Hey everyone! Gotta say thanx for reading the story and this is chapter
four, what's going to happen? Lets see.
I think that I'm doing this chapter mainly in third person so italics are
going to be thoughts.
Unfortunately I do not own cardcaptor sakura so don't sue!
Not that different
Chapter four
The eye contact between them was held for what seemed like an eternity, until both of them blushed and turned away. It was too much for them. Syaoran felt like he was back at elementary school, shy as ever and he tried as hard as he could not to turn into that stuttering kid again like he did when he was around her. She still made his heart race that much faster and his breath catch in his throat. Flashes of what it felt like to wake up next to her, to kiss her and make love to her went through his head. He lifted his face to look at her again.
While, Sakura, after she looked away, dozens of feelings and emotions that she wished she never felt, rushed back to her like a wild river. She cried earlier because of these feelings and they were strong then, but now they were even more intensified, and she tried as hard as she could to keep the tears from springing to her eyes. She felt his gaze on her but refused to meet his eyes again a second time, afraid of what she'll see. The beers she'd ordered were placed in front of her and she busied herself in paying for them.
"Hi," he said in a quiet restrained tone,
"Hey," she replied,
He mouthed his mouth to say something but the sound barely came out so he settled for another, "Hi"
"Hey" she repeated lamely, then there was silence.
"So, err, hi?" he said inwardly cringing afterwards,
"You know, I think we've got the 'Hi' and 'Hey' greetings down to an art."
"I think your right there." He replied,
"So, em, how are you?" Sakura asked trying to keep any form of conversation going, then regretting it immediately afterwards knowing what trouble she must of caused.
Crap, "Good, the company's size has grown tremendously," he said,
"Yeah, I-I heard,"
"How's life treating you?"
You don't want to know, "Not that bad, I'm living with Kero and Yue, so I'm not in any financial problems, so okay I guess. " she replies,
"That's good," he said trailing off,
"How is everyone," Sakura asked quietly,
"Oh well, Tomoyo's fashion is really hitting off, she won an award a few years ago and now she can't stop,"
"Something like designer of the year right?" she asks, he nods, "I've seen some of her outfits, they look brilliant, but I can no way afford them on my wages." The conversation goes silent.
"Meling just got engaged,"
"You're kidding me. Wow, that's like. it's great. Is he-he. well you know, okay? Decent?" She asked her concern taking over her curiosity,
She's still the same Sakura, always thinking of others. But she didn't think of me when she ran off. These thought's filled his head, that he forgot to answer,
"Syaoran?"
"Yes? Oh, err, yeah he's okay, do you think I'd let him even date her if he wasn't?"
"I guess not," she chuckled, but it didn't ease any tension.
"Sakura, what happ." He started, unable to finish,
"I'm dating somebody you know, a really good guy," she said interrupting,
"Oh, really," he said, he felt that old pain in his heart that he thought he would no longer feel. He thought he was numb to everyone and everything around him sometimes, and I see her once and every pain resurfaces, "Do you love him?" He says quietly,
"Syaoran that's not really any of your business, I mean you can't." She replies angry that he even dared to ask that.
"You don't, do you?" he interrupts,
"I might, it's none of your." she trails of as he moves in towards her ear, "What are you doing?" she say panicking, not from what he said, but how to keep this lie going while keeping her brain functioning from the effect of his closeness. She forgot how he made her feel, how could I forget?
"I know you Sakura," he whispered, when he had leaned in fully to her ear, he had to be right; she couldn't love this guy, whoever he was.
With one movement, she pushed him away, "Syaoran stop this, please."
"Or what? You'll hurt me? I don't think you can hurt me more that you already have," he said in a hurtul way, turning back to his drink, "But do try, I mean you need to keep that particular skill in practise right," Sakura turns away from him, obviously upset, "have you slept with him?" he tries to say strongly, but his voice breaks, "have you slept with any one?" he says turning to her,
Sakura looks at him, "I-I-I have" she lied,
"Liar," he states, she opens her mouth to speak, "Say it without stuttering then and I might believe you. Besides sex is to meaningful to you, I know you wouldn't just sleep with anyone, you're not like that"
She took deep breaths to steady herself, "That's not fair Syaoran. You can't do this."
"Well don't worry, my sweet, I haven't either, not with anyone else." He said even surprising himself. He thought situations out like this all the time in his head when she first left, and each time he fell apart. But now. I guess it's different when you're actually going at it.
She lifts her head up and directly looks in his eye for the second time that evening, I hate you; I hate how you make me feel like this she screams in her head. Tears start to fill her eyes and she breaks contact by looking down. I have to be strong, let me be strong! She thinks as tears fall down her cheeks, damn hormones. She felt a hand on her chin forcing her head up, Syaoran's hand. He wipes away her tears with his thumb, and leans in to brush his lips lightly against hers.
He pulls back, and their gazes lock and this time they both lean forward and kiss, sweet at first but it went deeper and became more meaningful as though they were both searching for something. Though it was not long before thoughts drift back into Syaoran's head, public place and no way near private enough to carry these inappropriate thoughts out.
He breaks off, and Sakura looks at him searchingly and feels like she's done something wrong until he leans and whispers breathlessly in her ear,
"Can we go somewhere more private?"
She new the implications of this question, she knew what it meant; she knew it would violate every reason she had for leaving in the first place. But she didn't care, right then and there she wanted to be with him more than anything and the fact she was here with friends didn't even register in her mind. She nodded and took his outstretched hand and followed him out of Crash.
Only one person, one friend, noticed her leave hand in hand with a man she had no knowledge of ever meeting, but she didn't say anything. Trina thought Sakura was to good for Ryu in the first place, and let her and the unknown man leave unseen.
