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CHAPTER 4 – Changes Begin
Since Matt revealed his news about being gay, he and Tai had gone on as normal. It had been a couple of days since Matt shared his news and everyone put their focus back into classes. However, now it was Friday and everyone except Tai found themselves done with classes for the week. Tai, who registered for classes later than he should have, was stuck with a Friday afternoon class. A meeting between Gwen, Sora, Izzy, and Matt was planned in Sora and Gwen's dorm room. The two girls and Izzy sat in the room and waited for Matt.
"Where is Matt? I'm getting bored." Gwen said agitated.
"I don't know but I have fifty-seven new emails from my various international pen pals. This is prodigious."
"You're one strange kid Izzy."
"Cool it you guys. Matt should be here any second." Sora looked at her watch just as the door opened and Matt entered.
"Hey everyone. Sorry I'm late. Let's figure out this Tai thing."
"Okay Matt, let's brainstorm." Sora pulled out a notepad and pencil and looked back at Matt.
"Geese Sora- you're getting as bad as Izzy."
"Hey! I'm right here you know. I know I am buried in my laptop right now but still."
"Sorry Izzy. Okay – any ideas?"
Sora cleared her throat to get everyone's attention to her. She pushed some of her red hair out of her eyes and looked around at everyone to ensure their focus. "Okay. Let's review what our goals are." Matt sat down next to Sora on her bed. "Matt revealed to Tai that he is gay on Tuesday. It is Friday now so some time has passed since the news broke. Tai has seemed perfectly fine with the idea of Matt being gay. Matt has also shared with us that he has had feelings for Tai for years and he thinks that Tai should be made aware of them."
"Yes Sora, we all already know this. Let's move forward. We need to make a plan for me to express my feelings for Tai."
"You're right Matt. I promise we will. Are you sure you want to do this?"
"I'm positive. It's more than just feelings. I think I might actually be in love for the first time in my life."
Sora's eyes glazed over a little. She knew that Matt was gay but she couldn't help but feeling bitter knowing that Matt loved Tai in a different way that he had loved her. She knew he loved her as a friend and he thought she would make a great girlfriend to another guy but she still held resentment. Matt and Tai were two of her closest friends though and she was determined to make them happy. She had to pull herself together. After taking a moment, she regained her composure. "Well if you are sure, then let's do this. I don't know whether or not you should just come out with your feelings or allude to them by dropping hints. Tai isn't the sharpest Crayon in the bunch. He might not get the hints."
"That's a good argument. I'm not sure if I should-" Matt was interrupted by a knock at the door. Gwen, who wasn't doing anything but reading over Izzy's shoulder, stood up and answered the door. It was Veronica, a girl who lived down the hall from them.
"Hi, sorry to bother you but my roommate and I are having wireless internet problems and I wondered if you could help us."
"Well, I guess I can try. My friend Izzy here is a computer expert though. I bet he is a lot more helpful than I could be. Come on Izzy." She walked over to Izzy and dragged him out the door with her and shut the door behind them all. Matt and Sora could hear Izzy yelling that he didn't finish his email as he moved down the hallway. Matt started to continue but Sora cut him off.
"Matt?"
"Yes Sora?"
"I feel like I am trying to be the most supportive I can be but it still hurts to know that we can never be together again. I know how you must feel about Tai. He is your real first love. But the thing is – you were mine. I really did fall for you back in high school. We dated for a long time and I never knew you were gay. I thought you were just a gentleman when you never pushed me farther than I wanted to go sexually. I thought you were unbelievable the way you didn't get jealous when I talked to guys from the tennis team. You were amazing to me and I never dated anyone else that made me feel as special as you made me feel."
"I'm sorry you feel bad Sora." Matt put his arm around his friend. "I loved you as much as I could. I couldn't be in love with you though. I honestly tried my hardest to. You are a beautiful and intelligent woman and I'm sure you will find somebody to make you feel like you are a queen. Once we figure out this Tai situation, I promise I will find somebody for you."
Sora smiled and her eyes became teary. She gave Matt a hug and looked into his blue eyes. "Thank you Matt. If you do get Tai, I hope he treats you right or I will kick his ass." They both broke out into laughter. "I mean it. You can quote me."
"I wouldn't doubt you could Sora. You still have those arm muscles from tennis."
"You know I do!" Sora flexed her arm like a body builder and they continued to laugh. Sora felt better about losing the possibility of dating Matt again. For the first time, she was truly happy to fix him up with someone who wasn't her. The two just stared at each other with unspoken respect and love for one another.
Meanwhile, Veronica took Gwen and Izzy down the hallway to her dorm.
