Puzzled Chapter 4: ACCEPT A SMALL FACT, a la corda d'oro fanfic

CHAPTER 4

ACCEPT A SIMPLE FACT

Len went straight home to his mansion after accompanying Kahoko to her house.

He placed his things on his study table together with his violin case. He threw his self in his soft foamy bed. He hid his hands behind his head. His mind is crammed of interrogations. He talked to his self while reclining in his bed. He didn't have his dinner. After all he doesn't mind his grousing stomach. All he thought is all about her.

"What am I doing?

Am I sure about what I told her earlier?

I just did it because I don't want to see her wearing a gloomy face.

Then why do I have the state that I've been so delicate to her emotions?

It really hassles me

But I have this strange sensation to do it for her.

I wonder why?

Is this me?

Thinking all about her gives me an inspiration.

An inspiration awakens me in my gloomy life.

I never felt this way before

Seeing her, made my day especially when she plays her violin. She really does love her music. She is not really good as I am but there's one thing that I really can't get it right that she can always show in her performance. It's the way she enjoys playing music with her precious violin. That's the thing that I've been working so hard.

If I were to describe her, I would say that she's a gentle person. She cares the people around her. She's friendly, decent, kind hard working person. She always encourages people who need help. She would do everything just to keep up. I like that kind of person.

Try to think of it; are we in the same world? She always lives her life to the fullest even though she's facing many problems. She accepts all her hindrances as a challenge for her to overcome. Her life is so very colorful.

Now I realized that my life is very different to hers. My life only concentrates at one thing: MUSIC. I live in a dark overcast side. My life is grey as the rain cloud. What kind of life is that? Is there any color besides that? Will I ever change this kind of life? I can feel that I change a bit but is this enough? I want to try other things but I can't easily leave the world of music. That's my only comforter.

He snapped out and scolded his self.

Man! Len, go get a life! He thought.

Are you going to be like this forever? WAKE UP..!!! Change your lifestyle Len!

Stop being so chilly! Place your self in the oven! Melt all the ice in you!

It's because of that red-head I am now confused about my feelings? But thanks to her I decided to discover things she encountered. I have to admit she's the one who open up my heart to come across the enjoyment of music.

Suddenly, he felt his heart is pounding harder and harder. The lub-dub tumult of his heart brusquely beats faster from decrescendo to crescendo. He held his chest and tried to moderate his thrashing sentiment. He can't understand what kind of feeling just seized his heart.

"What is this…..?? I don't understand… what is this in my heart? It seems someone entered it. Its roaring… but I can feel the warmth in it… Kami-sama what's happening to me..!!

He got up from his bed and turned on his radio music player to listen pop songs. His music player doesn't have any stored modern pop songs. He switches to every station just to find a perfect tune that his hearing desires until he finds the song which is about to start.

He stopped in that station and listen. A soft piano tune played the intro…

Then the singer starts to sing the lyrics.

oooh,oh oh wo wo wo
I hung up the phone tonight,
something happened for the first time, deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever
Feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized, and I just got to know

Do you ever think, when you're all alone
All that we could be, Where this thing could go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath, when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin away,away away ayaya goin away away away ayaya

Has it ever crossed your mind when we were hanging
Spending time girl, are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Len turned off the music player.

Len can't find the answer of his feelings. At that moment, Len suddenly remembered Shinobu about the so-called CRUSH thing… And admitted.

I always think about her. That's the truth that I can't escape.

I always laid my eyes on her.

She puts me in the place of hypnosis. She absorbed my attention to her.

I'm not crazy.

"Ousaki-senpai… you're right! I LIKE HER…!!!!

But it's not enough..!! What do you mean that it's MORE THAN THAT….!!

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Well, this is the end of chapter 4..! What do you think huh? Can you provide any suggestions? If there is, please give as much as you can urge. Before leaving this story, please review this chapter. THANK YOU..!!

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CHAPTER 5

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