Chapter 4
"What was that punk doing in my house?"
Kasamatsu's father glared at his son and then pushed the curtain of the small closed window next to their door aside, staring at the blonde basketball player who was walking away without looking back.
"I already told you..."
Kaijo's captain felt a deja vu moment with his father's reaction.
"And I've repeatedly told you to stay away from him! These talented ones..."
He clicked his tongue as he riveted his eyes once more on the brunette.
"This kind of people never strived for anything in their lives Yukio! I don't want you to have an influence like that around you."
His father eventually lowered his voice, but his tone sounded sinister just the same to Kasamatsu.
In the meantime, in some distance that was getting longer bit by bit, Kise was trying to ease the chaos that existed in his mind. He had just discovered that his captain loved him back, they had barely shared such a beautiful experience with each other, until his father showed up and demolished, not only the sacred moment between them, but also the easiness and serenity that Kasamatsu was feeling. For once, the brunette had made the initial step of letting go of his insecurities and fears and before he even managed to grasp the size of his freedom's wings, he was once more violently pushed below the ground, being scolded about the consequences of his letting go of the dirt under his feet.
'His father is a dick!'
Kise thought, with no regrets whatsoever and angrily pulled a flower that stood in the garden he was walking next to, pulling it out of its roots and causing its death in his hands.
"Senpai deserves more than this kind of abuse..."
He whispered to the wind and as he placed the flower into his jeans' pocket he took out his cellphone and paused for a bit in order to let his mind function faster than his legs.
'Senpai, how are you? ...Ah, if I write that he'll call me an idiot because we were just talking to each other.'
Kise sighed troubled.
'I missed you already...'
His second thought made him shake his head right away, knowing all too well that his captain's reaction wouldn't be so... well "happy" to say the least.
«I will stand by your side under any circumstances...»
The blonde nodded at the sound of that and started typing it right away.
«What we have is sort of like basketball senpai... If we don't pursue it, it won't go any further!»
He smiled proud at his clever comparison and added a few happy and excited Japanese smileys at the end.
«I'll see you tomorrow with a smile!»
He finished the message and before putting his phone back to his pocket, he pulled out the flower whose petals were still as soft as they were when it was alive.
"I will not let you wither away senpai..."
He murmured smilingly and placed the flower amongst some others that made it look out of place.
"This is where we belong."
He uttered with certainty and then moved on towards his destination.
~..~
It must have been a week since they last talked in private, and that was when they had their first intimate moment with each other. Under normal circumstances Kise would have reckoned that his captain was avoiding him for what had happened but that was far from the truth. For some peculiar reason, both boys' lives had been really hectic throughout the entire week and the only time they could truly spend together was in club activities; in other words, in passing and shooting, without having an actual conversation. The modeling agency for which Kise was working, had him fully occupied and Kaijo's captain had announced to his teammates beforehand that he'd be busy with a certain business he had with his parents, (the blonde knew it would do him no good if he asked for details) so he'd be unavailable if they wanted to hang out.
"Aah, senpai never responds to my messages..."
Kise desperately murmured after taking a fifth look at his phone. Twenty minutes had already passed since he sent his goodnight (with an excessive amount of smileys) text message to the captain and as usual, the phone wasn't willing to ring.
"Maybe he fell asleep already...?"
He whispered hopeful but then covered his head with his pillow, knowing that his wishful thinking wasn't going to get him anywhere.
Suddenly, a cheerful song echoed in Kise's ears and the latter opened his eyes with some effort. He had fallen asleep with his head under the pillow (he momently wondered how he hadn't suffocated) and as he pushed the item away, he closed his eyes tightly, the sun's bright light instantly blinding him.
"How can you even rise so fast?"
The blonde mumbled towards the sun (he wasn't really expecting of an answer) and as he pushed his messy bangs of hair away, he slowly opened his eyes and turned off the alarm on his mobile phone. He wanted to take a look at the time on his phone as well, but an announcement that was formed in a small box in front of the numbers prevented him from doing so.
«You have 1 new message
From: Senpaaaai~ =(^.^)=»
Kise had to blink a couple of times before he finally conceived what the screen was writing.
