(it's the Malec drinking game! *grabs soda* take a drink every time you see the words 'two years' trust me it's in here a lot lol)

Magnus Pov- The next week was maybe one of the worst weeks of my life. Alec stayed hidden away, Jace never told me anything about him, and what's worse is that the paparazzi would not leave me alone for the first two days. Now the rumor of Alec and I was slowing down and people were forgetting about it. what they did focus on though was my shitty credibility as a love expert.

Somehow they found out that I was trying to get Alec with Jace and that just made everyone laugh saying I have horrible judgment. Then a horrible travesty happened, Will Herondale was killed in a horrible car accident completely destroying Tessa. people somehow have come to the conclusion that Tessa's grief is my fault because I'm the one that got them together in the first place. Then there was Maia, it was revealed that Maia was cheating on Jordan with her ex Bat just like Ragnor predicted.

All the couples I helped just started falling apart. I didn't even care though I just wanted to know how Alec was doing. I looked around me frowning at everyone standing around for Will's funeral. Jace was standing not too far away from me looking around too. It wasn't surprising that he was here he was related to the guy after all.

I looked around more looking toward the back row where the none family and friends' members stood. I have no doubt they were all business associates. My guess was confirmed when Robert Lightwood came into view with his wife, daughter, and youngest son Max. It was raining so everyone was holding umbrellas everyone but a boy with black hair who walked up to Robert standing next to him. He looked ahead and his blue eyes were pale and lifeless.

"Alexander" I said softly not able to take my eyes off him. The rain was falling hard on him making his black hair stick to the sides of his face and fall in front of his eyes. I couldn't take my eyes away from him, he looked so broken and I know he wasn't that sad over Will. He didn't even know Will that much I'm sure.

After they lowered the coffin people started clearing out to go home. The Lightwoods walked away as well leaving Alec behind to just stand there alone in the rain. I frowned watching him before walking up and holding my umbrella over us. He blinked the raindrops off his lashes before looking up at me "Magnus" he asked softly.

I nodded looking back into his eyes. It wasn't my imagination earlier; his eyes really were dull with none of the passion I loved to see in them. Whatever I went through this week it was obviously not as bad as him. "what happened, why do you look so..." I couldn't even find the words to say.

He breathed calmly but I barely heard it over the pounding of the rain on the umbrella. "He doesn't love me..." He finally said, his voice almost a whisper. I leaned in to hear better "What was that?" his lip trembled and tears formed in his eyes "Jace... He doesn't love me. I knew that there was a chance he wouldn't... but Magnus I needed him to love me."

I frowned and moved his wet hair out of his eyes "Oh Alec I'm so sorry... I should have never tried to get you with him. I knew... I knew he didn't feel that way yet I pushed you." the tears went down his face "You promised..." I nodded frowning "I know I promised you he would be with you. Alec that was a horrible promise for me to make."

He was silent again for a long moment "I'm being sent away... I don't know how long I'll be gone." I frowned not liking that we would be separated "Where are you going?" "A rehab center... my father said they will cleanse me of my sickness and make me better again." "Alec that's ridiculous" I yelled but he just shrugged "I can't change his mind."

He met my eyes again "Are we friends Magnus?" I quickly nodded "Of course we are Alexander." I wanted to be more than that but that couldn't be brought up now. "Then please promise you'll wait for me. I don't know what will happen to me but I need you to be here to anchor me down once I get back. I don't want to lose myself and I need you to help me if I do."

I nodded and pulled him close hugging him tight "I'm going to miss you Alexander Lightwood." Alec leaned into my chest closing his eyes, breathing in my scent. "And I you Magnus Bane."

Alec Pov Two Years Later- I finished packing my bag to go home and looked around my small room I have been concealed in for the past two years. The pamphlet for this place said that it was a calm relaxing spa where people didn't judge you and they used calming therapy to help you. That was far from the truth though, the first week was like that but once they saw that they weren't making progress on making me any less gay they changed their tune. People gave me judgmental stares, they called me horrible names starting fights, and worse of all they moved me from normal therapy to shock therapy.

Shock therapy was for people who have mental issues. They assume shocking you over and over again will train your brain into changing its mind. I haven't had access to a phone so I haven't been able to talk to anyone. I haven't talked to Jace since the day he turned me down and I haven't talked to Magnus since the night of Will's funeral.

