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Chapter 4: The Old Days
He'd cleaned, surfed, showered, gone grocery shopping, and even re-arranged some furniture but it was only one in the afternoon. Kensi wouldn't be back for at least another five to six hours. He missed her. Missed how her smile put away all the unease he felt. Missed her touch, the caress of her lips. Missed bantering with her on the job. Missed everything about her. A thought popped into Deeks' head and he grinned. He grabbed his keys and wallet and took off.
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"You are never getting me lunch again G. That was gross."
"Hey, Chuck makes the best Peanut Butter Cheese sandwiches. " Callen said defending the honor of Chuck's food truck.
"Yeah and they were gross. God I could go for a burrito." Kensi said longingly. They'd only had enough time to stop for fast food on the way back from an interrogation at the boat shed.
"Somebody call for Mexican?" Deeks asked with a grin as he strolled into the bull pen of OSP.
Kensi looked in utter shock as she saw him walk in looking significantly better than the previous night and morning.
"Hey. If it isn't our long lost liaison." Callen said with a welcoming grin.
"How was the dentist appointment?" Sam asked playfully.
Deeks froze and Kensi wanted to slap Sam but didn't say anything. Deeks could handle himself.
"Too soon Sam." Deeks said knowing the man had good intentions.
"Sorry buddy. How ya been? We haven't heard or seen you in weeks." Sam asked concerned.
"Yeah, you've been a ghost." Callen added.
"Been better honestly. Figured coming and being around you guys might help." Deeks said sincerely with a shrug of his shoulders glancing ever so subtlety at Kensi.
"Hey if you brought some real food, feel free to stay as long as you want." Kensi decided to speak up with a smile.
"Yeah. I'm starving for some real food. G tried to poison us." Sam said.
"Oh come on guys. Leave Carlos alone." G whined.
Deeks laughed and took out all the food in the bags handing it of to each respective person.
"Oh, you're a saint." Kensi said in relief as she took the first bite of her burrito. Deeks grinned as she ate and sat down at his desk to eat his own nachos.
"So when are you coming back?" Sam asked.
"I hope soon. I can't stand being at home all day by myself with nothing to do."
"That sounds like torture." Callen joked.
"Yeah. Being at home able to relax and not having to worry. Getting to watch TV and surf all day. Horrible." Sam grinned.
"Yeah yeah, laugh it up. " Deeks said with a shake of his head.
"Come on man, lighten up. You gotta laugh." Sam said with a smile slapping Deeks' shoulder.
"I'll try." Deeks replied non-committedly with a smile. He didn't want the guys to know about the nightmares and give them something to hold over him. He didn't want them to think he was less of a man because he had nightmares.
"Mr. Deeks. This is a surprise." Hetty said sounding not at all surprised.
"Hetty. Yeah, just figured I'd uh stop by, you know. Bring some food. I knew Kensi would definitely be hungry. My partner here never stops eating." Deeks said with a grin.
"Sam, will you punch him for me." Kensi requested with a faux sweet smile on her face.
Sam slugged him in the shoulder and Deeks laughed. "Oh come on Fern, don't even try to deny it." Deeks grinned with a subtle tone of affection.
"Well feel free to stay as long as you like." Hetty said beginning to walk away. Deeks shot up chasing after Hetty.
"Hetty wait." Deeks called after her. He jogged up to her until he reached her desk.
"What can I do for you Detective Deeks?" Hetty asked. Deeks got the feeling Hetty knew what he was going to ask but did so anyways.
"Um I was just wondering when I can come back to work." Deeks said nervously.
"Are you ready to come back to work?" Hetty asked.
"Yeah. Anything beats sitting at home all day." He answered.
"And the nightmares?"
Deeks swallowed. "Barely had them at all last night."
"That's good to hear. Well, as soon as Nate clears you for duty you can return back to work." Hetty spoke knowing he was hiding something from her.
"Thank you Hetty." Deeks said. Hetty nodded and picked up her tea cup. When he was still standing there after she lowered her cup, she looked at him expectantly. "You're dismissed now Mr. Deeks."
"Oh. Right." Deeks stepped down and retreated back to the bull pen.
"Did someone get in trouble with mommy?" Kensi teased with a grin. Sam and Callen had similar looks of amusement.
"Very funny." Deeks said.
"Did you forget how to shave Deeks? You're starting to look a little shaggy there." Sam joked.
"If it gets any longer we might not be able to tell you and Monty apart." Callen said with a teasing grin.
