"How's your head?"

Lorelai opened her eyes to find Finn standing there. Her lips curled into a half-hearted smile. "The pain's subsided a little," she chuckled. She propped herself up on the bench and put her feet on the ground. She gestured to the empty space beside her, offering it to Finn. He hesitated at first, but proceeded to take a seat. She went on, "How are you feeling? Looks like that rathtar really had a hold on you back there."

Finn scratched the back of his neck. "Not too bad. I was more afraid of Chewie clawing my eyes out when I was trying to bandage him up."

"It's his defense mechanism. Give it some time and he won't be as difficult."

"How long did it take him to be comfortable with you?"

Lorelai ran a hand through her hair. "He's known me since I was very little so he's always been comfortable with me."

Finn's eyes widened in amazement. He glanced over his shoulder, point his thumb in the direction behind him. "So you've known Han Solo your entire life?" When Lorelai nodded her head, Finn's entire face lit up. By the smile that was plastered on his face, Lorelai mentally prepared herself for question time.

"Are you two related?" he asked.

She shook her head. "Family friends. My dad was a pilot for the Rebel Alliance for years. From time to time, he used to help Han with the upkeep of this ship."

"Weren't you a pilot for the Rebel Alliance too?"

Lorelai's smile fell flat. She knew she couldn't lie to him - he had seen her ID card. "For a few years, yes."

"How close were you and Poe?"

It was the one question she hadn't prepared an answer for. The very mention of his name made her chest sink down to her stomach. She thought for a moment, conjuring up whatever response she could come up with that didn't involve further explanation. "Friends" seemed to be the most plausible answer, but then there would be the question about why he would have her ID card in his jacket. Also, she couldn't bring herself to say it. She'd spent all those years assuring people that he was a "friend and nothing more" and it worked; but when kissing and occasionally spending the night at each other's room turned her attraction into falling in love with him, the word "friend" killed her. It was when he pushed her out that the word tasted like a poison.

"Fairly," she finally answered. "We trained together. He was the top pilot and I was second to him so we often went on missions together."

Finn didn't seem convinced. "If that's the case, why did he have your ID card?"

"Good question. I'm not entirely sure myself. I didn't even know I left it behind when I left the Rebel Alliance."

"Why did you leave?"

Lorelai cocked her head back. "Almost an hour ago I threatened to kill you if you didn't follow my orders and now you feel comfortable interrogating me about my personal life?"

Finn lowered his head in embarrassment. "I didn't mean to pry," he apologized.

As he was about to get up, Lorelai gently touched his shoulder. He sat back down and Lorelai removed her hand. She silently cursed at the pang of guilt that hit her. "I'm sorry for snapping at you," she said with a little sigh. She leaned up and turned her entire body toward him. "I left the Rebel Alliance because I made a huge mistake. I lost sight of what mattered the most and it turned me into an even worse version myself." She paused. "That's not to say I was even a good person to begin with, but you get my point. I realized at that point that not only had I created a mess that I wasn't going to fix, but it cost the General's trust in me as well as the trust of other people. I was selfish enough to think that packing up my things and leaving without so much as a genuine apology was the best solution. Two years later not a day goes by where I don't regret what I did."

For the first time in a long time, the chip that weighed so heavily upon her shoulders was lifted. In the back of her mind she always knew that she was the cause for her own problem. No matter how many times she blamed Poe or even General Organa, she knew it was her fault.

Finn peeled off Poe's leather jacket and handed it to her. "I think he would have wanted you to have it," he told her.

Holding the jacket in her hands brought her back. She could remember the several occasions and night walks where he would let her wear it when she was cold. What seemed as tiny gesture to him meant everything to her. That jacket was Poe's favorite and giving it to her felt like he was giving a part of himself to her. The stinging in her eyes returned as her fingers stroked the beaten leather.

"Poe was captured by the First Order," Finn began as he moved closer toward her. "I rescued him and we were on our way to Jakku because he'd left BB-8 there when he was captured. Our ship crashed and when I woke up, Poe wasn't there. Just his jacket."

Lorelai pursed her lips tightly, fighting back as many tears as she could. Never in a million years would she have thought that Poe would die during a mission, let alone a ship crash. Injured, sure. She had done missions with him where he would have to seek medical treatment afterwards but that was it. In her eyes, Poe's skills made him invincible and unbreakable. He always promised her that no matter what mission they went on - no matter how dangerous it was - he would come back to her alive and she would come back alive to him. She couldn't be angry at him for breaking that promise when it was her who broke it first.

She handed the jacket back to Finn. "I think he would have wanted you to have it," she said giving him a warm smile. "Thank you for rescuing him."

Finn took the jacket and nodded his head. He got up from the bench and left. Lorelai wiped her face and sniffled when a soft beep caught her attention. She looked beside her to see BB-8.

He never forgave himself for what he did. He was the first person to report you missing because I was with him when he went to apologize to you the next morning.

Lorelai knelt down in front of the droid, her face ridden with guilt. "He had nothing to be sorry for," she told the droid.

The droid opened up one of it's compartments to show her a hologram of a missing persons ad with her picture on it. Lorelai shook her head and looked away before she could lose it.

Sometimes he would take separate missions just to look for you. He promised Leia he would find you. He promised me too.

She hugged the droid tightly. "I am so sorry BB-8," she sniffled. "I am so, so, sorry."

The droid hummed. You know I forgive you. You know I do.

Lorelai pulled back when she heard someone clear their throat. She looked up to find Han standing there. "We need to talk," he told her in a soft tone.

She nodded her head and stood up, giving the droid a kiss on the top of it's head. She followed Han into a separate room.

"We need to get BB-8 to the Resistance," he said. "The droid has a piece of information regarding Luke's whereabouts."

Lorelai's eyes widened. Luke had been in exile since she was just beginning her training. After his young apprentice turned on him and killed the padawans who were training, Luke disappeared. She remembered first hearing about it and pushing her passed her parents to assure a grief-stricken Leia that she would do whatever it took to bring Luke back.

"You think it could be the final piece of the map?" she asked Han.

"All I know is that we need to get a clean ship so we're stopping at Takodana to see if Maz has a clean ship we can use."

Lorelai rolled her eyes back and sighed. "Han you can't be serious. Isn't there somewhere else we can go to?"

"We have no choice. This isn't my first choice either but unless you have a better idea of where we can get a clean ship, we're going."

She threw her arms up in there. "Fine. But if she asks me to serve one more drink to one of those things, I'm leaving."

"Should have thought about that when you first ran to her when you ran away," Han said patting her shoulder.