In an instant the young boy raised abruptly his body and while sitting at the bed with no concern of the time whatsoever, he reread his phone's announcement, feeling his heart's beat dancing playfully against his chest.
'N... No way...'
His mouth was numb, with result a silent thought to be followed by his finger hesitantly opening the message.
«Stop sending me the same message, at the same time, every night you idiot! What are you a robot? Rest well.»
"Wuaaaaaah..."
It wouldn't be an overstatement to say that Kise was on the verge of crying... He actually scanned the words before him so many times, (thoughts, fantasies and desires all being mixed up) that when he finally managed to calm himself down and close the message for a bit in order to look at the time, his eyes widened in terror as he had already missed the first class.
"H-how is that even possible? !"
He almost shouted confounded and then speedily started getting ready for school.
"Senpai's messages are time machines!"
He said out loud as he randomly threw a few books in his bag (who had time to study anyway?) and anxiously thought of all the scolding he was going to receive from the teachers.
~..~
"What? School detention?"
Kasamatsu almost screamed as he heard Moriyama's words.
"What did that idiot do this time?"
He added outraged since Kise's mindless school detention prevented him from being present at club activities.
"Apparently... He didn't bring a single book of today's lessons with him. All he had in his bag were books of lessons being taught in other days."
"What...?"
Kasamatsu's question was now rather numb as he was quite uncertain of what expression he should wear.
"Is he a complete idiot?"
He finally shouted angrily and Moriyama couldn't help but nod in agreement.
"Well, we have no choice... Today we'll go on as usual. Let's see how much we'll last in our own practice without our ace!"
Kaijo's captain managed to psych up his teammates and their practice proceeded with the utmost intensity and resolution.
~..~
Kise sighed for the umpteenth time and stared boringly at the empty classroom he was in. It seemed like he was the only one to be given such a long amount of time in detention and the blonde reckoned that even the supervisor got bored out of her life and abandoned him since she had told him that she had to take care of some important business (and of course that Kise shouldn't leave this classroom until the time of his detention was up).
"It's all senpai's fault..."
Kise murmured depressed and laid his head on the desk, his cheek touching the surface.
"And I thought we could talk today since they didn't call me from the agency..."
He mumbled as he closed his eyes, hoping that the remaining forty three seconds would pass quickly if he took a really quick nap...
~..~
"Kise. Kise. Wake up, you idiot...!"
An annoying hurtful sensation on the back of his head forced Kaijo's ace to open his eyes and stare at his captain surprised- and rather happy.
"Senpa-"
"What the hell did you do today? Did your brain abandon you?"
Before Kise was able to express his happiness for seeing the other, Kasamatsu greeted him with another clout on the back of his head.
"Aaah, senpai don't hit me because this is your fault!"
The blonde spouted decisively, only to instantly regret his impulsive nature.
"What are you saying? How is any of this my fault?"
Kise noted how Kasamatsu wasn't shouting as much as he'd normally do... He also realized that the building was covered in a rather intimidating silence and that the sky wasn't as bright as it was when he had closed his eyes.
"Huh, wha..."
The blonde looked at the clock that stood above the classroom's board and rapidly stood up terrified with his eyes widened.
"Everything's moving in fast forward today!"
He finally shouted overwhelmed by the amount of hours he had missed and Kasamatsu jolted at his sudden mood swing.
"Don't shout you idiot!"
The older boy yelled at him but Kise acted as if he hadn't heard him.
"What am I going to do senpai? What if the next time I close and open my eyes we will have grown ten years older?"
"Get a grip on yourself!"
The brunette kicked him hard in order to make him come back to his senses.
"Aaah, senpai that hurt..."
The blonde said under his breath while bent down and then slowly stood up, trying to regain his composure.
"I asked how is any of this my fault."
Kasamatsu repeated, his words finally voiced in a smooth volume.
"Ah... Well..."
Kise knew that what he was going to confess would actually be extremely embarrassing for both of them, but he really couldn't resist his captain's shy expression.
