Summary: Sam is forced to help a drug dealer sell drugs in exchange for Carly's safety. When Carly finds out feelings are both revealed and hurt. Femslash! Cam!
Warning: This fic contains dark and mature content and femslash.
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the idea of this fic and any characters that I have created.
A/N: I've decided to edit this chapter to make it look better and sound better. Slightly AU. In Sam's POV. Carly, Sam, and Freddie are all 17.
Into The Sun
Chapter 4: It's Never Easy
I silently stare at Principle Franklin's desk waiting for him to show up. The past two days have been hell and all I have been doing is drinking to ease the damn pain in my chest. If Principle Franklin can't smell the alcohol on me I will be surprised. My decision is pretty much final, after seeing what happened a few days ago...Carly and Freddie dating is just the damn straw that broke the camels back. I just can't do this anymore.
"Ah, Sam. Thank you for showing up." I hear Principle Franklin say after the door was opened. He sits down in his chair and watches me. Looking over my appearance.
"Are you alright?" He asks me and I don't want his fake concern.
"Look we both know that you're not all that concerned with my well being so let's just cut to the chase...Don't bother defending me at the hearing..." I see disappointment in his eyes and I look down at my hands in shame.
"Sam, you don't want to make that choice." My eyes find his and I can see that fake concern again and I just snap.
"Why the hell not!? My whole god damn fucking life is nothing but a god damn waste! Do you know what it's like to wake up in the morning knowing that no one in the world gives a fuck about you!? Do you!?" I don't even wait for an answer as I get up and leave.
"Sam wait! Please!" I ignore his pleads and leave the building.
Fuck the world! Is all I have to say. What's the point of trying if you don't get anywhere? I don't get far not trying and I don't get far trying, it's a lose-lose situation. God, why does everything have to be so damn hard?
I kick a loose stone on the ground watch as it hits a pile of garbage. A cat jumps from the garbage and runs into the nearest alley way. I sigh and keep on walking. I'm tired and I just want to sleep. I don't want to think anymore, I don't want to do anything anymore. I've hit rock bottom and I have nothing to help me get out. Carly was actually the last thing keeping me up and afloat.
My phone vibrates in my pocket and I don't bother to answer it. I already know who it is and I don't want to talk to her. If I do I'll say something that will hurt her. She may be dating Freddie but that doesn't mean I'll hurt her on purpose. I'd happily hurt Freddie but not Carly. I just don't want to talk to her right now. I just need some time to think about what I'm going to do. I want Carly to be happy but so do I. Her happiness comes first of course, but I don't her to be with Freddie, I want her with me. I'm selfish I know.
I finally reach home and walk up the steps with heavy feet. As tired as I am I don't want to be here at this "home". I don't even know why I stay here. My real home is at Carly's. That's where I can sleep with no worries and wake up with a soft heart. Here it's just...empty. Broken windows and a broken lock. No protection from anyone or anything.
I open the door to my empty home and find my mother sitting on the couch with a very dark and pissed off look on her face.
"What the hell did you!?" She shouts at me right after I close the door.
"What are you talking about?" I ask her with hatred in my voice.
"This!" She holds up today's newspaper in front of me. A picture of Todd, her drug dealer is shown and I instantly know what she's talking about.
"Look when I went to get your nose candy he decided to stiff you out of your money. I told him I'd go to someone else then and he didn't like it..." Before I can finish a hard slap to my cheek stops me.
"Do you know what this means for me!? Kc is going to come here and kill me because of you!" I rub my sore cheek and refrain from beating her senseless.
"Good I hope he kills you nice and slowly you whore!" I can see the uncontrollable rage in her eyes as she tries to slap me again. I grab her wrist stopping her and twist it behind her back painfully.
"If you ever hit me again, I'll kill you." I tell her through gritted teeth.
Suddenly a hard punch connects with my sore cheek. I forgot about Chad.
"Hands off!" He screams at me. With his surprise attack I let go of mother.
"You're gonna pay for that." I mumble rubbing my cheek again.
"This is what's going to happen kid, you're going to start selling for Kc or I kill your friend Carly. Plain and simple." Chad crouches down next to me while he explains.
"Kc has agreed to this since you put his right hand man in jail." He continues.
"From now on kid, you're Kc's dealer whether you like it or not." No, he can't do this!
"Yeah right, why the fuck would he want a 17-year-old to do his work?" I spit at him and he wipes the spit from his face with a cocky grin.
"He's not as dumb as you think." Is all he says to me before standing up and opening the front door and letting in a guy that I presume is Kc.
"Hello Sam, your my new dealer." This Kc guy means business. You can just tell by his eyes. What the hell have I gotten myself into?
"Why the hell do you want me as your dealer?" He smiles and I clench my teeth. He thinks this is all a game or something.
"Well Sam I know for a fact that you know your stuff. You managed to throw my best dealer in jail, people know who you are and won't bother to try and stiff you cause they know they'll get their asses kicked and I know that you won't stiff the people out of their money. You're pretty much the perfect dealer." Well this guy's done his homework.