Author's note: what do you think? I had no idea of how I was going to write it, but it just sort of came to me.
Not that different
Chapter four
The eye contact between them was held for what seemed like an eternity, until both of them blushed and turned away. It was too much for them. Syaoran felt like he was back at elementary school, shy as ever and he tried as hard as he could not to turn into that stuttering kid again like he did when he was around her. She still made his heart race that much faster and his breath catch in his throat. Flashes of what it felt like to wake up next to her, to kiss her and make love to her went through his head. He lifted his face to look at her again.
While, Sakura, after she looked away, dozens of feelings and emotions that she wished she never felt, rushed back to her like a wild river. She cried earlier because of these feelings and they were strong then, but now they were even more intensified, and she tried as hard as she could to keep the tears from springing to her eyes. She felt his gaze on her but refused to meet his eyes again a second time, afraid of what she'll see. The beers she'd ordered were placed in front of her and she busied herself in paying for them.
"Hi," he said in a quiet restrained tone,
"Hey," she replied,
He mouthed his mouth to say something but the sound barely came out so he settled for another, "Hi"
"Hey" she repeated lamely, then there was silence.
"So, err, hi?" he said inwardly cringing afterwards,
"You know, I think we've got the 'Hi' and 'Hey' greetings down to an art."
"I think your right there." He replied,
"So, em, how are you?" Sakura asked trying to keep any form of conversation going, then regretting it immediately afterwards knowing what trouble she must of caused.
Crap, "Good, the company's size has grown tremendously," he said,
"Yeah, I-I heard,"
"How's life treating you?"
You don't want to know, "Not that bad, I'm living with Kero and Yue, so I'm not in any financial problems, so okay I guess. " she replies,
"That's good," he said trailing off,
"How is everyone," Sakura asked quietly,
"Oh well, Tomoyo's fashion is really hitting off, she won an award a few years ago and now she can't stop,"
"Something like designer of the year right?" she asks, he nods, "I've seen some of her outfits, they look brilliant, but I can no way afford them on my wages." The conversation goes silent.
"Meling just got engaged,"
"You're kidding me. Wow, that's like. it's great. Is he-he. well you know, okay? Decent?" She asked her concern taking over her curiosity,
She's still the same Sakura, always thinking of others. But she didn't think of me when she ran off. These thought's filled his head, that he forgot to answer,
"Syaoran?"
"Yes? Oh, err, yeah he's okay, do you think I'd let him even date her if he wasn't?"
"I guess not," she chuckled, but it didn't ease any tension.
"Sakura, what happ." He started, unable to finish,
"I'm dating somebody you know, a really good guy," she said interrupting,
"Oh, really," he said, he felt that old pain in his heart that he thought he would no longer feel. He thought he was numb to everyone and everything around him sometimes, and I see her once and every pain resurfaces, "Do you love him?" He says quietly,
"Syaoran that's not really any of your business, I mean you can't." She replies angry that he even dared to ask that.
"You don't, do you?" he interrupts,
"I might, it's none of your." she trails of as he moves in towards her ear, "What are you doing?" she say panicking, not from what he said, but how to keep this lie going while keeping her brain functioning from the effect of his closeness. She forgot how he made her feel, how could I forget?
"I know you Sakura," he whispered, when he had leaned in fully to her ear, he had to be right; she couldn't love this guy, whoever he was.
With one movement, she pushed him away, "Syaoran stop this, please."
"Or what? You'll hurt me? I don't think you can hurt me more that you already have," he said in a hurtul way, turning back to his drink, "But do try, I mean you need to keep that particular skill in practise right," Sakura turns away from him, obviously upset, "have you slept with him?" he tries to say strongly, but his voice breaks, "have you slept with any one?" he says turning to her,
Sakura looks at him, "I-I-I have" she lied,
"Liar," he states, she opens her mouth to speak, "Say it without stuttering then and I might believe you. Besides sex is to meaningful to you, I know you wouldn't just sleep with anyone, you're not like that"
She took deep breaths to steady herself, "That's not fair Syaoran. You can't do this."
"Well don't worry, my sweet, I haven't either, not with anyone else." He said even surprising himself. He thought situations out like this all the time in his head when she first left, and each time he fell apart. But now. I guess it's different when you're actually going at it.
She lifts her head up and directly looks in his eye for the second time that evening, I hate you; I hate how you make me feel like this she screams in her head. Tears start to fill her eyes and she breaks contact by looking down. I have to be strong, let me be strong! She thinks as tears fall down her cheeks, damn hormones. She felt a hand on her chin forcing her head up, Syaoran's hand. He wipes away her tears with his thumb, and leans in to brush his lips lightly against hers.
He pulls back, and their gazes lock and this time they both lean forward and kiss, sweet at first but it went deeper and became more meaningful as though they were both searching for something. Though it was not long before thoughts drift back into Syaoran's head, public place and no way near private enough to carry these inappropriate thoughts out.
He breaks off, and Sakura looks at him searchingly and feels like she's done something wrong until he leans and whispers breathlessly in her ear,
"Can we go somewhere more private?"
She new the implications of this question, she knew what it meant; she knew it would violate every reason she had for leaving in the first place. But she didn't care, right then and there she wanted to be with him more than anything and the fact she was here with friends didn't even register in her mind. She nodded and took his outstretched hand and followed him out of Crash.
Only one person, one friend, noticed her leave hand in hand with a man she had no knowledge of ever meeting, but she didn't say anything. Trina thought Sakura was to good for Ryu in the first place, and let her and the unknown man leave unseen.
Author's note: what do you think? I had no idea of how I was going to write it, but it just sort of came to me.