"Your... Your message senpai! As I fell asleep yesterday without expecting of a reply, I was really shocked when I saw today that you had responded... And I was staring at your message for so long, remembering our last interaction, fantasizing of other motions between us, that an hour passed by without me realizing it...!"
'Ah, I said it...'
Kise restrained himself not to show his slight hesitation but the sight that unfolded in front of his eyes made him one hundred percent confident for what he had just uttered...
Kasamatsu wasn't able to utter any words at the idiot's mindless spouting (as he himself would phrase) and his lips were slightly apart without his realization, his eyes widened at what he had just heard and the intense redness that had started coloring his face, being (unfortunately for Kise) entirely grasped by his body's heat sensation, with result turning his back on the other without saying any words for a few seconds.
"Then I won't respond again to your messages."
As if he was a child whose embarrassment couldn't be accepted, Kasamatsu started walking towards the exit of the classroom, without turning around to give a second look to the other.
"A-ah, wait senpai!"
Kise rapidly caught up to him and stood in front of the door, not letting him escape.
"I'm sorry senpai! I didn't mean to make you feel uneasy...!"
The blonde slightly bowed and then without prior notice, he turned around and closed the door behind him, leaving both of them alone in the classroom without the fear of prying eyes.
"What are you doing Kise? Open up!"
Kasamatsu tried to push the other away but the latter placed one finger in front of the first's mouth, signing for him to hush.
"If they hear us, then they'll know that we're here and they'll interrupt us senpai...!"
Kise whispered gravely to him and before Kasamatsu reacted in any way, the blonde moved forward and gave a really quick peck on his captain's lips.
Despite Kise's experience with other girls, he was actually a bit hesitant when it came to his spontaneous actions towards the brunette. In the end, it wasn't like Kasamatsu had clearly given him the green light... Well, he had admitted that he was in love with him but... It was still too hard to give love to a person who wasn't comfortable with either receiving it or expressing it in any way.
"I'm sorry senpai... If you didn't like this."
Kise said quickly after the tiny kiss. It wasn't really to his character to ask for forgiveness for this kind of actions but it seemed like Kasamatsu was an exception for many things.
"I didn't say I didn't like it you idiot..."
The brunette whispered while looking away embarrassed, not trying to escape from the room anymore or to punch his troublesome teammate.
"We're at school..."
Kasamatsu continued, his eyes still gazing afar from the person in front of him but Kise could see what his captain was truly saying...
"Hm, yeah, we shouldn't be doing this at school but no one will ever know..."
The blonde uttered playfully, knowing that this was what the captain was thinking as well, and gave him another peck- this time it was a bit more extensive.
Kise drew back and gazed at Kasamatsu with longing. It had really been so long... An entire week seemed like decades to someone who couldn't be with the person he desired. Kasamatsu was staring back at the ace but he didn't seem to be as comfortable as the second was. Even though his feverish face intrigued Kise to no end, the uncertainty that existed in the captain's eyes was anything but desirable. What was he thinking at that moment...? How many regrets was his mind screaming and how much serenity was his heart giving him by each beat? Everything was in contradiction, Kise knew that much... Unlike him, who never had to question or even report his actions to anyone, Kasamatsu was actually under a magnifying glass and each of his decisions were being harshly criticized by the people who were supposed to love him and protect him with all their might...
'Do they really think he's happy that way? Or do they not care at all...?'
A question, whose answer he didn't really want to hear, passed through his mind and before more questions followed up and broke his heart in half, Kise bent over once more, his hands being gently wrapped around the older boy's body and his lips being quietly landed on their target.
"Kise, this is wrong..."
Despite the poisonous words that had managed to be voiced before their lips' connection, Kasamatsu had actually moved forward as well in order to attach their heads faster than his mind could process thoughts... Brains were troublesome at times like this, he thought.
One kiss followed another, sweet wet sounds echoing in the empty classroom and as their breathing got heavier, Kise lustily tightened his grip around Kasamatsu's waist, struggling with all his might not to make any rush movements that would doom their relationship forever. In addition, Kaijo's captain, who was also holding back for different reasons, had made this connection even more asphyxiating, causing each millisecond to look like a millennium of qualms and each heavy panting to feel like their most beautiful dream being fulfilled before their eyes... It was like everything was perfect but they felt like sinners in their own heaven.
