As I woke up I could hear the birds chirping outside my window. I shifted my body around so I was lying on my back, carefully as to avoid waking the person sleeping next me, and looked out the window. I watched the leaves on the trees sway in the morning breeze; the sun barely even had begun to rise. I looked over at Brittany; she was so beautiful I could hardly stand it, sleeping with her hand under her cheek, feet pulled up, and her chin tucked into her chest.
With another quick glance her way I slowly slipped out of the bed and tiptoed over to the door quietly opening and shutting it behind me. Sometimes when I woke up early enough I liked to go sit outside, wrap a blanket around me, and just watch the sun rise.
I walked into the kitchen silently searching the cabinets for tea bags, another part of the ritual, and waited as the microwave heated up the water.
On my way to the door I grabbed a blanket that was laid out across the back of the couch and carried it with me outside. I sat down on the love seat, making myself comfortable, covering myself up with the blanket and wrapping it around my feet to keep them warm.
I loved mornings. The air smelled so fresh and this morning it even smelled particularly sweet, reminding me of wheat and honey. Mornings had this almost quiet eeriness about them that was both beautiful and frightening.
As I sat there in silence I heard the door creak open. I looked up surprised before seeing that it was Brittany and I smiled. "Hey what are you doing up?"
"I just woke up and you were gone. I wanted to make sure you were okay."
"Oh yeah I'm fine, I just wanted to watch the sunrise." I said looking back out at the beautiful colors that now painted the sky.
Instead of going back upstairs and back to bed I heard the door close and soft graceful footsteps hit the floor as she approached. "You mind if I join you?"
"Oh sure" I had started to move my legs off the bench to give her room when she stopped me.
"It's ok you don't have to move I'll just sit between your legs if that ok…" I nodded not really knowing if I could speak.
I opened the blanket and she easily maneuvered her way into the space between my legs; leaning her back up against my chest and her head resting on my shoulder. She pulled her legs up bending them sideways and slipping them underneath my bent knee between my ankle and thigh. She fit perfectly.
"You want some tea?" I offered.
"Yeah sure thanks" she took the mug from my hand and sipped some of the tea. For a second she just held the cup to her nose breathing in the perfumed steam. We just sat there for a little while watching the sunrise feeling completely at ease in the silence.
"So how have you been Santana?" Brittany asked waking me from the euphoric state I was in. "I realized that I haven't really had a chance to talk to you about what been going on in your life since…"
"Since you left." I finished for her.
She sighed tilting her head into me. "Yeah…since I left."
"Well I've been alright. I kept up with my school work and managed to graduate on time which I hadn't been sure I was going to be able to do." She set the cup down between her legs and I felt her grab my hand pressing it between both of hers holding it there.
"Hey Brittany? I want to talk to you about something…" I breathed in deep, and at sensing my discomfort, she pulled her head back a little to look me in the face.
"I just…I just missed you a lot that's all and I'm really glad we're here."
I thought it might have been the right time. I mean everything looked and appeared to be perfect but it wasn't time yet. We were both still a bit groggy and I know at least I was starting to get a massive headache; product of the little party we had last night.
If she noticed my pause she didn't saying anything, "Yeah me too. I'm glad to be here with everyone, especially you; it's nice to get my best friend back." She leaned back giving me another kiss on the cheek once again leaving me breathless.
We sat out there for a while huddled in our blanket snuggled close until we heard people moving around in the kitchen. We looked at each other deciding it was probably time to go inside and get ready for the day.
I dropped Brittany off at her room and stopped by the kitchen dropping the cup in the sink saying hi to Finn, who was sitting at the island drinking some coffee, and then heading up to my room.
I was lucky that my room had a bathroom attached to it and as I undressed and got in the shower I thought about this morning out on the porch. I set both hands on the tile wall leaning forward and letting the water massage my head rinsing away any confusion or fright I had and replacing it with determination.
