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Chapter 4: It was always him

"So are you all ready for Dinner?" Lorelai questioned.

"I sure am, it smelled delicious. Who knew Lorelai was a cook." Sookie laughed.

"Come on. We set up a table outside." Chris led everyone out, giving Luke a quick glare on the way out the door.

They sat with Lorelai and Chris at the head of the table On Lorelai's right side sat Rory, Jackson, Martha, and Gigi. To her left sat April, Luke, Sookie and Davey.

Lorelai passed the Lasagna around and smiled as everyone sat there looking at it.

"Seriously guys. It's good. Dig in." Lorelai pleaded.

Luke was the first to take a bite out of it.

"It's great Lorelai." He smiled at her.

"Thank you." She smiled genuinely.

The rest began to dig in, and everyone sat in silence eating.

"You know Mom, this is really good." Rory said looking at her suspiciously. "It's oddly familiar. Almost like I've had it before." She said glancing over at Luke.

Lorelai laughed nervously. "That's strange." She gave her a look.

"Me too." Sookie said thinking back and pondering when she had it. "I know!" She laughs giddily.

"Rory's graduation! Luke made that lasagna. This taste just like that. I know because he wouldn't let me add a little bit of garlic, and I said it wouldn't taste right without it, but I remember thinking 'Wow this is amazing'. Remember that Jackson?" Sookie asked.

"I remember." Jackson said chewing.

Chris glared at Lorelai across the table.

"Actually, Lorelai got the recipe from me." Luke told them. "A long time ago." He added.

"Yeah." Lorelai agreed.

April giggled.

Silence.

"So Gigi, how do you like school?" Sookie asked.

She looked up at Sookie and shrugged and then returned to eating.

"What about you April?" Rory asked.

"It's great. I love my classes at the moment. Especially Biology. It's really quiet interesting. Although, English will forever and always be my favorite."

"It was my favorite too. I remember every day I always read a new book." Rory smiled.

"Yeah! That's exactly how I am. I usually go to Dad's diner everyday after school and I read there. It's so relaxing." April said.

"At the table by the window over looking the Gazebo right?" Rory asked.

"Yeah!" April smiled.

"I remember Rory was a book nerd. She'd sit there with books surrounding her." Lorelai told April proudly.

"Every Saturday." Sookie smiled thinking back.

"Well, Luke always gave me free pie." Rory shrugged.

Luke smiled at her.

"You gave her free pie!" Lorelai asked astonished.

"Yes." Luke said in a duh tone. "She had the Rory face."

"I had the Lorelai face!" Lorelai said pouting. "You never gave me free pie. Not even when we were engaged."

"Yeah but you were annoying."

"I was not!" Lorelai argued.

"You were too!" Luke teased.

"You were mom. You called him Duke for two years."

"Why'd you call him Duke?" Chris asked suddenly interested.

"See, Mom always had this thing for him, and that was her way of teasing him…"Rory trailed off obviously seeing her father stiffen.

Lorelai looked down. It was really quiet, and everyone stopped talking.

Lorelai bursted out laughing.

"What?" Chris asked.

"Nothing. I just remembered something really funny." Lorelai laughed.

"What?" Rory asked obviously wanting to know.

"Breast." Laughs. "Feeding." Lorelai said covering her face as she laughed hysterically.

Rory began to choke on her drink. "Oh. My. Gosh. I totally forgot about that!" Rory bursted out laughing.

"Ah Jeez." Luke muttered.

"What?" April asked slightly amused.

"Your dad." Lorelai said trying to calm down. "Okay… When we were at the diner one morning there was a group of families and the mothers were breastfeeding their kids, and your father went into a full on rant about it. It was so funny. Then, he admitted that he was afraid of female parts." Lorelai laughed.

"I did not."

"You did too," Lorelai told him.

"Then Jess came down and freaked out too." Rory told her.

April bursted out laughing as well as Jackson.

"I remember you telling me about this Lorelai!" Sookie said nudging Luke a bit.

"Can we stop talking about this?" Luke asked.

Chris laughed. "You were afraid of female parts?"

"I didn't see it right that they were all open and exposed in a public place." Luke told him firmly.

"You obviously aren't a daddy person. When Gigi was born, I got used to that. Maybe that's why April's mom didn't tell you about her." Chris said taking a gulp of his beer.

Luke clenched his beer. "Actually, it has nothing to do with that. I just don't see how a husband can let their wife be exposed to the public. But then again, I'm not a husband. I couldn't know." Luke hissed quietly.

"You're right you wouldn't. I do." Chris smirked. "But, being a husband, I wouldn't mind, because it would be the sake for my child."

"Like you ever cared about your child." Luke muttered.

"What was that?" Chris asked getting up.

"Come on, you're acting like you are father of the year or something. You left your own daughter!" Luke told him.

"That is none of your business!" Chris yelled.

"Actually it is some of my business, because I was there to pick up the pieces. You, on the other hand, have no right to talk about April!" Luke yelled.

"Guys!" Lorelai says standing up. "Stop!"

"Yeah, is this going to be a recap of Christmas?" Jackson asked

"WHAT EXACTLY HAPPENED ON CHRISTMAS?" Lorelai yelled.

"Ask Luke!" Chris told her stiffly. "You know what Lorelai, I can not take being the second. I'm done."

"Chris." Lorelai whispered, as he got up from the table. She quickly got up and ran to the other side.

"Let go." He told her as she held on to his hands.

"Chris. Please. Don't." She frowned.

"Come on Gigi." He said trying to pick her up.

"Chris. Please." Lorelai said tears streaming down her face.

"Lorelai stop. He loves you and you obviously still love him."

"Chris! I love you! I married you." Lorelai pleaded.

"Stop trying to convince your self that. Stop fighting it Lore." Chris said walking away from her.

"What? So you're walking away again? AGAIN Chris?" Lorelai yelled. He turned around.

"I am not leaving. You were never here from the start. You were always in love with him! I've been asking you to marry me for over 20 years! I still feel like I am asking!" Chris yelled.

"I'm here! You're not asking!" Lorelai begged.

Chris shook his head and walked out

Lorelai stood there with her head hung.

"Mom…" Rory trailed off as she came up behind her and put a hand on her shoulder.

Lorelai quickly brushed it off and went back to the table.

"Lets finish the meal that Luke made for us." Lorelai muttered stressing Luke's name as she sat down and wiped her tears.

"Lorelai…" Luke started.

"I'm okay." She said looking up and putting a fake smile on. Everyone nodded and quietly ate their lasagna.

They sat like that for a little bit until Lorelai couldn't take it anymore. She pulled her hands to her face and cried.

TBC….

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