The blonde, whose passionate kisses didn't seem willing to let either of the boys breathe, was pushing his body so hard on the other's that he could clearly feel his captain's body features from head to toe. Kasamatsu was trying his best to endeavor this smothering distance, but in the end he wasn't able to succeed... He softly pushed the younger one in order to draw back and despite the horrible burden Kise felt as soon as he realized that he had pushed the brunette to his limits, he quietly moved a bit backwards, too little to lose connection, but enough for their heads to separate.
"Was it too much?"
Kise asked softly, his hands still wrapped around Kasamatsu's waist- the latter's hands also immobilized on the first's body.
"Hm... Maybe... A bit..."
The captain mumbled under his breath (Kise had hardly heard him), being really uncomfortable with the way he was so embarrassed and inexperienced at this.
"I couldn't help it senpai...! I'm afraid that you may not want to do this again, or that you may get tired of me, or that you may find someone else to love more than me, or that - ..."
"Don't say such thoughts out loud you idiot...!"
Even though they were talking in undertones, Kasamatsu's voice was quite threatening.
"But I want senpai to know...! It's not like my insecurities will be solved on their own if I don't express them..."
The brunette felt troubled at his teammate's statement... That was the captain's logic after all.
"And why do you think I can solve them?"
Kasamatsu asked while slowly pulling his hands away from his friend's body.
"Well, it's only you that can either confirm or admit the opposite of my fears, right...? Isn't that what lovers do?"
'Lovers...?'
Kaijo's captain was instantly immobilized at that word, the mere sound of it causing him agitation.
"A-ah, I'm really sorry senpai, I thought - ..."
Kise wondered what would make the other feel less uncomfortable.
'Should I finish my sentence or not...?'
"You thought wrong."
Kasamatsu stated decisively, answering to Kise's thought and hoping to outsmart his own heart.
"We are not l... It's disgusting Kise. This whole... What we're doing is wrong."
He couldn't even phrase it right.
"Says who?"
The brunette felt a bit surprised by his teammate's straightforward (and sort of "ready-to-blow-up") reaction.
"Everyone! Society, all of the people we've ever met, the mere laws of nature!"
Even though he had restrained himself for so long, the captain could no longer hold it in and finally raised his voice the way he always did.
"I don't care about what society and people think... You should have realized that by now senpai."
The blonde's voice was smooth but Kasamatsu could see the trembling in his eyes.
"And what about the laws of nature? If it was wrong and unnatural then we wouldn't even feel it...! It's not like we're hurting someone with loving each other, you know? And even animals do it!"
His last sentence took the captain off guard.
"Animals?"
He repeated perplexed.
"Yes, animals! The other time that I was walking home senpai, I saw these two male dogs doing it...!"
"Whaaa! Why were you watching that? !"
Kise might have voiced his confession in undertones but Kasamatsu couldn't stay silent at that, so he shouted really embarrassed for what he had just heard.
"Well, I didn't want to look at them senpai, but they were right in front of me! And they were both male...!"
Kise lowered his voice at the last part.
"Then these dogs had a brain problem...! Don't give me mentally challenged animals as an example for-"
"They were not! I've witnessed that sight more than once!"
"Fuck, what are you Kise? ! A pervert?"
"Wuaaah, don't shout it senpai, don't shout it...! Of course I'm not a pervert...! It's not like animals go and hide in corners in order to do it, and there are many stray animals in the streets that I pass by in order to come to school and return home. I can't undo what my eyes see, you know...!"
"For fuck's sake..."
Kasamatsu murmured bothered at the subject of their conversation.
"Well, at least you get my point, right senpai? It's not against the laws of nature..."
Kaijo's captain was still not satisfied with Kise's thorough... "research".
"If it wasn't against the laws of nature then we'd be able to get pr-pregnant..."
Kasamatsu whispered and looked sideways, slowly putting his fingers on his forehead, ashamed for having to bring their discussion into such an absurd and low level.