Sighing to myself I sat on the bed pulling out a family photo that my mother sent me through the mail. Max has gotten so big since I last seen him, he was eleven now which was hard for me to wrap my head around. Magnus must be in college now since he graduated two years ago. I never got to graduate because my father wanted me to come here as soon as possible.

Jace and Isabelle were seniors in high school now, I wonder if I missed seeing them graduate. The only reason I was even able to go home was because I finally convinced them that I was 'cured'. I was far from cured though, if anything I was even more sure of my sexuality. Sometimes I would find myself having wet dreams and they always involved Magnus.

It wasn't surprising since Magnus is really the only person I have ever been with, but still I like to think that I had a special place in my heart for him... maybe even loved him. I blushed at the thought of loving Magnus. There's no way he would love me back but it doesn't stop me from loving him anyway. A part of my brain said that this was just like with Jace and I shouldn't bother with the heart break but one thing that's different from Jace is that Magnus is actually gay. Maybe I could get him to look my way someday.

There was a knock on my door before my father walked in looking as serious as always. I had a pit of hatred for my father because of everything I went through in this place but I was very good at hiding it. "Ready to go home" He asked observing me. I nodded grabbing my bag and flinging it over my shoulder "Beyond ready."

We walked down the hall and I got one last shower of dirty looks as I passed by. Yeah I was not going to miss this place or damn shock therapy. When we got in the car I laid my head on the window feeling the cold glass on my skin, it felt good. "So Alexander how was it?"

I glanced at him "They shocked me over and over again, when that didn't work they kept telling me about how I'm going to hell, and finally when that didn't work one of the dudes tried to rape me in order to scare me out of being gay, which I have to say was a horrible idea on his part. Next time you send someone to rape me you might want to tell them I'm a black belt." He frowned "Alexander all of that stuff had to happen in order for you to see the error of your ways." I rolled my eyes before looking at him "Yes father I see that now, you saved my life and soul from damnation and I appreciate it."

He nodded "You should" He said simply. I leaned into the seat frowning "How is everyone doing?" He shrugged "A lot has happened... your mother and I got divorced." I glanced at him "You did?"

He nodded "I have some sins of my own to append for." In other words, he cheated. I looked out the window again "Are you still living with mom?" He nodded "For now until I can find a place, you will move in with me afterwards."

I frowned "I miss living with my siblings why can't I stay with mom?" He glared at me for talking back and I sighed slouching in the seat "Sorry..." He sighed looking at the road "I need to keep an eye on you Alexander to make sure you don't relapse." "Relapse, you make sound like I'm a drug addict." He gave me a look that said he rather I had been a drug addict.

We stayed in complete silence the rest of the way home and the second the car was parked in the drive way I bolted from the car, bag in hand, and ran inside needing to see my family. I dropped my bag at the door and the second I came in two bodies threw themselves at me hugging me tightly. I smiled and hugged them back as tight as I could, never wanting to let go again. "Alec we missed you so much" Isabelle said into my ear.

I smiled missing hearing her voice "I missed you both so, so much." I forced myself to let them go to look them over and I frowned at what I saw. Isabelle had cut her hair and it was to her shoulders now, the wild way she used to dress with short tops and leather jeans was gone and she dressed more simple and clean. Max had changed a lot. his glasses weren't as big on his face as I remembered and he got so tall, the top of his head ended below my chin for crying out loud.

I used to be able to pick this kid up... there's no way that will ever happen again. "You two have changed a lot." Isabelle looked me over "You haven't changed at all... well your hair got a little long again and you need to shave but besides that you look the same." She was right, my bangs were growing in front of my face and I had stubble on my chin.

"They wouldn't let me shave a lot there... they thought I would kill myself or them with the blade." Max laughed thinking it was funny and I smiled missing his laugh. "Jace can't wait to see you" Isabelle said smiling at me. I frowned slightly not sure if I was ready to talk to Jace. It's been two years though so I had to face the music at some point.

I grabbed my bag going to my room and they followed me not wanting to deal with mom and dad's issues. Once I got to the room I put my bag on the bed and looked at Isabelle "How's Magnus doing?" She sat at my computer desk "Magnus got a job down town as a professional love expert, it's one of those weird things for people who have no love life. They call in and get advice about how to ask people out or what to do in love situations. I think it's called 'love is just a call away'."

