A/N: This random story was inspired by a picture and a song. Hope you like it. It's Ivan and Alfred. Ivan feels guilty of his country's past which is automatically his past. He looks to Alfred with questions, hoping for forgiveness and retribution from his partner. Hope you like it. Please review.
Randomness: Forgive but Never Forget
He looked into the americans sad blue eyes as he tried to figure out what he could possibly say next. His past was dark and his mistakes were too many to count. Hearbreak was the evidence against him, riddles with guilt and drenched in so many lonely tears. The russian sighed as the american reached across the bed to wrap his finger's around his hands "What is it Ivan? What's wrong?"
The russian wanted to smile, to reassure his partner but found he couldn't fake it. Not today. He wasn't going to lie to the american and he wasn't going to keep anything from him. His violet eyes took in the american's appearance. He wore his usual, a plain t-shirt, white. Over it was a red hoodie that was unzipped and he had on faded blue jeans. 'He's so cute when he dresses like a civilian.' His thoughts made him want to smile but he couldn't force his mouth to move into such a position.
"Alfred?" Tears brimmed his eyes, fighting to be released but he held them back.
Alfred looked up into Ivan's gaze "Yes?"
Ivan hesitated before speaking, pondering what his words will mean to Alfred when he utters them.
After a few seconds he sighed and looked into his brilliant ocean blue eyes. They held so much emotion. They were like a pool of water, crystal clear and beautiful. Giving anyone who cares to give a glance the ability to see everything. Perfect mirrors to an innocent soul. "Do you...do you think God could forgive me for what i've done?" He swallowed hard.
Alfred held Ivan's hand, his thoughts dancing in his eyes before he answered "I can't answer that. I don't know what he'd think."
Ivan felt a tightness in his chest "Oh..." His expression fell into a deeper depression "Then, can you answer me this? Do...do you think you could possibly forgive me?"
Alfred gave a slight smile "Yes."
Alfred leaned in close, resting his forehead against Ivans.
Ivan closed his eyes "Why? What is your reason?"
Alfred closed his eyes and whispered "Because i love you-"
Ivan watched Alfred speak and took the chance to use his mouth to tease Alfreds lips apart with his own, pressing gently against his. Alfred was shocked by the action but went along, wrapping his arms around Ivan's neck and curling his fingers up into his soft hair. Ivan grabbed Alfred by the waist as they broke apart for a breathe then pulled him up onto his lap, bringing their lips back together. Breaking apart only long enough for them to breath each other's names and a "I love you." The tears in Ivan's eyes flowed over, pouring down his cheeks as the cold tightness in his chest was melted away by Alfred's warmth.
They pulled each other closer until their wasn't room for air to pass between them and then pressed against each other harder.
Alfred stopped, feeling Ivan's tears trickling passed his face "What's wrong?"
Ivan smiled "Nothing. I realized, this is the first time i've been truly happy."
Alfred smiled "Don't worry. Tonight, I'm gonna make you the happiest man alive."
Ivan smiled, a truly real smile of joy "I'll keep you to that promise."
A/N: So, what do you think? Please review.