Spaghetti Talks

Booth opened the door to the apartment, he didn't want to have this conversation, but like he told Sam this morning Brennan needed to know how much her leaving hurt him and that he wouldn't allow her to leave Sam again. She could leave him, they could live in separate apartments and only speak to each other when Sam's needs were being to be talked about, but he wouldn't allow her to leave their son. Brennan looked up from the couch, where she sat with Sam in her arms "Hi, Booth."

"Hey Bones, did you enjoy your day?"

"Yes."

"Good I'm going to start diner while you feed Sam, then after we eat I'll give him a bath and then you can finish the rest of the night."

"Okay. What will it be tonight, Sam? Carrots?" the baby just looked at Brennan as she carried him into the kitchen. The dinner went smoothly, gentle conversation about their days.

Booth took Sam to give him a bath and when he was getting Sam into his PJ's he knew Brennan was in the doorway and Sam could see her because he wouldn't hold still so Booth could do the snaps up."Hang on Buddy, we'll go se mommy in a minute." Sam let out a squeal; Booth laughed "I see Aunt Angela has rubbed off on you, little man."

Booth finished snapping the snaps and turned handing Sam to Brennan before leaving the room. A half hour later Brennan cam to sit down next to Booth. "Sammy go down okay?"

"Yes, Goodnight Moon and a bottle and he was out like a light." Brennan smiled.

"Good. Bones, we need to talk-."

"I Know. I'm sorry that I left, that night, I had been feeling insecure about being Sam's mother for days, and I didn't know what I was really feeling or what to do about it. When Sam wouldn't go to sleep for me and you got him to sleep I thought I was okay with it, I knew it wasn't my fault.

The next night when you were holding him when I left for karate he looked so happy that when I got in the car something snapped I freaked. I wasn't going to go away for two months it started out as a day at the most, just to get my thoughts together then it snowballed into two months."

Booth got up, walked to the other side of the room, and looked at Brennan."YOU FREAKED What about ME? I fell asleep on the couch only to wake up two hours later to a crying baby and discover that my girlfriend and my Son's mother wasn't home, Bones that scared the living daylights out of me.I thought something happened to you or…or… You didn't answer phone, if you had answered and told me that you needed a night to yourself, I'd let you take it, I'd let you have a night to yourself every week if you needed it. I understand about you being insecure about being a parent, every parent feels that way at some point, but you should have talked to me or Angela or someone." Booth voice got louder with every word.

"Booth, lower your voice you'll wake Sam." Booth cringed.

"Why, so you could tell me that it was normal to feel that way, and it'd be okay? I didn't want that, I wanted to scream and cry and work it out on my own."

"Bones, I get it, but you can't just run when things get hard, believe it or not even though we're not married we are a family. We're in this together, you me and Sam." Brennan didn't look at Booth when she spoke.

"I know Booth, I wanted to answer my phone but I couldn't, I couldn't admit that I couldn't do it, what mother admits they can't handle a baby? I didn't want you to think less of me when I admitted it." To Brennan's credit she didn't cry and to Booth's he resisted the urge to comfort her.

"Temperance, do you honestly think I'd think less of you because you admitted you couldn't do something?" Brennan didn't reply, Booth continued, "If anything I think less of you know because you ran away from Sam, you took the easy out Bones. I have to tell you Bones I don't know where we are now, I'm letting you see Sam because you need to be in his life, but I don't know about us. What if Sam gets too much for you to handle are you going to run again Bones? Because I am NOT letting you leave Sam again, you can leave me, and we can live in separate apartments and only speak to each other when Sam's needs were being to be talked about, but I'm not allowing you to leave our son, he needs his mother."

Brennan sat there "Booth, I didn't take the 'easy out' leaving Sam and you was the hardest thing I've ever done, I didn't want to do it, but I didn't know what else to do. I know I messed this up as much as anyone could but, I'd like another chance. I wanted to come back I drove here a lot of times and sat in the car and willed myself to get out of it, but I couldn't do it. "

"Why couldn't you get out of the car walk to the elevator hit the button for the third floor wait the minute and a half or whatever it is, walk 20 feet use your key and come in here and talk to me?"

"I don't know."

"You don't know? Come on Bones, you can do better than that!"

Brennan willed the tears away."What do you want me to do, Booth? Beg for forgiveness, go away? What?"

"I want a good reason why you couldn't come back to us."

"Booth I don't know what to say other than I was scared to come back, I didn't want to face it."

"Why after two months did you come back now?"

"I did a lot of thinking and I did a lot of reading I am better prepared now. I know I had 9 months to get prepared, but it was different once Sam got here, once I held him it all changed, I lost all rationale."

Booth smiled, "how do I know you're not going to run again, Bones?"

"Booth, you have my word that I am not going to run from Sam or you again, can you trust me?"

"Bones, you're going to have to gain my trust, but this is a start. You're welcome to stay here as long as you want, we can do what we did today. "

"Thanks Booth."

"You're welcome Bones. I'm going to bed, are you coming?"

"In a few minutes, I'm going to check on Sam."

"Okay."

Booth walked past the couch, Brennan reached out to hold his hand, and Booth touched her finger tips as he walked by.

Brennan went to the nursery, Sam was on his side sound asleep, and Brennan fixed the blanket and kissed the baby's forehead. "Sam I'm sorry that I left, I got overwhelmed and instead of talking to your Dad I internalized everything and ran." Brennan couldn't hold the tears in anymore, she stood at the side of the crib and let them go.

She felt two strong arms around her pulling her back."Sam forgives you Bones." Brennan looked up at Booth "Do you?"

"I'm working on it; it's going to take time on both our parts. Let's go to bed, that way you can cry and not worry about waking Sam."

"Okay."

Brennan let Booth take her to their room.