That was a stupid name but it sounded like something that would appeal to Magnus. "Mom said we should leave you alone so you can get settled." I frowned not wanting them to go but nodded and laid on my bed "Right." Isabelle and max waved before walking out and I watched them before looking at my cell phone sitting on the dresser. I haven't seen it in two years so it was a little strange seeing it there for my use now.

I grabbed it and looked through my contacts not surprised that Magnus's number was no longer in there. I glanced over at my lap top sitting on my desk wondering if what I was about to do was crazy. Holding my breath, I grabbed the computer and went to a search site typing in Love is just a call away. I felt stupid for even doing this but I needed to talk to Magnus, to hear his voice and know he was real. It's been two years and I was starting to forget how he felt and sounded.

Once I got the company's number I dialed it into my phone and stared at it wondering if I should really push talk. What if Magnus wasn't the one to answer? That would be a very awkward conversation. I finally hiked up my skirt and pushed the talk button feeling butterflies in my stomach.

Every ring made my heart pound louder and louder until finally a sweet voice said "Hello this is love is a call away, my name is Magnus Bane how may I help you darling?" His voice was full of joy and sweetness making my heart melt. I didn't know how much I missed him till I finally heard his voice. "Um... hi...you are Magnus Bane... the love expert right? They say you can get anyone together" I said softly repeating what I said to him when he came up to me the day we met.

There was a long pause on the other side of the phone before finally he said softly "Yes I am Magnus and you have my guarantee that whoever you like I can get you with them." I closed my eyes "You swear it" I asked softly. "Of course, who is the lucky guy?" I clung to the phone "Um well... You see, there was this guy who tried to help me get my best friend to love me. I thought my friend was the perfect guy but it turned out the perfect guy was right next to me."

He was silent again and when he finally spoke I could hear the smile on his face "He sounds really special." I nodded smiling slightly "He is very special to me." "Well darling my advice is you should go with your gut and go for it. Tell this guy how you feel... I'm sure he feels the same way as you."

A blush spread across my face "He does" I asked breathlessly. "Listen, here's my number so you can get in touch with me after hours." He told me his number and I quickly grabbed a pen and paper writing it down. "Thank you for your help Magnus." "Of course darling glad I could help."

I was about to hang up but stopped when he said softly "It was nice hearing from you Alexander." I closed my eyes soaking in the sound of him saying my full name. It always sounded so special coming out of his mouth. "Yeah, I'll call you soon Magnus."

Magnus Pov- I forced myself to hang up the phone catching my breath. It has been so long since I heard his voice but the moment I had I knew it was him. He repeated the words he said the day we met and that felt really special to me. I leaned back into my chair and put my feet on my desk feeling my entire body feel fuzzy with happiness.

Ragnor poked his head in glaring "Honestly Magnus, get back to work." I looked at him not able to contain my smile "No one is calling right now." he looked over my face, his face in a permeate scowl "Why do you have that foolish smile on your face?" "Alec called me" I said excitement painting my voice.

His scowl turned to a frown "Magnus you just started moving on from him. You are doing good at school and you have a decent job don't let Alec and his family drama ruin that." I lost my smile staring at my friend "Ragnor I love him... I have missed him so much." He walked up to me and put his hand on my shoulder "I know you have Magnus but you need to think of yourself. You just got that fashion scholarship and everyone forgot all about your 'secret love affair'."

I rolled my eyes "There was no secret love affair." Ragnor sat down in the chair next to me "Do it for Alec too, Catarina has told me stuff about that place Alec went to and believe me it's best that he doesn't go back there." I frowned sitting up and putting my feet on the floor "What do you mean?" He shook his head and stood up "Just stay away from Alec got it Magnus?"

I hesitated before nodding "I will." He nodded and walked out and I leaned back in my chair now worried about what the love of my life has been going through for the past two years. Once I found out where Alec was I drove down there and tried to see him. I wasn't surprised when the secretary told me I wasn't allowed to see him and sent me away.

Now Alec was home and he wanted to see me. That place didn't make him lose himself like he feared and as I promised I waited here for him. I was offered an internship for one of the most famous fashion designers and was told I would have to move to France. Going to France and working for this designer was always one of my dreams.