"Wha- what are you saying senpai? Isn't the planet filled with people by now? Aren't there enough orphan children already? What kind of unreasonable logic supports that if two people can't have children with each other, then they can't be together? Not all people are here to have offsprings senpai! Some people may not be as mature and responsible as needed and some others should have never been parents in the first place..."
The brunette didn't need long to understand what Kise meant by that but didn't bother interrupting him.
"Think about it senpai... How could something so beautiful and magical, ever be disgusting and wrong?"
As soon as the blonde finished talking, Kasamatsu quietly turned his back at him and sighed deeply.
"Why do you even have to hold it in when I'm here?"
The younger boy would never think twice before asking him that question and as he was standing behind the one who was struggling not to cry, he quietly extended his arms in front of him and wrapped them around Kasamatsu's body, his face being buried in the captain's neck and his hands being tightened even more on the other's torso.
"Men don't cry Kise..."
The brunette held with one hand Kise's warm embrace and with the other he covered his face, desiring to prevent the tears that were trying to escape.
"We are still humans senpai... We cry, we laugh, we fear, we love..."
The blonde could now feel his superior's entire body trembling and no matter how hard the latter was trying to calm down, his sobs were impossible to be hushed.
"I'm here for you."
Kise whispered next to Kasamatsu's ear and hoped that the second wasn't able to sense his own heart being torn into a million pieces...
Eventually, the moonlight yearned to taste a bit of their painful fairy tale and the sun, that had already seen enough, became slowly out of sight, letting the two boys be engulfed in a comforting but quite intimidating darkness. The two lovers -as the captain had silently agreed that this was the right term for their relationship- were still standing in front of the shut door, having expressed many emotions they were too afraid to confront, and having exchanged too many kisses to count and innumerable warm touches that were bound to keep them company for the moments they'd have to spend separate.
Kasamatsu, who had stopped crying for a while now and was resting his arms around the other's body, glanced at their obscure surroundings but before he was able to comment about the quick passing of time and act accordingly, the sudden vibration of his phone agitated him greatly.
"As long as I'm holding you, don't worry about it..."
Kise whispered with hands warmly embracing the older one, having realized the reason behind his captain's panic and the latter nodded quietly in agreement, a faint smile coloring his face before picking up his phone.
"Where are you at this ungodly hour?"
A troubled feminine voice was heard over the phone but neither Kasamatsu nor Kise could sense any ill intentions.
"I'm coming now... I was doing extra practice in the school's gym, sorry I didn't call you."
"Ah, you had me worried Yukio..."
His mother sighed relieved and the brunette warmly smiled at her reaction.
'Senpai has a soft spot for his mother...?'
Kise estimated surprised as he had never heard -or seen- of the captain's mother before, but had mistakenly assumed that she was as strict as his father.
"Hm, don't worry. I'll see you in a while."
"Be careful."
The blonde gazed at the brunette who placed his phone back to his pocket, mindlessly bent over and gave a quick peck on his superior's lips. Kasamatsu, who hadn't manage to return the kiss, stared back at him surprised as the ace drew back.
"You were really cute back there senpai! You had an unusual warm smile when you were talking to your mother."
"I did...?"
Kise was taken off guard since his mental preparation of the captain beating him up, was met by a dazed question instead.
"Hm... I wish to see that smile more often senpai."
The younger boy uttered decisively, cupped Kasamatsu's face with his hands and before he landed his lips on the other's, he quietly whispered "This is a goodnight kiss." and then passionately kissed the brunette, who was also giving it his all to make this wet and fuzzy sensation on his lips last long enough to prevent him from spending another sleepless night on his own...
Their ways separated before they even started walking home -both of them exiting from the opposite side of the building- and Kasamatsu had started reckoning carefully as to how exactly he should act if he was asked for the second time about his delay as soon as he got home. The young boy hated lying to his mother more than anything else in the world, but the truth was much more hurtful compared to the simple lie he'd have to utter for her sake... or for his.
Nevertheless, despite what he had in mind, Kaijo's captain knew all too well that his mother would, like always, see right through him and easily detect his lie; yet she wouldn't inquire into the matter any further. Kasamatsu would possibly go deeper into that subject if his thoughts weren't violently interrupted by the memory of Kise's lips brushing his...
