After Jacob left me kneeling in the middle of my driveway, I completely isolated myself

After Jacob left me kneeling in the middle of my driveway, I completely isolated myself. I wanted to leave this dreadful place they called Forks and all those who live in or near it. But to sell the house later I had to stay, though how they would know if I did leave I wasn't siren. I don't know why I felt so attached to Jacob Black after only two days with him. Was it that smile or the rippling pecks that drew me to him? It didn't matter now he was gone and I'd never see him again, never hear him laugh or feel the need to laugh with him.

The next few days I spent moping as I had the first, wondering around in my pajamas, (tang top with one strap and shorts with holes) with a blanket wrapped around my shoulders. I spent most of my time sitting on the couch staring at the empty fire place, thinking of the many garbage can fires I'd sat around back home in New York. Right now I'd be pick-pocketing some stupid tourist to get some cash and hopefully buy some actual food instead of rummaging around. I'm not sure which is worse, my life there or here. Sad to think that, now I have a home, food and good cloths but I miss sleeping on the concert of the Streets; at least there I knew my place as a street dog. A nock at the door broke my train of thought. I didn't answer only flinched with each pounding of the wood. I didn't want to see anyone; I was stupid to see Jacob in the first place. It would have only lead to this as it always did; no one wanted to be friends with a street dog. The banging continued until I heard it rebounding in my skull. Fine you asshole, I'll answer the door. I thought with malcontent,

"What the hell…do…you…want!" I cursed throwing open the door, at first I didn't realize who I was cursing at, "When someone doesn't answer the first twenty nocks they don't want to see anyone, so go away!" I slammed the door in who ever face was disturbing me in myself loathing.

The idiot knocked again, the hair on the back of my neck rose. As my lips drew back baring my teeth as a snarl ripped from my throat.

"What? Are you some sort of, "I looked this time to see the face I was about to bite off, the words I was about to lash out on the moron froze in my throat. The only word that would come was a name, "Jacob?"

"You're kind of cute when you're mad." Was all he said, no I'm sorry or I was being stupid for not even saying good bye just leaving me with no hope that he would come back. I didn't say anything just crossed my arms and glared at him. Trying to get across the message that he could burn in hell, because I couldn't actually say it. He cleared his throat, seemingly undeterred by my pose. "I came to apologize about our date, the restaurant was a disaster and the movie didn't go so well either. But I was hoping that maybe you'd give me another shot."

"You don't listen at all do you?" I asked but not waiting for him to answer before continuing, "I liked the restaurant and the movie was really funny. You were the problem the entire way back you accused me of not liking what I liked. Then driving off without even so much as a goodbye or I'll call you. Hell you never even asked for my phone number, but you expect me to be all peachy just because you said I'm sorry?!"

Jacob seemed to look very small for a moment, unsure on what to say. "Well, umm, ….." He looked so confused that it was almost cute, but I was still mad. Had to keep the mad look, though I so happy that he'd come back. Why I cared at all I still couldn't understand, but I wanted to huge and just forgive him so much. But I wouldn't do it, I'm not giving in! He was in the wrong! "I really don't know what to say other then I'm really, really, really sorry. And I promise I'll listen to anything you ever say again. Please just give me one more chance, please pleaseeeeeee." He looked so cute begging, I gave in.

"Fine one last shhhhooooot." Before I even finished forgiving him, he scooped me up in a bear hug to rival all bear hugs. I could barley breath he was squeezing so tight and saying something that sounded like Thank you. He set me back on my feet, where I took a deep breath. He was a red as I was, though my face was red from lack of oxygen. "Umm, sorry. I'll pick you up at nine then?" He asked I nodded still to winded to speak. He hesitated leaving for a moment, then did something that still shocks me to this day. Kissed me swiftly on the cheek, somehow I think my face got even redder as I touched the spot, watching him drive away. My poor heart hammered wildly in my chest, not even Samuel's sweet kisses ever did that, and it was only on the cheek. I almost died thinking of what would happen if he ever really kissed me, my heart might stop. For the first time in two years I smiled!