I turned it down though because I couldn't bear the thought of Alec coming home and I not being here. I already broke the promise I made when I said I could get him with Jace, If I broke this promise I think it would have broken Alec more then he already was. Ragnor was trying to be a good friend I knew that but I just couldn't take his advice. Life without Alec has been so hard, knowing he was here in this town and not seeing him would be even harder.

My cell phone buzzed and I picked it up quickly looking at the text that appeared on the screen. It was from Alec and it said 'Please meet me tonight at the high school football field, I really need to see you.' I smiled not able to stop the happy butterflies from coming back into my chest. I quickly text him back telling him when I get off before holding my phone to my chest feeling my heart pound under it. Tonight I would see Alec again after so long. My work phone rang telling me I still had a job to do and I picked it up happily, watching the clock waiting for closing time.

Later around midnight I sat on the bleachers in the school football field waiting for Alec to show up. It was weird being back here after having graduated two years ago. I haven't been back because seeing this place just brought back memories of Alec. I spent all of school never noticing Alec at all but the second he wormed his way into my life he never was over looked again.

The rest of the school year without him was painful for me and it all went by in a blur. No one ever asked me for love advice again, thinking my opinion was cursed. it wasn't till after I graduated that I got hired as a phone operator for 'love is just a call away'I was hesitant on taking the job in case they somehow would catch wind of my past love mistakes but I figured I needed a job to support Alec and I someday. I was pulled out of my thoughts when the sound of light footsteps came on the bleachers.

I looked up and there walking up to me was Alec lightwood. He looked beautiful as always with his gorgeous blue eyes and creamy pale skin that shined in the moonlight. He looked different too, his hair was to his shoulders and his bangs fell slightly in front of his eyes. His face looked nice and smooth like he just shaved.

"Alec" I breathed out softly over whelmed by the site of him. He stopped one bleacher below me looking up into my eyes "Magnus." we stared at each other a little longer before throwing ourselves in each other's arms needing to feel each other, to have our skins touch and know we were real. "I'm shocked your father let you out" I said stroking his hair.

"I snuck out my window, he thinks I'm sleeping." I laughed slightly looking at him "you are twenty years old Alec I think you are too old to be sneaking out of the house." The blush I loved so much appeared on his face. God I missed seeing him blush like that.

"I missed you Magnus... that place... it was so horrible." I frowned and sat down with him holding his hands in mine "What happened." His hands trembled in mine and I gave them a slight squeeze. "they used shock therapy on me Magnus."

I got wide eyed shocked "They did not." He nodded his hands shaking more "It hurt so much." Images of Alec being strapped to a table or a chair and having wires taped to his temples to send painful shock waves through his head came to view. the thought of it made me want to throw up.

"They told me I was going to hell and would die a painful death like all the other fags of this world." I let go of one of his hands and rubbed his back "That was a horrible thing to live through Alec, and for two years." he looked away his breath hitching a little "that's not the worse part Magnus." I frowned not liking that, what could be worse?

He started to shake again looking lost in thought "I was raped in there Magnus." I felt my entire body tense up "What?" He looked at me "One of the workers there snuck into my room one night and tried to rape me, I tried to fight him off but it was no use he was stronger than I was. He held me down and raped me while telling me I was trash."

"you are not trash alexander, does your father know what happened to you?" He shook his head no "I told him I fought the guy off... he said what happened to me was necessary." I never hated his father more than I did at this very moment. Alec hugged himself still slightly shaking "it was nothing like when you held me Magnus... he was rough and hit me, he made me feel so disgusting."

I always thought I would be the one to take Alec's virginity away, he didn't deserve to lose it like this. "Oh Alec... I should have never let you go. You and I should have run away together or something." He looked at me with desperation in his eyes "you are the only one I want Magnus, I don't want Jace or anyone else just you."

He wrapped my arms around him holding him tight "I'm yours, I have always been yours" Alec sighed with relief making his breath come out in the form of smoke from the thin air. Winter was coming and it was very chilly tonight. I stood up still having my arms around Alec "it's cold, let's go to my place to talk some more." Alec nodded numbly and walked with me to my car holding onto me tight.