Lexa went to school the next day and pretended that everything was okay even though she doubted everything. Somehow she was afraid, she was the Commander in the books. The dreams seemed so real. But for now, Lexa had to focus on other stuff like working together with Clarke. The day passed pretty quickly and she had to meet Clarke in the library around 4 in the afternoon. When Lexa walked into the building she saw Clarke screaming at Finn. Lexa rushed towards Clarke and helped her right away. She pushed Finn aside and motioned him to leave the library. After that she turned to Clarke who was crying.
''Hey, Clarke. Are you okay?'' Lexa asked calmly but worried.
Clarke shook her head. She was to emotional to talk to Lexa. Lexa saw this and pulled her in for a hug ''Come with me. It's okay. I've got you'' she said trying to calm Clarke down.
Lexa went with Clarke to the classroom of Kane. Lexa knew that Kane would give the two of them some space. Lexa opened the door of the classroom and lead Clarke to a nearby chair. Clarke sat down, while still crying. Lexa kneeled down and lifted Clarke her head up so they looked each other in the eyes ''Clarke, you're safe now. I'ts okay'' Lexa said reassuring.
Kane walked in and interrupted the two of them ''What's the meaning of this?'' he asked a bit surprised.
''I'm so sorry. Something happened between Clarke and Finn and I thought she could use some rest. So I brought her. I thought she would feel comfortable here. Everybody was staring at us in the library. I hope I didn't crose the line'' Lexa said apologizing.
Kane nodded ''I understand. No worries. I'll leave you two alone for a moment. If you guys need anything I'll be in my office''.
Kane left the classroom and left the two alone.
Clarke had calmed down in the meantime and she was still looking at Lexa. Lexa turned around again, facing her. ''What happened with you and Finn?'' She asked.
Clarke pulled herself together and started talking ''Well, I found out he cheated on me with another girl''.
''HE WHAT?!'' Lexa couldn't believe someone could ever cheat on Clarke.
Clarke started to cry again. Lexa pulled Clarke in for another hug and comforted her ''Listen to me Clarke. That fuckboy doesn't deserve you. You deserve so much better than someone like him''.
Lexas words meant a lot to Clarke and she was brought back to their times. Lexa had always been this comforting for her. She now remembered that again. If something was wrong with her, she always went to Lexa. Clarke interrupted the hug and looked into Lexa her green eyes. Something in those eyes felt so safe. Like she was home again. Suddenly Clarke leaned in and kissed Lexa.
This surprised Lexa a lot and she pulled away as fast as she realised what happened. She looked more confused than ever. ''Clarke this is wrong..'' she said. Lexa stood up and left the classroom leaving Clarke behind.
''I'M SUCH AN IDIOT'' Clarke said to herself. Well atleast she thought she was along but Kane walked in just before Lexa left. Clarke felt so stupid. She knew she shouldn't have kissed Lexa but something about Lexa felt so safe. Of course, she knew that a lot has happened between the two of them. And above that there was Finn. She didn't officially broke up him, but Clarke knew that Finn was wrong to have cheated on her.
''Clarke, I saw Woods rushing out of the classroom just a minute ago. What happened?'' Kane asked.
Clarke felt emberassed so she didn't say a word ''Nothing''.
Lexa got home 30 minutes later. She didn't know how to feel about anything so she decided to go to bed to get some sleep. Somehow she thought that this could help her a bit. Lexa rushed to her bedroom and fell asleep pretty quickly. This is when she started to have a dream again.
Lexa opened her eyes and looked around. This time she was in a tent. It was pretty big with a wooden throne in the back. Lexa looked at the entrace at the tent and she saw two persons standing nearby the entrance. It looked like Wanheda and The Commander from the Grounder books. Somehow they didn't see her. The silence in the tent got interrupted by Wanheda ''You sent for me?'' she asked.
''Yes'' The Commander nodded. ''Octavia has nothing to fear from me. I do trust you'' she said softly.
Wanheda walked closer to the Commander and said ''I know how hard that is for you''.
The Commander turned around ''You think our ways are harsh, but that's how we survive'' she said.
''Maybe life should be about more than just surviving. Don't we deserve better than that'' Clarke said hesitant.
''Maybe we do'' The Commander said while leaning in for a kiss. Wanheda kissed her back and they go into it. Until Wanheda stopped it and said ''I'm sorry I'm not ready. To be with anyone. Not yet''.
The Commander thought to herself ''Maybe someday''.
Lexa couldn't believe it. She stood there, watching the two of them until they walked out of the tent. ''What does this mean'' she thought to herself. Lexa started to look around in the tent for some clues. Lexa walked towards the throne and looked for the braid of the Commander her second. After a few minutes she found it rapped in a rag in the corner of some kind of desk. ''Yu gonplei ste odon'' was written on it. Somehow Lexa figured out what it meant. ''Your fight is over''. She remembered this from the first book, it was the braid of Anya, the Commanders old mentor.
A few moments later Lexa was somewhere different. Lexa had no clue where she was, until she saw 3 persons in a room. It looked like, Titus the Flamekeeper, Wanheda and the Commander. Somehow they didn't see her again. So she sat down and the floor watching the scene as it happened.
Wanheda and the Flamekeeper were argueing about something and he pointed a gun at her and tried to shot her while the Commander walked in. Titus shot the Commander right in the stomach. The Commander dropped to the floor and Wanheda rushed to get her. She held her tight in her arms and tried to convince the Commander that she would make it. But somehow the Commander already knew that her fight was over. Wanheda tried to save the Commander but was too late ''My fight is over'' The Commander said.
''No I won't accept that'' Wanheda said crying.
''You were right. Life is about more than surviving'' that were the lost words of the Commander before she died in the arms of Wanheda.
''In peace may you leave the shore. In love may you find the next. Safe passage on your travels until our final journey on the ground. May we meet again'' she said while leaning in for one last kiss.
Lexa watched the heartwrenching scene and couldn't do anything about it. Little by little she came to understand that these situations had something to do with her. She couldn't exactly remember them but they seemed familiar to her.
A few moments later was in another room again. This time she didn't saw anyone but the Commander facing her. She knew the Commander saw her. Afraid of this Lexa tried to leave the dark room somehow but she couldn't. She had no clue what was going on at this moment.
''You've found me'' the Commander said speaking to her.
Lexa looked confused and stared at the Commander ''I don't understand''.
''You will soon..don't fight it. Deep down you know what's going on..'' she said.
''Maybe I do..but I don't..Am I you?'' Lexa asked confused.
''Sort of..this life..these moments are my memories I've spent with Wanheda. But you already know her in your life don't you?'' the Commander asked.
''No. Wait what..?''Lexa asked confused.
''Don't try too much. You know her..but she doesn't remember. Maybe you do not too at this moment but you will again. You're here with a reason'' The Commander said.
''I don't understand''Lexa said while taking a few steps back.
''Easy there. It's okay let me explain'' The Commander motioned to Lexa. Lexa ran away as fast as she could and dissapeared into the shadows.
Lexa woke up in shock a few moments later. A lot was going on but she didn't understand any of it. She was able to speak with the Commander in her dreams, who claimes to be her. She had no clue what was going on anymore and was afraid of everything.