ALICE IN THE BEGINNING

Jasper

I woke up the next morning with a slight headache but I was no longer dizzy or feverish. Liam was still here but despite him telling me that he didn't sleep, that he didn't know how, he looked tired. He had dark, bruise like circles under his eyes that were hardly visible yesterday and his usually bright red eyes were now a dull shade of orangy brown. He also looked like he was in pain. His face was stiff and he didn't seem to be breathing. In all truth he looked ill. He looked at me and smiled. "Good morningbeautiful", He said sweetly. "Are you all right, you look a little sick or tired, what happened to your eyes?", I asked, concerned. "I'm fine" he told me, "My eyes change colour occasionally because of the florescence." I decided not to mention the bruises. "I'll have to go out for a while later to eat, would you like somethingto eat , an apple or a sandwich or something" he offered. "Sure, I'll have an apple"I told him and he smiled. "Great" He said and he actually sounded like he meant it. I so did not understand why he cared so much about me!

We sat on my bed talking . Liam held my hands while we talked but his eyes were turning noticeably darker as were the bruises underneath them and he still looked like he was holding his breath. I was talking to him about my old family when suddenly I found myself in a vision . I was looking at the mystery blond man as always but this time he was not alone as he usually was. He was talking to a dark haired woman who was almost as beautiful as he was and I could hear what they were saying. His voice was smooth and jazz like with a Texas accent and I loved it just like I loved everything else about him. He was saying "Maria, I can't do this anymore. It feels so wrong. You don't know how bad it makes me feel. I feel how scared they are of-of me. I'm a monster, I'm a murderous monster and I hate it". Maria placed her arms around his neck and pulled him towards her, going in for a kiss, but to my delight he pulled away. He looked so sad and depressed that I felt like crying just looking at him. I loved him so much it hurt. I wanted to be there with him, comforting him. I knew he didn't want to be there, wherever there was. I also couldn't find it in me to be scared of him despite him implying that he was a murderer, I loved him too much to care and he obviously didn't want to be doing it, it was as if he didn't have a choice. "Jasper, honey, what's wrong with you today, you're usually so happy whenever you're with me, it's like something died", She said, evidently still annoyed that he refused to kiss her. "Happy? when am I ever happy? I'm always down and f***ing depressed. And in case you have failed to notice, nearly everyone who comes in here dies after a year or so. And on top of all that I can't even see the sunlight. And in case you have forgotten all the above are all your fault", He sounded angry but Maria showed no fear. "Jasper, honey" she began again "You don't really feel that way". "Yes, I really do, my life is a violent, pointless mess." he told her.

"Alice, Alice, Oh sweet Alice, please Alice, please come back to me, Mary Alice Brandon, please just please do something other than cry, what's wrong?" Liam was desperately trying to wake me, he didn't know what was wrong. He shook me with his cold hands. I came to eventually, to my great dissapointment. "Alice, Oh sweet Alice, I was so scared", said Liam pulling me close to him but I shrugged out of his grasp and went to sit on my bed but he sat beside me so I sat on the floor. He stayed on the bed. "What happened?" he asked. "I was having a vision, why?" I asked him, "Your crying", he told me. "I know", I told him "Why were you shaking me?" I asked. "I'm so sor" He began but I cut him off. "I didn't ask for an apology" I snapped. "Yes I know but you deserve one so i'm sorry. When you went into your vision, I didn't know what was happening at the time, but anyway, your eyes glassed over and completely lost focus." "I was focusing on something else" I interupted and he continued "you just stood there, like a statue and I panicked" he told me. "Whatever" I said annoyed for no reason. I turned my back on him and cried more than I did on my first day at the asylum.

An hour later I was still sitting in the corner and had not spoke to Liam once. He sat on the bed staringat my back (I was facing the wall). I was in bits. I felt like my heart had been torn out and Liam was keeping it in a jar. I wanted Jasper by my side so bad it hurt and worst of all, I didn't want Liam. I wanted him to leave and never come back but I knew that deep down, I couldn't live without him. I wasn't ready to talk but I turned to face him, tears still rapidly rolling down my cheeks. "I'm sorry" I said emotionlessly through muffled sobs. "It doesn't matter", he told me, letiing a smile spread across his face, "I'm just happy your still talking to me". I ran over to him and threw my arms around his waist (I couldn't reach his neck ) and sobbed into his lap. He rocked me back and fourth like a baby for hours but even through my selfish sobs I noticed the pained look on his face, he still looked like he wasn't breathing. "I love you", he whispered into my hair.

