Rating: M

Pairing: Bonnie/ Kai

Song: Sunny Came Home by Shawn Colvin

Background: Bonnie comes home with good news, but Kai isn't in the mood for good news. He is reeling from an earlier encounter and just wants to be left alone or is that really the case? Kai wants Bonnie's support, but doesn't know how to ask for it. Will communication break them apart or bring them together? Think if this as a part two to "Catch Me, I'm Falling"

AN: This kind of just came to me, I was trying to figure out how to/ if I should add it into the story or if it would be redundant, originally I had wanted to do a bunch of song inspired drabbles, but I feel the desire to just kind of turn this into a story instead. Anyway, thanks for the reviews! I really appreciate hearing from you guys even if it's just a quick about what you liked or what could be better. I'm sorry for all the typos, I need to do a better job editing, that's my bad. Without further ado...

When Bonnie got home she was eager to share with Kai all that had happened at her coven meeting. She had told Lucy to get the word out, but she couldn't have imagined such a positive response! She was expecting maybe five, eight, even ten people IF she was lucky, when 40 people showed up she was elated. She was in such a good mood she took her time shedding her jacket and settling into the feel of being home. She was so focused on sharing her good news it took her a few moments to notice something was off about the place...The lights were off? And his aura felt...muted?

"Kai?" She called out, was he alright? It was strange for him to be sitting alone in the dark. Even when he was tired he usually tried to wait up for her or at least leave the light on for her. "Hello? Kai, I'm back, are you here?" A stupid question, of course he was home she could feel him no matter how faint. Was he watching a movie? She didn't hear any noise from the living room, maybe he had headphones in. As she approached the kitchen and turned on the light she found him sitting at the bar, how strange. "I know vampires are supposed to like being spooky, but sitting in the dark like this is a little much don't you think? Very Nosferatu" she thought that would get her a laugh, a scoff, even a smirk, something instead of whatever he was doing. "Kai, is everything alright? You know if you lost your daylight ring it only matters in sunlight, halogen bulbs don't count"

Nothing, no response.

"Okay seriously Kai, what's up? I've been back 10 minutes, I find you here in the dark and you won't say a word to me, please did something happen?"

It felt like minutes passed before he responded "I suspect everything went well with Lucy today? How was the turnout?"

Ahhh, avoidance. Not her favorite quirk of his, but not his worst. In the past she let him come to her on his own time, usually it was some minor annoyance. The coven was being demanding, he needed help dealing with a situation, not anything catastrophic. This time she got the sense something deeper was going on, Kai liked to pretend he was an enigma, but she knew him too well, this time was different. "Kai? Please talk to me, tell me what's wrong?"

She was so sincere his chest hurt. He had the overwhelming need to clutch at it, but he resisted. He'd been sitting there for hours before she returned, time had escaped him, but now she was back and she wanted to know why he was so brooding. Had he been hanging out with Stefan? He meant to get up and go to bed long ago, he should have ported up to their bed the minute he heard her key in the lock, or her footsteps in the foyer, or her voice in the hall, but he couldn't move. He felt attached to the seat, try as he might he just couldn't life his feet. She was concerned about him now, she watched as he sat. He couldn't blame her, she'd unintentionally caught him having a Depression Session™ and he didn't know how she'd react. He thought maybe if he shifted focus, asked about her she would take the bait. It didn't work, his lover was clever. She knew him better than he gave her credit for, damn it.

"who? Me? Oh I'm fine, nothing wrong here..."

"Oh, so I suppose there's no reason you're ignoring me then?" He looked at her as if to prove he wasn't ignoring her "look Bonnie I'm really tired and if all you want to do is ask me ridiculous questions I'm going to go to bed."

She crossed her arms over her chest then shrugged "I don't want to ask you ridiculous questions, I was actually excited to share with you some good news, but you don't seem too keen on listening, I'm just trying to figure out why, what gives?" He didn't want to get into this so she tried to deflect "Well I'm sorry I don't care about your little story, Bonnie I didn't realize that was a crime."

Why was he doing this, all he had to do was say he was tired, get up, and go to bed. He could have just bs'd a story about having a long day, why was he being so mean?

