He couldn't sleep; no matter how hard he tried he couldn't get to sleep. All he could think about was yesterday and when Kate told him he was a father. He sighed deeply staring up and the plain white ceiling wondering how he had got into his situation. After lying there for another hour he pulled himself from his bed deciding that if he couldn't sleep he needed something that would wake him up, so he headed down stairs for a tea. As he walked down the stairs he tried to be quite knowing better than to wake his Nan, she was already angry at him he knew better than to make the situation even worse. Flicking on the kettle Jay sighed at the sight of the water boiling before leaning his head on the side and closing his eyes.

'Jamshid, why are you up at three in the morning?' Jay's head rose as his Nan's soft voice entered his ears.

'Nan...I was just...Umm.' He stuttered over his words unsure what to say.

'Jamshid sit down, I think we need to talk.' The small lady entered the kitchen and sat down on the seat at the table.

He paused for a while wondering whether he could deal with his conversation right now, but he knew he was going to have to talk soon. So he nodded in agreement before turning back to the kettle and pouring himself and his Nan a tea.

'There you go.' Jay said placing a mug in front of his Nan and joining her at the table on the seat opposite her.

As he looked at her he couldn't help but see the disappointment in her eyes, she had always been there for him brought him up taught him right from wrong and look at him now. She always helped him through things. He remembered when she had given him advice about how to get Ruth to trust him, she was right then, maybe she would help him with this as well.

'What do I do?' Jay spoke suddenly taking his Nan by surprise.

'What do you want to do?' her accent made Jay smile; she always knew how to lighten the mood.

'I don't know its all come at me too fast.' Jay mumbled as tears came to his eyes.

'Oh Jamshid, come here.' Tears began to fall from his eyes and he felt her arms wrapping around his body.

After a few minutes from crying into her dress gown Jay's head rose and he dried his eyes ready to start talking again.

'It was a mistake, we met a club. I was so drunk I didn't think about anything. I never expected this.' She bowed her head at him. She knew that he was hurting but she also knew that he had to take responsibility, he had a son now.

'You need to be there for him, make up for lost time.' She smiled sadly.

'I know it's just a shock one minute I'm Jay Faldren in a relationship having fun but now I have a kid with a women I only met once.' He puffed out his cheeks.

'I know its hard now but you have a chance to turn it around...Not be like your father.' The thought of his father made Jay shudder and then he knew that he had to be there for his son as his father had never been there for him.

'I need to see him.' Jay said bring a grin to his Nan's face.

'Jamshid I'm so proud of you, you're a better man than your father could ever be.' His Nan said bring a tear to his eye.

'Thanks Nan. Now I need to tell...' He trailed off knowing that he had to tell Ruth soon before someone else got the chance.

'She will understand Jamshid; she seems like a girl that will stand by you.' She said honestly as Jay stood up.

'I hope so.' Jay said before leaving the room and heading back upstairs.

Nervous.

That was one word to describe how he felt right now, as he walked down the roads to Kate's house. His Nan had given him the address earlier that morning and told him to go around, at first he felt like running but he knew he would be a coward and right now he needed to stand up and be a man. Then he walked to the turning of their road and every emotion possible hit him. What if he hated him? What if she wanted them to be a family? He couldn't leave Ruth...He wouldn't leave Ruth. He decided all these questions needed answers so he continued down the road until he reached their house; he took a deep breath in and took the last few steps before he reached the house.

'Jay!' Just as he went to knock the door swung open and Kate stood on the other side.

'Hey. I thought...' He paused unsure at what to say.

'Come in Nathan's through here.' She walked through and Jay followed her, feeling like his heart was in his mouth. As he entered the living room he saw Nathan sitting in the corner watching the television, Jay really didn't know what to say it felt so awkward.

'Nathan come and say hello.' Kate's voice interrupted Jay's thoughts as jay stood awkwardly by the door. Nathan got up and walked towards Jay looking slightly worried about the man stood next to his mother.

'Hey.' Jay smiled at the young boy as he spoke.

'Hey mate.' Jay gave the young boy a wink. Then a silence fell all three of them wondering what to say next.

'Do you want to play fifa?' Jay's thought were interrupted by Nathan handing him an x-box controller. He smiled at him and took it pleased that he didn't hate him. After an hour and losing three of the games Jay announced that he needed to get off.

'I better get going.' Jay stood up and ruffled the boys hair as he moved towards Kate

'Yeah, I need to get this little man in the bath.' She grinned at Nathan.

'Well maybe I could take him out one day. Get to know him.' Jay said quietly to make sure Nathan didn't hear.

'Yeah, that would be nice...You could stay if you wanted teas ready, I'm sure we have enough.' Kate bit her lip, and jay looked away from her. He wanted to spend time with Nathan but he really needed to see Ruth.

'Umm...I'm supposed to be at my girlfriends tonight, but maybe another night.' Jay said hopefully, knowing he could have blown his chance.

'Sure, another night.' Jay relaxed; he thought his chance could have gone.

'Well...I better...' he gestured to the door and Kate bowed her head. As he left the house he felt like a weight had been lifted from his shoulder and he could breathe again.

All he had to do now was tell Ruth.