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Chapter 4:-
Natsu kept running with her in his arms, thankfully the hospital wasn't that far from their apartments.
She kept on bleeding and Natsu's panicking kept on growing, he didn't know why he was acting like this, but something inside him, told him to not let her die.
"Damn!" he cursed as he tripped and she almost falls from his arms.
He arrived to the hospital and they immediately took her to the ER, thanks to her blood type, it was the same as Natsu, they were both O+, he gave her his blood, because she sure lost a lot. He didn't have his phone with him so he couldn't call his friends, and he couldn't leave because he felt so dizzy after transferring that much blood. So he just sat there waiting for her to get out.
I wander what our relationship was, what does she mean to my old self? What am I to her? I love Lisanna so much, how did I love someone like her instead. Damn it! It is so confusing and I feel so not right!
After one hour, they got her out and they said that a little few minutes later, she would be dead right now. Natsu felt so tight inside his heart, somehow he was relieved that she was okay, he sighed deeply as he walked to her room. They said that probably she would be awake by the morning.
He got inside than closed the door behind him. He sat on the chair beside her bed and looked at her sleep face. She was so pale, he touched her hand. She was so cold. She was close to the look of dead.
Natsu didn't notice as a single tear rolled down his cheek and dripped on his hand that was on hers.
He looked surprised as he wiped it off.
"What is wrong with me, damn it" he said annoyed, "and why am I holding her hand in the first place, and why am I even here!" he thought as he backed away, lifting his hand off of her.
He kept staring at her and her bandaged wrists; it must be hurting a lot. He thought.
He soon after fell asleep. And sure the time passed by and the nurse came to check on her and the doctor but they didn't wake him up. After all they fell asleep 3 in the morning. And now it was 11 am and Natsu just woke up, he looked around while yawning, why was he here again? Oh Lucy! He thought as he rested his eyes on her, she is still sleeping; his eyes drew a sad look. Damn it with these feelings! I'm going to buy some drink! He thought as he dashed out.
He sure took his time to eat late breakfast and drank some hot coffee and now he was walking his way back.
He opened the door and was shocked to see Lucy on the floor crying.
"What the-! Lucy!" he shouted at her as he kneeled down to her. He rested his hand on her shoulder motioning for her to look up. She raised her head and looked at him with watery, red eyes. She wrapped her arms around his neck and held him close to her. She sobbed on his shoulder, her hands shakily holding his shirt, like her life depends on it.
Natsu was stunned as he let her soak his shirt; he kept unmoving like a state.
He pushed her back gently and looked in her eyes that looked sorrowfully in his.
He was speechless, he didn't know what to say, that was first for him, in stations like this he would throw her away but again, why are they on the floor, holding each other and looking deep in the eyes of each other's?
Natsu picked her up and putted her on the bed, silently not saying a single word, not at all. He kept his serious look and cold face; he didn't want to be drowning to this girl, who he barely knows anything about. Sure these feelings were his old self's, right now he has nothing to do with her. He was just keeping good manners with her, like he can't let her on the cold ground, right?
"I-" Lucy started talking and Natsu looked at her, her grip tight on his shirt, not wanting to let go, Natsu was now sitting on the edge of the bed. He looked in her eyes searching for anything, but couldn't find anything beside her sadness, was he really the source of all of this?
"I feel so alone, the sorrow is just taking over me, when you are not with me I feel so…" her tears fell harder as she rested her forehead on his shoulder, "don't leave me alone… it is so cold…" Natsu kept silent as he listened to her, not that he has anything to say in the first place.
"Your touch used to be so kind… your touch used to give me life… dreaming of the way it used to be… you were the source of my strength, you were the source of my smiles…"
She let go of his shirt and backed away, staying as far as possible from him, Natsu felt something sunk inside him, was he that effected by her words? He has to get out fast.
"If I wasn't here tomorrow, would anybody care? You should have just let me die… I wanted to know, would you be happy if I wasn't here? Would anyone lose sleep, would anyone even miss me?" she said with low shallow voice. His eyes widened at her words, shit! He cursed inside him; he needed to get out soon.
"who would want a girl who can't even walk, my mom not here anymore, if I died maybe I would have met her, and we will live happily in heaven, not even my dad cared about me, he abandoned me alone with little money saying I'm worthless…" she started chuckling with tears hanging in the corner of her eyes, it was all ridicules that it was worth laughing at, she was going crazy "would it matter at all! My existence is just nothing in this world! Who would want a crybaby like me, who didn't stop sobbing after her lover forgot her?!" she shouted really loud startling even Natsu.
His hands moved on its own as he wrapped it around her, hovering his body around her, he pushed her so close to him, he held her so tight not say one word. She was so shocked but she slowly sunk in his embrace, in his warmth.
"I'm sure if I haven't forget my memories, I would be here kissing you" he whispered in her ear and she blushed, "but that doesn't mean you can kill yourself that easily, you have a lot of friends who consider more than family for you… even I don't have family you know" he said with the last part really sorrowfully.
"even if I left you, you have to move on, who knows what will happen in the future?" he said as he let go of her and stood up, "our family will come soon, Luce" he smiled for the first time since that accident at her as he walked out. Lucy was surprised and shocked at the same time, not just he smiled at her, he called her like the old times, 'Luce'.
Suddenly a smile showed on her face despite the tears that were running.
Sure her friends came not long after he left, they were so happy to see her in good mood, and so sad at the same time to see her bandaged wrists.
"Okay, I have news for you" the doctor came walking as he got their attention, he start to talk again, they felt worry and fear, because every time the doctor say that it would be bad news.
"I will give you an idea to help your friend walk again," he said and all smiled brightly.
"Doctor, does it mean that she can walk again?" Cana asked excitedly, "Depends on how the training would go" he smiled, "Yosh! We can do it!" Gray, Gajeel, Juvia and Levy cheered.
"But, she can't run on it, not at all, it would be just so she can walk. I don't know where she got that injury but she damaged important nerves."
The mood seemed to go gloomy a little.
"Don't worry minna," Erza looked at them raising a fist, "We have to believe in her! She can do it!" she said loudly and all started cheering. "She is out best friend after all!"
They seemed to have a party of happiness in the corridor of the hospital, the doctor smiled at them softly.
"It is rare to have friends like those, this time" he murmured as he walked away after telling them what to do.
"Can't wait for this!" Levy said happily, "yeah" Jellal and Cana replied. "Yosh! Train starts tomorrow!" they all said loudly.
Natsu was looking at them from afar; he wondered how Lucy had got that close to his friends and him, weird… they seem to love her so much… did he love her like that before?
End chapter 4! Wish you liked it! Please tell me what you think, because I really love your kind reviews! ^o^ the next chapter would be a cheerful one and happy can't wait to write it down!
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