"Gwen! I didn't finish my email and you are dragging me away from it!"
"Calm down Izzy. Don't you want to fix these nice girls' wireless problems?"
They stopped at a door that had the names "Veronica and Clair" on the outside. Veronica turned and looked at Izzy. She made her lips pouty and batted her long eyelashes at him. Then she flipped back her light brown hair and stared into his eyes. "Please Izzy. You are probably our only hope."
"Okay…..fine!"
She smiled and opened the door. The three of them walked into the dorm room. Veronica and Gwen walked towards the wireless router while Izzy stopped and stared at the girl sitting on her bed and typing on her laptop. She had sandy blonde hair and green eyes almost hidden behind glasses. She had freckles all over her face and her hair in a ponytail. She looked up from her laptop and Izzy's heart stopped. They were both frozen as they made eye contact. Veronica and Gwen fiddled with the router. Gwen was becoming increasingly frustrated with her lack of knowledge on electronics. "Um…Izzy? Izzy? Izzy!"
Izzy jumped a couple of inches in the air at the sound of Gwen screaming his name. "What?"
"A little help maybe?"
"Oh, sure." He walked over to Gwen and Veronica and pressed a couple of buttons on the router and everything lit up green. "There you go. You should be able to get onto the internet again."
Veronica stood up and looked at her roommate who was already on the computer. "Hey Clair? Would you mind seeing if we have internet now?"
"Sure thing V." The blonde girl confirmed that they could now access the internet again. Izzy walked over to her.
"I believe I never properly introduced myself. My name is Izzy Izumi." He held out his hand toward her. She shook it and looked up at him.
"My name is Clair. I'm Veronica's roommate." She smiled widely and he smiled back. Gwen and Veronica muffled their giggles at the obvious connection between the two.
"So…..uh…Clair…..What are you typing?"
"I'm typing a paper for my psychology class." Her face became red and she quickly looked down and back at Izzy. "Actually, I could use a break. Would you like to take a walk with me? That is, of course, if you aren't too busy."
"I'm not busy!" Izzy blurted out instantaneously. Gwen and Veronica continued to giggle. "I'm not busy at all. I would love to take a walk with you."
"Hey Izzy, don't you have an email to finish?"
"Why no I don't, Gwen." Clair shut her laptop and stood up. Her and Izzy were both so shy and awkward that they could barely look at each other. They both knew that the awkward factor would go down once they left the room so they quickly hurried out leaving Veronica and Gwen to make jokes about the new couple.
Sora and Matt had been quietly staring at each other for a few minutes. Matt wanted to continue to plan out how he would make Tai aware of his feelings but knew Sora needed a few minutes to collect herself. It was obvious she was still a little hung up on him. Despite tradition rocker ways, he treated her like a gentleman when they dated and never cheated on her with his fangirls. He knew he broke her heart when he ended things but he had to end the relationship before she got too attached. Now he knew that he should have ended it even earlier than he did. Their moment of silence was interrupted by Gwen re-entering the room.
"Oh my god you guys! Izzy has found love."
They both looked up at her with confused expressions. "What?"
"Veronica's roommate, Clair was in their room and her and Izzy found love at first sight. It was obvious. He was so nervous around her and she actually broke free of her shyness long enough to ask him to take a walk with her. Can you imagine them walking around campus with all of the leaves changing colors and falling of the trees? How romantic is that? They would make an adorable couple. I hope they hit it off on their walk. They are both so shy and awkward so I hope they find conversation. Anyways, what did I miss?"
Matt answered her first. "Oh…nothing. We haven't come up with anything. We were just talking amongst ourselves waiting for you two to return." Her looked at Sora who looked back graciously. She was happy Matt didn't share her internal struggle with Gwen. She felt ridiculous for still being slightly in love with her ex-boyfriend who was gay. At least now she felt willing to let him go. "Okay. Tai is completely fine with his best friend being gay. He hasn't treated me any different. I just don't know how he will react to my love. I just don't know." Matt's confidence was almost bipolar. One minute he wanted to just run up to Tai and kiss him and the other he wanted to hide under a rock. Matt's mental conflict was interrupted by the always random Gwen who was looking at Izzy's abandoned laptop.
"Oh my god you guys. Izzy has so many hentai sites in his online browsing history it is not even funny."
