I seriously have no excuse for note posting anything in forever. During summer vacation I just got really lazy. Then September came sooner than I thought and I had to go to school and it's just been hectic after that. Now in on Thanksgiving break and I can hopefully post more of the story. Again I am really sorry for leaving but I cant promise posting every week. I will try my best to post often though. well enough of me rambling. here's part 1 of chapter 4

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight in any way shape or form

Chapter 4 pt1

The week goes by pretty quickly and I noticed that Edward has not been in school all week. I guess he's sick. I mean he was as pale as paper Monday but then again he seemed okay. Also ALL of the Cullens are extremely pale and they have been in school. He was the only one missing. Oh well maybe if he's in school Monday I can ask him.

It's now the weekend and I have nothing to do. Dad's at work and I have no homework to do. This blows... wait, I can record a song for my YouTube channel. I think to myself.

I start trying to think of songs that I could put up. Normally I would put up something inspirational or a song the describes my life at the moment. But it's only been a week and nothing has really been going on (besides the whole Edward encounter) and I did an inspirational song last week before the whole move.

I go through my playlist but nothing seems to fit what I need. I realize a lot of the songs on my playlist are love, breakup, or inspirational songs. So there isn't much to choose from. I'm extremly different from everyone else and I'm not talking about my having super human abilities either. My personality, dreams and ambitions are different from everyone elses. I hate the thought of love for myself. I have never been in love nor do I want to. Love makes you lose yourself and you see nothing else but that other person. You do crazy things that you would never do before. It changes you. Plus there is also a chance of heart break. I'm not nor do I think I will ever be ready for that. I like being on my own and living the single life. But when my friends ask me I just tell them I don't know why I like being single. Sometimes when I really think about it The whole reason my be my dad. He hasn't been the best father figure in the world. He was never there and even when he was he never did anything but sit in his ass. I love him though but sometimes I wish there was someone else to take his place. I plan on telling him that if things don't work out too well during my stay here.

I finally find a song that I will sing and put up on YouTube. Simone found it a few weeks before my move here. I don't know the name of it but it fits me 100%.

I use my mind to bring all of the equipment that I need to my desk. It feels like a lazy day. I make sure everything is set up correctly and starts recoreding.

Why does every princess

Need to have a prince

It's the same old story

But I'm just not convinced

Why just keep assuming

Men will save the day

I can be the hero

And do it my own way

Why be confind to be hiding

Behind true love, enough

I'm who I am

I don't need a man

I'm sorry it's short but I just wanted to give you a little something while I'm finishing up the chapter. It's really long.