Chapter 4

Turning, sweat coming into her forehead, she wanted to scream but she can't all she can do was to begged not to leave her. Please Castle, I love you don't leave me. Please, Please….. and her eyes snapped open then groaned when she heard the noise that coming from her phone. Agh… trying to shake the dream she had, a dream that she wish will stay as a dream then reached her phone.

"Beckett." She answered

"Yo, its Esposito. We have a body." He said

"Okay, give me 10 minutes then I'm coming just text me the address." She tell Espo.

"Rough night huh." Espo assumed

"Not really. Anyway I have to go so I can come as fast as I could. Bye" She said hurriedly sighing and putting her both hands palming her face then groaned. Then she can't take it anymore. She cried, then her shoulder shaking, sobbing like she's going to break. She can't believe that this is happening to her. This is her fault if only she had just listened to him. All the hard work that she put on the FBI operation, the sacrifice she made are all for nothing because until now Sen. William Bracken is still in the position.

And worst part of all that when she came back to the Loft even if he tells her not to come back. She promised that she will come back and she came back and he was gone. She try to call his cellphone but it always going thru to his voicemail. And it doesn't help that she had this dream when Castle doesn't accept her anymore. For almost 3 months that she'd been away from him, it killed her, she longed for him. And now here she is in her apartment alone, she can't stay in the Loft because living there will only reminds of what stupid she did to throw all away that they've started to build.

She tried to call his agent Paula but she doesn't know where he goes after the 1 month tour. She tried to call Martha but she doesn't know also where he went. And Alexis she hesitated at first but she has to. Alexis said that Castle goes to a certain Island with a friend. She asked Alexis if she has a number that she can contact Castle but she said that Rick was the one who is calling its like a burner phone. Feels like that the world showing her what a stupid she'd made for not choosing him.

She get up then dressed she had to go to work for her to forget the heart ache she is feeling right now. When the times that Rick Castle comeback she will do anything to make this right. They will get married like they plan to. And she will not back down even if she is the one who will chase this time. She had to because they were meant to be… like they always do. Always.

A/N: it's very short I have to check my English.