Author's Note: Thanks so much for all the reviews I have been getting. It's very encouraging...hence the reason you're getting the first four chapters all in one day. Don't expect this all the time, because I am in college and it's difficult to find this much free time sometimes. Anyway, enjoy because I am!

BPOV

As I slowly came back to the conscious world I realized that my eyes were puffy and I had been crying. Come to think of it, my throat was kind of scratchy too. I yawned loudly and turned over on my bed to see Edward lying there next to me. He was looking at my eyes like he was trying to find something hidden. Oh...he was trying to find something...uh-oh.

"Edward, what's wrong?" though I wasn't sure I wanted the answer to my question.

"Bella. I love you more than anything in this world. All I want is to be with you. I never want to have to leave your side. I need you just as much as you think you need me. All those feeligs that I know you have of not being worthy of me, not deserving me, not being enough for me...I have all of those same feelings towards you, how I am so undeserving of you. I know I have said it a million times to you already, but I am so sorry for what I have put you through, but I swear to you it will never happen again. You have my heart Bella...and my soul."

Confused at that last part, I asked, "What?"

"Last night Bella, you screamed in your sleep and no matter how hard I tried I couldnt seem to wake you up. Finally I kissed you and you calmed down and fell back to sleep."

Ok, so I screamed in my sleep last night, what's new? Oh, this is stil new to him I guess..."Edward, when you left I...well I kind of got used to screaming in my sleep. It doesn't wake me up anymore. It...well, it doesn't wake Charlie up either anymore."

The pain in his eyes made me immediately regret my words. "Oh, Edward I didn't say that to hurt you, I just don't want you to think I have gained a mental disability while you were gone, too." I said trying to make light of the situation. You could cut the pain in the air with a knife.

"Am I the source of your nightmares Bella?" he said without looking directly into my eyes.

"Only when I am losing you. You make up all of my dreams otherwise and they are usually too good to wake up for." I said with a sly grin. I was desperately trying to avoid the question of what my dreams were about. How pathetic could I be? My worst nightmare is him leaving again. I can't tell him that! He would only feel even more guilty and I can't stand to see him hurting. "Now, I have a question for you."

He looked a bit shocked at the sudden change in the conversation. But I was not prepared for another crying episode between the two of us. It had been happening far too often lately and it was wearing me down. Poor Jasper...I bet he's grateful for this topic change as much as I am.

"What did you mean I have your...soul?" I was hesitant to say that word. It was always involved in arguments between whether...or not he...would...change me...wait! Is that what this is about?

"Judging by your heartbeat you seem to have an idea. Bella, after yesterday and last night, I realized something. If I didn't have a soul, then how is it possible that every time I am away from you I feel like part of me is with you? After what you said to me that first night you woke up after Italy, that if I really didn't believe we had souls then I wouldn't have said that Carlisle had been right when I saw you and that I was dead...well I've thought about it a lot, and I believe you are right. You, Carlisle, everybody. But I think we are only able to have souls after we have found something to share it with. You have always shared your soul with me, Bella, and I want you to know, mine is for you as well."

"Oh Edward..." I tried to interrupt him, but he wasn't having that.

"Bella, please, let me finish. I have decided that only time will be able to make you trust me again and make you realize that I will never leave you again, no matter what. And..." he trailed off.

"And?" I questioned. I was curious to see where this was going, and to be honest I had no idea what he could possibly be meaning by all of this.

"And...if you still want to, I want to be with you for the rest of your life...for eternity." He finished his speech quietly.

I was completely shocked to say the least. It wasn't long ago he was furious when Carlisle had agreed to change me. Was he offering to change me? Without me accepting his proposal first?

"I...I...I..." obviously I couldn't even get words out.

"Bella, if you don't want it now, I can...I can understand. I still love you. But I can love you either way. It truly is your decision now. I am sorry for ever not allowing you to make this decision before. I just..."

"Yes." I cut him off.

" I just want you to be happy, and I want the chance to show you I will never..." he continued as if he hadn't heard me. I interuppeted him again and this time I was successful.

"Yes, Edward. Yes to everything. Yes I will marry you. Yes I love you. And yes I want to be with you forever." I reached and put my hands on both sides of his face and kissed him hard.

"You mean it? You're serious?" He seemed utterly stunned by my reaction to his little speech.

"Edward. I want this. I have always wanted this. I want you. Forever"