She clenched her jaw in response "so go to bed then, you're just sitting here like some weirdo freak not speaking or anything" as soon as the words left her mouth she wished she chose a different word, but it was too late, she could practically see the word freak ringing in his ears. "Well this weirdo freak was trying to mind his own business is his own home. Who cares if the lights are out? I pay the electric bill, maybe I want to be more frugal, ever think of that?" His calm voice belied the hurt he felt and it unnerved her.

"What is wrong with you? Why are you acting like this?"

"Acting like what?" He said casually.

"Like you don't care, like you can't be bothered, like we aren't in the middle of an argument"

"Im not in the middle of an argument, arguing is what you're doing, you're in the middle of an argument...I'm just sitting here"

"Exactly, just sitting there, whether or not you choose to acknowledge it or not this IS an argument and it is between US"

He continued to sit silently, seemingly unfazed by her pacing. She was fixedly staring at him, while he stared at the clock on the wall "What's so concerning about the clock? We've been sitting here for 20 mins and we can sit here for the rest of the night, but we are going to talk." She was only met with his vacant stare.

"Seriously what is your damage?"

"I told you nothing is wrong! Can't you just drop it? Geez maybe I just want to enjoy some time to myself and be left the hell alone!" He slammed his fist on the counter and a glass shattered. Bonnie barely flinched before she responded firmly "There it is! I knew you could speak!"

That was all it took to get him started "What the hell do you want to know, Bonnie? What do you want me to say? You want me to tell you I'm sorry? Listen to your story about your day? Hold your damn hand? Well I don't fucking feel like it! I don't want to fucking talk! Is that alright? Is that okay with you? Should I have checked in first? Do I have your god damn permission to sit here?!"

"You can do whatever you want, Kai I just want to know why" now she was the one to speak with an eerie calm.

He stood up now "you're not getting it! I. DONT. WANT. TO. TALK. How is that a difficult concept to grasp?!" As he yelled the cabinets fell off the hinges and plates broke into pieces, he wanted the room to be as chaotic as he felt. Bonnie didn't understand, she couldn't. He was a bad person, he'd been at the junk yard smashing shit all day and it was no good. Half way through the guard had caught him and before he could think he launched the man clear across the yard, shot him almost 50 feet. Kai was mortified and instantly knew he'd messed up, he rushed over to the man who had quite miraculously landed on an old mattress, but was unconscious. He muttered a few healing spells to correct whatever had been done then compelled him to forget he'd even seen him there. After that he came back and sat. How could he tell her? She'd want to know why he was even there in the first place, what could he say? 'Well I wanna hurt you, but that's bad so I have to go smash old cars instead' that wasn't realistic. He had hurt someone, what would she say? She'd probably have rather he hurt her than some old junk man, that was how she was, selfless to a fault. He knew he had to make her leave, this couldn't continue. Suddenly his gaze turned sinister, his next words were calculated and aimed to sting "You ever think the problem is you? Maybe you are the one I don't want to talk to? Maybe I can't share myself with you because you're always such a judgmental person." He knew she hated being called judgemental, he reminded himself to thank Damon for that. "Maybe this is your fault because of your character flaws."

She took a step back, he was happy and scared, maybe she'd keep walking. Walk all the way down the hall, to the front door then out, leave without turning back. He thought it was what he wanted. He was surprised when she laughed "You know if you wanted to hurt me you could just use magic or better yet go ahead and hit me, y'know really get your hands dirty. Isn't that what you want Kai? Why you're saying this? To hurt me? To be plain I'd rather you twisted my arm or smacked me, this is honestly beneath you. The mind games are no good." What was wrong with her? She she was SUPPOSED to be running, yelling, anything, not this.

"Get. Out." This was his last ditch effort, if she wouldn't take hints and subtlety he'd be direct. He got up, if she wanted to see what he could do he'd show her. He stood perfectly straight and stared at her, she glared back just as hard. He was silent, but the house was filled with violent noise. The lights blew out, dishes flew and landed making contact with the wall, cabinets and shelves broke, food flew in every direction but she never broke eye contact. "GET. OUT!" The pitch of his magic rose higher and higher into a frantic whine until he thought his ears would bleed, still she stared at him seemingly bored of his tantrum. He was screaming now, but it didn't make any difference. He broke the windows and slammed every door until all that could be heard was a horrific cacophony of pure chaos. His voice was drowning in the may lay; suddenly he let it stop, things dropped in mid air, they crashed to the debris on the floor and then there was silence. "Why are you still here?" He was shaking, whether it was pure fury or something else he didn't know, he stalked towards her like a predator but she remained seated, looking bored by all of it. He rose his voice and asked her again "Well?!" He was aflame, so wired that every nerve in his body was brimming, his body threatened to tear in two. All of him wanted her to leave and all of him needed her to stay. His question still rang through the air his voice reverberated through the walls and threatened to send off another shock wave of destruction.

