Chapter 3 – The Frozen Fire

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I sat in my room for a couple of hours after, pondering what had just gone down. Hans was going to stay in the palace. I had imagined him living here from the moment we met, but… I had different intentions as to how to act around him. How will I bear living under the same roof with a man who had ripped my heart into shreds, and then stomped on the pieces? WHY DID I ACCEPT HIS OFFER?!

I had to consistently remind myself that I was doing this for the people I loved. For Olaf. For Elsa. For Kristoff. Do I even love Kristoff? As a friend? Definitely. Romantically? I'm not even sure I know what love is.

After a while I decided it was time to start practicing my powers, to keep them under control and everything.

I started with a candle. I concentrated hard, and, unsuccessfully, ended up setting fire to my curtains. I had to douse them quickly with the water from my flower vase. I continued to try until I lit the candle correctly. It only took… oh…. Thirty tries.

After an hour had passed I went to look for Elsa, it was about ten o'clock in the evening, and I was almost certain I had hurt her feelings by not celebrating with her. I walked towards her room, but was stopped in the middle of the hallway by Kristoff.

"You probably don't want to do that" he said.

"Do what?"

"See Elsa. She's angry. Doesn't understand why you want Hans to stay here." He looked hurt, and I finally understood.

I couldn't tell Kristoff what had happened. If one person knows, the chain starts, and pretty soon the entire city will know.

"Oh… well he came and apologized…. And I… I…." I tried to think of words, but came up short.

"Save it Anna" he snapped. "I never took you for one who'd forgive so easily. Especially a guy who almost got you killed! Not to mention Elsa… I'm surprised at you Anna! I thought you were more than the girls that I've ever met before. I guess I was wrong. You care only about yourself. I bet you think the world revolves around you. Have you ever thought that maybe someone actually cared?"

I feel the color rising in my cheeks. I try, but am unsuccessful in stopping the next words that slip out of my mouth.

"Don't YOU understand?! I can't just NOT give him another chance! I was in love with him Kristoff, I-"

His voice rises to a shout as he cuts me off "PLEASE! Just SHUT UP! You're so… so BLIND!"

My voice lowers to a whisper "Please Kristoff, understand-"

"I can't understand. I'm sorry. Please- Just leave me alone." He walks away quickly.

I suddenly don't really feel like seeing Elsa anymore. I walk back to my room slowly, in a depressed daze.

I sit on my bed and think about how he said that I only care about myself.

If only he knew.