Jacob was right on time; I bounded to the door when I saw the headlights. He was surprised when I opened the door before he knocked. But he still smiled and took my hand, leading me to the car. He let go once I was inside, only to take it again when he was in the car.

"I forgot to ask earlier," I said, will I brushed my fingers over his open palm. "Where are we going?"

"We're having a bon fire tonight." He said, taking my hand so I would stop tickling his.

"We?"

"My friends, don't worry. They know you're coming," he encouraged, "nothing can go wrong this time."

"You're wrong on that," I said, he looked over a hint of panic in his eye. So I put a teasing note in my voice. "I could fall, or get stabbed by a tree or even fall in the fire. There are plenty of things that could go horribly wrong."

He chuckled, "You didn't tell me you where a klutz."

"Oh no I'm not a klutz."

"No?"
"Nope I'm a super klutz. I injure myself in a daily bases." I joked, sort of. I did tend to drop things and trip a lot when I wasn't paying attention.

"A super klutz huh, maybe I should lock you in a padded room then, where you'll be safe from yourself."

I kind of giggled, "They tried that once didn't work so well."

He parked the car then started at me. "What?" I asked, frowning my brows pulled together. He looked away,

"Nothing, it was nothing. Come on we're goona be late."

I felt like I'd missed something just then. But followed him out of the car, it was very dark out side, a mist over everything. Replacing the rains icy grip with its own, I reached back in the car for my jacket only to find in my excitement I'd forgotten it.

"Danny are you coming?" Jacob called a few yards ahead.

"Yes!" I called back jogging to his side. It wasn't to cold yet, I'd be fine for a while. I wasn't going to ruin the evening just because I had been stupid. Jacob took my hand again; it felt so warm against my skin. I wondered if I was really as warm as I thought. Jacob didn't comment about my cold touch, I left it to just it being me. The trek wasn't difficult at all, nothing compared to what we had hiked before. Around the fire where thirteen individuals; there where four females, one old and three around my age. The rest where males, most of them greeted me with smiles, two bounding forward. The first smaller, more round then the other introduced himself as Quil Ateara, the other much taller was Embry Call. Jacob explained that these where his best friends they seemed to have a close relationship. Though I felt as if Jacob was holding me by his side more then just wanting to be near me as if I was in some sort of danger. My memory seemed foggy but I couldn't help thinking that he was in more danger from me then I from him. The first girl to his right Emily Clearwater, then a younger boy Seth Clearwater. Emily's cousin and his sister Leah. Beside her was Paul who didn't look very happy. Next to him was Jared and in his lap his girlfriend Kim. There where two younger boys around thirteen or fourteen Collion and Brady, I was not told their last names. The last women I can not recall her name. They all looked to Jacob nodding, he would nod back. I couldn't help but get the feeling that he runned this group but that would be silly. The last person was in a wheel chair, Jacob walked me over to meet him.

"Hi, I'm Jacob's dad. Billy Black, it's a pleasure to meet you Danny." He said his old face turned up in a smile. I knew where Jacob had gotten his. "Is Danny short for something?"

"Dyani, is the name my mother gave me. But everyone calles me Danny." I explained without thinking.

"Dyani, that means deer doesn't it?" Billy asked sitting forward. "Do you have Native American heragite?"

"Umm, yes my father's family actually but I won't bore you with the detales. My name actually translates from a different culture into stalking wolf. I think from around here the word is Tala." I stated, feeling the eyes boring into my flesh, expechaly Jacob's.

"Yes, yes it is." He paused looking like he was calcutaling, "That's very interesting Danny I would like to hear more. Perhaps another time though." He inquired, I was ablogzed to answer with a yes to be polite.

Once Billy had turned his attention back to the fire and telling stories, Jacob leaned over and asked,

"Why didn't you tell me that before?"