Tai walked out of his last class of the day. "Finally! No more classes this week. Now I can go lie down and relax. I wonder if Matt is in the dorm. Wow, I still can't believe you can know somebody for so many years and they keep a secret this big from you- especially when they are your best friend. I wonder if he has ever had sex with a guy. Matt doesn't strike me as promiscuous though. Wow – big word Tai. College must be paying off. I wonder what type of guy he is into. Why do I care so much? It's so weird. All I have been able to think about is Matt dating guys. They are going to have to pass my inspection first. Matt is awesome and I am not going to stand for him dating just any Joe Schmo. Wasn't there a television show called The Joe Schmo Show? Focus Tai! You were thinking about Matt. Why is my mind so random? I must have been hit in the head with a soccer ball one too many times. Yeah, that has to be it." Tai's train of thought was interrupted by the sight of Izzy holding hands with some blonde girl in glasses and walking with her. Tai stopped and watched them from a distance as they peacefully strolled the campus. Tai continued to walk again. "Wow! Izzy is finally with someone. I miss everything when I am in class. Maybe I should stop going to it. My parents might not like when I get incomplete grades on my transcripts though. Anyways, back to Matt. I have to approve his possible suitors because they may not be worthy of him. Worthy? What is he, a prince? Matt – a prince? Oh please. More like a princess. His tough, sarcastic thing he has going on is just an act. I know him better than anyone and he is the most sensitive person on the planet. He can be so feminine. He acts more like a girl than a guy sometimes. It's kind of precious. Wait? Did I just say Matt was precious? Oh shit! What is wrong with me?" Tai looked around nervously but nobody was listening to him. "Maybe I should think in my head instead of out loud if I am going to say things like that." Tai continued to walk to his dorm but then decided to go hang out with some of the guys on the soccer team to avoid Matt. He needed to get Matt off his mind for the time being.
Matt continued to roll around in bed trying to get to sleep. He looked at the clock. It was 12:15 AM. "In bed before ten o'clock on a Friday night? Your life sure is exciting Matt. Am I talking to myself? Great – I'm getting as bad as Tai. Where is Tai anyway? He hasn't come back yet." Tai loved to sleep and Matt wondered why he hadn't even been to the dorm all afternoon. Just as Matt began to question things, Tai entered the room quietly so he would not disturb Matt. "Tai – you're getting back kind of late tonight."
"It's a Friday night. There is no class tomorrow morning. Calm down mom."
Matt smirked in the dark room. "I told you Tai- I'm not your mom."
"Yeah, yeah. I know Matt." Tai took off his shirt. Even in the dark, Matt could see Tai's athletic body. Tai had a very toned stomach and chest as well as strong-looking arms. Matt knew he shouldn't be staring at his friend, especially since Tai was aware that Matt was gay now. Matt couldn't help it though. Tai's manly body just sent him into a fantasy world. He made sure that his newly-erect penis was well hidden under the sheets. His face turned red at the thought of Tai seeing that he was turned on. Tai was in his own little world though as he took off his shoes, socks, and jeans. Now he just stood in his boxers. Matt's eyes went to Tai's muscular legs he got from playing so much soccer. Matt felt himself grow harder but tried to maintain himself from jumping into Tai's bed. Tai then looked over to Matt who quickly closed his eyes as if he drifted into sleep while Tai was undressing. Tai smiled. He knew Matt watched him undress. He found it kind of humorous that Matt enjoyed Tai doing this everyday activity. Tai climbed into bed and covered himself up with his sheets. Tai thought to himself. "Well, I guess Matt has a thing for jocks. At least I know his type now. I may as well not harass him for watching me. Can I blame him? The best part about constant soccer practice is the result it has on your body. I can't blame him for looking. Oh my god – I'm doing it again. Why do I care about Matt's taste in men? Most guys would beat him up if they saw him checking them out yet I feel the opposite way. I like that Matt finds me attractive. It's not like I find him attractive or anything, right? I'm straight. Right? Yeah. I definitely am. I always have been and always will be. But if I did have to date a boy it would have to be a boy like Matt. Tai! Why are you thinking about dating boys? Get a hold of yourself! And why do you enjoy that Matt finds you attractive? I guess I'm just tired. I should sleep. At least I can finally think in my head instead of out loud."
Matt laid in bed in the dark. He knew Tai must have seen him watching him undress. Matt's face was crimson with embarrassment. He hoped Tai wouldn't be mad or uncomfortable. He had see Tai in boxers before. They had shared the same bed a countless number of times during sleepovers as kids and teenagers. Matt had even cuddled up against Tai while pretending to be asleep. Thinking of Tai calmed Matt down so continued to think about his crush. Matt just visualized him and Tai laying in bed next to each other looking into each others' eyes. He thought about Tai's chocolaty-brown eyes looking into his blue eyes and Tai moving some of Matt's long blonde hair out of the way so he could get a better view. He smiled as his mind drifted into slumber. He looked over at Tai and blew him a kiss.
TO BE CONTINUED…