It was around noon by the time everyone was showed, fed, and ready to go. Today we were all going down to McKinley to see Mr. Schue. Finn had given him a call and asked him to meet him in the choir during his lunch break; we figured it would be more fun to surprise him. We split up into three cars and headed out.
When we finally pulled into the high school parking lot it was like I had been transported back in time. Everything looked the same. The students had their lunch break the same time teachers did so the grounds were filled with kids. I noticed a girl wearing the all too familiar cheerleading uniform I had once coveted so much. There were jocks in their letterman's jackets tossing around a football and even a few chucking some nerd into the dumpster. Yep, just like old times.
Since everyone was either in the lunch room or outside the halls were empty. We all took our time while making our way to what had been our home for a most of high school.
"Wow it's weird to be back here again." Kurt said and everyone mumbled in agreement. I saw my old locker and walked over to it looking at the number and spinning the dial. Brittany's locker was the one right next to mine and I felt her come up beside me mimicking my actions.
"Remember when Sue filled out lockers with dirt?" I asked laughing.
"Yeah! Wow, I almost forgot how mean she had been."
"Oh I sure didn't…" I said and she giggled.
"Come on we don't want to be left behind." She reached over sticking out her pinky in invitation. Yep, exactly like old times.
I linked my finger with hers and we rushed to catch up with the group.
Finn checked the choir room making sure Mr. Schue wasn't there yet and when he signaled it all clear we filed in, unconsciously returning to the old routine, each of us taking a seat opposite the piano.
We didn't have to wait long before we heard the familiar tune of Mr. Schue's whistle and sat still as he fumbled with the door. "Sorry I'm late…so Finn what was it you needed to talk to me about?" he asked still looking down at the books he was juggling in his arms.
When he finally looked up he almost dropped the books he had been trying so hard previously to steady. "Hi" he managed to stutter out before quickly walking to the piano to set down his things.
We all got up walking over to him, Rachel being the first one to reach him. "Hi…we wanted to surprise you." she said smiling as she hugged him. It took him only a second to respond hugging her back.
"Wow you're all here!" He almost yelled grinning wide and looking each of us in the face before moving to hug us all in turn.
Mr. Schue had been like a father to all of us and I knew some of us wouldn't have made it out of high school alive without his help. Literally, you never really did know with Sue.
"Uh! It is so wonderful to see you all! Here! Back in this choir room all together it's like old times." He paused for a moment looking over us again like he couldn't actually make himself believe what he was seeing. "Oh wait here I'm gonna go get Emma I know she would love to see you all too." He said before rushing out of the room.
I had learned from Kurt that Mr. Schue and Miss Pillsbury had gotten married about a year after we all left. They had kept the ceremony quiet and small just including a few family members.
Soon after he had left he returned practically dragging, I guess it was Mrs. Schuester now, behind him. She reacted much the way he had hugging us all and smiling.
We all sat there, in the choir room, talking about Glee and how much we had missed everybody. The lunch went by faster than any of us would have liked and Mr. Schue had to basically bolt out the door to make it to his class on time, but not before making all of us promise not to be strangers.
As we drove back to the house I thought about high school and about Brittany. I looked up into the front seat where she sat quietly staring out at the road in front of us. Things had been difficult in high school, less stable, I remember it feeling like just one tiny misstep and my life would be over. I had loved Brittany in high school too but had not been able to pluck up the courage to tell her. Part of it was the fear of what others would say and do to me just simply because of who I loved.
The night wasn't too eventful and I found myself heading to bed a little before 9. After waking up so early I was exhausted and falling asleep on the couch as the other watched a movie.
Brittany decided to follow me to bed again; wrapping herself in much the same way as the night before around my body.
I woke suddenly but this time there were no chirping birds to be heard and it was pitch black. I laid there for a few minutes letting my eyes adjust to the darkness before getting up. My throat was dry and so I left my room and walked down the stairs to get a glass of water.
I easily found a glass and filled it to the brim with ice cold water from the fridge gulping it down. As I pulled my glass away to take a breath before taking another sip I saw a figure in front of me, "Ah!" I shook fumbling to hold onto my glass.