"You never asked." I answered wanting to hear the story it was actually very good. About a fisherman trapped by a bear during a huge storm. Jacob kept asking me questions until I shhed him wanting to hear the story though I missed most of it. After words we roasted marsmellos, after the second one I quite. The amount all of them where eating was making me sick, even for teenagers it was a lot. I had the same feeling as before, that I knew the reason why but couldn't remember. The longer the night went on the closer Jacob got to me until I was curreled up in his lap like Kim was with Jared. My head tucked on his shoulder dosing off as Billy told another story.

I woke up to the feeling of being carried, I yawned and smacked Jacob in the face when I stretched.

"Oh, Jacob I'm sorry….why are you carring me?" I asked a little annoyed and embaressed. "Put me down." I pushed against his chest until he set me on my feet. There were chuckles behind me. I gave a quick glare before continuing the walk on my own. Jacob hussed them before loping up and snatching my hand from inside my pocket. I had been warm against Jacob but now the air was passing right through me.

"Are you cold?" He asked as we walked through the darkness. I was almost worried we'd get lost but he seemed to know the way.

"I'll be fine." With that he pulled me to a stop and shrugged off his jacket. "Won't you be cold?"
"I'll be warmer then you."

I smiled, "I don't doupt that, I swear you're running a fever or something. All of you, or I'm just freakously cold."

Pain spread across his face, I felt bad for what I'd said. I didn't think he'd take me seriously. Jacob crushed me against him. At first I was to suprized to hug him back but after a moment I latched on to his back.

"Sorry if my words upset you. I ment nothing by them. Just teasing you is all."

He sighed, then slowly realised me and tugging me through the woods once more. He was almost walking to fast, after I tripped once he slowed down. I wanted to ask where the fire was but he looked almost upset, so I didn't press him. We reached the car and he opened the door for me.

"I'll be right back I just have to talk with Seth for a moment." He informed me before disappearing into the dark. He returned a few moments later, looking calmer. I smiled at him when he got in the car. He started at me, his gaze made me bush and look away. I thought I heard him chuckle before he started the car to drive me home. I glanced at the clock on the dash, it was two in the morning. No wonder I'm so tired. The drive home seemed way to fast, we where at my house to quickly. I asked him to walk me to the door, which he did. But like the car ride it was to quick.

"Well, I guess this is good night then." I said almost sad that he was leaving not that I had the courage to ask him, to stay. My thoughts went racing again on way I would even want him in my house after only three days. It was crazy even if we didn't do anything, then that thoguht opened up a whole rang of ones that almost made me blush.

"Yeah, I guess so." He seemed as reluckten to leave as I was to let him. I had to think of a reason to have him stay longer anything. Think Danny think. What is a good reason?

"When can I see you again?"

"Tommorrow if you want." His answer left him wide open for teasing.

"Wait by tommorrow do you mean today or today's tommorrow?" I asked trying to look as confused as I was making him. He smiled,

"I guess I mean when the sun comes up."

"That's only a couple of hours from now we won't get much sleep, and you'll just have to drive back here." Whoa stop, think about where this is heading you had this converation with yourself already cons out way pros remember!? "Maybe I could meet you some where or?" don't say it, don't even think it!

"Or what?" He asked getting a little to close for me to think clearly. My head was foogy from his scent, the heat of his body close to mine, and thoose black eyes that hold you captive in their gaze. I was helpless I had no choic but to answer.

"Or you could hang here until then." Why didn't you just say come crawl in my bed, you slut!

"Where would I sleep?" he asked his eyes turning my brain to muss. I would be angry with myself when I got away.

"Where ever you like." No! Stop it, shut that hole in you face before you say something really, really stupid.

"How about your couch can I sleep there?" he was being a gentleman, thank god if he had said bed I probably would have said yes.

"Sure."

"Ok then, how about we go inside then, you must be cold."

He opened the door, turning away and breaking the spell he had on me to make me say he could stay. If he ever finds out he can do that to me I'm screwed more then I am now. In the end he slept on the couch like he promised leaving me to lie awake safe in my own bed with only a wall between us. I still had his jakect on over my pajamas, that didn't really help me stay calm. It was a very long night, though eventaully I must have fallen asleep.