"Well I know this is big news for you so I'll let it sink in and come back in a day or so. Don't bother running away, I'll just kill your friend Carly." With that Kc leaves and I'm stuck with Chad and mom.
"How fucking could you!? Giving your only fucking child to a two timing drug dealer!" I scream at her. The sad part is she doesn't show any remorse.
"You were an accident you little brat! I should have had an abortion but I chose not to so be fucking grateful I even kept you!" Everything grows quiet and surprisingly Chad looks at me with a little pity.
"You treat me like I'm some fucking pet animal that you don't give a damn about. Well guess what, this is the last time you'll ever see me you fucking whore. If Kc comes by tell him if he wants me to come and find me." I go into my room and pack my duffel bag with my clothes. When I reach the front door I see that mom actually looks happy.
She's happy that I won't be around anymore...She doesn't give a damn about me. I walk out the door not even bothering to say good bye to her. If it's possible my heart just sank even more. I know I shouldn't care what she thinks but just the fact that she's actually happy that I'm leaving hurts. To make things worse I have to become a drug dealer in order to keep Carly alive. Maybe I can talk to Kc and have him kill mom or something. Not the nicest thing in the world to say but I don't really care anymore. She got herself into this mess, she can get herself out.
I have to figure out what I'm going to do from here. I need to get things straitened out with Carly. She may have broken my heart but I need her in my life. I'd be even emptier if she wasn't. Plus I need to keep her safe. God only knows what Kc is going to do. If he knows that Carly's a close friend then he must have some sort of spy keeping an eye on her. Right now it's time to put aside emotions and just keep Carly safe from harm.
Just as I walk down the steps I see Kc standing at the end of them.
"I'm not going to be your dealer, kill her if you want, I could care less." I say to him before walking away. I feel a tight grip on my wrist and find that he's trying to stop me.
"Oh no Puckett, you put my best dealer in jail so you will be my new one. I don't care about your mom's debt. You're mine now." He says to me through grit teeth.
If I don't he'll kill Carly, he made that loud and clear earlier. I have no choice then. If I'm going to do this he's going to play by my rules then.
"Fine then, but we're going to play by my rules and my rules only, first of all I want to know if you have a spy or any kind of bug in Carly's house or apartment complex. Don't bother lying to me." He grins and I want to wipe it off of his filthy face.
"Fine by me Puckett, I do have a spy watching her but I'll have him removed if that makes you happy. There are no bugs of any kind in her apartment or the complex, nothing anywhere. Now I have to go, I'll call you tomorrow with some info on your next deals. Take this cell phone and don't call anyone but me. My number is stored in it, when you run out of minutes bring it to me and I'll give you a new phone." I take the phone from him and know he's not kidding around.
"Remember Sam, I'm a professional, you keep your word and I'll keep mine." With that he walks away.
I pull out my cell phone and quickly call Carly.
"Sam!" She shouts as soon as she answers.
"Yeah, look we need to meet asap. I'll be at your house in 10-15 minutes." With that I hang up and head towards the bus stop and try to think of what I'm going to say to Carly.
Carly's Apartment...
I nervously knock on the door and shift my weight from one to the other. I've been thinking about what to say and I know that we're both about to get hurt. I have to think about what's best for her and her safety, that's the only reason I'm doing this, I just hope that she can forgive me later on in life.
The door opens and I finally see her. She looks so beautiful even though it looks like she's been crying. I wonder if I'm the cause of those tears.
"Sam, I'm so glad you called me." She says sincerely before pulling me into a hug. I don't know whether or not I should return it but my heart says to do so, so I do.
"I'm so sorry Sam!" She cries into my neck and I rub her back. God this is going to be more painful then I thought.
"Carly, I know you are." I say while pushing her chin up with my finger. I need to look into those beautiful eyes of hers one last time.
"No Sam, you don't know how sorry I really am. I broke up with Freddie, if I knew how much it would upset you I never would have dated him." Oh dear god, this is going to hurt her so much.
"Carly, you have to listen to me ok." She nods and I continue.
"I never should have acted the way I did, you're my best friend and I just wanted to look out for you, keep you safe. I'd do anything to do that. Right now, you really have to believe that what I'm doing is for you...We can't be friends anymore." I see the confusion and pain in her eyes and wipe the tears from them.
"What?" Is all she can say and she is struggling, I hate to do this but it's for her own good.
"We can't be friends anymore, I'm sorry." I whisper to her while pulling her into a huge hug. I don't want to let her go but her safety is all that matters.
"No Sam, you can't do this. I'm sorry about Freddie, honest!" She cries hysterically while pounding her fists on my chest.
"I know you are but this...It's for your own safety, I'm sorry, but this is how things have to be." Her cries make my heart ache and bleed but it has to be done.
I pull away from her and wipe her eyes.
"I love you." I whisper so faintly that I could barely hear it. I lightly kiss her forehead before turning around and leaving. Her cries of sorrow are all I can hear as I leave.
I just hope that she doesn't hurt for a long time. It's never easy to make a choice but it has to be done.
A/N: Now that this chapter has been edited chapter 5 will be coming up soon. Leave a review!