The person reached out to steady me and in the process took the glass from my hands and set it on the counter. "Sorry! I didn't mean to scare you!" It was Brittany and my eyes focused on her face as she stepped into the little bit of light that shined through the window from the back porch light.
"God you scared me!" I stuttered putting my hand on my racing heart trying to calm it.
"Sorry I just woke up and you were gone…" she said looking down a little.
"I was just getting something to drink. I was thirsty."
"I don't like waking up and having you gone." She admitted blatantly.
I leaned toward her grabbing her wrist with my hand. "I didn't mean to frighten you. I'm sorry" I watched as she pulled my hand off her wrist and cradled it in her hands lightly playing with my fingers.
"I love you Brittany." My eyes widened as I realized what I had just said. I hadn't meant to say it but at that moment that was all I had been able to think. I felt fear at first, at knowing she now knew, but then there was relief. She knew.
"I love you too" she said still staring at our hands.
"No I mean I really love you. I'm in love with you and I have been ever since high school." I stopped for a second looking down and when I looked back up she was staring right into my eyes. "I'm sorry I never told you but I was afraid. I don't want to pressure you or anything I just wanted you to know. I couldn't keep going like I was, without you knowing the truth, I couldn't bear it." I stumbled over the last few words looking down again the initial feeling of fear returning. I could feel my heart beating wildly inside my chest, no longer because of what happened earlier, but simply by her body's proximity to mine.
"Yeah…like I said, I love you too." I moved my eyes quickly back up to her now smiling face. She was literally beaming. There was no other description.
I started to shake as she slowly inched her head toward mine. I gasped as her lips finally touched mine. I felt a shock spread through my whole body warming me up and sending every nerve into frenzy.
I reached out quickly grabbing her waist and pulling her into me. As I yanked her forward her lips crashed down onto mine and whatever restraint we had earlier evaporated.
She reached up tangling her hands in my hair pulling me farther into her. We both sighed into each other as we continued to kiss. She was like fire and I felt my whole body start to shudder as it filled with adrenalin. I had never felt this type of sensation while kissing somebody before. It was a completely new experience and I found it becoming difficult to stand.
She must have felt my knees starting to fail me and while keeping her lips pressed to mine I felt her hands fall away from my head, down my sides and I yelped unexpectedly as she grabbed hold of my ass pushing me up and setting me on the counter.
I leaned down, letting my hands run all along her body, and I shivered as she let out a small moan when I slipped my hands up the back of her shirt gripping her back keeping her pressed to me. She moved down from my mouth to my neck kissing up my jaw line and rubbing my legs with her hands. I moaned, louder than she had, when she kissed the patch of skin right between my jaw and ear. It also didn't hurt that she had become more aggressive with her touching moving her hands up to my inner thighs.
She laughed moving her hand up to my mouth, "Shhhhh!" I guess I had been louder than I originally expected.
"Opps sorry" I whispered starting into a fit of laughter just like she was.
We just stood there giggling like children and smiling up at each other. "I can't believe that just happened." I said finally falling quiet.
She leaned her head into my chest and wrapped her hands around my waist pulling me down off the counter so she could embrace me properly. "Uh I know!"
We both seemed to be in awe of the unexpected release of emotions and feelings and it took everything I had to keep myself on my feet.
"Wow" she said leaning back and kissing me again. Lighter this time but with no less feeling than before. "Come on, you're exhausted." She pulled away lacing her fingers through mine and lead me up the stairs and into bed.
Just like before she nuzzled into my back and put her hand over my side, this time linking our hands again and resting them on the mattress. She put her mouth up to my ear whispering, "I love you" once more before kissing me on the back of the neck and staying there.
"I love you too, so much."
Well there you have it. It finally happened. Just how I planned.
Thank you to all who reviewed.
Special thanks to Rosetta288 again, I'm glad that you like that part about the lavender in the 2nd chapter. Im glad you like how I write lol cause sometimes even I'm not sure I like it ;)
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