She stared at him intently, it was as though she saw straight through him, her stare threatened to break him and as the next words left her lips he knew he was shattering.

She simply shrugged "Because, Kai. I trust you"

No malice, no anger, just truth. Kai felt lower than dirt, like he was in hell. He couldn't believe nor understand Bonnie. He'd just treated her like shit, ignored her when she tried to reach him and gave her the hardest time just for wanting to speak to him. For genuinely caring. What was wrong with him? He treated Bonnie horribly and then at the height of his anger, when he was behaving like some petulant child, being a monster, destroying things because he hadn't gotten his way she undid him. She didn't even need to raise her voice or stoop to his level, she just was honest with him. He didn't deserve her, truly he didn't. Here he was abusing her and she responded with love. She trusted him. Why? How? Didn't she know him? Couldn't she see? He tried so hard to show her, make her see he wasn't worth it, that she was better off without him. That's what this whole tirade had been about, he needed to scare her off, make her leave. It was only a matter of time, he wanted to stop delaying the inevitable and make that decision for her. It had backfired though, she had watched his mighty attempt and was unfazed.

Worse yet she didn't care, she reached into his core and spoke his truth, he wouldn't hurt her. He knew it, she knew it and he knew she knew it. "You think you're with an obtuse idiot? You think I don't see? I know how you are Kai, it doesn't matter to me. You want to know the truth? Your truth since your so hellbent on hiding it? You won't hurt me, you never will intentionally. Not again. You don't even really want to, you just THINK you do, you just don't want me to reject you, you think I'll leave so you want me to do it on your terms, but look at me, I'm here." she gestured to her body rooted to the floo. "If you wanted to hurt me you would, you're no stranger to causing me pain." He winced at that, she was right, it still stung "newsflash, Kai you've fucking stabbed me, choked me, left me for dead, you tied me up and left me in the trunk of a car while you drove across the country, you abandoned me at my lowest point and that's only what I can remember right now. So if you wanted to hurt me you'd do it. If you wanted to kill me I'd be dead. The old Kai, the Kai you think you are would have killed me long ago. We'd never have gotten here. If this was about anything other than scaring me off you would have aimed that spell at my head and thrown me into the wall, broken my neck, then stepped over my body and gone to bed. You didn't. That isn't the man I'm looking at. That isn't who you are, it's who you were. Im past it, I've dealt with it and guess what? Im over it. I was over it that day at the book store, I'm over it now and I still will be 20 years from now. So no, I'm not leaving. Do what you want; yell, break shit, scream, destroy this damn building, it doesn't matter, you want help? I'll destroy it with you. I'll help you tear this damn place to the ground and we can dance in the flames then fuck in the ashes, just let me know what you want, let me know when you're through. I'll wait right here." She sat back on her chair and crossed her legs.

He broke then, he supposed he had to, needed to rebirth himself and make way for this crucial shift in their relationship. He couldn't describe his pain, his gratitude; he felt such an amazing catharsis he was sure he would burst, he had never felt such a range of emotion, it was as frightening as it was beautiful. He could barely speak.

"You..you love me" it wasn't a question.

"I do, Kai"

"You...trust me" he walked forward still not looking at her, she matched his step

"I do, Kai"

"I...I love you so much, Bonnie, I'm sorry, I- I'm so sorry" finally his eyes fell upon her, his voice cracked and he let out a wail as he fell to his knees grabbing for her waist. She stepped forward into his arms to let the side of his face fall against her thighs, she soothingly rubbed his back and ran her fingers through his hair. She kissed the top of his head and let him hug her tightly pressing his face into her warmth as he shook.

Closing her eyes she felt tears of her own.

"I know, Kai"