"Come on guys. Give me a break. I brought you food for Pete's sake."
"I don't see any Pete around. Do you G?" Sam asked continuing to rile up Deeks.
Despite all the teasing and pulling his leg Deeks was enjoying it. It was just like old times. Something Deeks wanted back.
"Yeah yeah. Okay. Laugh it up guys."
"You're too easy Deeks." Sam said with a laugh. There were common smiles all around.
"Why don't you ever pick on Kensi?" Deeks complained.
"Uh oh. He's pouting. G I think he's pouting."
"I'm not pouting." Deeks defended.
"He's definetely pouting." G agreed.
"What?! Guys I'm not pouting!" Deeks cried.
"Watch. Next he's going to try and call Hetty, try and get mommy to save him." Sam continued egging everyone on.
"Seriously guys, I wasn't pouting!"
"Now he's angry Sam. Watch out. We don't want him to Hulk up." Callen teased.
"Really? We're going there now?" Deeks asked incredulously.
"Alright guys, cut him some slack. Deeks has no way to defend himself."
Kensi intervened with a grin on her face. Deeks had suffered enough. Plus he had come to see her. Even if he hadn't said it directly, he had still said it. She knew him well enough to know that. The subtle tone and looks were her tip offs.
"You're lucky Kensi stepped in." Callen said disappointed that his fun had been taken away.
"Come on G, we need to go check with Eric and see if he and Nell have got any leads." Sam suggested knowing Deeks had come for some face time with Kensi and not them.
"Thanks for the food Deeks." Callen said patting Deeks on the back.
"Yeah man. It was good to see you. And thank you again for what you did." Sam nodded showing Deeks he truly did respect him.
Deeks waited until they were gone before moving closer to Kensi.
"So, why are you here really?" Kensi asked already knowing the answer.
"I wanted to see you. I tried keeping myself busy but I ran out of things to do and I knew being by you would help." Deeks spoke with a heavy atmosphere about him. "Kensi, this PTSD is kicking my ass. You're the only thing that has helped."
"I would kiss you right now if we weren't being watched on camera by everyone in Ops." Kensi said looking up to the camera.
"How do you know they're watching us?" Deeks asked curiously.
"Because I know, Deeks. Woman's intuition." Kensi said as if it was obvious. He shook his head and grinned holding back his comment.
"Are there any rooms without a camera?" Deeks inquired.
"Locker rooms, bathrooms, and incinerator."
"None are really ideal." Deeks hesitantly said scratching at his growing beard.
"Do you want to be alone or not?" Kensi asked.
"Fine. Incinerator. Less awkward should we get caught." He relented.
They got up and made their way into the camera less room.
As soon as the door was shut, his lips were on hers. She pulled away almost instantly.
"Deeks!" She hissed in a whispered tone. "We're at work." She reprimanded.
"Kensi, I've been going crazy. Just indulge me for a minute, please. Then I'll leave."
She gave in and allowed him to kiss her. Just when she thought he was going to pull away he deepened the kiss and she got sucked in. He was simply intoxicating. Everything about him lured her in. It was when the need for air was greater than their need that they both pulled away nearly panting.
"God that's dangerous. Now I have to watch out when you kiss me. It's intoxicating." Kensi spoke breathlessly.
"I can't help it. You draw me in and make me crazy." He defended still trying to provide his lungs with oxygen.
"Never again. Understood? We can't ever do that again here." Kensi said setting up the boundary she knew they would need as their relationship progressed even more.
Deeks nodded not putting up a fight.
"Oh what the hell, one for the road." She reasoned and attacked his lips wanting more of that taste that drove her to the brink of insanity.
Deeks happily complied with her request and never wanted to separate from her.
"Alright. I have to get back to work. And you... just need to leave before I attack you in front of Sam and Callen."
Deeks grinned an nodded. "Alright Sunshine. Try and come over early today."
"Deeks, you're going to have to face those nightmares." She said softly knowing that running away wasn't going to do anything but prolong the inevitable.
"But I don't want to without you there to face them with me. " He said with a look that Kensi read as desperation.
"I'll be over as soon a I can. I promise." Kensi said placing a chaste kiss on his lips.
She left the incinerator room first and Deeks followed a minute later and went out to where his car was parked without running into anyone.
As he got in the car he sat in the driver seat for a minute and let out a sigh. Already he could feel a dark presence without her and he hated it.
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