Darkness fell outside and even though the tears were only occasionally rolling down my cheeks now I was still in pieces inside. I looked into his now pitch black eyes and almost burst out crying again but I consoled myself, I wasn't going to upset Liam by crying, even though it probably wouldn't upset him . I remembered something then. "Don't you have to go and get something to eat" I asked him. "Yes but I want to stay with you too", He said, sounding torn, "Go and eat, you've been great but you deserve to eat, I'll miss you but I'll want you here with me tonight so go ahead." I persuaded. "OK, I'll get you your apple, or would you prefer something more filling", he asked me. "I don't want anything", I told him. "No, you have to eat something, you didn't eat anything yesterday and I understand that, you were suffering with information over load, but you will eat today, I told you that I wouldn't let you starve and I always make good on my promises" he told me. "I'm not eating and you cant make me" I told him stubbornly. "Fine, your right, I can't force feed you but I'll bring you something anyway " he told me and as if by magic he disappeared out the window.

I decide I'd try to have another vision of Jasper while Liam was away. I didn't know how to have visions, they usually just happened. I stared at the wall for a few minutes and then I was looking at Jasper. His beautiful face still looked depressed. His tall, musculer frame was in a bundle on the ground. He looked like he was crying yet no tears were coming out. I felt tears roll down my face but I couldn't look away. There was a knock on his door and he stood up. Maria came in and threw (literally threw) a middle aged man, who was shaking all over, at Jaspers feet. "Stop moping and do your job" She ordered Jasper. Jasper walked into the shadows so I could no longer see him but I could hear him talkingto the other man. From the corner of my eye I saw Maria making up the beginnings of a large fire. "I am truly sorry that I have to do this", Jasper told him sounding depressed. "Your goingto kill me aren't you?"asked the other man, "The other lads told me that that's what you do but I thought they were just rumors, I can't fight you Jasper but I'm begging you, don't do this" He was pleading with Jasper not to kill him! Jasper wouldn't kill him, not Jasper. I heard a scream. I screamed and fell to the floor.

"Wake up Alice, please wake up, I need you, I love you", Liam was pleading with me, I could here him pleading, I could feel his cold hand on my face but I could not bring myself to look at him. My eye lids felt to heavy. My mind had awoke from the faint as soon as I heard Liam's voice but my body was failing me, I couldn't open my eyes. I could not believe that Jasper had killed someone but what I was finding even harder to believe is that I still loved him just as much as I had before. I still yearned to see him.

Eventually my eyes flickered open. "Oh thank God" Said Liam. "I'm sorry", I muttered. "You don't need to apologise, you fainted, I'm sorry for leavin you alone. Your crying again now and it's all my fault. I shouldn't have left you, I saw the state you were in before I left." I looked up into his eyes. They were blood red again and the dark bruises were no longer visible. "Cool eyes", I said stupidly, trying to change the subject. His eyes bared so many questions and I knew he deserved some answers. "Jaspers a murderer", I told him plainly. He looked taken aback. "I'm so sorry Alice,"He said sincerely. "For what?" I asked. "Your so upset, I should have been here. Your whole life long dream shattered." He said. I felt my cheeks go red. I wasn't angry at him for making up that assumption, I was slightly embarrassed that it was false. "You still love him, don't you?" he asked. "Yes. I will always love him. I'm sorry." I told him. "I don't mind, like I said, I will always love you." He told me. "I love you too" I told him. "Forever" we said in unison. I poured my heart out to Liam and I knew that I would never let him go. I may not love him like I loved Jasper but I loved him all the same and I needed him. He was reliable and kind and I knew that he would always be there for me.

A/N: I hope your enjoying the story so far, do you think I should go on four years later in the next chapter? Do you think it's time that James comes into the story? Please review with your answers. xxx