'How can that idiot kiss like that? !'
He wondered irritated, feeling his head heating up from anger (or at least that's what he was telling himself) and then started sprinting towards his home, cleverly thinking that his running would justify more properly the blush that had colored his entire face.
"I'm hooome..."
Kise voiced as soon as he entered his house but he knew better than to expect a response. He then quietly moved towards his room, threw his bag on the floor, fell on the bed without washing up or taking his clothes off, and stared at the ceiling on which images of his captain's warm smile were projecting in his mind.
'Senpai...'
The blonde smiled as he remembered Kasamatsu's embarrassment while talking about the animals having sex with the same gender and then closed his eyes, his fingers lightly touching his lips, and his mind wandering back to the sweet and treasured intimacy they had experienced with each other.
"Yu-ki-o."
He whispered to himself and then giggled at the sound of that, his heart feeling truly relieved for finally being with the person he longed for so long...
"He'd murder me if he heard me."
He spelled with his smile being even wider than before, thinking that soon enough he would actually be able to call him by his first name... or at least it was a possibility.
'Should I text him...? Or would it be too much since I already told him goodnight?'
Kaijo's ace asked a rhetorical question and then took his cellphone in his hands and started typing (while pausing for a couple of times, trying to think of the most appropriate words to use for the message). Finally he finished, and reread it twice, to make sure that it was properly written and structured.
«Senpai, I had a really good time today, so maybe I should start getting detentions more often! Ha-ha, I'm kidding of course! \(^^)/ Please treat me kindly from now on. I'm looking forward to seeing you again. Goodnight and have beautiful dreams... =(owo)= »
He smiled while pushing the send button, wondering what kind of warmth Kasamatsu would emit while reading his message and then entered the bathroom -leaving his cellphone in his room for the sake of safety- and hoped that this time he wouldn't read his captain's reply (if there was any) the following day.
In the meantime, Kasamatsu who had returned much earlier than Kise to his house, had already taken his bath and was now swirling around the bed, praying that the image and memories of his really-really stupid teammate would just forsake his mind, so that he could eventually close his eyes and fall asleep.
'Who is it at this hour?'
The brunette wondered as he heard his phone vibrating, but in all honesty Kasamatsu's heart had already accelerated its rhythm, having a really good suspicion in his mind about the person who had just texted him.
'Geez, hasn't he slept already?'
He ostensibly questioned, trying to persuade himself that he wasn't excited for Kise's "annoying daily actions" as he had named these messages.
He read and reread the message a couple of times and he could now feel his already feverish face being about to explode. The kisses he had received, those arms that were supporting him as he cried all his pain away, that voice that was comforting him no matter what, this beautiful face that he had tasted with all his might...
"Freakin' idiot!"
Kasamatsu shouted (thankfully his parents weren't near his room) and harshly placed his pillow above his face, wondering if his head would finally decide to change color if he were to asphyxiate himself under that pillow.
'Ah, I guess senpai won't respond this time... Maybe it was indeed a one-time thing.'
Kise thought disappointed as he noticed that he didn't have any new messages and then lied quietly on his bed, trying to fall asleep with his captain's astounding image in his mind.
«If you get another detention I will forbid your stay in the team! You treat me kindly as well. If you don't study hard enough then you won't be able to graduate, you idiot! Rest well and stop using these symbols; is your phone broken or something? I'll see you tomorrow.»
Kasamatsu sent his message after calming down from his previous sudden excitement and really hoped from the bottom of his heart that his embarrassing 'You treat me kindly as well' wouldn't be noticed amongst his warnings and advices...
A/N: Hey, hey, please read this:
As you've already realized this story will be angsty...
I don't know how it'll evolve in the future but the parents are, I guess, an essential part of this fanfiction. I really do not remember of any parents being mentioned in the anime or the manga, so I hope I will not write senseless things... Obviously, everything's based on my imagination and nothing else.
You can see/read a preview of the next chapter in my tumblr: twinss-r . tumblr . com