to get a really pissed look on his face.
"That's none of your business, Bella! You should leave Jacob alone if you don't want to get in trouble." Shit! I just want this to end so I can go for a run…
She looked at me, our eyes meeting one another, and the world just changed. All I could see was those beautiful brown eyes that you could get lost in, that blush that made you want to caress her face, and that long hair that mad you want to brush your hands through it. Fuck! I imprinted on the leech lover! This can't be possible, I don't want this! There's gotta be some way to stop this! But the pull I felt towards her was becoming harder to ignore.
She broke our eye contact to look at Jacob, seeing the pained look on his face she hugged him and I couldn't contain the growl that escaped my throat. Why am I growling? I don't even like her…This imprinting stuff is fucking maddening.
Then Sam said "Paul, calm down, Jacob is not doing anything wrong." Then turned to Bella and said, " Bella, we have to tell you what is happening after all."
We all went to Jacob's house, and got settled in the living room. Than Sam told Bella all about the wolfs, and said that I was going to tell her the rest when we were alone. I stood up and asked if she would mind to go with me to my house. She was a little apprehensive at first but her curiosity got the best of her and she stood to go with me.
We got back to my house and I told her all about imprinting. When she realized that I was telling her all that because I imprinted on her, she surprised me by leaning towards me… Our lips touched and was like something changed in me. I felt electricity run thru my body.
*End of flash back*
Since then, I've come a long way… I learned to love her. How could I not? She is amazing, selfless, caring, forgiving… God I can't believe that I've hurt her…Even if it was unintentionally.
She told me she wanted to take things slow, and I understand. I just can't wait to make love to her. I feel like a horny teenager!
Bella POV
I hope Paul doesn't pressure me, because I don't know if I can trust him again so soon… We spent the rest of the day at the beach, walking by the shore and watching the sunset. It felt really good.
As time passed, I realized that Paul felt guilty and sad about the whole situation, still I wasn't sure what to do or think…he was being so sweet and caring!
A few weeks have passed, and Victoria was still out there looking for me. Whenever the pack catches her scent, she gets away… I'm starting to freak out, she is sneaky and she is smart. I hope they don't get hurt, I don't know what I would do without any of them.
Paul has been great. He has been taking things slow like I asked him. I thing that I should let him in my life, completely. He already knows practically everything about me. It would just show him that I care, and that he is very important to me.
Today was Friday, me and the girls were having a sleep over. We were at Emily's house, Sam and the guys were at Paul's. When all the girls were present, Emily asked what we should do next.
"Let's play truth or dare!" Kim was such a perv, I won't be surprised if we end up all naked!
"Oh yeah!" Leah came too, even thou she was not too happy about it, Emily was still her cousin.
"I'll go first! Bella, truth or dare?"
"Truth."
"Ok. Bella, what is the most embarrassing thing that ever happened to you?"
"It was in middle school, me and my classmates were roller-skating and I, obviously, lost my balance. I ended up falling on top of the hottest guy from class, kissing him on the way." By the end of this confession, I had ten shades of red on my cheeks!
"Emily, truth or dare?"
"Dare."
"I dare you to go to Paul's house, and make out with Sam, for 5 minutes, without saying a word to him!"
We all followed her, as she made her way to Paul's. We stayed hidden behind a tree watching everything. Emily entered the house, and without saying a word, kissed Sam full on the lips. After a few moments she deepened the kiss, massaging his tong with hers. When the time was up, she got out of the house, leaving a very confused Sam looking at the door. We all made our way back to the house and continued playing.
"Leah, truth or dare?" We weren't expecting that. We stood wide eyed, looking between Leah and Emily.
"Truth."
"Are you ever going to forgive me? For what happened I mean?" Me and Kim let out a gasp…
"Em, I already forgave you. It's not your fault, nobody could control that. It still hurts, but I forgave you a long time ago."
This is great! Finally we can all be together without the fucking drama…
"Bella, truth or dare?"
"Dare!"
"Okay, you have to dress this…" She took a bra and panties set out of a bag, and a pair of heals as well. I was mortified… the blush rose to my cheeks. I went to the bathroom and put the undergarments on, along with the shoes and got out of the bathroom to show the girls.
"Wow Bella, you're HOT!" This got me blushing worst than before…
"Leah, truth or dare?"
"Dare!"
"Ok, you have to…call Quil and tell him that you think he's hot, and that you want to have sex with him."
