Yuma pushed Astral up against the wall. Astral wanted to break down in tears, rip away from his caresses and hide from him. But he couldn't... Yuma was his world, his only hope of ever getting his memories back, he relied on him completely.

"You ready, Astral baby?" Yuma hissed into his ear, sounding less and less like himself every time he did this.

Astral shuddered, wanting nothing more than to say, No, I'm not, and I never will be... But instead he bobbed his head yes, hating himself. That's when it really began, the licks down his waist, hands touching him everywhere, often hard enough to bruise his pale blue skin. It was terrible, it always was, and deep down Astral wondered how anyone could enjoy this.

Astral put his hands up on the wall, the wood rough under his palms. Yuma placed a kiss between his shoulder blades, sucking and nipping down his back, leaving ugly yellow marks until he got to his hips. Astral shivered, he could almost feel Yuma's dark smile. A second and he was in, without warning or caution, as always. Astral kept his mouth tightly shut, holding back a scream, it always felt like he was being torn apart. Once Yuma was all the way in, Astral head dropped, bobbing slightly as Yuma rocked in and out.

Humans enjoy this sensation, he thought as pain ran up his spine, a burning sensation in his ass, they must be stronger than me. It only took a few minutes for Yuma to release inside Astral, making the spirit cry out.

Yuma slid out carelessly, letting Astral slip to floor. The spirit sucked in deep breaths, trying to regulate his breath and heart beat again. He felt Yuma's warm fluid (he never bothered to ask what it was called) oozing out of him and running down his thighs. He let his forehead fall against the wood of taking deep, shuddering breaths, trying to prevent Yuma from seeing him shake.

The spirit felt his back being caressed, he looked behind him and saw Yuma. "Was it good for you too?"

Astral nodded, though his face held no joy or pleasure. Yuma patted his back, "I'm glad, baby." he reached his hand out to the thin spirit, Astral took it, legs wobbling as he came into his arms. Yuma closed the distance between their bodies before lifting Astral up and carrying him to the bath tub. He'd made a habit of filling the tub before taking Astral, in the end the both supposed it just saved time.

Astral gave a soft hiss when his body slid into the hot water. He missed the days as just a spirit, when the outside world had no effect on his body. Back then he was flawless, now his body was marked with ugly bruises, symbols of Yuma's love. Some of them were given to him while Yuma was inside, sometimes they were given to him when Yuma was mad. The pain wasn't as bad anymore, though, even if his body hadn't changed, his mind was becoming numb. For the first time ever, Astral gave a soft chuckle; he really was going insane.

Yuma rubbed Astral's head softly, gently. Yuma felt sick when Astral looked up at him with a mixture of shock and confusion, and underneath that, fear. It was very rare that he touched the spirit gently. He always lost it if he so much as let his hand touch his frail-seeming body. Even now, the back of his neck burnt badly, the voices in his mind were screaming. Please, he begged silently, let us just have this...

Yuma wasn't in much better shape either, he'd lost a lot of weight, he was skinny before, but now, his bones were visible. He had dark circles under his eyes, his once vibrant hair was dull and colorless. His eyes were tired and glassy. Both boys were dying, fading away slowly. Even the key, the very thing that linked their souls together was fading, becoming duller every moment. Yuma took Astral's hand in his, the spirit tried to stand up, groaning in pain. Yuma kissed his knuckles, it was a sweet, innocent kiss, like one shared between children. Astral stopped and stared up at him.

"I love you, Astral." said Yuma, weeping softly, taking Astral into his arms.

Astral buried his face into Yuma's shoulder, I loved you too, once. But still, Astral was greatful for the rare moment of peace.

Sorry I haven't updated this in a while, I kept meaning too but my computer sort of ate all my writing the last time I got close. Please Review!