She picked up her cell phone and dilled Quil's number; she put it on speaker phone for us to hear. Quil answered on the second ring.
"Hello"
"Hey Quil, it's Leah. I just wanted to tell you something, which I wanted to tell you for a long time…I think you're really hot, and I want to fuck you like crazy…"
Quil was quiet for a long time. "WHAT? Are you serious?"
"Yes Quil, I am. But I gotta go now, the girls are wondering where I am. Bye"
"Bye."
She hung up the phone, and we all started laughing, this was gonna be good…
"Ok, now it's revenge time…Bella, truth or dare?"
"Oh god, I'm gonna regret this. Dare" She grinned a devilish grin, and as soon as I saw that on Leah's face I just wanted to take it back…
"You have to go to Paul's strip to your underwear without saying a single word, make out with Paul for five minutes and then get dressed and leave."
OH MY GOD! She has got to be fucking kidding me! With what I was wearing he is going to kill me…
I got up, and made my way to get this dare over and done with… I entered the room, and stood in front of Paul. As I looked into his eyes I started taking my clothes off.
"Bella? What the hell are you doing?" He was looking at me like I was crazy…
"They must be playing truth or dare, that's why they keep coming here doing these fucked up things!" Said Jake.
"If they are playing truth or dare I wanna join, I like it when it gets dirty…" Quill said with a mischievous grin. "Wait! Is that why Leah called? Damn it!" He looked disappointed.
By this point I was only in my underwear, and in Paul's lap, straddling him. I'm sure we were making out for more than five minutes, Paul got really carried away… The girls started calling me, and I got up from my boy's lap. As I bent over to pick up my clothes, he gasped.
"OH MY GOD! Bella, what are you wearing? You can see everything!"
OH NO! He is getting mad…
"Baby it was another dare… don't get mad."
"What? Are you kidding me? Who made you wear that and do this?"
"It doesn't matter, because you're not doing anything. And if you don't stop that right now, I'm the one that is going to be mad. This is embarrassing enough without all this shit!"
I don't know what came over me, but I just lost it. I left without saying anything else.
"Geez Bella, what has gotten in to you?"
"I don't know, I love him but when he gets this way it really gets on my nerves."
The rest of the weekend passed like this, with us playing games. I haven't seen Paul since our little argument.
On Monday I got to school with Jacob as usual. I get out of the car, and the first thing I see…Paul, making out with a girl that as fucked almost every guy in this school. I couldn't believe what I was seeing…Right then Jake looked up to see why I was so upset – to say the least – and he started shaking, like he was going to fase. I held his and started pushing him to his car, just when Paul looked up; he locked eyes whit me.
"Bella, this is not what you think…" he started walking towards me and Jake.
"You stay away from her! I told you not to hurt her, and what do you do? You make out with the first slut that offers herself to you!" Jake was pretty pissed.
"Jake, please take me out of here. He's not worth it…"
With that we got into the VW rabbit, and drove away…as I looked back I saw Paul looking like a lost puppy.
Half way to Jake's house I started crying… I felt so bad, was I that undesirable that he had to go to a slut for what he needed?
We arrived, and made it to the living room, Jake took me to the couch and sat me on his lap, letting me ruin his shirt with my tears. I don't know how long I cried, just that I fell asleep in Jake's lap.
I woke up with Jake in the kitchen trying to cook something for lunch.
"Thanks for being here for me, Jacob. You are the best friend anyone can ever ask for."
"No problem Bells, I will be here for you until you tell me to go away. And when I see that son of a bitch I'm gonna kill him for what he did!"
"Leave it. It's his life, he can do what he wants. Now let me help you with lunch." I was broken inside, but I still didn't want Paul hurt, even when he deserved it.
The rest of the day was calm. Jake did all he could think about to stop me from thinking about Paul, and what he had done, which I'm really grateful for.
The next day I got to school, knowing that I wouldn't talk to Paul, no matter what he did. All day he tried to get to me, but none of the guys would let my side, and I was grateful for that, if he apologized I would've taken him back pronto, but he needed to understand that he hurt me bad, and I didn't trust him anymore.
A few days passed, and the pack still hadn't cached Victoria. And I was getting more and more nervous. Weekend came, and I was going to Charlie's. I got on my truck and drove there. There were several cars on the drive way, as I got near, I saw those were the Cullens cars. My heart started racing in my chest.
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